"Are you cold?" Joe asks me. We're both standing in his kitchen. I'm wearing my bra and underwear and I'm shivering, dripping all over his kitchen floor.
"Yes..." I don't lie to him. I'm shivering really bad.
"Here, just follow me." He holds my hand and leads me down a flight of carpeted steps. You know how all basements have that particular smell? Well it smells like basement down these steps.
"I'm gonna stick your clothes in the dryer." He says. He flips on a light switch.
The basement is really, really nice. The walls are made of wooden paneling and the floor is made of expensive looking marble. On the floor is a big, fluffy red rug that covers almost all of the floor. Off in one corner, there's exercise equipment and in the main part, there's a huge brown couch and an even bigger plasma TV.
"Okay..." I shiver a little more. It's freezing down here. I'm so cold that I don't care I'm wearing my personals around him. My underwear are made of black lace, so I'm certain that he can see my butt through it and my crotch too. My bra matches my panties, and he can see that I have very small boobs. And he's just standing here in his boxers.
"Are you hungry at all?" He puts both of our wet clothes into a red dryer and turns it on. He picks through a basket of clean clothes that's sitting on the floor.
"No, I'm not hungry." I shake my head.
He walks over to me with a t-shirt. "Here. Put this on."
I pull the t-shirt on over my head and it covers everything down to my knees. "Thanks."
"You're welcome, beautiful. " He takes a piece of my hair and strokes it. "Let's watch some TV until your clothes get dry."
We both sit down on the couch. I'm still kind of cold, and he can see that. He pulls a blanket down off the back of the couch and covers the both of us with it. Neither one of us have spoken about what just happened in the hot tub. I'm still embarrassed.
"If you catch a cold from us being outside, I'll take care of you. I'm stupid for taking you outside when it was getting chilly." He pulls me over to him and rubs my arm.
"I wanted to go swimming though." I rest my head against his bare chest.
He flicks on the TV with the remote and scrolls through the channels. "Yeah, but I should've told you no. I don't like telling you no. You use that against me."
I laugh a little. "It's your fault for spoiling me."
He leans down and kisses the top of my head. "I don't mind spoiling you." He turns on one of the Scary Movies. I think it's Scary Movie 2.
We both settle in with each other and watch it. I'm watching the movie, but Joe is preoccupied with rubbing my arms, shoulders and even my butt.
I have a question for him. It's really burning me up, and if I don't ask him, I might go berserk.
"Joe?"
"Yeah?" He looks down at me. I don't look at him. I might die of embarrassment if I do.
"How did you know?" I play with the hair by his bellybutton to avoid looking him in the face. I figure Selena told Nick and Nick told him. I won't be too mad at Selena, even though I told her not to tell anyone.
"How did I know what, babe?" He plays with my fingers. "You have such tiny hands."
"That I'm a..." I can't even say it. I just hope he knows what I'm trying to get at.
"Oh... Oh. Um... Well I just... Knew." He shrugs.
"How?" I feel tears coming on again, but I refuse to cry.
"...You wouldn't be the first girl I've done that to, babe."
"Done what?"
"Fingered."
"Oh..." I sigh. It would be the first time anyone's ever fingered me...
"...And with all the other girls I've done that to... They always like... Go right in." He's rubbing my back. "At first I thought you were just too... tight for two fingers. So I tried one. And when one didn't work either, I figured nothing's ever been up there before."
"...You still could've... It didn't hurt."
"I was worried about hurting you. I've never done it with a virgin before, Demi. I mean... I have. Once. But that was different."
"It's not that big of a deal." He's starting to frustrate me. I'm a virgin, not an alien. Stop acting like I'm some rare species.
"I just wish you would've told me. I wouldn't have even tried if I knew." He kisses my hand but it doesn't make me feel better.
"I don't tell anyone about it. It's embarrassing..."
"You're embarrassed? Why?"
