Walk this world alone try to stay on my feet
Sometimes crawl, fall, but I stand up cause I'm afraid to sleep
Open my eyes to a new day, with all new problems and all new pain
All the faces are filled with so much anger
Losing our dignity and hope from fear of danger
After all the wars, after settling the scores,
at the break of dawn we will be deaf to the answers
Looking for angles - Skillet

When it started...

The sun wasn't even awake when he stepped outside. The cold wind cut in his skin and the chill air let him shiver. He signed and looked angry the street in. The door slammed on the lock, only to be opened again by a very annoyed young boy. "Look Sam, you may be angry, but dad didn't mean it." the boy told the young youth. Er where a silence. "You know what Sam, you a wussy." That got an reaction. The boy turned around glaring. "You're always complaining. Don't you think that dad wants this?" He trow up his arms. "Why don't you understand that dad wants rust and not a son back talking?"

Sam looked with wide eyes at his big brother, at his hero. "Because he started Dean! I let it slip and wanted to clean it up.. but he started screaming at me! What was I supposed to do? I tried to tell him, but he, Dean, he didn't want to hear it!" Sam closed his eyes, how dare he? He wasn't even there. Dean nodded. "Shut up, Dean! Just go away." Without waiting for a reaction, he walked away.

There both went an another way. With Dean sitting on a college and Sam still sitting in high school, there didn't see each other all the day. Sam liked it, but Dean didn't. Dean sat in a college because that building was haunted and John was to old. But there believed Dean and let him in. It wasn't that he liked it. He wanted to be with Sammy. Beside that Sam liked it. He could do what he wanted to do. He could go for a run, he could hang out with friend and he could even pass the lesson without Dean breathing down on his shoulder. Yeah, this was good life.

Sam smiled when he walked down the gang in the building what supposed to be his school. A girl smiled and waved at him and he walked over to her.
Without saying something she hugged him and stroke his head. It was something she always did. He didn't know why but he didn't mind.

"Hello Anna." He smiled at her. She was wearing a wide hoody and over her brown long hair that riches her butt wore she a cap. A black cap with neon pink letters, he still had to read. She wore a skinny jeans and black sneakers. There where in each others classes. The first day that Sam came here, she was the first one to accept him. Jeff, Sharon, Lea and Peter followed her. The rest still didn't like him. "How you're doing?"

She nodded. "I'm doing fine, a little fight with me dad. A punch here and there, but where are friends again." She told him as if it was the normalst thing in the world and it was for her. Sam smiled sadly if he nodded.

"I don't understand how you're dad could beat you. I would think I break you if I do." Anna laughed and hit him on the shoulder. "Sjeez, I'm just joking, you don't have to punch me." She rolled her eyes and winked at him. Two another children came up to them. Anna hugged them both and Sam nodded.

"Hello Jeff, Sharon." The three smiled at each other while Anna started dancing. Sam stared down at her. How could she be this happy? Why couldn't he just let it go like she did? Why did he have to spill everything and couldn't he suck everything up. Because your not Dean.He shook his head. Dean didn't have to suck it up. Dad is never been mad at Dean because Dean is perfect. He looks up when Anna take his hand and squeeze in it. He squeezed back. She laughed and punch him one more time. "I don't like it when you're pouting."

"Hey! I never pout!" Sam yelled quickly.

"No its just his face. Pouting is in his earth." Laughed Jeff. "Sorry mate, life isn't fair."

The four of them laughed. Without an warning Lea walked up to them and without saying something and ignoring everyone, she took the hand of Anna and pulled her out of the group. "I heard what happen, you know this isn't good. You serious have to tell someone before you die. Not by his hands, but by you're hands. You're killing... " Was the last thing Sam could hear.

Jeff looked at the two. "There both are acting weird. Anna more then Lea. She is always doing something to get her mind off something. Idunno, why...!"

"She is just a drama queen." beamed Sharon. "Don't you think Sam?" There both looked at him waiting for an answer.

"No."

"Pff.. you're just like her." Wined Jeff. "Why don't you..." He was under broken by Anna. "Leave me alone! You don't understand anything.. you don't understand how it feels when my dad punch me because he loves me. You don't know how it is to lose control and now I have something where I have control over and you want to take it from me! HOW DARE YOU! I HATE YOU... JUST WALK AWAY LIKE EVERYONE DO! Just go...!" She screamed and walked past them, angry. Sam immediately walked after her.

"Anna wait!" He said before taking her arm. "Do you wanna sit down with me?" She nodded without turning around. In silence there walked outside and sat down on the ground. "Do you wanna talk about it Anna?" She nodded and pulled her legs to her stomach.

"Does your dad hit you, Sam?" She asked softly without looking up.

"Why are you asking me that?"

"Because your the only one who doesn't yell that its not normal. You listen and act like it is normal, like you know how it is to be punched by someone who you love. So Sam, please be honest does your daddy hit you or do you think I deserve it?"

Sam pulled a shocked face. "How could you say your deserve it? No one deserve something like that." He shook his head and stared at her, but she didn't look back at him. "Its just he's always mad.. always Anna. He hates my gut, I know he does and something I push him to fair and then he ... But no one knows, so don't tell someone alright? Its a secret from me and dad. Even Dean doesn't know, he just thinks I'm a wussy."

Anna shook her head and looked up crying. "How do you take control? How do you control you're life?" Sam shrugged.

"I don't." He smiled sadly. "When he says its time to go, I go. When he says to jump, I jump and when he gives me an order, I follow it."

"How can you life like that? You know I did that and I couldn't take it anymore. So I ended up finding the control I needed."

"How?"

"I stopped eating. I still try to stop it. I didn't know it early but I was fat just like you guys.. sorry I don't wanna offences you or someone else. But its true, your all fat and so am I. But I'm getting rid of it, so he would love me better. I'm getting perfect for him and so I'm gonna get my control back, don't you wanted that?" She looked right passed him. "Don't you want that Sam? Be even perfect as Dean.. getting the control back?"

Sam kept silence.

"I trough so. Become perfect for him! Stop eating with me.. lets stop together. Eating is becoming fat, fat isn't perfect.. lets do it together. LETS STOP EATING. Where going to be perfect. Where going get us control back.." She kept going.

"Anna..." Tried Sam.

"No don't 'Anna' me, just do it, with me."

"Why Anna?"

"Because I love you Samuel Winchester." He didn't catch or think something about it that she knew his real name and didn't call him Sam Wessel like he was called here. "Please, lets do it together and be my best friend, no be me boyfriend and we going make us perfect together.. please Sammy!"

Sam blinked.. "Sure Anna, Sure." He smiled and crossed his fingers. I'm so not going to stop eating!

TBC...