October 31, 2008
Dear Mom,
Happy Halloween!
Remember how Halloween was always my favorite holiday? I don't know why I like it so much. Everything about Halloween just seems so... Cool to me.
Like the eating truckloads of candy, dressing up in costumes and watching crazy movies. It's just a fun holiday.
A couple of my friends from school are throwing a big Halloween party tonight, with costumes and everything. Aunt Kathy and Uncle Jason are afraid to let me go, so I'm only allowed to go for three hours.
I got a really cute costume at the mall today. We didn't have school today, so I was allowed to go to the mall with Aunt Kathy early. I admit, the costume is a bit slutty. I'm a pink fairy.
Since I'm only allowed to go to the party for a few hours, we're all going to hang out over Nick and Joe's house afterwards. Uncle Jason extended my curfew until 1:30 tonight, as long as I stay over the Jonas house.
The party isn't until 7:00 tonight, so I have about five hours to kill. Until then, I'm going to sit out on the porch and pass out candy to the little trick or treaters. I wish I wasn't too old to trick or treat.
Aunt Kathy painted a pumpkin on her belly earlier to take a picture for the baby book. I helped her draw on the face. I thought it was really cute, but what's even cuter than that is the shirt Uncle Jason bought her. It has a skeleton baby on her tummy.
I still love Halloween.
I guess that's one thing that hasn't changed about me since we moved to Florida.
Until next time,
Love always,
Demi.
"Demi! Trick or treating starts in ten minutes, get down here!" Uncle Jason hollers up the steps.
"I'm coming!" I yell back. I stand up and grab my phone. I don't mind passing out candy. I used to pass out candy back home too.
I go downstairs and stop in the living room. "It starts in ten minutes?"
Aunt Kathy hands me a green bowl with Frankenstein's face painted on it. "Yes, come on. You have to dress up too."
"...You never said that."
"I dress up every year to pass out candy. Just put the mouse ears on, and let me give you a nose." She hands me a pair of ears with a red bow with white spots on it. I guess it's supposed to be Minnie Mouse.
I put the ears on top of my head. She never said anything about dressing up.
"Here, just let me give you a nose." Aunt Kathy takes her black eyeliner pencil and colors my nose in black. She also gives me whiskers.
"You never said anything about me dressing up..." I grumble.
"Be a good sport about it or you won't get your Halloween present." Uncle Jason puts a few more mini Snickers in the Frankenstein bowl.
"Halloween present?" I have a Halloween present? Since when?
"Yes. Halloween present. It's in the backyard. But you don't get it until you finish passing out candy, and you have to be a good sport about it." Aunt Kathy adjusts my mouse ears.
"...okay." I'm a little excited, but not that excited. What could they possibly have for me? I already have everything. "Come on, Jorge." I pick Jorge up and bring him outside with me.
I sit in a chair on the porch, and Jorge sits next to me. Even Jorge got into the Halloween spirit. He has a hotdog outfit on, and it fits, because he is a wiener dog.
I kick my feet and wait for the little kids to come get their candy.
I remember why I love Halloween so much.
November 1, 2008
Dear Mom,
Last night was awesome. I had a blast.
Handing out the the candy was really cute. Aunt Kathy and Uncle Jason made me dress up as Minnie Mouse to hand the candy out. I was okay with it, for the most part.
All these kids were dressed up so cutely! There was a Woody, a Buzz Lightyear, a Batman, a black cat, a princess and my personal favorite was a baby dressed up as a green bean. It was so cute.
The party turned out to be really lame. Nobody danced and everyone just stood around. I got offered a drink or two, but I didn't drink. The smell of alcohol almost made me sick. The party was so uninteresting that we didn't stay the whole three hours I was allowed. Nick called Joe to pick us up early.
After I went home and changed, we went back to Joe's house. All we did was watch movies and stuff. I fell asleep on Joe's chest, and he was in charge of getting me home.
All in all, last night wasn't that productive. Even though it wasn't very productive, I still had the time of my life.
Sometimes, I feel like things are really going good, then I get the feeling that it won't last. I hope it lasts.
Uncle Jason asked me about the ring that Joe gave me today. He was convinced that it was an engagement ring. He gave me a long speech about how I was way too young to get married. It took a lot of convincing for him to believe that it wasn't an engagement ring.
I also went to the gynecologist today. Mom, it was SO weird! I didn't even know I had to go, Aunt Kathy just surprised me. She said it was less traumatic if I didn't know what was coming.
