Chapter 4
At the folly, Jen and Tilly are sat side by side on the bench. Jen takes a deep breath.
"Tilly, I want…. I mean need you to understand why I did what I did" Jen goes to take Tillys hand in hers.
"Get your hands off me!... you don't have right to touch me anymore!" Tilly said angrily, snatching her hand away.
Tilly couldn't understand why she was reacting like this, she wanted nothing more than to take Jens face in her hands and kiss her passionately. She wanted Jen to take away all the pain and the hurt, sooth her hidden scars. Tilly remembered Jens smile, just one smile from Jen would make things seem 10 times better, it would get her through the day.
"Tilly, I was scared, when you came and told me that you wanted to go to Keeler and tell him everything I thought you meant everything, you were right I was a coward and my actions were callous" Jen took a deep breath and knelt down In front of Tilly "I never wanted to lose you Tilly, I didn't know what to do I panicked did the first thing that popped into my head, If id have thought for one second that Keller was going to expel you I'd never have….."
Tilly interrupts again, standing up "What? you'd have never have done it , what did you think was going to happen Jen, did you think me and Keeler were going to discuss what I said to in the emails, text messages and phone calls over a cup of tea, did you think he was going to laugh about it think that it was funny?" Jen looks away "Huh! Didn't think so! Do you even care that you have ruined my life?"
"Of course I care" Jen snaps back, "do you really think that I would have risked everything for you if I didn't care, I know I've hurt you but I can't turn back the clock Tilly what's done is done. The hurt that you are feeling, I feel it too, it's like 3000 bricks have come smashing down on my soul, like a razorblade is cutting at my heart" Jen walks closer to Tilly, who is now playing with her fingers. "I am beyond the point of hurt Jen!" Tilly says softly, with no attitude in her voice. This shocked Jen, maybe this is it she thought to herself, maybe this is my chance to try and get my gorgeous Matilda back, do I risk it do I go in for the kiss. Look at her lips, so tender so plump, I can only imagine how nice they would feel on mine right now, how much im wanting to taste her, touch her, snap out of it Jen. No go for it what's the worst that can happen, you will be no worse off than before. That was it, her need was too stronger, the urge to pounce at teen took over and within a matter of seconds Jen smashed her lips on to Tillys. Jen waited for a couple of seconds to see if Tilly would respond to Jens touch but just as she went to pull away Tilly pulled her back in, wrapping her arm around Jens waist, pulling her tongue into her mouth. The need to touch each other was too much, their emotions were strong, they were kissing like they had never done before. But then Tilly pulled away, much to Jens disappointment. "Im sorry, I can't do this, im not ready" Tilly stated as she started to walk away. Jen watched as Tilly made her way up the steps "Oh no Miss Evans! I'm not letting you walk away this time!" Jen whispered to herself as she chased Tilly up the steps.