"So, Demi. Why are you in Florida if your Uncle's in the navy? I thought navy brats travelled a lot..." Selena asks me.
We're both sitting poolside sipping on drinks. Everyone else out here by the pool was chatting up with their alcoholic martinis and piña coladas. Selena and I wanted to feel important too, so we got Miss Mandy to whip us up a couple Shirley Temples.
"My aunt liked Florida a lot the first time my uncle was deployed here, so she decided to stay. It's permanent placement, so she doesn't travel with him anymore." I use my tongue and play with the stem of my cherry from my drink.
"That's cool." She flips her dark, curly hair over her shoulder and leans back into the sun. Selena's so perfect it irritates me.
"So what about your family?" I ask.
"Nothing to it, really. My mom had me when she was my age, so she and my dad didn't stay together long. I live with my mom and my stepdad now."
"...Pretty simple." I nod and shrug at the same time.
"Demi? Can I tell you something? Like.. Seriously?"
"Sure..." I swish my feet in the water of the pool. I feel like such a child next to Selena. She just seems so much older than I am.
"...I'm really glad you moved here. I really am. I think you're one of the best friends I've ever had." She turns her head and looks at me.
I look back at her. "...You're.. Welcome? I guess. I don't know what to say..."
"Just say 'I love you Selena'." She laughs.
I laugh too. "I love you Selena!"
"Selena, Demi!"
Both me and Selena turn around at the same time in the direction that our names came from. Miss Mandy called us.
"What?!" Selena yells back at her.
"Come on, it's time to go!"
I pull my feet out of the water and pull my basketball shorts back on. I follow Selena back into the bar part of the country club. She puts both our glasses of Shirley Temples into a sink and we both head outside.
I climb back into the car in the same place I road in the first time.
"Turn the radio up, mom." Instead of riding in the front seat, she got in the back seat with me.
Miss Mandy listens to her and turns the radio way up. Selena starts singing right from the place the song's in.
"I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong. Your arms around me tight. Everything felt so right."
I'm not singing out loud, but I'm mouthing the words. "Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong."
"Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep... I'm barely hangin on..." Selena sings.
I can't help myself. I'm going to be a little embarrassed, but this is one of my favorite songs. So I sing aloud to the chorus with Selena.
We sing together, "Here I am! Once again! I'm torn into pieces! Can't deny it! Can't pretend! Just thought you were the one broken up deep inside... But you won't get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes!" Selena doesn't stop singing whenever I join her. She just looks at me, surprised and cheerful.
I'm not that embarrassed to blurt out a tune in front of Selena and her mom, so I don't stop singing.
"I told you everything. Opened up and let you in... You made me feel alright for once in my life. Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be... So together but so broken up inside."
"...I didn't know you could sing, Demi." Miss Mandy comments from the front.
"...I can't." I mumble.
"You sound pretty good to me. You take voice lessons?"
"No..."
"Someone should get you into voice lessons. You're a good little singer."
Who is she kidding? I'm an awful singer. The only singing experience I have is singing in the car or in the kitchen with my mom and singing in church choir a few years ago. That's all.
I'm a terrible singer. Miss Mandy is just being nice.
"Are you gonna come over for dinner, honey?"
"Uh... I guess. I have to call my aunt."
"Can she stay over tonight muh? We'll sleep outside." Selena leans up in her ear and asks.
"She can sleep over if she wants to, Selena. You know I don't mind."
"Do you want to stay over my house Demi?"
"Um... Yeah. But I have to ask..." I pull my phone from my pocket and call Aunt Kathy.
Miss Mandy turns the radio down so I can hear.
"Yes, Demi?" Aunt Kathy answers the phone. She sounds tired.
"Aunt Kathy? ...Can I sleep over my friend's house tonight? Please?"
"I don't mind, Demi. You know I don't mind. As long as her mom says it's okay."
"She does. She doesn't mind. Um... I guess I'll be home in a few minutes to get some jammies."
"Alright. The door's already open."
"Okay."
"Sorry about my room. It's a little messy." Selena leads me down a long hallway to a lime green door with a sparkly blue "S" hanging on the outside.
