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She tried to put all her emotions into her eyes. "Mum, if you don't and he dies I'm going to blame you and I will never speak to you again." This was more effective. She could see her mother's resistance fade. "Mum!" With that Jackie handed her the key and once more Rose sprinted to the not just wodden door. She pulled it open and almost ran into the Doctor who still hadn't moved from the spot. He turned as he noticed the movement behind him.

"Rose..." he said as he realized what had happened.

"Oh, lovely, you must be the wife." The Master said but the Doctor ignored his words.

"What are you doing outside the TARDIS?" he asked.

"I had to tell you... I still love you..." she was interrupted by a surprised Master.

"Still?!" he exclaimed pretending to be worried but ignored him

"I can't... think of you dying just because I couldn't forgive you... I want more. A week of marriage... that's not enough. I want eternity. My whole life with you." he beamed at her words. She wanted to be with him... but she still didn't say she'd forgive him.

"What should she forgive you for, Doctor? You failed to make her better, too?" He turned to the Master his eyes full of hate.

"Don't you dare bring her into this. You are exactly the kind of people I want to protect the universe from! You are just like the rest of our kind! You seek for power; you want to be a god. You soil the once so shining name of Gallifrey." His voice grew louder with every word. Rose grabbed his hand. He looked at her. Her eyes were soft.

"He's a time lord." She said. "You're not alone!" Her thumb stroke the back of his hand. He smiled.

"He may be a time lord but he's not like me... he doesn't want to help the universe, he wants to rule it. We were not meant to do that. We were meant to wach it and we were meant to watch it with wisdom; that's why we are allowed to live this long, to know the horrors and the beauty of the universe, to know that we have to let some pain exist, to know how to keep the universe in its natural balance and how to eradicate those who'd threaten that balance. And if we would threaten that balance, noone could stop us." He smiled as he saw that she understood and turned his heat to look t the Master. "Noone except our own kind." He let go off her hand and stepped closer to the Master.

"Now tell me. Where is Martha?" He asked. The Master grinned.

"Why should I tell you?"

"Because if you don't I will not only keep you from bringing Gallifrey back but also make your life become hell." the Doctor's voice sent a shiver down Rose's spine. Everything inside her screamed to run from him. He sounded threatening and furious but he didn't raise his voice what just made it scarier. She was amazed by what kind of measures he took just to figure out the whereabouts of his friend and she asked herself what he looked like when he tried to get to her. She asked herself if he was more desperate or if he raised his voice.

"How could my life possibly become worse?" The Master asked "I'm alone. You know how bad that feels." The Doctor said something in a language she didn't understand and figured it was Gallifreyan. The Master answered in the same language but his voice sounded scared and she wanted to know what could be so bad that it made this Time Lord shiver by only mentioning it.

The Doctor smiled and opened a door left to them, leading to a small cupboard. The Doctor freed Martha whose hand's had been tied up behind her back.

"Rose!" Martha said as she spotted the blonde girl. Rose smiled. The Doctor had returned to her side facing the Master and again spoke to him in Gallifreyan then he handed him a watch. Rose and Martha recognized it at once. It looked just like the one the Doctor had used to make himself human as they were chased by the family of blood. She buried her face in the Doctor's shoulder as the Master captured his Time Lord mind in the small watch. She remembered the look of pain on the Doctor's face when he turned himself human and she remembered the urge to hold him until this look went away.

She felt his arm around her shoulders and his lips on her hair. It's over he said opening their bond again.

I love you she answered I'm sorry you didn't know how much. He lifted her chin until she looked at him.

"I always knew." he said and kissed her. His lips slow and careful just like when he kissed her for the first time. This time the kiss stayed careful due to Martha in the room. As they parted he turned to her.

"I'm sorry I was too late." He said. Martha shook her head.

"I'm fine. I had worse days." They laughed.

"Say hello to Mickey." He said and then dragged Rose back into the TARDIS. As soon as the doors closed he kissed her again, his arms finding their way around her waist pulling her closer to him. His tongue ran along her bottom lip.

"Is anybody gonna bring me home or do I have to walk?" Jackie asked. The Doctor had totally forgotten about her. He let go off Rose and smiled walking over to the control panel, pulling levers and pressing buttons. He flew the TARDIS back to the Powell Estate and they said goodbye to Jackie. He closed the door and pinned Rose between his chest and the white wood. His ellbows on each side of her head.

