Hearts Like Ours

By: Liv-x-Case-Benson & CaseyBensonNovak

Chapter 3: Coldness

Olivia walked to Casey's office at about 8:00 that night. She'd been able to sleep until Casey woke up. And they'd both smiled widely when they realized what had happened the night before. She knocked on the door.

"It's open." Casey knew it was Olivia. She thought of how she had been incredibly sore all day. But when she thought of why, she smiled. Having sex with Olivia was a memory that Casey kept replaying in her mind—it was incredible.

Olivia opened the door, walking in and closing it. She sat in the chair across from her. "Hi." She smiled. She'd been stiff and sore all day, but it had been worth it.

"Hey." Casey crossed her legs.

Olivia unzipped her jacket, resting her elbows on her desk. "What do you say to a midnight movie?"

"What type of movie?"

"Some zombie movie... Perfect for jumping into someone's arms," she said with another smile.

"Zombies? Ooh, I'm already scared." Casey grinned.

Olivia sat on her desk, patting a spot next to her, wincing a bit.

Casey sat beside her. "Mm. Ow," she murmured.

"Yeah, I know how it feels. I've been walking a little stiff all day," she said, wrapping an arm around her. "How was your day?"

"Sore." Casey sighed. "Actually, it was infuriating."

"What happened?" Olivia asked. "Tell me about it."

"Before or after Trevor Langan sent my victim out of the courtroom in tears?"

Olivia held her tightly. "Both baby. Tell me."

"Well...Judge Petrovsky then called us into Chambers and told me that I should have prepared my witness better."

"..And? Keep venting."

Casey sighed. "When I got back to the office, Branch told me that it was embarrassing to the office. Maybe he's right."

Olivia shook her head. "No. I think when what happened last night happens again, we need to be careful of that. You should always be at your best. I'm not saying it can never happen again, but with major cases like this, we need to remember that. You're excellent in everything you do. We just need to remember our jobs."

"Olivia, it wasn't my fault. I mean I don't think...I prepped her for days, weeks even." Casey sighed. "I guess it was my fault."

"Casey, it wasn't you're fault. Everyone gets nervous on the stand."

"I am going to check on her before we go to the movie. I'm worried about her."

"Do you want me to come with you?" Olivia offered.

"I guess so."

"..I don't have to. It was a suggestion. I'm sorry if I upset you."

"Let's just go." Casey closed her laptop and began to pack.

Olivia sighed. "Do you want me to carry anything?"

Casey shook her head. "Thanks, but I've got it."

Olivia nodded, zipping up her jacket and opening the door. Casey's tone sounded almost dejected. It was a far cry from moments before, but she also knew how worried Casey was and hoped that she would feel better after this.

Casey followed her out. After leaving the victim's apartment, the redhead had not perked up. She sat in the car, quietly memorizing the opening statement she had written the night before.

Olivia sighed quietly. "Casey, if you don't want to go to the movie, it's okay. I can just take you home."

"I don't want to go home. We already bought the tickets."

"Then please tell me what's wrong. I want to know."

"Nothing is wrong. I'm fine. Did you know that the average dream lasts about two hours?"

Olivia shook her head. "No, but I know that REM sleep is the deepest and most important."

"Mhm." Casey resumed memorizing.

Olivia sighed, driving along until she reached the riverbank with the water lit by the lights from the cabin windows. It wasn't perfect of course, but being there with Casey, it seemed to light up even more. She grabbed Casey's wrist gently. "Look Case."

Casey looked. "Oh. It's very pretty."

Olivia reached over, kissing her cheek before pulling a bottle of wine from the back with two glasses. "It's not much, but will you forget about your troubles and join me?"

Casey sighed. "Olivia, what is this? What about the movie?"

"It's only nine and the movie doesn't start until midnight," she sighed, putting everything back. "Okay. What do you suggest we do until then?"

"Take it back out! Jesus!"

Olivia sighed. "I...thought you wanted to read. Casey, I'm sorry. I didn't mean..." she pulled the wine and glasses back to the front.

Casey sighed and crossed her legs. "It's pretty here," she repeated.

Olivia smiled, handing her a full glass, pouring herself half of one. "Yes it is," she said. "I thought you might like it."