Her house is really nice. Everything is on one floor except for her basement. As soon as you walk into the front door, there's a mini flight of carpeted steps with a black railing. Up the steps is the living room, kitchen, dining room, bathrooms and bedrooms. If you want to go to the basement, walk straight and don't come up the steps when you walk through the door. Walk straight down another flight of steps. The layout of the house is really cool.
"It's fine. My room's a mess too." I assure her.
She opens the door to her room. Her room is nice too. Everything is various shades of green. Her bedspread is light green with white polka dots on it. The thing I like most about her room is the corkboard hanging beside her bed. I want a corkboard.
"It's nice in here." I sit down on her bed. It's not even that messy. There's just clothes everywhere.
"It's not as nice as your room." She's picking up all the clothes off the floor. "I'm gonna ask Nick and Joe to come over a little later."
"Joe? I'm not dressed for that!" I look so horrible right now, it's not funny.
"I don't think Joe cares about what you wear." She turns on her big TV and turns on the MTV music channel.
"I hope you're right." I look at the TV, and the Crank That video is on. I know how to do this dance, hehe.
"I wish I knew how to do the Soulja Boy. I'm clueless." Selena shakes her head.
"...I could teach you, if you want. It's actually kind of easy." I shrug.
"You actually know how!?"
"I told you I do... Here. Get up."
She stands up. I can't really explain this to her, so she'll probably just have to watch and learn.
I wait for the chorus to come on and then I do the dance. She mirrors my movements and it doesn't look that bad.
"It's like...cross your feet. Then uncross them. After you uncross, touch your back foot. then snap. Like this." I snap my fingers and she does it too.
"Okay, it's a lot easier than it looks." She laughs.
"Then you cross and uncross your feet again. And hit your knee. Then do the superman thing." I show her some more.
"Then the little dance at the end?" She guesses next.
"Yeah. Now try it with the music."
We wait for the chorus to come back around, and then we both do it.
"Bam. You got it." I clap for her and laugh a little.
"Shut up, Demi." She laughs too. "How can you dance? You're so..." She stops herself before the last word.
"I'm so what? So white?"
"No, not white." She laughs again. "Just... From Texas."
"I told you I'm not a hick." I sit back down on her bed.
"But you can dance so good!"
"My sister taught me." Dallas used to take hip hop dance class before we couldn't afford it anymore. She was so good that she was assistant choreographer.
"I have to take you to a party or something. Next weekend is Alex's 17th birthday party. You HAVE to come with me.
"Uh... Okay." I shrug.
"Do you smoke and drink?"
More embarrassing things... "...No. Not really. I've never really... Smoked before. I've drank, but only on like... Holidays with my mom and dad."
"WHAT?!"
"I told you I don't do anything!"
She shakes her head at me. "Just hold on." She grabs her cell phone and presses a couple buttons.
I swing my feet over the side of her bed. I feel like such a little dope. I'm so innocent, I hate it.
"Babe... You wanna come over later? It's just me and Demi. If Joe can, bring him too. Yeah, Demi's staying the night. I don't know... Probably." She must be on the phone with Nick.
I'm so innocent. Why do I have to be a first timer with everything? It's so annoying. My god.
"I'll ask. But uh... bring a little of your stash. Yeah... She won't care. No... He's at work. Because Demi never has." She laughs hard. "I know, right?"
I feel my cheeks turn red. "Selena? Can I use the bathroom real quick?" I whisper, trying not to interrupt.
"Right down the hall." She says.
I just don't want to cry in front of her. I step down from her bed and walk down the hall to the bathroom. I cry a little bit when I get in the bathroom. I'm just mad at myself because I'm such a little kid. How could anyone have fun with me?
Before I leave the bathroom, I dab my eyes with toilet paper. Not to mention, the bathroom is really nice. It's blue with a dolphin theme to it. Even the toilet paper has dolphins on it. I'd feel bad wiping my ass with such nice toilet paper.
I walk back to Selena's room. I won't cry anymore.
"Do you want to take a shower before the boys come over?" She asks me as soon as I walk back into the room.
