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lol, I stayed up til one in the morning to publish this XD
China aru...cuz like...Russia's is hard.
I sighed, looking through the cupboards. Crying would have to wait until nighttime. Everyone sat in the dining table, silent. Japan was drawing, Thailand was playing a video game. Vietnam was brushing Taiwan's hair and Hong Kong was reading. Korea...was...not Korea. He looked blankly at the wall, doing nothing. Everyone was tense.
"S-so what does everyone want to eat aru?" I asked happily, busying myself with taking out things. Everyone flinched.
Silence.
"Hello aru? What does everyone want?" Korea stood up slamming a fist onto the table, which shuddered at the impact.
"For you to be happy Aniki, that's all," He said angrily. I stayed silent.
"...Aniki? ...say something..." Korea said nervously.
"I guess I'll just make soup then aru," I decided, taking out the ingredients.
We all ate quietly, slowly. It was a first. I felt bad though, knowing that I caused it.
"D-does anyone want to watch a movie aru?"
"No," they replied at the same time.
"W-want to play a g-game then?" I asked.
"No," They said again. I sank back in my chair. They weren't helping me forget. Suddenly there was a knock on the door. Hong Kong stood up, to answer it.
"Chi-" He slammed the door shut. I sat up straighter.
"Who was it aru?" I said, as he sat back down.
"No one," He said. I stood up, frowning.
"Sit down," Hong Kong said, looking at me severely. I frowned. Walking towards the door.
"I'll get it," Korea mumbled. I stopped as he went. Again, there was a slamming of the door.
"It's no one Aniki," Korea mumbled, continuing to eat.
"Uh huh.." I nodded, walking. Taiwan stood up, blocking my way.
"There is no way I'm letting you answer the door," He said tightly.
"I-it's Russia isn't it aru?" I said smiling.
"How did you-" Vietnam asked, as I went to open the door. Sure enough, Russia was there, with a bouquet of sunflowers, sitting on the porch swing, looking down, upset.
"Are you looking for anyone aru?" I asked politely. He looked up relieved.
"Ch-"
"Are you looking for anyone aru?" I repeated, a little strained. He looked down again, biting his lip. I walked to the edge of the swing.
"H-here dah," He said, handing me the flowers, not looking up. I took them, confused. They were beautiful. And smelled slightly of Vodka and Russia.
"Who should I give this to aru?" I asked.
"E-eto.." He looked at the trees desperately. The Allies probably sent him here, and were spying on him this very moment.
"You can go aru, no one is forcing you," I smiled reassuring. He looked up at me, torn. I backed away a little.
"R-right," He said shakily, standing up, walking down the steps. I instinctively followed. He froze as I froze with him, realizing what I was doing. I turned around, but he caught my wrist. Again. I tugged slightly, turning around.
"L-look aru, I have to go back t-" I was cut off. He pulled- no, yanked me closer, pressing his lips against mine firmly, stopping my words. He wrapped his hands around my back pulling my closer. I stood there frozen, dropping the flowers. His hand came up to neck, desperately, trying to get a reaction from me.
Someone cleared there throat behind me.
"I dunno why, every time he comes I don't feel like eating..." Korea said suddenly. I blinked, pushing Russia, breaking us apart. I was panting slightly, as Russia stumbled to the floor in a daze, slightly heated. Someone gave a silent cheer behind me. I closed my eyes, breathing heavily, turning toward my family.
I flashed my eyes open, they all backed away a step. I walked towards them, slowly. They all backed away at the same pace.
"E-err...we were about to go back inside.." Thailand smiled nervously, taking his escape with everyone else following him. I sighed again, walking up the steps.
"Ch-china wait.." Russia said behind me. I frowned, stopping at the door, turning around.
"What is it aru?" I asked casually. He got up from the floor, picking up the flowers.
"Sorry dah," He said shakily, "F-for ever thing..." He looked down. I didn't reply. I simply turned around, closing the door gently. He thought that a kiss would make it better...
Darkness. My best friend at the moment. I was on the edge of my bed, rocking back and forth silently. Water pouring from my eyes. Whatever aru. I checked the clock. 4 in the morning. The flowers. I regretted dropping them. And pushing Russia-san away. How many times did I want him to kiss me? And now he did...and I ruined it. My hands went to my mouth automatically. I staggered up. M-maybe Russia-san left the flowers. I checked everyone's room. Korea's was a mess, but he was asleep, as well as everyone else. I opened the door, as cold air greeted me. I shivered looking around. The flowers were at my feet.
For some reason I blushed. I looked around, making sure no one was looking. And who would be awake this time at my house? I quickly picked them up, closing the door. I inhaled Russia's scent with the sunflowers, smiling a little. They were just as bright when Russia-san brought them.