"Are you sure?" he asked. She smiled.

"For better or for worse." she said and kissed him briefly.

"But you still don't forgive me." He said, his eyes getting slightly darker.

"Doctor..." she started. He lowered his eyes. "I will some day. I just have to grief. One of her hands wandered down to her completly flat stomach and some day when I've griefed enough, I'll forgive you but until that day I'll just love you. Don't doubt that. I always love you-" his lips on hers stopped her in mid-sentence. He couldn't hold back any longer. That's enough for me. He said in her mind and arched his hips into her. Her arms found their way around his neck and she wrapped her legs around his hips. His hands moved from the door down to her hips, steadying her against him as he arched into her again.

"Bedroom." she whispered between wet kisses as she felt how hard he was against her. His hearts began to flutter. He had waited so long to touch her like this. A hand ran over her side as he spun them around and walked towards their room, one arm around her waist. He covered the soft skin of her neck with kisses and her eyes fluttered shut, her head tilitng forwards to rest on his shoulder. He opened the door to their bedroom. She breathed his intense scent in. It reminded her of rain on a hot summer's day, a little relief from the sun's heat. But there was something else... a scent she knew but couldn't figure our where from.

Her thaughts were interrupted by his lips on hers. He had pinned her down onto the soft matress his weight caressing her in all the right places but he suddenly pulled back propping himself up on his ellbows, his head resting on the pillow next to her. She disentangled her legs from his waist and turned her head.

"Doctor?" She was confused. She felt his Angst. But why was he scared? He didn't answer. She kissed his cheek.

I'm scared. He thought.

"I know... but why?" She asked. His shoulders were slightly shaking. "Are you crying?" She asked. He didn't answer. "Doctor, tell me, I want to help you." He looked up.

"I don't want to..." his voice broke in mid sentence and he felt her confusion grow.

Tell me she pleaded in his mind.

"I don't want to" he started again. "to..." he avoided her eyes as he spoke further. "sleep with you." He felt how much those little words hurt her and he felt her confusion. "Not like that... you know I love you... you know I would give anything to be inside your perfect body... but I'm scared of..." He stopped.

"You're scared of me getting pregnant again." She completed his sentence.

"How could I not be? I nearly lost you... I can't risk that." He rolled off her and fell onto his back, resting his arm on his face. She sat up.

"Doctor." he didn' react. "Doctor, look at me." He still didn't move his arm. "Do you know why it's so hard for me to forgive you?" She asked. She noticed his arm moving a bit. "Not because you took our child from me... but because you ambushed me. You didn't even try to change my mind. I trusted you. I trusted you to always do the right thing but you know what? It was not right to betray me, to sedate me against my will, to bring me to that hospital and take my child, without me even noticing. That was not right."

"I know." He sat up too. Their faces only inches away from each other. "I know it was not right. I know I should've talked to you... but what if I couldn't change your mind? What if I had to watch you die faster?"

"Faster?" She repeated.

"That's all I do... I watch you die. Every second I'm with you you're a second closer to your death. But you still have decades to live... how could I take them away by letting you give birth to my child and reducing your live to nine months? How could I take those precious years? And how could I live with you volunteering to sacrifice yourself for me not being alone?" He asked. She leaned her forehead against his.

"Why haven't you told me before? About watching me die..." she asked.

"Because it would concern you... and you already worry enough about me."

"I worry because I care. I care about everything you feel, about everything you say, think or do. I want to know everything and I don't care if it'd concern me. I felt how it was to not have you in my mind, I thought you lost for what felt like eternity and I don't want to feel that ever again. I want you to live and I want you to spend your life at my side, holding my hand." One of his hands moved to her face, stroking her smooth cheek. Then he lifted her jaw to kiss her. Greedy hands went over his body beginning to unbutton his suit jacket and shirt. He pulled back again.

"Rose, I..." she saw the chaos in his mind and smiled.

"I know the risk, too, but if I was completly honest I'd have to say that I hope to get pregnant..." His eyes widened. "I want to be a mother." Her eyes watered.

"If you stay with me, you'll never be a mother." He said, banning all emotions from his voice.

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