Victoria Vega
This is my first Saturday alone. This is the first time in a long time, so long that I can't even remember when it first started, that I haven't been curled up in Jade's side watching a movie, or making sweet love to her. It's strange when that feeling of comforting familiar is gone, ripped away from you. I feel drawn to Jade, drawn to her side, like I need to be there now, but I know I can't. So I snuggle deeper down into the covers.
Under the covers is my own world. It's like the darkness is an entrance and only I can enter there. Reality can't follow behind, reminding me of the harsh truth I don't want to ever meet again. Under the covers I can block out the sunlight and envelop myself in memories and dreams of Jade. So I delve down deeper.
"Jade," I yell. I throw a pillow at my girlfriend and that laugh that only appears when we're alone comes out and flitters through the air. "Don't be yucky!"
"Yucky?" She asks innocently. "All I suggested is that, since this is a sleepover just between friends, we do all the girly cliché's. Like... Compare boob size, make-out, give friendly back massages, jump in the sack, y'know." I beat her with my pillow again.
"Jade, you know we can't do that! My parents are downstairs," I hiss.
"And that matters because...?" With a sly smile and a twinkle in her eye she pulls me down on top of her and we begin fiercely making out. My entire brain is telling me to stop, that we could get caught, but my brain can go to hell.
"Tori wake up, it's almost noon! You've slept half your day away," the calm and ignorant voice of my mother awakes me from my slumber. Ugh! What a beautiful dream where Jade was still ma belle. I flip over to check and see if my mom is right, low and behold the clock reads 12:03pm.
Groggily, I pull myself out of bed. I can't mope around about Jade all day, but I also can't think of anything better to do.
I shuffle over to my closet and thrown on a robe, why should I bother getting dressed? It's not like Jade's coming over. Therefore there's nobody worth looking good for.
I walk downstairs in a zombie-like stupor as I pour myself some Raisin Bran. A desolate feeling washes over my body as the breakfast cereal reminds me of that night at Sikowitz's. Jade was dressed up as a cute farm girl. It was one of the first nights she was nice to me. I remember the revealing outfit she wore, oh my god I swear I felt a rush down below when I first saw her. When she destroyed that car after her hand was burned it was SO sexy! I just wish she were here right now.
Determined not to let her overtake my day I walk over to the television and turn it on. Of course, the TV turns on to The Mountain of Arms. It's one of Jade's Top 5 Favorite horror films that she insisted I watch. Soon it hit a commercial break claiming it was, "Horror Movie Week" and how nearly every good channel would be broadcasting horror movies. Just great. Another thing to remind me of Jade.
I switch off the TV, realizing that all hope of that keeping me distracted is void and travel back up to my room, a bowl of Raisin Bran in hand. I walk over to my Pear Laptop and open it. The screen instantly buzzes to life and I'm met with a picture of me and Jade together. Damn it! Why did I make this my screensaver? It's a picture of us together at a carnival. I had taken it on my cell phone. It was one of the best nights of my life. I quickly slam the lid down and walk over to my bookshelf. There can't be anything over here that reminds me of Jade.
As I walk over and scan for a good book to read a particular novel catches my eye. It was the signed copy of "A Wrinkle In Time" that Jade had given me on my birthday. It was a first edition that Jade's rich bastard of a father had swung her. I stalk away from the bookshelf, why does everything have to remind me of her!
As I topple onto the bed more memories of the sexy and sinful deeds we'd committed there wash over my brain. There is nowhere Jade-free in my house. Even in my own shower I can't escape her because she and I had taken a shower in here together...and even done some other things in here if you know what I mean.
Eventually I'm stuck lying on my parent's bed in their room, the only place that doesn't hold memories of Jade. Even Trina's room has Jade's presence lingering still from that time we'd snuck in and sabotaged her curling iron. The next morning was hilarious when Trina shrieked about her hair care. I laugh. Even now Jade haunts me.
Finally, I just decide to screw avoiding her and the memories. I run out into Trina's car and go for a ride over to Jade's.
That's how I spend my afternoon, sitting in Trina's car, watching Jade through her window. I'm too cowardly too get out of the car. She doesn't do much, I see her dig in the back of her closet for something but at that moment I see Trina on my caller ID and a sense of duty from stealing her car makes me pick up.
"What do you want Trina?" I ask exasperatedly.
"You stole my car! Bring it back! I'm going to a party at Aaron's and I need it tonight," Trina yells in my ear over the phone. "If you bring it back under twenty minutes all will be forgiven."
Although I seriously doubt that I still decide to leave now and try to make it back in twenty minutes. I turn the keys in the car and the engine roars to life. I drive away before I'm able to see what she's pulled out of her closet.
Okay, so maybe I was just into Moose because I was trying to make Jade jealous. If I had met Moose before I met Jade then my feelings might've been genuine, but now that Jade is sort-of part of the picture I know that it's her heart, her touch, I crave. I don't want some giant boy with man hands to be lying on top of me, cutting off my breathing from his girth. Imagining the sex is just… ugh! It makes me shudder. Some people may find his large size and muscular figure attractive but I'm looking for somebody lighter, more delicate, who won't be sloppy when finishing me off.