"Because! Shit like what just happened usually happens. I don't know what the big deal is..."
"Are you mad at me for telling you no?"
"No... I just wish we would've gotten it over with. I'm ready to do it already. Nobody seems to understand that."
"Come on, Demi. I didn't say no forever. I said no for tonight."
I stop talking to him. He makes me so angry. I'm not a little kid. I feel like he's treating me like one.
"I just want your first time to be something special. I could lie you down right now and make it a little quickie for your first time. Would that make you happy?"
"Um... Yeah. It would be done and over, with someone I really like and care about."
"If I didn't care about you, Demi. Believe me I would. God knows I want to. I want to SO bad. But I refuse to have you regret your first time."
"I'm not going to regret it!" I'm getting really angry. "Jesus Christ, Joe. I'm sixteen, not six. Stop treating me like I'm an infant!"
"Yell at me all you want. I'm not putting anything inside of you tonight. You'll thank me later."
I sigh hard, irritated. I'm so fucking frustrated right now. God.
"Why is it so important for you to have sex tonight? We have forever to have sex, Demi." He keeps playing with my hair.
"I'm just so sick of being the only one. I haven't done anything." I sigh again.
"What do you mean?" He starts rubbing my butt again.
"At lunch, all of the people I sit with talk about what they do. And I'm the only one that can't say anything. I haven't done anything with anyone." I'm really upset right now. I'm not trying to make him feel guilty or anything, though.
Joe sighs. "I spoil you... I spoil you too much. You're a little brat." He moves me off him and lies me down.
This is really gonna happen! Oh my goodness!
"I'm not doing this just to give you bragging rights, okay?" He leans down and kisses me on my lips.
I kiss him back. "Okay."
"I'm doing this to make you happy. I hate seeing you angry with me." He kisses me again. "And plus, I'm hard as fuck right now."
I kiss him back again. "I promise I won't regret it." I open my legs a little and let him get between them.
"You have to be home by 12:00, right?" He puts his hands on the seams of my underwear and pulls them down.
"Yeah.." I glance at the clock. "It's only 10:45... Don't worry about hurting me." I hold his hand.
"I'm not going to hurt you. Because I'm not putting anything inside of you." He presses his lips to my neck and kisses me again.
"What do you mean?" I find myself whining.
"We're not having sex tonight, Demi. I told you no."
"Then why are my underwear off?"
"Just relax, babe. I got you." He kisses me on my lips again. "Just let me know if I hurt you. Okay?" He kisses me deeper this time.
I nod and keep kissing him. He said "he got me", so I'll trust him. I trust Joe with everything in me. I really do.
He pulls his lips away from mine, breaking the kiss. I wish his lips would come back to mine.
He pulls the covers away from us and scoots down. His face is level with my stomach. When I look down, I see the top of his head.
He pulls my legs apart and kisses my lower stomach. I don't know what else to do with my hands, so I just prop myself up on my elbows and watch him.
He puts his hands on top of my stomach and rests his forehead between my legs. And he kisses me. The same way he'd kiss me on my lips, he kisses me down there.
I close my eyes. Selena said this feels really good. Let me just imagine. I breathe evenly.
He stops kissing me down there and proceeds to work with his tongue. His tongue works it's way from top to bottom. I'm struggling to keep my breathing even. He clamps his mouth over the smallest, most sensitive part down there and sucks on it. I find myself squeezing the corner of the couch. I could moan, but I think it's better if I don't make any noise.
He stops sucking on it and swirls his tongue around it. It feels ten times better if he licks that specific part of me than anywhere else. He moves off that part of my privates and goes back down to where I open. He gives my entrance a soft, sweet french kiss.
I squeeze the corner of the couch tighter. Dear god, how does anyone just accept this? It feels so good, I don't know if I can continue.
Just when I regain control of my unsteady breathing, he makes another move. One... Just one of his fingers pierces inside of me, which makes me actually let a moan slide out. "Mmmmmm..." Moaning is embarrassing, I think.
