He didn't realize how painful having a child could be. He didn't realize that a child came with so many bad memories and thoughts—what it he were to die and leave his precious Amelia behind before she was ready, like both his parents had done to him.
There was times when he'd be looking at his adorable, little Mia and he'd start crying. She had his mother's eyes. He was only ten when he was orphaned—Mother was dead and Father didn't have time for him…He was parentless, only loved by those who had to love him. The love wasn't real.
He would never abandon Amelia like that.