"Emma, may I speak with you, for a moment?" I heard outside my door. I walked over to the door, opening it to see Carlisle there with his hand behind his back, his typical manner. He smiled at me as I moved away for him to walk in. He walked into the room quietly and stood in the middle, now facing me as I closed the door.

Ever since the incident with the shape shifters, I was afraid to go out and hunt again. The mere thought of a shapeshifter coming after me scared me, though I was reassured by Carlisle that the incident was rare and that it would never happen again. I still didn't like it. However Sam volunteered to hunt with me, and from what he did for me with the shapeshifter, I wouldn't want it any other way or with any other person.

"Christmas is upon us, and Esme and I had a bit of discussion on what to do Christmas Eve." Carlisle said aloud to me as I went to go sit down at the couch. I didn't realize that it was christmas, which had me think about Wendy more and her whereabouts.

"Rosalie and Emmett are going to go on their own separate vacation for the holidays, which leaves only five of us here at the home. Both Esme and I decided to take the five of us on an outing." Carlisle explained to me and I nodded my head.

"We are going to see The Nutcracker in San Francisco." He said in a small smile, having me smile widely in return. I never saw a play before, especially one that was of ballet. I've heard from Wendy that it's heavenly to watch, seeing the dancers move in almost the same way as we do, and the music makes it even more appealing to witness.

"I hope you want to join us for this." Carlisle said to me in a light tone, as if I was going to refuse. How could I? It was such a wonderful offer to go with them and see humans perform in a beautiful manner.

"Of course, thank you Carlisle." I thanked him seeing a small smile appear on his face.

"We're going to leave for the city early tomorrow morning and hopefully get there by nightfall and by the time the play starts." Carlisle explained to me as he opened the door. I nodded my head, still being thrilled about going to see the Nutcracker with the Cullens, like I was in fact a part of their family. It did feel like it, getting to know each member fairly well. Carlisle was about to leave the room when he stuck his head back in.

"By the way, Sam is coming too." I smiled from the thought of Sam accompanying us as Carlisle chuckled, closing the door behind him. I had a lot to think about for this Christmas.

"We need dresses." Esme said aloud to me as we were in our hotel room for the night. We got into a nice 5 star hotel in the city, and it was a hour away until we were going to see the ballet. Since it was Christmas Eve, the streets were filled with decorations of red and green, along with tinsel and hollies. We arrived at the hotel right after nightfall and the ballet was at 9 that night.

"Let me make a quick phone call." Esme said to me, going into the other room of our suite. I smiled and walked over to the window, seeing the humans walking about on the street floor. It set the humble and warm mood of the holidays, along with the lights in the trees and in the stores, also showing some warmth in the atmosphere.

I then saw a couple walking by the hotel, holding hands and being very close side by side. The young girl laughed about something the male said, and the male kissed her on the cheek. That made me jealous, only slightly. They had the freedom to live, to have a long happy life together. Or they might be compatable together and go their separate ways. They had the choice, to live together or not live together. I was in envy of their love, filled with innocence and strength.

"Two dresses are on their way up here as we speak." I heard from the other room as Esme walked over to me, a warm smile on her face as she saw me by the window.

"If only Rosalie was here, she was better with hair and make up than I ever was." Esme said to me as she moved some of her fingers through my hair. I smiled, not really knowing what to do when it came to dressing up.

"To be honest, Esme, I have no experience when it comes to this." I said in a flushed tone, and I saw Esme smiled as she looked at me up and down.

"Not to worry my dear, I can help you." She said to me. Then there was a knock at the door, Esme immediately walking over and opening it. There was two young women at the door, both holding what seemed to be rather large boxes.

"Here you are, your dresses that you ordered."

Oh dear

"You keep fussing like that, you'll ruin your dress." Esme said to me as she looked at me in her emerald green dress. I smiled, looking down at what I was wearing myself. It was a dark blue dress, almost like the night sky. It was strapless, hugging my curves just right, along with some black shoes to go with it. Esme had my hair in loose curls, and then in a perfect bun.

