Chapter Fifteen
I went straight to the garage where I knew my Dad would be and atleast some of the wolf pack too. When I got there I saw Shila and Collin working on an old Chevy and my Dad in the office chatting with Embry. He must have heard me come in because he looked up through the window and frowned when he saw my face. He came down to the forecourt followed by Embry I wanted to break down and just cry on my knees in the dirt. "Riddoc what happened?" Dad asked me his tone serious
"I hurt her" I murmur my throat so thick I can barley speak
"Hurt who Adrian? What do you mean you hurt her?" Dad asks
"It's pretty obvious Jake he reeks of blood and sex" Collin says from the nearby Chevy spinning a wrench in his hand twice "What the hell did you do Duck?" My vision clouds and I see red, I feel the familiar tremor then I phase.
"Oh shit" I hear Embry say, I lunge at Collin and he barley has time to phase before I'm on him
"Outside!" Dad Bellows it's a command I have no choice and neither does Collin. We tumble outside and I go for him again, Collin's smaller then me and he tries to defend himself but it's no use, I'm stronger and faster. He's in a heap on the ground before a red wolf and a sandy wolf pull me off of him.
Jake: Riddoc! Stand down now!
I snarl at my Alpha and he stands up straighter, I'm an Alpha too I have every right to Challenge him, weather he's my father or not and that's exactly what my wolf is trying to do. I don't want this fight I'm just upset and angry and I hope my Dad can see that. In all honesty I don't know who would win in a fight between the two of us and I hope I never find out.
Jake: me too son, now stand down
This time I obey I collapse onto my belly and whimper before lifting my head and letting out a pained howl.
An hour later almost the entire pack is at the garage. Anyone who phases and attempts to glimpse into my mind gets there ass handed to them much in the same way Collin did earlier, in fact the only person I've let near me all day is my Dad. They gathered at the back door watching me and discussing how best to handle me as if I couldn't hear them, idiots. "I swung by the Surf shack like you asked Jake, she seems fine" Shila says
"Yeah I mean his scent was all over her but she was in one piece" Miles adds
"Maybe he meant mentally, maybe they argued?" Shila suggests
"Shila's got a point Jake, maybe he didn't mean physically. What if she broke up with him, she is his imprint something like that could easily put him in the sorry state he's in now" Embry says
"No I could feel it he meant physically, that's why he's so distraught. Hurting your imprint physically is much more emotionally painfully than some harsh words" Dad tells them.
"Can we just cut the crap. Jake you're Alpha just make him tell you already" Miles says
"He's much stronger in the mind than I. I can't make him show me you all see what happens when I try, it sets his wolf off and makes it want to challenge mine it's the natural way Father and Son or not. He is stronger, younger and faster and ultimately the better Alpha he lets me take command because I'm his father. So how about you show a little respect to my son, your true Alpha" Dad tells him in his own Alpha tone. He always reminds me of the Dad from the Lion King when he does that, his voice is so powerful and wise. I hope if I ever do become Alpha I'm a good one like him.
Everyone has a shot at getting me to phase back but I won't listen they're smart enough to only approach me in human form but when they do I just turn away from them. I don't want to talk, I hate myself for what I've done to Adrian. I know that it could have been so much worse, I could have hurt her so much more than I had, I could have lost control completely, hell I could have gone wolf on her, I could have killed her. I was so selfish she could have been killed all because I wanted to get off, and if she knew what I had subjected her to she'd hate me too.
"Right that's it where is he?" I hear a familiar voice. Auntie Leah comes storming out of the back door to the garage closely followed by my Mom and and my sister. "Riddoc William Carlisle Black! What the hell do you think you are doing" Leah asks, she's pissed, she middle named me, both of my middle names.
She scowls at me with her hands on her hips and I roll over so I'm facing the other way. "Hey! I'm talking to you, so help me do not make me phase, I haven't phased for three months if that changes because of you I will kick your ass" she yells I snort knowing if any ass kicking was gonna take place I would be the one doing it. She walks around to my head and smacks me hard on the nose and I growl.
