She throws me against the nearest wall, closing the door like she's done it a thousand times before. I can testify that she has. My hands run through the raven black locks I've been missing as she runs her soft hands against my sides, turning me on to no end. I feel like it's been a lifetime since we've done this.

"I've missed this," she whispers into my ear as her hands sneakily slip up my shirt. A small whisper escapes my lips as her intrepid hands journey up my shirt. Her thumbs caress my nipple as she sucks through the fabric of my shirt. My head tilts back as I sigh. There's nothing quite like Jade. I had done the deed with Heather many times before her, and it was good in its own right but nothing quite like this. I can already tell this is going to be just another pair of underwear to trash afterwards. "More," I murmur.

Her mouth works its way back up my neck and to my collar bone before replying, "Anything." In a flash she abstains, leaving me angry beyond belief, but she soon returns to pull the skin-tight dress off my body, leaving me in only a soaked pair of panties and a skin colored bra. I wish I had worn something more seductive but when doing a magic act where you change into twelve different dresses you need to have the right bra on. Jade doesn't seem to mind when I look back up at her. She's practically eye-sexing me as we speak. "Come," she growls out, sounding like a lion going after her prey. I would surely fall for this seductress' tricky trap.

Taking my leisurely time (which really isn't that long since she's only three steps away at most) I walk towards her, swaying my hips as much as possible. I slowly bite down on my lip, which I know drives her crazy, as I twirl a lock of brown hair around my middle finger. "What do you plan to do with me?" I ask, feigning innocence.

"Whatever you want," she promises. "Lately, I've been fucking up majorly, s to make up for it tonight is all about you." Her hand reaches out lovingly to caress my face. As if we'd finally had time to act on the mounting sexual tension from the car ride, it's no longer about need but desperate want. Her lips peck mine like she is a virgin (as if) before she makes any attempts to deepen the kiss further. "I love you Tori," she murmurs against my lips.

"I love you too Jade," I reply back. I swear, in that moment, I could not have been happier.

**3G&AM**

Even half asleep I could recognize instantly that I was on top of Jade. My head was pressed against her chest and our legs are intertwined perfectly. I'm dreadfully parched (there was lot of screaming last night), but I don't want to get up out of bed. Jade always looks so peaceful when she sleeps, all her barriers are down and she's the most real, the most truthful with herself in sleep because she simply has no choice. I don't want to wake my sleeping beauty, breaking the spell of something so extraordinarily rare.

I don't know how long I was staring at her before she finally mumbled, "I know it's hard not to stare at me, but it's kind of creeping me out." With a happy smile I avert my eyes and get out of bed, managing to take some of the comforter with me. As I stumble across the room I get a look at Jade's erect nipples through the thin, white sheet just barely covering her. With a large gulp I keep walking towards the bathroom. If I weren't so tired from last night's marathon I would've jumped her again right now. After using the bathroom, washing my face, and throwing on some cupcake-patterned pajama bottoms and a tight, black camisole I made my way downstairs, a major case of just-been-fucked hair still following me around.

After preparing two giant plates full of pancakes with an even bigger cup of coffee on Jade's tray and a small glass of orange juice for me I carefully juggled the various dishes and brought them up to my room. A smirk washed across my face because as soon as Jade smelled coffee she shot straight up out of bed and took it off my hands, greedily drinking it as though she had been dead beforehand, and in Jade's mind she had been.

"God Tori, you make the best coffee," Jade practically moans.

"Thanks," I say as I place the pancakes on the desk and take a sip of my juice. I wait until Jade has drunken at least half of the cup before engaging her in any intelligent conversation.

"So, what does this mean for us?" I ask, skipping straight to the point.

With a raised eyebrow Jade slowly puts the cup of coffee down and grabs an oversized t-shirt to put on now that she's had her full dose of coffee. "What do you think it means for us?" She asks cryptically, throwing the question back at me.

"I think this means…" I consider it thoughtfully. "That as much as I want to stay away, that neither of us can resist each other."

With her signature smirk Jade replies, "So we're back together?"

"I suppose," I answer tiredly. I love Jade, but the fact that she won't come out and that I can't fully trust her is always going to be a major issue in our relationship. I can't stay away from her though. I tried, that's why I sang "The Scientist." I guess that I just can't help myself.

"Good," Jade says, getting her way as always. She pulls me into a kiss and all of my anger melts away. How could I be mad at her?

Quickly, things start heating up, especially because the only thing Jade is wearing is a t-shirt. Within two minutes were both completely naked and we're sprawled on the bed, Jade dominating as always. Her lips run down my neck and to my breasts. God that feels so goo—

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

"Fuck," I mutter as I go to pick up my phone. "Who is this?" I ask grumpily, forgetting to look at the Caller ID beforehand.

"Beck. Moose is leaving today and he really wants you to come say good bye," he replies.

"I'm kind of busy," I mutter into the phone as Jade continues kissing down my stomach. It takes everything I have not to groan into the cell.

