Bad Love

by keeperoliver

Harry's thinking brought him to the conclusion that he no longer wished to be a pawn. No one has shown him any love. No one has taken the time to say they loved him. He would now return the favor. Mrs. Rowling owns Harry's world, I just like to play in it.

4. Chapter 4

Bad Love Keeperoliver Chapter 4

Harry and Ginny made it to breakfast and saw that Luna was there already as well. They sat with her so that Harry could ask her to join him in his adventure, along with Ginny. When asked, she grew a large smile on her face, "Oh goody, another mission for the good side. I love helping out when I can. Will it be as dangerous as the Ministry?"

Harry took on a pale look, "More so than the mission to the Ministry I'm afraid Luna. And the outcome does not look too promising."

Ginny was shocked, "Harry, you did not tell me that. What are you leaving out? You are beginning to sound like Dumbledore."

An angry look took the place of the pale one on his face, "Damn it, I am aren't I. I'm sorry. You need to know everything I do, but this is not the time or the place for explanations. Later this evening, I promise. Luna, Ginny has the book I promised to lend you for potions. If you follow the foot notes written on the sides of the page, you will do well in class. Who ever this half blood prince is, he is certainly brilliant. Trust his instructions."

Luna nodded her head, "We will Harry, and to let you know, what you said before that does not deter me from joining you. After the training you gave us last year, I feel better about myself. Oh good, they have soft scrambled eggs. I hate them when they are over cooked. It's like eating a rubber chicken."

Harry and Ginny shared a laugh hearing Luna's description of breakfast. After eating, Harry walked out with the girls, where Ginny once again met Dean.

"Where have you been Ginny? I was looking all over for you this morning. When no one said they saw you, I became worried."

"Dean, I am not a little girl that has to be watched 24 hours a day. I am quite able to take care of my self. I have been trying to have a talk with Harry for three days now, but you have kept me from him. This was my only chance to do so, so I took it."

"But you're my girlfriend, and Harry has Loony. Why did you need to talk to him?"

"HER NAME IS LUNA! SHE IS MY FRIEND! HARRY IS MY FRIEND! DON'T I HAVE A RIGHT TO SPEAK TO MY FRIENDS?"

"You don't have to shout Ginny. Of course you have that right, but you could at least tell me when you do it."

"You don't tell me when you are going to talk to Seamus or Ron or Neville. Why should I have to tell you when I am going to talk with my friends?"

"Because they are always at a place where you are. I am always there if you need me for anything. You walked off without telling anyone. There is a big difference there."

"You are not my father Dean. I don't have to tell you where I am going or who I am seeing. You are becoming too controlling to be around Dean, and I don't like to be controlled. I think it is time we saw less of each other. Harry, Luna and I are in the middle of a project and we will be kept quite busy. That means we will be seeing less of each other. What I am trying to say Dean, I think we should break up."

"I should have seen this coming. You have been spending more time with Harry lately. Every time I find you, you are with him. Are you going out with him now?"

Ginny turned a bright red. "What if we were? Does that make it easier for you to take, or do you wish to kill him for moving in on your property?"

"What? Ginny, I have known about your crush on Harry for quite a while now. If you would have said something to me about it, I would have understood. But you never did. Harry is my friend Ginny. I would never try to hurt him. It probably wouldn't do any good, as he can whip my arse."

"Look Dean, we will have to talk later. Luna and I have potions down in the dungeon and we don't want to be late. But, we will talk. Harry thank you for the use of the book and we will see you later as well."

Luna walked to Harry and kissed his cheek, "Bye Harry, see you later. Bye Bean have a nice day."

"It's Dean."

Luna just waved him off.

As soon as Luna and Ginny walked into the class room, Horace was right there, "Miss Lovegood, so good to see you again. And this must be Miss Weasley. You were wrong with your comparison Miss Lovegood. She is very beautiful, but then again so are you. Please take a seat up front."