"...Yeah." I nod. I probably smell like pool water.
"Okay, here. Use my bathroom. I'll shower in the other bathroom." She leads me into another room. Her bathroom is green too.
"Here's a washrag and a towel. Soap's in the shower and so is my shampoo. Do you use Suave?"
"...No. I use stuff that comes in a purple bottle. My aunt buys it..."
She leans down and turns the water on for me. "Purple bottle? Does it have a kangaroo on it?"
I nod.
"Must be Aussie. That shit's expensive, but it works miracles." She stands up again. "When you're done, just come into my room. The door will be locked, so no one will come in and see you."
"Okay. Thanks."
She leaves the room and locks the door behind her.
I take off my bathing suit and step into the shower. Her shower is really nice. It's really fancy with a glass door. My shower at Aunt Kathy's has a glass door too, though.
I grab some of her shampoo and use it anyway. I wash my hair real good and condition it too. Then I wash my body. I take about 15 minutes, then I get out.
I wrap the towel she gave me around my body, gather up my clothes and go back out into her room. She's not in here, so she must not be done yet.
Very carefully, I drop my towel and dry my body off. I got a pretty nice tan today. But it's in the shape of my bikini. My butt is really pale compared to the golden complexion of the rest of my tanned body. My boobs are also really light too.
When I'm all dried off, I grab my skimpy black bra from my bag and the matching lace underwear. I fasten my bra and pull on my underwear.
Just then, Selena walks back in. She has a towel wrapped around her head and a purple bra and the matching underwear on. "Did I get a bad tan?" She asks.
I look at her. "It's not bad. It looks good."
"Yours looks better. Gah, Demi. Your body is perfect. Your hair, your tan. SHARE SOME PERFECTION!"
"I'm not perfect, Selena. Believe that."
"I love your stomach. It's so pretty with your belly ring."
I shrug and pull on a pair of tie-dye shorts. The shorts are REALLY short, but who cares. I pull on a bright orange t-shirt too. The t-shirt was one of my old school's. Our mascot was a rocket. The Colleyville Rockets. What a joke, right?
"Do you ever miss it back at your old school?" Selena puts on a pair of shorts shorter than mine and a tank top.
"Not really. Nobody paid attention to me." I use my brush that I packed and brush my hair out. I put it into a french braid while it's still damp. I'll take it out later.
Selena's hair is so poofy and curly. I think it's beautiful.
"Let's go see what my mom made to eat." She doesn't even bother combing her hair out. She just walks out the room. I follow her.
"Oh, hey Brian. This is my friend, Demi." She greets a young looking man who's sitting on the couch. "Demi, this is my step dad."
"Nice to meet you." I say. I follow Selena into the kitchen. Selena's parents must be really young. As young as Aunt Kathy and Uncle Jason. Because Selena's step dad is playing rap music while he's playing a game on a gaming system.
"Finally, you brought someone new home." He teases Selena.
"Sorry about him. He thinks he's younger than what he is." She grabs two bowls from the cabinet and hands me one.
I like the song he's listening to. My uncle plays the same kind of music and I've heard this song a couple times when he's played it.
"You know this song, Demi?" She grabs two cans of Coke out the fridge too.
I nod. "Mhm. My uncle likes this song. I don't know what it's called though." I could sing it though. "This is the life of a go gettaaaaaa." I laugh.
Selena laughs too. "Damn right I'm a go gettaaaaaa." She hands me a fork. "You like chicken adobo?" She puts a spoon into a big pot of something. It smells good.
"I've never had it..."
"NEVER? Oh my god, it's so good. It's like...chicken, onions, soy sauce, brown sugar... It's so good."
I'll try anything once. And I'm pretty hungry. So I let Selena fill my bowl up with it. It's brown with big pieces of chicken in it. It looks like soup.
"Demi, if you don't like that honey, just tell Selena to make you some pizza rolls or something. You don't have to eat it." Miss Mandy comes into the kitchen.
"It's okay. I'll try it." I sit down next to Selena at her kitchen table.
"Mom, can Nick stay over? And his brother?" I can't believe she just asked that. She has balls.