Jade knows that I swing both ways, although I'm biased to girls. Something about their gentle touch and sexier figures makes them more appealing… the cherry Chap Stick definitely helps their cause as well. So the idea of me being into Moose isn't entirely insane. For me it's less about the gender, more about the person underneath. What sucks is that Jade swings both ways too, except she's less biased to girls than me.
I know that she's probably doing it for jealousy; actually, I know she's doing it for jealousy. Still, I can't help but wonder whether or not there might be a hint of attraction between the two. I've seen the way she looks at him and vice versa. What really hurt was when she confirmed that she doesn't care about me. I know it wasn't real, I know that I mean a hell of a lot to her, but she's just not brave enough to admit it.
"Uhh…There's no big tables so let's just take two," suggests Beck.
"I'll sit at that one over there," says Moose, pointing to the farther one. Whatever. I'll make her regret it. I'll make her come back to me… begging on her knees. I laugh at my own clever joke. Let the games begin! I run over to grab a seat next to Moose at the table.
I smile in triumph as I grab the seat that keeps Cat away from Moose. Jade appears with those beautiful, sexy purple highlights in her hair that I desperately want to touch, run my fingers through. Something about highlights just turns me on… especially purple ones. A feeling of victory runs through my bloodstream as Jade is forced to give up the only remaining seat next to Moose and move over to Beck and André's table. Hah! Round one to Tori.
As Robbie babbles on and on about Tinklade I zone out of the conversation as I stare at Jade. Mmm, am I the only one who notices how short Jade's skirt is? Turn around! Turn around so I can see your beautiful, timeless face! Despite all of my thoughts persistently being sent her way she doesn't turn. It doesn't matter, I could stare at Jade's back all day. Her good side is all her sides after all.
Suddenly noticing the lack of chatter I butt back into the conversation to entice Moose and hopefully make Jade turn around and be jealous. "So, how long are you going to be in Hollywood? I mean, assuming you don't meet a girl, fall in love, get married, and live here forever!" I lay on the flirting heavy. "No seriously." Although he's probably the most attractive guy I've seen since Beck, I have a feeling he's not the smartest guy in the world. He kind of wears this 'i'm stupid' expression on his face. Plus, the heavier I flirt the more into him and desperate to be with him I am, and Jade gets pissed when she see's me even remotely attracted to Beck. This will really piss her off.
"I just want a hamburger," responds Moose awkwardly. Oh my god! He has a hot, bisexual girl throwing herself at you and you don't do a thing! Get a clue idiot!
"I love hamburgers," pitches in Cat, attempting to get her flirty piece into the conversation. Major fail.
"I see a waiter," says Robbie all too excitedly. He claps his hand together. "Server! Over here please! Over here! Server!" The server gives him a disgusted look and walks away. I don't blame the guy, despite good intentions Robbie sorta sounded like a jackass when he called the waiter over like he was a dog or something. "I don't think he heard me," says Robbie nervously trying to make up for his mistake.
"So, while you're what kinda things do you wanna do?" I ask, changing the subject from Robbie's awkward klutz-up.
"Well, I'm only here until Sunday," says Moose. Both Cat and I say our 'awws' and make pouty faces. "But I was hoping to go to the house where they filmed my favorite scary movie!" On the inside I frown, scary movies are Jade's thing.
"Oh, what movie?" I ask, acting excited. Please don't say "The Scissoring!"Please don't say "The Scissoring!" Please don't say "The Scissoring!"
"The Scissoring," says Moose, confirming my fears. I keep a happy smile on my face but it takes a huge amount of effort.
Instantly Jade appears, "You're a fan of The Scissoring?"
"Yeah," he nods.
Jade instantly pushes Robbie over and he falls with a yelp. Taking his newly free seat she begins talking to Moose, "First of all I love that movie more than my mother," says Jade. Do you love that movie more than me? "And I know exactly where that house is! I even know how to sneak in the backyard!" A look of shock envelopes my face, even with my great acting skills I can't hide it. "Look at that hand," says Jade taking his beefy, giant palm in hers, "You must destroy gloves!"
A gasp escapes my lips as I see where this is going. Jade's going to seduce Moose, and she's winning right now! No. I must stop this. "Waiter, my friend Moose wants a hamburger right now," I yell, hoping that a waiter coming will stop this... intimate touching immediately.
"He's my friend too," pitches in Cat.
"You guys want me to take your order?" A beautiful, leggy blonde comes over, pad and pen in hand. Woah. She's gorgeous. I admit, I definitely felt a rush as soon as I saw her. If I weren't busy chasing Moose in order to make Jade jealous I would definitely go after this girl, no, this woman. Just Holy Fucking Shit.
"Hey," says Moose flirtatiously. Oh no! Moose finds her attractive! If he finds her attractive and so do I then... No! What if Jade finds her attractive? Shoo! "No! We don't want you," I say meanly.