Casey thanked her quietly.

"Are you sure you're okay? You seem distracted..."

"Yes. I'm fine."

Olivia nodded, kissing her cheek again. "Good. But, if anything was wrong, you know you can talk to me, right?"

Casey murmured her assent.

Olivia slowly kissed her neck, then pulled away.

Casey sighed and sipped her wine. She resumed reciting her speech in her head.

Olivia sighed. "I know you're worried about her and your speech, but can you please try not to worry about it so much tonight?"

"You were right when you said my job needs more focus."

Olivia nodded. "Maybe..."

"So every waking moment on nineteen cases isn't enough, obviously."

"Casey...what are you saying?"

"Obviously I'm not good enough at my job. The only way to fix that is to do nothing but work. You were right, Olivia. I don't work hard enough."

Olivia shook her head. "No Casey. You're wonderful in everything you do. Working 24/7 isn't the answer. And I'm sorry I said that. You just need the right balance. Hell, you work harder for the victims than I do."

Casey sighed. "That is the furthest thing from the truth. And don't be sorry. You were right in what you said. I should have known that she was so sensitive."

"But all working 24/7 is going to do is burn you out. Yes, she was prepped well and yes she's sensitive, but it's the defense that made her cry, not because you didn't do your job. She was scared and nervous. Everyone is. It's not your fault."

Casey sighed. "I just feel as if nothing I do is enough. And what you said earlier...it really made me realize that my feelings were justified."

"When? What feelings? If all you do is put yourself down how are you going to become better? Who you are to me is the best ADA. The smartest and most beautiful."

"You're the one who said it!"

"I'm sorry!"

"It's us against the perps of the world. There's too many of them and not enough of us. We work and we work, and while we're working, they're committing more crimes. I'm tired. I try so hard. Nineteen cases feel like fifty. I'm watching the days go by and it's as if I have nothing to show for it."

Olivia sighed. "I know how it feels, but nineteen is still a lot. Victims helped, perps put away. But I wouldn't like my job very much anymore if you weren't there," she said, taking her hand. "I'd miss you too much. It's very stressful, I know, but maybe this relationship can be our outlet?"

"Olivia...it has been one day and already you said it's affecting my job."

"So don't let it. This doesn't have to be an every night thing. Just please tell me we're not going to stop because I can't stop loving you, Casey. That's my opinion. Do you think it's affecting your job? I shouldn't have said anything."

"I...if it's affecting me and how I work then I don't have time for a relationship! Yeah, but you would still feel it."

Olivia shook her head. "Casey, I want to be with you. I'm sorry that this has caused problems for you. I...never meant to."

"I.." Casey looked down.

Olivia kissed her hand. "Please. The last thing I ever want is to lose you. How about we just have lunch or go to a late dinner after this for a while? Then it wouldn't have to interfere with work? Please? Whatever you want."

"Why?"

"Because I love you. That's why. I want you to be happy. But...at the same time, I'm only really happy when I'm with you."

"I'm sure there is someone else you love."

"No, there isn't, nor do I want there to be."

"Really?"

Olivia nodded, kissing her cheek again. "Yes, so please don't give up on us."

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I love you so much."

Olivia pulled her close. "Please. I don't want to give up. Please say you won't. We'll go slowly. Little things, but I need you."

Casey sighed, unwillingly relaxing in her arms.

Olivia sighed. "It's going to be okay. Casey...please?"

"I'm not leaving," Casey pointed out.

Olivia hugged her tightly, kissing her gently. "However you want this to play out I'm here and I'm not leaving you."

"I..ok.."

Olivia pulled back. "What now?"

"I hope I'm good enough."

"You're better. Much better," the detective said, kissing her.

Casey kissed her back, reluctantly at first, then more passionately.

Olivia purred, her hands running over Casey's back.

"Oh..mmm.."

Olivia bit her lip, soothing it with her tongue. "Mmmm, my favorite girl. Don't go," she moaned.

Casey moaned.

Olivia gently pushed Casey back over to her side before climbing over the center console to sit beside her. "The last thing we need is the horn to scare us apart," she said. "Straddle my lap and wrap your arms around me. It's only ten."

Casey did as she was told. She gazed into Olivia's eyes. "Awww, but having a heart attack would be so romantic."