I went back to my room, slipping under the covers. With the flowers next to me. I shivered, still crying. But I felt a bit better. I closed my eyes going to sleep.
I woke up to a scream and clattering of pots. Which was usual. I stretched, getting off the bed, with a minor headache. It was 9 am. I picked up the flowers giving them a whiff before going to the bathroom. I came out, still brushing my hair. I smiled at the flowers, tying my hair, opening the door to my room. There was more noises, I hope Korea didn't burn my kitchen.
I was greeted by an egg breaking on my face. All went quiet. I wiped it off, looking for the culprit.
"What are you guys doing aru?" I groaned. I smacked them all as I went to get a paper towel, wiping my face. I put on my apron and looked at them expectantly.
"I'll clean later, what do you want to eat aru?" Everyone looked away.
"W-we'll cook.." Vietnam.
"Yes," Japan nodded, walking toward me. I frowned.
"Can I not make the food or something aru?" I joked. They shifted.
"Uhh...well, Korea wanted American food, and we'll make it so yea.." Taiwan said nervously.
"We all wanted it!" Korea protested.
"Oh," I said. I wasn't going to eat. I gave my apron to Japan.
"M-make sure they don't make a mess aru," I sighed, walking upstairs again, sitting on the bed. Low arguments came from the kitchen. I grabbed the flowers, staring at the painting.
"If I knew you liked it so much, I would have brought more dah," Came a voice from the window. I gasped.
"W-wha? Russia-san?" I asked. He was sitting on the window-sill, like he was there the whole time. He nodded.
"H-how long have you been here aru?" I asked nervously. His casual friendly face dropped.
"Long enough dah," He said quietly. What does he mean aru? I mentally panicked. He walked closer to me, as I backed away.
"Tell me, do you cry every night when you sleep? Koru koru?" He added pleasantly. I reflexively flinched, holding the flowers closer to me.
"Y-yes," I answered, knowing he knew I wasn't playing dumb.
"Really? And no one knows in your family, koru koru?" I trembled. What was he doing? I shook my head.
"Why?" He asked.
"A-ano," I said breathlessly, "B-becuase b-being a big brother I-I can't show th-them that I-I do aru? Th-that I am hurt?" I asked, unsure.
He walked closer, pressing me to the wall. I trembled, my eyes getting watery.
"Why do you cry dah?" He asked. I clutched the flowers, looking at them. He sighed, pulling the the flowers away from my hand, throwing them over his shoulder. My eyes widened as they fell to the ground in a soft thump.
"M-my f-flowers a-aru.." I choked.
"So? They are just flowers da, besides. I'm the one who gave them to you," He said matter of factly. B-but I can touch the flowers, holding them as close as I want to...but I can't with you. I word selfish idly whizzed through my mind.
"Wh-what do you want aru?" I asked tiredly, "Humiliate me? Tire me? Take my happiness aru?" His expression changed abruptly.
"A-Niki!~" Korea said, knocking on the door, "Breakfast is ready!~ And we didn't burn the kitchen!" He said excitedly. I smiled naturally at his enthusiasm. I looked up at Russia expectantly.
"I-if I kiss you will you kiss me back dah?" He whispered. My smile faded as my blood ran cold.
"Kissing someone doesn't make things better aru," I pushed him back slightly, wiping my tears. I opened the door, and walked out.
"Lets see how much of a mess you made aru," I smiled, following him.
Russia-san
The window, wide open, let cold air in, making me feel more empty then necessary. He left me. That was twice now. No three. Or Four. Or Ten. Thousand. I turned around, picking up the flowers. How can something so small mean so much to China?
"Something so tiny could mean everything to someone," England murmured, still staring at the slice he was given.
Oh.
I heard clattering downstairs. Why did I bother China so much? It's not like I love him. I probably scare him. He was probably terrified, deluding himself into thinking that he loved me. I wasn't someone to be loved. I simply didn't deserve it. I fell to my knees, staring at the flowers. America simply used me. I was not that kind of material. And I was hurting China. Truth was, I wanted to kill America. Not America, Alfred. I wanted to murder Alfred, the one person I trusted the irrational feeling of love with.
"Alfred...I hate you da," I whispered to myself.
"R-russia aru...can you please leave...Korea decided to throw a surprise party for me aru..." China said. But stopped as soon as he saw me. I was probably crying. He trembled, wrapping his arms around my shoulder, shaking me gently.
"R-russia, come on...don't cry," China cooed. I shuddered. He let go of me, lifting my chin up, so we were staring at each others eyes, a few inches apart. I thought he was going to kiss me.
"One tear is worth a million jewels, don't cry aru," He whispered. I blinked, actually stopping.
"A-and wh-what about yours huh?" I asked, "Y-you shattered a lot of jewels then dah.." I trailed off. He shook his head.