"Go get the ugly waiter," comments Jade. See! She thinks she's pretty! The fact that she wants her away proves that she wants Moose all to herself. Agh! How did she bounce back so easily?
"She's actually a dude," I say. Stupidest excuse I've ever made. I look back and give her an apologetic look and sending her on her way.
Once a relatively unattractive male waiter comes Moose orders a hamburger, Jade orders some soup, Cat orders a hamburger, and I claim I'm not hungry. The plan works well and as soon as food comes around i "notice" how hungry I am and start eating fries off of Moose's plate, very girlfriend-y.
"So Moose," says Jade, not-so-discreetly putting her hand on his thigh, "You want to come to my place later and watch the Scissoring with me. I have the Director's Cut." Pure jealousy runs through my veins and I accidentally break a french fry in my hand.
"You know what, I love the Scissoring! The first time I saw it was with somebody I thought I loved but turned out to be a cowardly douche. I'd absolutely love to see it again! Count me in," I say excitedly. Jade's face betrays no emotions even after calling her a cowardly douche.
"Me too! I LOVE horror movies," says Cat, reeking of desperation. Shit! She's going to use the scared girl moves on Moose and jump into his arms when she's scared! That always works.
"You know what, I'm not so sure my mother would like so many people over at once," seethed Jade, jaw clenched. "Only one person can come, and since Moose is the guest he ought to have first and only slot."
"What are you talking about, Jadey? Your mom loves it when you have people over! She told me herself," accuses Cat. I silently smile. If I know about Jade's personal life Cat will start questioning us about how I know these things. Thank God she butt in first.
"Yeah, well... She wasn't on her meds when she said that," argues Jade feebly.
"Your mom isn't on meds," retorts Cat, "I checked that night I forgot to bring my meds! She didn't have any." Moose starts to look startled when Cat mentions she's on meds. Quickly, Cat tries to the change the subject back onto Moose, realizing he's nervous to be around someone who is medicated. I pretend to be interested, making comments about his admittedly good smell and sexy good looks, but the whole time I can't help but think of Jade.
"Ahhh!" Cat screams and jumps into Moose's lap even further, if that's even possible. I'm stuck next to Jade. It's possibly the most awkward thing ever. I'm scared to death and I desperately just want to be held in her arms that will protect me but she's too busy flirting with Moose, hanging on him, whispering secrets about the movie and who know's what in his ear. I hate this. I'm not sitting next to Moose and I can't even bask in Jade being around because her being all over Moose is wrecking that.
We continue watching the movie and I start feeling very third wheel. When it's finally over Jade has to drive all of us home. Thankfully, the guys had already found their own ride home from Robbie's parents.
We drop off Cat first, then Moose, and my stop is the last on the list. With everybody else gone I sit shotgun. "So..." I say awkwardly.
"Let's just not talk," says Jade, cutting me off. I sit quietly but the silence becomes too great.
"The Scissoring was the first movie we ever watched together," I remark. "You know, as a couple."
"I know," says Jade stoically. I notice her hands grip just a little bit tighter on the steering wheel. Now what do I say?
"Do you um... Still have that um... Video camera I got you for your birthday?" I ask.
"Yes," says Jade. I notice her voice tense a bit.
"Good," I respond awkwardly. Uncomfortable silence overtakes the small space once again until I finally turn on the radio. It's an old favorite of mine. "Just the Girl" by The Click Five
"You know, this song really reminds me of you," I say in an off-handed manner.
"Oh? Why?"
THE MORE SHE IGNORES ME THE MORE I ADORE HER
WHAT CAN I SAY I'D DO ANYTHING FOR HER!
CAUSE SHE'S BITTERSWEET
SHE KNOCKS ME OFF MY FEET
AND I CAN'T HELP MYSELF
I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE!
I look down sheepishly, the lyrics conveying my feelings all too well. "That does kind of sound like me," Jade chuckles.
"Yeah... Exactly," I reply weakly.
Soon enough we reach my house and I can finally escape this nightmare of a car ride. "I'll see you later?" I ask. Jade gives me a non-committal shrug.
Figuring that's the best I'll get I open the door and get out. Just before I close the door Jade calls out, "Bye Tori!" As I close the door and walk away a smile crosses my face. She called me Tori, just like before.
"Bye Jade," I murmur after she's driven away.
Hey guys, sorry it's been so long. This is so fun to write but sometimes things in my life sidetrack me. So, I've started back in school and I will probably be more attentive to this story then rather than on vacation (oddly enough). In my defense I totally updated six chapters and finished a whole story over vacation in less than 3 days, so I was taking a break after that giant rush of chapter producing. I've got plans for this story, yay fun, angst, inappropriate undertones and drama! Yes, I'm aware that using The Click Five's song again for another story isn't good but it just fit so perfectly that I couldn't resist. I really hope you like this, more on the way. By the way, I wrote most of this on my phone for the first time ever so cut me some slack with stuff like that!