"Please?" He asks. I can already picture his face in my head, begging like a St. Bernard puppy dog. I can't resist it. He's already interrupted my sexy times anyways. Pushing Jade off of me I begin to get up and go for my closet. "I'm on my way. I'll call Jade for you too."

"Thanks Tori," he says thankfully, probably not wanting to call his ex.

"Bye," I say into the phone.

Redirecting my attention back to the beautiful, now pissed of that I'd stopped our heavy make-out almost sex session I say, "Get dressed babe, Moose is leaving and I promised we'd say goodbye." I give her a kiss on the cheek to try and soothe what would most-likely be a very angry reaction. As I pulled away I caught her face as the last flecks of worry left her eye. I wonder why she's so worried? It's probably because she's afraid I'll change my mind as soon as we leave, venturing back out into the dreadful, cold reality of the world. "Get a move on gorgeous," I say, slapping her side lightly.

"Yeah… sure," she says unsteadily getting up and walking into my closet so her outfit doesn't appear the same as yesterday. Under her breath, where I assume she thinks I can't hear, I catch her mumbling, "I just can't wait until this guy leaves."

*3G&AM*

"Bye Moose," I say, taking his big, bulky body into a hug. His arms snake around my waist in a friendly way before he lets go and we both share a smile. "If you ever back in the area call me, we can go out as friends," I emphasize the "as friends."

"Sure Tori, it was really cool getting to know you, even if you don't actually watch hockey," Moose said with a smile.

Turning his attention towards Cat he says a quick goodbye and she jumps into his arms for a hug. "Bye Moose! If you ever want a girlfriend I'm always available."

"Right," says Moose skeptically. His smile turns into an awkward frown and he turns his attention away from Cat before she full out kisses him or something stupid.

"Bye Jade," he says with a smile back on his face. He looks at her unsurely, like he desperately wants to impress her or something.

"Bye."

"Um… if you ever, want to finish what happened in your car," says Moose reaching into his back pocket. What happened in the car? He pulls out a crinkled piece of paper from his pocket and I catch what looks like a cell phone number. "Here's my number." Jade's pupils dilate and her cheeks turn red as she willingly accepts the piece of paper and tears it up into pieces and throws it to the wind, scattering them into fragmented pieces.

"Yeah, I don't think I'm ever going to use this," she reassured him with a cocked eyebrow, a nervous look still in her eye. Moose's expression drops instantly and a cloud of sadness begins to follow him.

"Oh… okay," he says awkwardly. "Bye!" He sends her a quick wave and makes his way towards Beck, who is waiting right by the bus.

Pulling her to the side so none of our friends can hear I hiss, "Why did Moose give you his number?" My voice sounds far more accusatory than I meant it to. I didn't want to come off as the jealous girlfriend in case it was nothing.

"It's nothing. We just… laughed a lot and he's a pretty okay guy," says Jade with a nonchalant shrug.

"You're lying," I say, my eyes narrowing. "You don't laugh and you don't admit that anybody is actually cool in your book. Plus, that was a bit drastic of a response if you really thought he was a cool guy and liked him! I think you underestimate how much I know you, Jade. Now tell me, what really happened?"

A long pause of tension filled silence stretched out as I waited for Jade to respond. With a guilty look and an exasperated expression she admits, "We sort of… kissed in my car."

A piercing hum went off in my ears and I felt the Earth shatter around my feet. Why am I still standing here? Why can't I just be swallowed up or killed? It would be better. I don't know why, maybe it's from being around Jade so much, but I crave more pain. I need to hear it. "Who initiated the kiss?" My voice sounds wobbly and I know that in moments tears are going to fall, but I still try to stay strong.

"It doesn't matt-"

"Who initiated the kiss," I ask again, stronger than before as I brush away the tears with a closed fist.

"I did," she replies with a fallen head. I should've known. Why should I expect anything from her? Why would she ever change for me? Even though I love her I should've known she'd never really change. This is the last straw. I don't care if it feels like I'm dying every day I'm away from her, I'll get over it because that feeling is nothing compared to what I feel right now. "You have to know it didn't mean anything to me," Jade begged, reaching for my arm. I pull away before I can fall under the spell of her ender caress. "I was just being stupid and jealous and I wasn't thinking. Tori, I love you."

That's when I lose it. As I stare at my cold-hearted beauty I feel my entire body clench, as if it's almost impossible for me to yell at her. Yet, I power through. "If you really loved me, you wouldn't have kissed him. If you had really loved me you wouldn't have gotten together with Moose only days after our break-up. If you had really loved me you would've told me the truth. If you had really loved me none of this would've happened and maybe you would've come out. If you loved me we'd be able to conquer anything. I refuse to follow you around anymore like a helpless puppy dog, loving you but never getting anything back."

"Tori," Jade says helplessly. I look at her, waiting for her to say something or to fight back, to give me a reason to stay. She doesn't. She just closes her mouth slowly and lets me walk away.

As I wipe the tears from my eyes I make a vow. Never Again. I won't fall for her stupid charms or her gorgeous looks ever again. Until she changes, until she proves herself, I won't ever run back. Even if she does change, I'm not so sure I will return to her side. Why am I cursed to love somebody that can never love me back?