"I-it's different for me aru. One tear is simply one drop of moisture, failing to heal hidden but painful wounds," I looked at him confused, barely making sense of his words.
"L-like I believe that, dah" I muttered sarcastically.
"I know you do aru," He smiled.
"A-NIKI!~ THE PARTAY IS COMING UPSTAIRS!~" There were heavy footsteps. His family must have thrown a party at moments notice. The door flew open. We both looked up, our cheeks almost touching. The noise faded quickly.
"I thought we made it clear you were NOT allowed to come," Vietnam said firmly.
"Oh, its Russia," America said, hiding partially behind England. England looked at China, who was blushing looking at the floor. I looked at him blankly. All emotions and feelings for America were gone. I did not love him. I had no reason to love him, since love was so irrational.
"L-leave now..." Taiwan said, trembling.
"You guys aru.." China mumbled, standing up. I stopped him, grabbing his hand.
"N-no I should go," I said, standing up. He didn't reply. He only looked at our interlaced hands, petrified. Everyone fidgeted. I broke away, as he blinked, his eyes a little glassy. He looked up, blinking again, the glassy hollow look gone. His expression was unreadable.
"R-right aru," He looked down. Korea crossed his arms.
"Hurry up, we have a party for Aniki," Korea crossed his arms. I idly wondered how fun it would be to bash his nose into his sku-
"I don't think a party was going to make it any better," France murmured. Korea suddenly looked worn out, defeated.
"S-so Aniki will stay like this forever?" He asked like child. I felt China stiffen, his eyes on Korea. Why couldn't I do that to him? Everyone looked at me for a second then back at China.
France clapped his hands, "I suggest that this is the end of the party. Lets go people," He said, ushering them away.
In the end, only the Allies and Axis stayed. China's family moved to the other room, the walls so thin I could here there crying, swearing, and rants. England and America rest on the bed, as I continued to sit on the floor, holding the flowers loosely. France and Canada were looking out the window, holding their hands lightly. Italy was looking at China's vairuos collection of cute things, as Germany followed, making sure he didn't break anything. Japan switched rooms every few minutes.
"So, did you apologize?" Canada asked, continuing to stare out the window. I nodded.
"Did he accept ve?~" Italy asked, holding up a plushie, placing it gently down again.
"I-I don't know dah.." I replied nervuosly.
"Why not?" Arthur demanded. I flinched.
"I-I don't know!" I cried, putting my head in my face.
"He had nothing to be sorry for aru," We all flinched. China stood at the door frame, Japan behind him nervuosly.
"Of course he did!" England said angrily, getting up from the bed. China looked at him weirdly.
"What did he do aru that was so wrong aru?" China asked.
"uhh...I don't know, everything?" Arthur spat back.
"What do you mean 'everything'? Is it his fault Korea destroyed one of my woks? That America broke up with him aru?" He raised his eyebrows. England blinked.
"W-well..." He was baffled.
"Becuase," France said, diverting his attention to China, "He doesn't love you," China's reaction was surprising. China froze, then stiffly turned to France.
"He w-what aru?" He trembled.
"He doesn't love you..." France mumbled, not as harsh.
"B-but..you s-still like m-me right aru?" He looked at me, his eyes were begging.
"W-well.." I trailed off, unsure of how to answer at the moment.
His eyes glistened, and he quickly wiped his hands across his eyes, "Oh.." His voice was low, slightly distorted, "I-I...need a moment aru," He said in the same voice. He pushed Japan and left.
Silence.
"Why were you so harsh? Dude, that was just...low," America said, his eyes narrowing.
"Low? Low? You are in no position to say that da," I glared at him. France spoke over me.
France shrugged, "I-I know, I do regret it...but its better be told the truth then lied to,"
America sighed, pulling England back down, nestling his neck as England blushed, immeadietly telling him to stop it.
Canada trembled, "W-why i-is- Wh-what on earth does he think he is doing!" He said abruptly, looking at the window, "Going out into the woods at night, in this weather?" He said.
"What?" We all said in unision. Japan opened the lock, throwing open the window.
"Ch-china? Where are you- CHINA!" Japan stopped, looking at Germany, "H-he is gone, I think he is to far to have heard. China runs very fast." Germany nodded.
"Lets go, everyone, he is...small..."Germany struggled, trying to not offend China's appearence, "And can hide very diligently, we need for people, more space to cover." He ordered.
"Just like last time?" England sighed, getting off again. I looked down. Why did I have to mess everything up? I should have lied. France was wrong. It was better to be happy than sad. It had nothing to do with lies and truths.
Russia is a hypocrite... :T Dun hate me ;A;
Plus, who that one line I wrote? "One tear is worth a million jewels, don't cry..." Well, my mom said my dad use to say that whenever my mom started to cry.. TT^TT It sounded adorable okay?I had to put it... :'D
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