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Russia's POV
I sat on my chair, staring at the large double doors impatiently. Nations started coming in, lingering around, or sitting down, organizing papers. Any minute now China would come. I didn't know why I was so anxious.
-His amber brown eyes, usually warm and genial were cold and fierce. I listened to his words numbly. The China I knew would never be so mean, never. I was lost. How could someone change so drastically over the course of a few short weeks?-
Belarus sat down next to me, adjusting the bow on her hair. Ukraine was talking animatedly with a very confused Estonia on my other side. America and England walked in. America caught my eye momentarily. I gave him an eerie smile and he shuddered, looking away. France was following behind them, pestering England about something followed by the Asian countries. China and Japan weren't one of them. Then a few minutes later, when almost everyone was seating, they walked in. They weren't making physical contact or anything but my hands still clenched in my lap. They sat next to each other, seats closer than necessary.
It's me, you're suppose to love me da…
The meeting started normally, and then turned into its usual ruckus. France and England started fighting, Germany was yelling at everyone to maintain order and Romano was trying to lob tomatoes at him. People started getting up and bicker loudly, but China and Japan stayed seating, talking in undertones. Italy skipped up to them. I strained my ears to listen.
"Ve!~ World meetings are so fun!" He said dodging a tomato narrowly, sitting down next to Japan, where Switzerland would usually sit but was having a haughty argument with Austria on the other side of the room.
"I thought they were designed to help with international peace aru," China joked, gesturing towards the bickering countries. Japan smiled at him.
America scrabbled on top of the head of the oval table, starting to sing his national anthem at the top of his lungs, "OH SAY CAN YOU SEEEEEE!~"
"AMERICA MAKING A FOOL OUT OF HIM SEEELF!" France continued in the same tune. I frowned, annoyed, trying to block them out.
"Ne ne, there is a carnival tonight! Doitsu's taking me! You two are going right?" Italy asked them loudly over America's and France'singing.
"So training is cancelled today?" Japan asked. Italy nodded eagerly.
"Do you want to go together aru?" He asked Japan. Japan looked away in embarrassment but then nodded.
"We're going then aru," He confirmed to Italy.
"We'll see you there then!~ It'll be so fun! There'll be games and food and rides and a lot of people are going! Eto…I wonder if big brother Spain is going, I'm going to go ask him. Later!" He gave a wave and walked away.
"It's like getting so loud in here with America singing and all. Hey Russia, can't you do anything?" Poland asked to me, flipping his hair.
"Da?" I turned around.
"Well who cares about the singing, guess what I heard!" He said eagerly. I clenched my jaw, "China and Japan are dating! Wicked isn't it? I thought he was into you but I guess he got over it and-"
"P-poland! Look, that nation is wearing the same shirt as you!" Lithuania came.
"What?"Poland whirled around and Lithuania hastily shoved Poland away from me.
Usually I enjoyed world meetings, enjoying looking at other countries acting foolish but today I slipped out of the noisy room dodging tomatoes, feeling miserable. It was a lot quieter outside, the noise was muffled. I walked up and down the hall, contemplating whether or not I should go to the carnival.
The lighting was still dim (someone should fix that) and the small office in which China and I once were alone was unlocked. I walked into the claustrophobic room. I should have stayed that time da, I thought. I should have stayed with China and not run after Belarus. Things would be different. I felt strange. Was it remorse? Remorse, I felt it a few times, but never like this. It hurt to breath. Remorse.
I walked out of the room, hoping that the reason it hurt to breathe was because it was probably too stuffy in the tiny office. At the same time China and Japan walked out of the room with their hands intertwined. They were talking again, in hushed voices. What in the world was there to talk about all the time like that? They didn't notice me, and even if they did they made no gesture to show it, and walked in the opposite direction where the elevators were. I stood there a few desolate minutes and the double doors burst open spilling out the other nations. The meeting was probably over. Or cancelled. Belarus saw me and made her way towards me.
"Nii-san?" She said, walking to me "Is something wrong?" She asked innocently. I shook my head mechanically. Her face clouded with worry.
I think it's remorse da, "Just a little headache. The world meeting today is so noisy today, da"
"Yep, that's why China left with Japan early," She said slyly as I blanched, "Ne ne Nii-san, take me to the carnival tonight!" She added enthusiastically.
"Da?" I asked confusingly.
"A carnival at a local park! Take me!" She looped her arms around mine; tugging me to the elevators where nations waited to leave, some taking the stairs, "Buy me some things, and let's play some games together! Win me a toy," She said in a slightly raspy voice which she got whenever she was excited. Which was not good.
"L-like a date or something da?" I managed to say. The elevator doors dinged and opened. Belarus dragged me in with her.
"Of course not!" She feigned hurt, "I'm trying to…what's the word…refrain myself. It's not like brothers and sisters can't go out to carnivals and still not be brother and sister!"
"But I'm not seeing anyone, da," I said suspiciously, "Why would you want to refrain?" Some countries got into the elevators I didn't notice.
"Didn't I tell you the last World Meeting?" She said, her tone more serious, "People change Nii-san," She said, in a quietly, deadly-like voice. I shuddered.
"O-of course," I agreed. I looked away as the elevator doors closed and we started going down. America, England, and Poland were inside. America's hair was wet and filled with tomato seeds, his suit stained with tomato juice. He met my eyes. He looked pained, as if that would make up for everything he inflicted on me. I stared back, not sure what emotion I was feeling. Or maybe I wasn't feeling anything.
"But of course, some fags never change," Belarus snarled, pushing past me, her fingers held up in a retracted way as if they were claws instead of hands. She stalked towards America in the cramped moving elevator.