I felt so violated...
At first, the lady felt my boobs. She was asking me about school while rubbing my boobs. It was so weird.
Then, she had me take my panties off and she swabbed a q-tip in my crouch and it was so strange. I felt horribly embarrassed.
After the q-tip thing, she had me pee in a cup. And after peeing in a cup, she asked me all about my sexual history. Now I have birth control pills.
At the end of the visit, she told me I was completely healthy down there. I'm not pregnant, I don't have any STDs and I don't have a yeast infection. I just thought that was gross.
I told Joe I have birth control now, but he still wants to use condoms. I guess he really does care about me that much.
Uncle Jason was really upset with me when we ate lunch today.
We all ate lunch in the living room, watching TV when Aunt Kathy told him where we came back from. He was upset that I'm having sex with Joe.
He told me that it's my body and I can have sex if I want to, but he was disappointed that it was with someone so much older. I told him that Joe wasn't like that and it was the end of the conversation.
Being that today is only Saturday, it's pretty sad that I don't want to go to school on Monday.
I'm going out with Joe today, finally, so I guess I have to go. I'm not sure where Joe's taking me, so it'll just be a surprise.
Until next time,
Love always,
Demi.
As soon as I'm done writing my letter, I grab my phone and call Joe.
He will NOT tell me where he's taking me, but I need to know because I don't know how I should dress.
"Hello beautiful..." Joe answers the phone. I can tell by the tone of his voice that he's smiling.
"Hey..." I'm smiling too.
"Are you ready for me to come get you? We have to get going by 4:30..."
"Why?"
"I'm not telling you why. Just know that we have to go before 3:30."
"Okay... But can you tell me how I should dress? Should I wear a bathing suit... A jacket... What should I wear?"
"Wear jeans, a long sleeve shirt and some tenner shoes. We'll be outside for a long time."
"...Alright."
"See you in a couple minutes."
"See you."
He hangs up the phone and I plug my phone back into the charger. I'm dying to know where he's taking me.
I pull on a pair of comfortable jeans. Luckily, my cuts are healed enough to have jeans rub against them without hurting too terribly.
After my jeans, I pull on a long sleeve, hot pink shirt with "Hollister" written down the arm in lime green letters. He said wear shoes, so I put on the sparkly pair of converse that my aunt bought me when we went school shopping. It's the first time I've worn these shoes.
For the first time in forever, I straightened my hair. It's really, really long. It falls a little past my breasts. I don't think Joe ever seen me with my hair straightened. I hope he likes it.
I spray myself with perfume, stick my phone in my back pocket and head downstairs.
"Aunt Kathy? Does my makeup look okay?" I go to the kitchen and sit down in front of her. She's busy reading a cookbook.
"...I like the pink. It looks nice on your skin." She looks up from the cookbook and swipes away stray eyeshadow. "You're such a pretty girl."
"Thanks."
"Your hair's getting long, girly. You need a haircut."
"I know." I tap my fingers on the marble island.
"You don't know where he's taking you?"
"Nope."
"Well it's 3:15. You're leaving at 3:30?"
"Before 3:30."
"Why?"
"Don't Know." I pick up a stick of Winterfresh gum and pop it in my mouth.
Almost as if it was on cue, I hear the faint beeping outside. "Gotta go." I stand up from the barstool. "Oh... Aunt Kathy?"
"What, Demi?"
"What about my Halloween present?"
"...Remind me about it when you come home later. It's still out in the backyard."
"Okay... I haven't looked out there."
"Hurry up and go, you're gonna be late for your date."
"Alright... He said we'll be home around 11:30, maybe 12:00. I'll call you when we're on our way home." I grab an extra jacket in case it gets colder tonight and dash out the door.
I climb in the car with Joe. "Hey!"
"Hello..." He kisses my lips. "Buckle up, we gotta get going."
"Now will you tell me where we're going?"
"Nope. I will tell you that it's an hour and a half drive though." He starts driving towards the way to get on the highway.
"...So it's not in Daytona?"
"Nope. It's in an entirely different city." He pushes on the gas pedal when we get on the highway. His car goes so fast.
"Miami?" I ask. That's the only other big city in Florida I can think of right now.
"Stop guessing, Demi. Be surprised." He grips the wheel tighter and pushes the gas some more. He's going about 70 mph.
He's wearing a dark red, long sleeve muscle shirt and dark blue jeans. "We're gonna be outside the whole time?"