Ginny hated front row seating. She felt like she was the center of attention there. Luna however grabbed her hand and dragged her top the front row. Ginny opened the book to the page written on the board and almost yelled out. The potion on the page was wolfbane. Then she saw the Professor erasing the note and changing it. However, she raised her hand. "Professor, can I ask you a favor?"

"What is it Miss Weasley."

"Sir, you had wolfbane down as potion for the day. Why did you change it?"

"Oh that was for my seventh year class Miss Weasley."

"Is it possible for Luna and I to attempt it as well?"

"I'm afraid that it takes too long to brew. I have to keep you all together as a class in order to evaluate you equally."

"That was not what I meant sir. We wish to do it say as extra credit. If we finish or class project, could we begin the wolfbane potion?"

"Do you expect to finish before the other students Miss Weasley?"

"I can't say for sure that we will sir. But if we should, can we begin it?"

"If you finish the days project with an O, and you have enough time, then yes you may start it. The seventh years are working on theirs, so one more should not be a problem. You must keep them separate from the others though. We don't want to be giving someone else your grade, and yes Miss Weasley and Lovegood, you will be graded."

The project for the day was a blood replenishment potion. It needed very little heating and looking after once started. Ginny remembered what Harry said Hermione had done while he went after the ingredients and she had Luna do the same thing while she fetched. The cauldron was properly heated by the time she returned and they were ready to begin. They were 10 minutes into the second hour, when they turned in their project. Horace found it to be perfect, and let the girls do the wolfbane potion.

Wolfbane took a week to properly brew. There were no shortcuts for it. There were for the preparations of the ingredients. The girls had the wolfsbane potion going by the end of the second hour. Horace had no idea what Severus was talking about when he said there were no students capable of brewing a cuppa properly, never mind a perfect potion. In two classes he has seen four people do so. They were in different years, so there was no copying of other student's work. In all his years of teaching,only two other students showed this kind of talent, Lily Evans and Severus Snape. He could see Harry being able to accomplish it, being of Lily's blood, and Hermione was his partner. However Ginny and Luna were a very pleasant surprise.

Ginny and Luna gleamed as they left the class. The praise the Professor gave them made them feel proud of their accomplishment. They made it a point to thank Harry for the use of the book. It was as he said, and the alternatives given on the side notes were brilliant.

BL-}

Harry's first class was a double in DADA and Professor Snape. It started the same way as is potions class did, except for the silly waving of the wands. He rushed in with his robes billowing out closing the shutters on the widows as he passed them. He took a stand at the front of the class. "If you think you are going to get by on your past performance in this class, then you are going to be sadly mistaken.

MR. Weasley, please step to the front of the class. Mr. Malfoy, you do the same. Once in position, I want you to turn and face each other. You will then start a duel using only minor curses. There will be no intent on hurting your opponent. Is that understood? Good now begin."

After the training Harry gave him from last year, Ron soon had Draco's wand in his hand, and Draco was sitting on Pansy's lap. He did not appreciate the fact that he had been humiliated in front of the class. He jumped of her lap and took his seat.

Ron was being congratulated by his housemates except from Harry. He ignored him as he had since the start of the school year. Ron was missing Harry's companionship. He was however too stubborn to admit it to Harry.

The rest of the class was the same for them all. Hermione faced Pansy, and Harry faced Blaise. Because of the training they all received the previous year. Not a single Gryffindor lost their challenge. Hermione scored the fastest victory by taking out Pansy on her first spell. Harry took a bit longer with Blaise. Blaise was the only Slytherin to actually shake hands with his opponent. His offered hand was accepted by Harry, as well as Harry telling him that he was good, but could use some help with his defense.

"Perhaps could you could teach me some moves later Harry."

Harry was taken back by this, "You want me to teach you defense Blaise?"

"What, because I'm Slytherin you're too good to be teaching me what you taught others last year?"

"That's not what I meant."

"Then it must be because I'm not a Girl."

"No."

"You're not prejudice are you Harry?"

"Stop Blaise. I only meant I didn't think you would want to be trained by me."

Severus stopped them from further talk, "If you children are done with recess, then perhaps you should take a seat."