"H-hey Belarus! It's not like that!" England put himself in front of America, blocking her as I held her back. Poland looked at us wide eyes, his eyes wide in excitement. More gossip. I grimaced.
"It's okay Bela," I said. She eased back.
"Hey Russia, I know we never got a chance to talk properly but I just want to apologize-" America suddenly burst out.
"I know you're not sorry da," I narrowed my eyes at America as the elevator doors dinged and opened, letting us out. He froze.
"I am, I really am-" England tugged America for his own safety and they walked out and Belarus pushed me out. Poland slipped out, still tailing us.
"You could have told me before hand that our relationship meant nothing," I said quietly.
"I know, I didn't realize you would feel- "
"Whatever," I walked off. This would have been China I was talking with, da. Hypothetically if I did love him back. He would leave me for Japan. Just like America left me for England. I was about to turn and go home.
"Let's get some coffee Nii-san," Belarus pulled me into a nearby café. I shrugged. She ordered for us and sat me down on a chair. I looked around. China and Japan were near the windows giving them a view of the street and the park where they were setting up the carnival Italy and Bela were talking about. I took a sip of my bitter drink. They were sharing a small bowl of fruit, taking turns feeding each other. China was talking animatedly to Japan, his eyes twinkling as Japan laughed.
"Say 'aah' aru!~" He said and attempted to feed Japan a strawberry. Japan giggling and shook his head.
"You eat some Yao-nii," Japan said but China shoved it into Japan's mouth anyway. They both laughed again.
"What are you looking at Nii-san?" Belarus broke in. I looked at her. She was picking at her muffin, looking at me languidly. I looked away back to China and Japan. They were talking about something; I strained my ears to hear, "Oh," She said, following my line of sight. I didn't say anything.
"The way you look at China, how am I supposed to believe you don't like him, even a little?" Belarus asked me amused.
"Of course I like him, da, I like everybody," I mumbled, taking a gulp of coffee. It burned my throat and I shuddered.
"You're fooling yourself….But I guess I'll go and say hello," She said, standing up and walking towards them. China looked up at her surprised, but ushered her to sit. It looked like Belarus had made her amends with him. I willingly got up too, following her. I met China's eyes. His smile vanished. Why don't you smile at me da?
"Oh it's you, aru," He said, sounding disappointed. Yes it's me, wasn't I your "everything" before? He didn't usher me to sit like he did with Belarus. In fact, he looked sort of upset.
"So you're going to the carnival?" Belarus asked them. I sat down next to her in the empty seat.
"Yes, with Japan aru," He smiled at her, "Are you going too?"
"Nii-san and I are going together as siblings," She stressed the last word to me. I stared at China, who refused to look at me.
"Oh…actually Bela, I'd rather not," I frowned. Disappointment flickered through her face. "I have to go meet up with my boss right now, da," I glanced down at a watch I didn't have on my wrist as I lied before getting up and leaving.
China's POV
"They're here," Japan said in a low voice. So far this part of the plan had worked smoothly. Russia overheard our conversation with Italy, he saw us walk out holding hands (which was very awkward), and Belarus would now lead him to the café. We were supposed to do something couple-like which Belarus didn't elaborate on. I sighed, letting the same lame ideas run through my mind which Japan and I thought up of during the world meeting.
"I have an idea!"Japan said suddenly, "When we were little you use to feed us remember? Since we were so messy and couldn't hold utensils properly?" I nodded, seeing where this was heading. Russia and Belarus sat down, ordering.
"A small fruit salad please aru," I told a nearby waitress who were passing us. She nodded, and arrived and held it for a few moments, not sure on whose side to place it. Japan met my eyes and grimaced.
"This is going to be awkward," He said, placing it in the middle. The waitress looked at us one last time before taking someone else's order.
"Yep, give me a nod when Russia's looking this way," I said, picking up a sliced apple, and offered it to Japan. A small smile couldn't help but play on my lips.
"I remember when Korea was little, aru," I said suddenly, "He was such a messy eater. And picky too aru, until he grew a little older," Japan looked at me curiously chewing the apple slice given.
"I was feeding him something aru," I remembered, "Then he bit me because I wouldn't let him get up and play until he finished everything on his plate aru," I narrowed my eyes, remember the feisty toddler version of Korea, "And I had to chase him all around our house into the forest," I paused for a breath.
"You know what he did, that little devil aru? He climbed a tree and fell asleep aru! So when I called him out he didn't hear or reply. I spent all day looking for him aru. He woke up at around evening time and climbed down, and then gave me a grin and said 'I'm the best hide-and-seek player ever Da-Ze!' aru,"
I shook my head, "After I was through with him, he was sure to sit down and finish all his food before leaving aru," Japan laughed and then nodded suddenly. I almost forgot the plan and picked up a strawberry.
"Say 'aah' aru!~" I said with flourished. Japan shook his head and chuckled.
"You eat some Yao-nii," He protested and I forced it into his mouth.
"At least you didn't bite me like Korea aru," I laughed. Belarus came over a few moments later and gave the tiniest of nods. Russia followed her. My smile left me and I felt dread. I couldn't bring myself to look at his hurt face. She didn't mention this part of the plan aru. We had a light conversation before Russia got up and left abruptly.
We waited till Russia was out of sight before speaking.
"That was great," Japan smiled at me.
"Yea, the whole feeding scene, Russia saw it all," Belarus said satisfied.
"It was Japan's idea aru," I credited.
"We should get ready for tonight," Belarus said, standing up, "I'll see you there,"
"But I thought Russia wasn't going," Japan frowned.
"He won't go with me, but if China's going, he'll definitely show up," Belarus smiled.
AN: /orz Lame ideas, sorry I'm so stupid aru.