"You look wonderful Esme." I said to her, seeing how her hair was framing her face just right and how her dress looked marvelous on her. She smiled back at me, her smile making her look radiant.

"As you do as well." She said back to me, and if I could blush in this vampire body, I would. We both walked over to the lobby and I saw the three gentleman by the front doors. Carlisle and Edward looked very gentleman like, in their suits that is. But my eyes were on Sam, and my breath was swept in a instant.

He looked handsome, beyond handsome at that. From his tie that was perfectly straight to the buttons on his jacket, he was beyond perfect in my eyes. His hair was swept back and was held there, having me see his entire face now. How wide and yellow his eyes were as they connected with mine when we met up.

"You looked very handsome, Sam." I said to him. Wendy taught me to always compliment a gentleman when I was in his presence, especially if it was a formal affair. He smiled at me, and that smile seemed like it would come from a person who saw something magnificent.

"Emma, you look beautiful." He said to me in a genuine tone. He just called me beautiful, Sam did. Why was that making me smile so widely and feel like a young teenage human girl? It was a odd feeling, in my stomach and going through me in rapid pace, like I was flying.

"Shall we?" I heard Carlisle asked aloud. He took Esme's hand and started to walk about of the hotel, Edward following them closely. Sam held out his hand and I took it gently, feeling a flicker in my stomach as we walked out of the hotel to the ballet.

If I feel this for Sam now, then what's for the future for the both of us.

The ballet was beyond wonderful for me to see. Carlisle and Esme provided box seats for our entire family, and the view was perfect to see the ballet. Also it was next to the nearest exit, in case of anything were to happen. The music is what made the ballet ten times better, and I felt like a young child being read a new story for the first time. The movement of the dancers was so graceful and fluid, for a mere moment I thought they could fly.

I sat next to Sam, and he was just as enthralled with the ballet as I was. I do recall at a certain part of the ballet, were the young girl and the Prince meet for the first time and they started to dance together. The way they moved together, it was as if they were meant to be together, to be as one. I felt as thought I wanted what they had, like the young couple I saw earlier that night on the street, holding hands and laughing together. I craved that kind of love in my life.

"Emma." Sam's soothing voice filled my ears as I looked over at him. He was staring at me with curiosity in his eyes. He looked concerned for me, as the music of the ballet filled the entire theater.

"Are you alright?" He asked me in wonder, and how could I lie to him and tell him I was fine?

"I was thinking of Wendy, on how she would love to see this." I said to him, and it was true. Wendy would love this, since she was very into the arts and music. It pained me, not knowing where she is and if she was even alive. I shouldn't be thinking of something like that, I knew that she was strong, she knew how to handle herself, and she knew how to survive.

I felt Sam's hand grasp mine as I was drifting into my own world. I looked at our joined hands, seeing how he was grasping me tightly. I grasped him back, looking up at him and seeing him stare at me, warmth in his yellow almond shaped eyes and comfort in his touch. It was the kind of comfort I saw in others, but never had for myself. I love this comfort he was giving me, it was soothing me from the inside out.

I don't know if it was the music that was driving the emotions in me, or the fact that Sam's eyes were making me feel this way, but I wanted to kiss him. It was wrong for a woman to want that, I learned from Wendy, but non the less I wanted to. I felt safe around him, he made me feel acceptable about being a vampire, and bringing out the best in me. No other vampire ever had done that for me, not even Wendy who was the one that changed me, and taught me everything that I know. I was stuck between doing the following: kissing him to show how I was feeling, or be a proper lady and do nothing about it. But there was nothing proper about what I was now as a vampire.

He kissed the back of my hand and smiled at me, making me feel a flutter in my chest.

"If Wendy could see you tonight, she would be proud." He said to me, and my smile increased dramatically. It was now official.

I was in love with Sam...completely and hopelessly in love with him. Now what was I to do?