"Not tonight, Selena. Demi's here and..."
"Demi and Nick are friends, mom. Come on. We'll sleep outside... With the door open. And the lights on."
"...Keep the door OPEN, Selena. Don't make me regret it."
"I won't. Me and Nick always sleep with the door open. And you and Brian have to check on us a billion times during the night. Plus, Demi's here so nothing will happen."
I don't say anything. This chicken stuff is actually really good. Or maybe I'm just really hungry.
"That's the point, Selena. I don't want you and Nick leaving Demi out."
"We wouldn't, mom. Nick's brother is coming over too, and he's older so he won't let anything happen either."
Selena's a very convincing liar. Very. I almost believe her myself.
"I don't care, Selena." Miss Mandy just shrugs. "Demi, if they mistreat you let me know. I'm being serious, too. I know how Selena and Nick can be together."
"I will..." I take a drink of my Coke and push my empty bowl away. I'm full.
Selena collects my dishes and puts them in the sink.
"I'll show you where we'll be sleeping." She motions for me to follow her again.
I get up and walk with her. "I gotta be honest. I'm not really feeling on this whole sleeping outside thing..."
Selena laughs. "It's cool, Demi. It's not outside, outside. I'll show you." She leads me throw sliding glass doors and we're outside on a deck.
Her deck is really, really big. It's all wooden and it's really clean. There's a large TV off in one corner with a Nintendo Wii hooked up to it. There's even a bed off to the corner. It's a water bed and it's huge. It looks really comfy with piles and piles of blankets on it. And it's closed in. There's a glass roof over it and glass walls to it. Its kind of like a greenhouse attached to her house. It's really nice out here. I don't mind sleeping out here anymore.
"It's not that bad out here. Me and Nick sleep out here all the time.
"It won't be that bad..." I agree with her.
Suddenly, a bunch of loud, boisterous barks come from all around. I jump at the sudden noise.
"They're just my dogs. They're not allowed out when I have company because they jump on people." Selena flops down on the water bed.
I flop down too. "How many do you have?"
"Four."
"FOUR?!"
"I'm an only child. I gotta have some company." She flicks through the channels on the TV that's mounted to the side of the house.
"I'd love it out here if I lived here." I sigh dreamily.
"I spend more time out here than I do in my room." She stands up on the water bed and turns on a light. It's getting dark outside which means it's dark in the little greenhouse room.
"I would too."
"What's your favorite color, Demi?"
That was random. "I like yellow..."
"Favorite food?"
"Chinese food. And I like eggs too."
"Sorry for the random questions. I still just feel like you're a little Martian. I don't know anything about you. You don't seem like you like much of anything."
"That's not true. I'm just... Simple." I shrug. "I like turtles. I think they're cute. Finding Nemo is the best movie ever. I like reading and drawing. I love music... I'm not a Martian."
"I'm more of a Lion King, Madagascar kind of girl." She chuckles.
I laugh too.
The sliding glass door opens again. Through it walks Nick. He's wearing baggy basketball shorts and a cutoff shirt. I don't see Joe behind him. He must've had to work. I sigh.
"The fun has arrived!" Nick says when he comes outside. I roll my eyes.
"Hey babe." Selena gives him a kiss on his lips and he sits down next to her.
Looks like I'll just be sitting here all night. At least I'm not home, I guess.
Next to me, the water bed moves up abruptly which scares the shit out of me. I look up.
"Was your phone off all day?" He's laying down next to me. He just made my entire night.
"No..." I'm smiling softly. "Which way did you come in? I didn't see you come through the door..."
"I came in the other way. I wanted to surprise you." He sits up and faces me. "Hello, beautiful."
I lean in and give him a kiss. "Hello." I smile at him.
"You're so gorgeous." He pushes me back and lies on top of me, between my legs. We're nose to nose.
"Tonight?" I ask him. I rest my hands on his lower back and look him in his eyes.
"Not tonight, love. Soon, though."
I sigh softly. "Okay..." I rub his back.
He presses his lips to my collarbone. "I'll do what I did last night again though. If you want to..."