As soon as his back was turned to the class, Blaise passed a note on to Harry. It read:

I HAVE SEEN WHAT YOU HAVE DONE WITH THE OTHER STUDENTS YOU TRAINED AND WOULD LIKE TO BE AS PREPARED AS THEY ARE. YOU SAW WHAT YOUR TRAINING HAS DONE FOR THEM THIS MORNING. JUST NOD IF YOU AGREE WITH TRAINING ME.

Harry turned to Blaise and nodded his head. Blaise returned the nod with a smile of thanks. Harry didn't know that Blaise would bring another with him. Draco wanted to ask Harry this when he made that stupid joke.

Harry was ready to leave when Snape called out to him, "Potter stay here, we need to talk."

Harry sighed and sat down. He didn't know what he did, but with Snape, he could have breathed at the wrong time and it irritated Snape. He watched as the rest of the class began to leave. He was surprised when Blaise walked by, "Thank you Harry. Draco and I will see you later."

"Draco?"

Blaise just smiled and continued on out of the room. Harry was watching them leave, when Snape got his attention, "Mr. Potter, could you tell me what all you covered last year during your extra classes you gave to your friends?"

"I taught them everything I know. Including the patronus. I wanted them prepared for when we all have to face Voldemort. Umbridge was teaching us nothing and the students wanted to learn how to defend themselves."

"You taught them the patronus? Did they all create one?"

"No sir, not all. It takes a strong feeling to create one, and some couldn't find one strong enough to create the spell. A few even created a full blown patronus. Not many, but some."

"Potter, I know you will find this hard to believe, but I will need your help in class, as our next class will be on patronus spells. If you could get the students who can perform the full blown patronus to assist you, it would make things so much easier."

"You're right sir, I do find it hard to believe. I think it is time we were honest with each other sir. Something is going to happen this year, isn't it? You want the students protected for that same reason. Well, I think I will help you, but I will also be offering the students to continue training under the DA as well. Blaise and Draco are already joining me."

For the first time he could remember, Harry saw a smile on Snape's face. "It sounds like you have things under control Potter. Will you have the same people helping you again?"

"No sir. I will have other people helping me this year. I have come to the decision that not all people can be trusted."

"Potter, I don't think it wise to give up on your friends. In the past, they were there for you and kept you alive. Your strength is in your ability to trust in them. If you lose that trust, then you have lost everything."

"That is exactly what it felt like. I lost everything. But now, I am finding others. I don't know where you stand exactly Professor, but I have to face Tom when the time comes. I don't expect to live through it and I wish to give everyone a chance to finally beat him if I can't do it."

"Potter, if you face him, you will die. Are you willing to become a martyr for an ungrateful people? They will not care that you die for them. They only care if you defeat him. You see how they are when they are faced with danger, they cower like sheep. Is this what you think as giving a herd of sheep a chance to live by sacrificing your life?"

"You still haven't told me where you stand? Am I going to regret telling you all this, just like I would telling Hermione or Ron?"

"If you mean will I be telling the Dark Lord about your fears or plans, then no."

"What about Dumbledore?"

"That's Professor Dumbledore, Potter. Don't you think he should know what is troubling his student? Have you lost trust in him also?"

"Especially him. You know what I have been through while here at school. Has he ever helped me with my problems. It always seems all he does is add to them. He holds back information from me that I can use until after the fact. He hasn't helped me at all this year, knowing that the time is getting close to the end. Oh I know what it is I have to find and destroy, but not from him. I have learned more from you as to what to expect. Don't you see Professor, he is no help for me at all. And he is using my friends to gather information about my plans. He stands on his pedestal and guides them the way he wishes them to be led. They follow like the sheep you mentioned."

'So you think your friends would betray you if given the chance? That they would turn their back on you because they trust Professor Dumbledore. And you think that the professor does nothing to help you in what you think you have to do? Potter, you are a very insecure person that thinks everyone is against him. That is not the right state of mind to be in prior to going into battle. You have to keep your strength and spirit up if you want a chance to survive, and in order for that to happen, you need your friends around you."