He moves back to the sensitive part he was just sucking on, and he sucks on it again. I don't understand how the smallest part of down there could make me feel the most.
Easily, he's sliding his finger in and out. He's going at an even pace. Steady... It kind of feels like he's motioning for someone to "come here."
Another moan slides out of my mouth. "Ahhhh..."
I think he likes me moaning, because when I moan, he moves his finger a little faster, which makes me moan again. And this time, I just can't stop moaning and it's embarrassing.
"Uhhh... Uh... Ahhh... Uhhhh..." Instead of the couch, I grab his hair and pull. I'm not hurting him, I don't think.
My eyes are closed so tight that I have a headache. Oh my god, this is amazing.
Down below, he slides his finger out. And he kisses me again, the way he started. And I think he's finished.
I was just freezing a few moments ago, but now I'm sweaty and hot and breathing heavy.
Joe leans down and grabs my underwear from off the floor. He slides them back on me and secures them in place. And that little act just made me want to cry.
"I'll be right back." He whispers. He's not even out of breath. But I am.
I nod at him and continue to catch my breath. He disappears into a small bathroom.
I can't believe that just happened. I just did something with Joe. I did something sexual with someone. I did something sexual with someone older. I can't believe what I just did. I feel like such a little rebel. Forgive me father, for I have sinned?
Joe comes out of the bathroom and grabs my clothes from the dryer. He turns the light on and hands them to me. "Here. They're all dry... It's 11:33. I'd better get you home."
I pull my clothes back onto my body. I make sure the yellow tank top lines up with my boobs and I make sure the dark blue shorts cover my butt. Joe's not saying much of anything. I really hope he's not being a jerk.
"Just sit down here. I have to go get Nick and Selena." He murmurs when we get up to the kitchen. I just stand off in a corner as he goes upstairs.
I feel a little bit embarrassed about what just happened. I'm embarrassed at how I begged him to do something... And now he's being a little bit...standoffish.
I should've just waited like he wanted me to. If I just ruined everything between us, I'll never forgive myself.
Selena and Nick come downstairs with Joe. Nick's shirtless and Selena's hair is all messy, which means they probably had sex. You can't tell that me and Joe did something by looking, can you?
I follow them all out to the car. And I get in the backseat with Selena. Joe doesn't say anything to me about getting in the back. I'm so mad at myself. It's clear that he feels uncomfortable now.
"What movie did you two watch?" Selena asks me. She seems happy. I wish I were happy too.
"We didn't..." I shake my head.
"What did you two do then?"
"Nothing. Just talked." I shrug and lie to her.
Joe pulls the car into the driveway of Aunt Kathy and Uncle Jason's.
"Talk to you later, Selena. Bye Nick... Bye Joe." I mutter as I get out of the car.
I hear another door open and I turn around. Joe's getting out of the car too. For what?
"Goodnight, Demi." He says. He wraps his arms around me tightly and kisses me on my lips. His mouth tastes like toothpaste and chewing gum. He must've brushed his teeth after he did that.
"Goodnight, Joe."
"I'll text you tomorrow so we can go out again. You wanna grab a bite to eat tomorrow?"
I nod while looking at the ground.
"I enjoyed tonight, babe." He grabs my chin and pulls my head up to look at him.
"I did too."
He gives me another kiss and I kiss him back. I'm glad to know that he's not being weird about it.
I go into the house and he goes back to the car.
Aunt Kathy and Uncle Jason must be asleep, because it's quiet in the house.
I lock the downstairs door and head upstairs to my room. I'm so glad Jorge isn't one of those loud dogs that barks at everyone.
I take off all my clothes and sit naked on my bed. My mind is spinning from tonight. I want to tell Dallas and I want to tell Selena. But it's late, so I just decide to let it go for the night.
I take two of the sleeping pills my aunt bought for me and take a long shower.
It's been a really long night.