"Yeah." He reaches over and holds my hand. "We have an hour and half..."
"An hour and a half in the car with you? Oh god." I say, sarcastically.
"An hour and a half." He chuckles. "An hour and a half to get to know each other..." He kisses my hand.
"We already know each other." I look out the window.
"I don't know you as much as I want to know you, babe."
"Well what do you wanna know?"
"Everything. Like your favorite color..."
"You know that. It's yellow."
"Do you know mine?"
"Blue and green."
"Your birthday is August 20th, isn't it?"
"Mhm. And yours is the 15th."
"What about my favorite food? You know that?" He strokes my hand.
"Tacos, right?"
He smiles. "And yours is Chinese." He kisses my hand again. "I love you."
"I love you too."
"Can you believe that Nick and Selena are gonna have a baby? That's nuts..."
"I know... I don't know if I feel bad or not..."
"What do you mean by that babe?"
"It's just... Selena and Nick were having sex like... Three times a day without protection or anything. U mean, Selena was on birth control but she wasn't using it right..." I explain.
"Yeah." He sighs and turns a corner. We're officially out of Daytona Beach. "I can't believe Nick was that stupid. He knew to protect himself..."
"Yeah... But Selena always told me it felt better without one."
"It does. It feels a LOT better without a condom. But I'll never do it without one again. It feels good as hell without, but I can't risk that."
"I have birth control now, so we're okay. And I take I'll take it right..."
"I'll never get you pregnant, Demi. NEVER."
"It's not that big of a deal if you did. I mean, I don't want a baby, But if you did get me pregnant it wouldn't be all that big of a deal..."
"I'll still never do that to you, babe. You have every right to be a teenager and to enjoy your time to be free. I'd never make a baby fuck that up for you."
I smile. "That's good to know, Joe..."
"I love you too much for that."
"I love you too. ...I do want a baby someday... To you."
"Don't be stupid, Demi. You'll meet someone else when you go to college."
"I don't want to go to college out of Florida. I want to be with you..."
"You're going to college, Demi. If I have to work three jobs just to support you, you're GOING to college. If you want to be with me, you're GOING to college. I want you to be the best you can be."
"I want to go to art school or something..."
"You're an amazing artist, baby girl. If you really want to be with me, and art school is what you want, you'll go to art school. I'll have a baby with you. But when we can both afford it, when we're stable in our careers."
"...Okay." I smile. "I hope we have a girl someday."
"I want a boy." He laughs.
I laugh back and look at the time. "We've been in the car for an hour. It doesn't even seem like it's been that long..."
"It doesn't seem like it. But it's because I love spending time with you." He stops at a stoplight.
"Will you tell me where we're going NOW?"
"You'll know in a half hour. In fact, you should start to see signs here in a minute..."
"Signs?"
"Direction signs. That tell you how to get to where we're going." He kisses my cheek and starts driving again.
"All I know us that we're in Orlando..." I sigh and look out the window. I don't see any signs.
"Demi, would it kill you to be surprised?"
"...Yeah, it would."
"Just a half hour more. Not even a half hour. Like... 15 minutes and we're there."
"Where are we GOING?!"
"DEMI!"
"I JUST WANT TO KNOW..."
"Fifteen minutes!" He keeps going straight. I notice that he's distracting me from looking at signs out the window. "You just missed the sign babe!"
"YOU DISTRACTED ME!"
"Ten more minutes!"
"WHERE ARE WE GOING!?"
"Just a little while longer!"
"JOE! TELL ME!"
"Just wait!"
"PLEASE?!"
"...Demi, roll down your window and look at the sign." He slows to a stop and puts his turn signal on.
I roll down the window and stick my head out into the cool, November air. I finally see it. It's beautiful.
Arched in front me, hanging HIGH in the air, it's there.
Atop of the sign, there's a shiny blue castle with pink flags sitting in white clouds. On each side of the castle, there is a red flag, a purple flag and a blue flag. Below the flags and castle, there is a peach strip with red letters on it. The red letters read: Walt Disney World
Below the red letters, there's a blue scroll with sparkly silver letters on it. The letters say: "where dreams come true."
"DISNEY WORLD?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!"
He laughs at me. "I'm serious..."
"YOU'RE TAKING ME TO DISNEY WORLD?!"
"Why not?"
"JOE!"
"What?!"
"DISNEY!?"
He laughs and turns into the parking lot. "Happy anniversary, babe."
I really, really, really...
Think I'm going to cry.