"I will have my friends with me. My true friends. I will find more. Hermione and Ron have shown me that they are not my true friends. i don't hate them, but I don't trust them. How could I? They so much as told me that they trust Dumbledore and will always do after I told Hermione the same thing I told."

"What you told me didn't make me feel any different, so what should it do it to them. All you told us is that everything that went wrong with you is because of Dumbledore. You never stopped to think that death eaters were the ones that put you in danger with the help of the Dark Lord. Now I am not saying that the professor has not made his share of mistakes, with a number of them pertaining to you. Could you be honest with me if I asked you what you would have done if you knew everything from the start? If you knew that you were destined to face Voldemort and that either him or you had to die? If you knew what it was that you needed to do in order to defeat him? And yet, you still do not have everything you need to know in order to complete your task. Only Professor Dumbledore knows what it is and he is willing to give this information to you, if you promise to let him help you."

"I will find out what ever it is I need to know with out his help. I have my ways at getting information. The friends I have are quite resourceful."

"They will not be enough. Miss Granger is the smartest person you know, and Mr. Weasley is your closest friend."

"A close friend who has turned his back on both his friends. Even with this, Hermione stands by him. Has she done the same for me? Did she stand up to Dumbledore when he suggested her and Ron not contact me the last two summers. Sure they helped me in the Ministry, but so did others. They saw the state I was in when we separated at the station. They knew who I would be with. They know the situation I am in, yet they still ignored me. If Remus and Alastor had not stepped in on my behalf, it might have been a miserable summer. Wait, that's it. I know who I need to help me. Thank you Professor. If not for your help, I might have missed the obvious connection. Please excuse me, as I am already late for lunch, and I have to meet my friends." and Harry ran out of the room.

Severus thought about this meeting he just had and what it meant for Harry. The Dark Lord should hear about Harry's plans. He should know what Harry knows. However, how was he to learn all this? Severus Snape never went back on his word, and he promised Harry he would not tell. Not that he would have anyway. He still continues to pass on information to Albus as to what Voldemort plans. Since his Lily was murdered, he has hated Voldemort and vowed to get his revenge.

He also hated James Potter, and because he was James son and looked so much like his father, he hated Harry Potter. but when he was close to him, he saw Lily's eyes, he changed his perception of the young man. he now wished that Harry was successful with what ever mission he was to take on.

BL-}

Harry met up with Ginny and Luna at the Ravenclaw table, and saw where Ginny had been crying. "Ginny is there something wrong? What has happened that brings tears to you eyes?"

"It's Dean, Harry. He just left us, after coming by to wish me much happiness with you in the future. He wished us well Harry, even after what I did to him. That is why I was crying."

"Ginny, please forgive me for being the cause of your breaking up. It is not what I intended. Not this way. I would be lying to you if I said I didn't want to see it happen, but I didn't want it to happen this way, with me being the cause."

"Harry. For Merlin's sake, you were not the cause of us breaking up. I felt it coming for a few days now. I hate to be pampered and Dean loved doing it for me. I hate to be controlled, and he tried to force me to give up my friends. I was being smothered Harry, and I can't stand that. No, you didn't do it, but you were an adding factor to the chain of events that led up to it. I guess you could say it was inevitable. I am embarrassed to say it, but what Dean said was true. I have had a crush on you for who knows how long."

"Ron did mention that you had a shine for were me when you were younger. I thought that you may have grown out of it. That is until this year."

"What do you mean by that?"

"Nothing. Just forget I said anything. Listen, both of you, I have a lot to tell you both, and I have to meet someone tonight, and I would like for you to be there. I also have some other news that I need to tell you about later. We will need Dobby there as well."

The minute his name was mentioned, Dobby was right there. "You called for Dobby Harry Potter?"

"Dobby, I need to see you later this evening. We have things we need to discuss, and you are a big part of them."

"What time does Dobby need to be there sir?"

"Nine o'clock should be fine Dobby. I have something for you to do."

"Of course Harry Potter sir." and then Dobby was gone.