I shake my head. "It's okay."
"Why not? Didn't you like it?" He presses his pelvis deeper into mine, and our privates are resting against each other's. He's driving me crazy.
"No, I loved it. I just... Don't want you to do it again. I'll feel bad. That can't... Taste good, you know? And two nights in a row? It's okay."
He laughs softly and kisses my lips again. "If it didn't taste good, I wouldn't offer to do it again, baby." He gives me yet another soft kiss. "But thanks for being concerned."
He gets off me and sits beside me with his arm around my waist.
"Are we gonna smoke this or what?" Nick holds up a small bag of green stuff. I feel a little bit sick all of a sudden.
"We have to smoke it on the trampoline so my mom doesn't smell it." Selena stands up from the water bed and opens up the door to the greenhouse.
I stand up and follow all of them down a couple steps, into Selena's backyard. She doesn't have a pool, but there's a really big trampoline.
Joe walks behind me to the trampoline. I feel really sick.
Before I know it, we're all sitting on her trampoline. Nick zips the net back up when we're all sitting down. I lean back against Joe.
All I do is watch while he takes the green stuff out of the bag and puts it in a long, brown strip of paper. He rolls it up and Selena supplies the lighter.
"Demi's never smoked before, so we'll let her go last." Selena says. She lights it up. It kind of smells good while it burns, but maybe I'm just tripping. I don't think I want to smoke.
"No. She's not smoking. I don't want her to." Joe pulls me closer to him and holds me tight.
"Stop being her dad and loosen up." Nick says to him.
"She's never smoked before, I don't want her to get sick!"
"Let her hit it, Joe. It's just a little weed. Wouldn't you rather her get high with us then some random people?" Selena passes the blunt to Nick. Nick takes a long, hard drag.
"If you feel sick, let me know baby." Joe says to me. He kisses my cheek.
I nod. I already feel sick.
Nick passes the blunt to Joe when he's done with it. Joe takes a drag like a professional.
I don't want to be the only one not high, so I'll try it.
When Joe's done with it, he holds it in front of my face.
"Hit it like a cigarette. But inhale. Like you're doing an inhaler." Selena instructs.
I put my lips on it and inhale it. I inhale until I can't inhale anymore.
"Hold it in..." Joe puts his hand in front of my mouth so I don't blow out.
I don't feel any different yet.
"Let it out." Joe moves his hand.
I blow it out.
I cough slightly, but I'm okay.
Joe hands the blunt back to Selena and the rotation starts all over again.
When it gets back to me, I hold it, inhale it and blow it out all on my own.
I still don't feel any different.
The rotation goes around and gets to me again.
I inhale. I hold it in for 15 seconds. Then blow it out.
My eyes feel like they're shut, but I can see perfectly.
"You feel any different, Demi?" Nick asks me, goofy smile spread all across his face.
I shake my head. Then all of a sudden, I burst out laughing. Nothing's funny, but something is hilarious.
"Are you sure you don't feel different?" Selena laughs at me and accuses me of lying with her tone.
I just fall back, hysterically laughing. "I could go for some fucking cheetos."
"It's the munchies, babe." Joe laughs at me too.
"No, I really want some cheetos. And a big ass bowl of cereal." I keep cracking up and I don't know why.
"You're funny as hell when you're high." Selena laughs again.
Nick's rolling up another blunt. I want to smoke some more.
Am I really high?
"How much fun do you think it'd be to fuck on a trampoline?" I lie flat on my back and open my legs so wide I might as well be doing a split.
Selena laughs HARD. "WE SHOULD TOTALLY TRY IT, NICK!"
I laugh some more. "I WOULD! I FUCKING WOULD!" This is the most fun I've had in a long time.
"Here." Joe hands me another blunt. His eyes are really red. Mine probably are too.
I take it and I inhale. This time, I don't even cough. I blow it out.
"Ash it, babe." Joe says.
I tap on it to flick the ash off, take another hit and then pass it.
"Let's play truth or dare again." Selena laughs hard. So hard she's crying.
Nick laughs too. He coughs and passes the blunt back to Joe. "Joe, truth or dare." He says between coughs.
