Super short update I am so sorry. Things have been...rough.
Dear Jasper,
I miss you. This is the fourth letter I've written to you in the past two days. It's been weeks since we've heard anything about you and I'm scared. I don't want our baby to grow up without its Daddy. I love you so much. Every moment I don't hear from you a little piece of my heart breaks and I die inside. There is so much I wish I had told you. So many kisses that I wish we had shared.
Remember the night you proposed to me? You were shaking you were so scared. I thought you were going to have a heart attack. Was it scarier actually proposing to me or asking my Dad for permission? He loves you like the son he never had you know. He can't ever lose out on a chance to show people pictures of his son-in-law the Marine. He keeps a picture of you in his wallet. That hat you brought him two Thanksgivings ago is his favorite possession. Not that he would ever tell you.
Mom and Phil came by about a week ago. She wants me to move in with them so she can keep an eye on me. But I can't leave this house. This is OUR home. And I will be waiting for you to come back to me no matter how long it takes. I know that you are coming back. You left too much at home not to.
Last night I was in bed cuddling with the teddy bear you won me at the county fair. It's not you but I can't help but keep something close to me that reminds me of you. Our baby is growing so fast and is so strong. I can't wait to hold our baby together and spoil it.
I love you. I love you so much. Please come home to me. I can't imagine a future without you in it.
Yours forever,
Bella