The next thing Harry did was to tell the girls of his meeting with Blaise and Draco, and how he wished them to assist him in there training. This caused Luna to laugh out loud. The other two looked at her like she was going mad.

Luna looked over to them, "I was just thinking that imagine how humiliated Draco will be when he finds out that Looney Lovegood will be teaching him?"

"Don't call yourself that Luna. Not ever again. You are the sweetest girl I know and I hate it when anyone calls you that, including yourself. Now Ginny, please don't get angry at me for calling Luna that."

"Why should I Harry? I happen to agree with you. I also hate it when someone calls her that. Ron almost got boogied when he called her that last year. I know you like her and would do anything for her."

"I do like her, and I would do anything for her, just like I would for you. Luna has been like a sister to me. She has helped me when Hermione couldn't. She has stayed faithful to me like you have. The difference is that though that I like you in a different way."

"And what way is that Harry?"

"Definitely not like a sister."

"Is that good or bad?"

"Depends on how you look at it I guess. Good for me, but maybe bad for you. You see Ginny, I feel like I am bringing you into something that could get you hurt, and I couldn't take that."

"But it is OK for you to bring Luna in on it and not worry about getting her hurt?"

"I don't want to get her hurt either. It hurts me to ask either of you for help, but I cannot do this alone. I need Luna's brilliance and your strength at my side. It's not just your strength I need though. This is why we have to talk later. After our training session with Draco and Blaise and before our talk with Dobby."

"OH, I look forward to see how you get yourself out of this one Potter. It is going to be quite interesting."

They finished their lunch, and parted for their different classes. The rest of the day went by quickly, as did dinner, and soon it was time to meet Draco and Blaise.

They were waiting there in the front of the RoR for Harry. The look on their faces was a highlight of the day for Harry. He opened the room for his training, and they all stepped into what looked like a war room from ancient times. All kinds of weapons were mounted on or leaning against the walls.

"Why are they here Potter?" were the first words out of Draco's mouth. Blaise tried to stop him, but was too late.

"Because they will be helping me to teach you to fight. If you question this, then why don't you both try to defeat them. Is that alright with you Blaise?"

"Not particularly. I don't like the idea of fighting a girl, especially if they are good enough to beat me, and I am sure they are.""I don't believe this. Blaise Zabini afraid of fighting a girl. Well I certainly have no such qualms. Which one do I have to face?"

"Your choice."

"Well Loony, looks like we are up. I would take on Weasley, but I figured I would take on the easier one first, then take on the tougher one afterwards."

"Save the Bravado lecture Ferret, I have heard it all. Shall we begin." Luna took a stance before Draco.

Draco took on the challenge too lightly, and soon he was fighting for his honor, as Luna had him diving for cover and running around trying to avoid her spells. He was hardly able to cast on offensive spell. He was too busy with his defensive spells. He finally lost to her when she beat him to a hiding spot with her spell, and it became a cage with a magic proof barrier that captured him. His wand was useless for him and it was easy for Luna to use her expelliarmus spell to retrieve it.

As soon as she had it, she vanished the cage, releasing Draco. She then added insult to injury, "Are you ready for your tough challenge now Ferret?"

Draco admitted defeat in order to save face in front of his dorm mate. He did not want to be bested by two girls in one night. He also learned that her name was Luna. He would remember it always.

Blaise on the other hand watched Luna during the short duel, and loved the way she made it look so easy, almost as if she were playing a game. Her moves were fluent and graceful.

When Harry told them what he wanted, Blaise went to Luna for his partner. Draco was scared out of his wits by having to face Ginny. However, it was not a challenge, and all the girls did was stand by their partner and help with the pronunciation and wand movement of the spells. By the end of the evening session, Blaise and Draco had learned more than they ever learned in DADA. Harry told them about him going to start up the DA again, and they asked to join. They were welcomed aboard and were told they would be contacted when it was time to start them.

It was eight PM when they were back to the dorm, and they found Hermione sitting on the couch reading a book, and Ron playing a game of chess with Dean. They all looked up when they walked in. Ron and Dean then went back to their game, while Hermione continued to stare at Harry. She was surprised when he came and sat next to her. "Hermione, we need to start up the DA again. I know what you're thinking, and you're right, I am asking for your help, but it is at the request of a Professor that I am doing it."