"Leah honey?" Embry calls nervously from the back door
"I can handle him Bry" she tells him and smacks me on the nose again. This vicious cycle goes on for a couple of minuets and in the end I phase back purely so I can tell her where to get off.
"Fuck off Leah!" I shout and walk towards the garage where Shila chucks me a pair of brown sweats.
"That's more like it, now everyone clear out of here Duck and I need to talk" she tells everyone and they all head inside. I faintly hear the radio get turned up as a loud as it will go from inside the garage so nobody will hear our conversation, I silently thank whoever that was. "Ok now start talking?"
"Leah you couldn't possibly understand, you're not imprinted" I tell her
"Maybe not but I know what it's like to be in love I know what it's like to have someone you'd do absolutely anything for" she says
"I hurt my imprint, physically hurt her. We slept together for the first time last night, I knew it would be intense and different because she's my soul mate the others had already prepared me for that but I... I struggled to keep my wolf in and it was so close to the surface that I... I hurt her Lee" I heave out
"When you're with someone you love that much it can be hard to control the wolf it's normal" she tries
"No bruising her skin and making her draw blood is not normal" I snap through clenched teeth
"Duck stop it, stop beating yourself up over this, didn't you hear the guys they went to see her at the surf shack and she's fine. You should go to her, if you really think you've hurt her that much you need to go apologise not mope around here" she tells me and she's right. It was just that this morning when I saw the bruises fully formed I couldn't bare waiting around for Adrian's reaction I knew how angry she'd be that I marked her skin, that I'd defaced her. I couldn't lay there just for her to wake up and tell me to get out anyway.
But Leah was right no matter how much Adrian would hate me no matter how sorry for myself I was feeling right now I owed her an apology. I was gonna need flowers.
Half an hour later I was pressing the buzzer for Adrian's apartment. She answered it and to my surprise when she found out it was me she buzzed me in without so much as a hesitation. She opened the door to me with a huge smile on her face another surprise and practically beamed when she saw the flowers. "Are they for me?" she gasps and I nod "Riddoc they're so pretty" she says taking them gratefully and leading the way into the kitchen.
I decide now is as good of a time as any to start my apology but just as I open my mouth she cuts me off. "I was worried when I woke up and you were gone you know, was it because of last night? Did I do something wrong?" she asks "I knew it" she sighs before she even lets me answer "I knew the lingerie and the candles were too much, I shouldn't have initiated it it made you feel emasculated didn't it?" she says.
"What no, last night was perfect you were perfect it was me who was... I'm so sorry I'm so ashamed?" I tell her hanging me head
"Ashamed? Of us? Of what we did?" she asks
"No God no... I, Adrian I hurt you" I say she looks at me for a second then rolls her eyes
"Riddoc we went through this last night it was just a little blood, I refuse to believe with your... size that that was a first"
"No but it's never happened to a girl I was in love with before, I can't bear to hurt you" I whisper. She sighs and shakes her head, she pushes past me and walks into the the guest bedroom where her guitars and music are and comes back holding a CD. She holds it out to me and I read the title 'Third rib and up' I glance at her confused.
"Go and listen to that album, and after listening to my music and really hearing the lyrics come back and tell me I don't like it rough, I don't like everything you did to me last night and that I don't love the fact that the brief pain is a sweet little reminder of where you've been every time I sit down today" she says and I blank for a second. She had a point most of Adrian's music was about sex, rough sex in particular.
"But the bruises" I murmur
"Don't even hurt and when I noticed them in the shower this morning I couldn't stop myself from grinning like a complete moron and haven't been able to at any point today" she tells me and after considering this for a second I start to smile.
She sighs and moves to wrap her arms around my neck "Are we ok?" she asks, looking a little worried
"We're great" I say then press my lips to hers. She pulls back and smirks. "What?" I ask.
"Nothing just if you think last night was out there... you're kind of a prude" she laughs and my jaw falls open.
"I am not a prude!" I protest and she giggles "I'll show you" I tell her then put her over my shoulder.