Joe just has a permanent smile across his face. "Truth."
"Is it true that you and Demi fucked already?"
"That would be false." He laughs so hard at his answer. "Selena, truth or dare."
"Dare. Dare, dare dare."
I'm hitting the blunt again.
"I dare you to give Nick an LD. Right here. Right now."
"That's pussy stuff." She gets up and literally starts shaking her ass all over Nick. He seems to be enjoying it.
I'm just having a good ass time, to be honest.
"Demi, truth or dare, bitch?" Selena hasn't even stopped her dare before she moves on to mine.
"DARE. And nothing PG. keep it rated R." I'm literally just saying so much bullshit right now.
"I DARE YOU... To... Kiss Joe."
"That's PG!" I laugh so hard it's not even funny.
"AND... ANDDDD!" She laughs and keeps shaking her ass on Nick. "You have to dry-fuck him while kissing him."
Without hesitation, I push Joe down so that he's lying down on the trampoline and I straddle him, making sure I'm aligned with what's below his waist. I lean down and kiss him so deep, I practically stick my tongue down his throat. All of a sudden, I'm really horny. It must be the weed.
He doesn't let me go, though. He kisses me back just as deep and just as hard. Our tongues are smashing together HARD.
While I'm kissing him, I move all around below. Grinding on him so hard that I'm wet and I can feel that he's hard. Damn it, I want him so badly.
"WOOOOO!" Nick screams.
"GET IT!" Selena claps.
I pull away from him.
"Are you sure you're a virgin?" Joe asks, completely out of breath.
"I'm good with my hips." I smile back at him.
"Who are you telling?" He grabs my hips tight and pulls me down on his boner some more. I want to fuck him so badly.
"Would you two like a moment?" Selena interrupts.
I stick my middle finger up at her and keep my attention on Joe.
"Take as long as you need to!" Nick laughs some more.
I ignore him and keep doing what I'm doing with Joe. I'm moving my hips the same way I would if I were dancing.
"Damn..." He mutters in my ear.
"What?" I move on and start kissing his neck.
"You really know how to make me want to break my promise..."
"What promise?"
"The promise that I won't fuck you yet."
"Promises are made to be broken."
"If I broke my promise right now, We'd have to go to a sound-proof room." He slides his hands down both my shorts and underwear and rubs my bare ass.
"Why is that?" I keep kissing his neck and grinding all over his hard-on.
"Because I'll have you screaming to the high heavens."
"I'm not complaining about that."
"You'll never complain. Trust me." He moves his hands to the front part of me. This time, his finger slides right in. And I don't even care that I moan.
"Mmmm..." I hate this sexual tension.
"You're dripping..." He kisses my neck and digs his finger deeper. I grab onto his arms to bare with it.
"Uhhhhh... I know... Mmmmm..."
"I wanna taste it..." He whispers to me, pushing every single inch of his finger inside of my body.
"...then taste it." I should flirt ALL the time whenever I'm high. I get so dirty, what happened to me.
"Believe me, I will." He slides another one of his fingers in me.
"Ooooohhhh..." I dig my fingers into his arms.
I'm thinking about doing something. I'm fearless as hell right now.
"You know what they always say..." He kisses below my ear and wiggles his fingers. He's driving me crazy.
"What do th...ey say?" I'm stuttering through my words.
"Virgin pussy is the best pussy."
Fuck it, I'm doing it. I should get high all the time. I like how I feel right now.
I push his hand away and he pulls his fingers out. I kiss him again on the lips and go down to the waistband of his shorts.
I go inside and pull him out of his shorts. And I put my mouth on it.
It's warm, hard and it tastes like salt and soap.
"Demi..."
I ignore him calling my name and work my lips and tongue down his incredible length.
What... Am I doing?
I'm actually giving a boy head. Oh my god. I MUST be high.
I got high and gave head for the first time.
I suck hard on the tip of his dick like it's a lollipop. It doesn't taste bad. It doesn't taste good either.
He reaches down and rubs my head, tangling his fingers all through my hair.
This is bad...
This is very bad.
But I love it.