"Doing it for what, the help or the Professor?"

"If you don't want to help, just tell me, OK. I think I can get it started with out your help. It will just be a little harder."

"Who would help you with the charmed coins?"

"Professor Flitwick, that is if we need them this year. I should think we could get by without them."

"OH right, no Umbridge this year. Well what about a schedule?"

"Luna can do that."

"Then what do you need me for?"

"Because it was your idea in the first place. It was your planning, and dedication that got it started. I could not start it up, without asking you."

"Well thank you for that, thinking of me before you did start it up. Was it Professor Dumbledore that asked you to start it back up?"

"No, it was not. It was Professor Snape that asked me to do it. Now I'm not saying that it wasn't by a request by Dumbledore through the Professor, but if it was, then it really doesn't matter. I did not have to talk to the headmaster to learn of it."

Hermione shook her head at that but asked, "Do you really want me there, or are you just giving me a token option that you do not really mean?"

"With all sincerity Hermione, I would like you there. The one thing you didn't ask was who would research the spells to use. No one does research like you do Hermione."

"SO THAT IS ALL YOU NEED ME FOR?"

"No Hermione. I thought we could try to patch things up between us, and I could get you to see my side of things. Please say you'll help us."

"What about Ron?"

"What about him. He was a part of the original team, so of course he would be welcomed back. As would all the other members, and a few others as well."

"What few others are we talking about?"

"Blaise Zabini, Draco Malfoy, Daphne and Astoria Greengrass and Tracy Davis."

"Was that from Professor Snape?"

"No, from Draco and Blaise."

"And you trust them?"

"Yes, we all do."

"Then I will help you Harry, and thank you for trusting me this far."

"It's not trust Hermione, it is courtesy. I owe you that much."

"I guess it's a start."

"Now if you will excuse me, I need to talk to the ladies alone in my dorm room." and the girls followed him up the stairs. Harry found Neville lying down on his bed reading. Harry asked him if they could have some privacy for a bit, and Neville laughed. "Sure Harry. I see you later, and have fun."

"It's not what you think Neville."

"Right Harry." Neville laughed some more. "Have fun anyway. and he left.

Luna smiled at Harry, "Are we going to have fun Harry?"

"Not the fun that Neville was thinking of Luna."

"OH well, it was just a thought. So what are we going to do?"

"Talk. I need to tell you both something and it is not good. I told you both the prophecy, but not what it meant. Ginny, Luna, the prophecy foretold my death. I have to die in order for Voldemort to be defeated. I haven't figured out why just yet, but it is meant to be."

Both ladies sat there in shock at first, then Ginny screamed, "YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE ON ME HARRY POTTER. NOT NOW THAT WE ARE BEGINNING TO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER."

"I'm afraid we have no say in the matter Ginny. Not because the prophecy says so, but because Voldemort and I must face each other and there can be no other outcome. I am not talking about tomorrow or next week or exactly when. It could be a year or two. Now you know why I was hesitant about asking you both to join."

Luna had ears flowing down her cheeks, "You poor soul Harry. Knowing you have to die, and accepting it like you are has to be the bravest act I have ever heard of. How can you be so calm, knowing this?"

"Believe me Luna, I am not as calm as I appear to be, and that's just talking about it. I hate to see what I am going to be like when I have to face Tom."

"I wish you weren't so blunt about it Harry. You could have prepared us better instead of dropping it on us like you did." Ginny cried out.

"I couldn't think of an easy way to tell you Ginny. Now, I think we need Dobby here to finish this talk. DOBBY!"

"Yes Harry Potter sir?"

Harry told the elf what he told the girls, and it got Dobby shaking like he was having some sort of fit. Harry tried calming him down, but it was Luna once again that did it. She did it by hugging him.

Then Harry told them all of his idea, and they all agreed. Harry sent Dobby out to contact who he hoped would be his other members of his team.