Olivia smirked. "Maybe, but I'd prefer you screaming for me from something else," she said, kissing her again.

"You seem pretty confident..." Casey smiled softly.

"Is there a reason I shouldn't be?"

Casey tilted her head seductively in response.

Olivia smiled, caressing her cheek. "So beautiful…"

"Mmm. I love the way you touch me."

Olivia's eyes darkened. "Mmmm... I want to touch you so badly. Rub your taught, firm body until you whimper and writhe, begging me to lick you. To fuck you..."

"D-don't say that," Casey breathed. She laid her head on Olivia's shoulder. "God.."

Olivia nodded. "Sorry," she said, hugging her close. "I couldn't help it, but it's all up to you."

"How about I.." Casey grabbed Olivia's hand and brought it to her breast with a moan.

Olivia moaned. "Oh...Case." She squeezed gently. "Mmm, so good, so hot..."

Casey moaned and kissed the older woman. "Imagine me squirming beneath you. Imagine me crying your name and clinging to you through multiple passionate orgasms."

Olivia moaned loudly. "God Casey! I-I can't take...I'm sorry! I n-need..."

Casey smiled, pulling back. "You'll get all of that tonight. After the movie."

Olivia smiled. "Okay. Now what?"

Casey kissed her passionately. "You mean that didn't do anything to you?"

Olivia kissed back. "Of course not, but I'll leave it alone if you want."

Casey sighed. "So it means nothing when I seduce you?"

Olivia kissed her passionately, hard. "Of course it does. God, I need you more than anything."

"Promise?"

Olivia kissed her, going down to nip on her neck. "Yes. I want you more than anything, but if we start we'll miss the movie."

"Oh we're not starting. You should earn me."

"I know," she said, nuzzling her neck. "And I will."

"Mmm."

Olivia smiled. "I love you."

"I love you too!"

Olivia smiled, kissing her temple and hugging her. "I'm so glad we're together."

"Me too. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone."

"I love you too. You're my only one, no matter what anyone says."

Casey smiled. "I trust you."

Olivia stroked her cheek. "Well, we've sill got about an hour... Any ideas?"

"How far away is the theater? Thirty minutes in traffic right?"

"About yeah."

Casey shrugged.

Olivia smiled, holding her close. "Mmmm."

"Mmmm."

"You smell really good," the detective whispered.

Casey moaned. "Mm. Thanks."

Olivia kissed her temple. "Maybe we should head there early. You know so we don't get distracted and miss it."

Casey nodded. "I like that idea."

"Not that I wouldn't love to sit like this all night, but I'm kind of looking forward to have this hot redhead jump into my arms when she's frightened," Olivia said, moving back over to the driver's seat.

Casey giggled. "I look forward to the strong cop arms comforting me."

Olivia smiled, buckling up as she started down the highway. "So after last night, do you feel more comfortable?"

"In what sense?"

Olivia cleared her throat. "The toys..."

"Oh. Um...sort of."

"Such as?"

Casey shrugged."I don't know. I'm just not used to rubber."

"Well there...are more. Ones that feel real. I could pick one up if you want to try..."

"Okay.."

"But...just to be sure, it wasn't me that you didn't like, right?"

Casey shook her head.

Olivia smiled. "Good. I'll never admit this to anyone else, but I love to hear you scream and tell me when you're at your peak."

Casey blushed. "I don't mean to be so loud."

"It's more than fine with me," she said, patting her hand, "don't worry."

"Ohh.."

"What?"

"You're making me hot again.."

Olivia smiled, placing both hands on the steering wheel. "I'm sorry."

"You make me so hot," Casey murmured, crossing her legs tightly.

"I'm glad because I love making you feel that way."

"Payback is a bitch. Consider tonight payback," Casey replied. She had every intention of driving Olivia to the brink of insanity and then refusing to let her touch her.

Olivia smirked. "I know, but its still fun."

Casey positioned herself so that Olivia would catch a glimpse of her bare thigh.

Olivia smiled, keeping her bearings and driving though she slipped a bit.

Casey spent the rest of the ride plotting silently.

Olivia smiled, pulling up to the curb and stopping the engine. "So does this little game mean we can distract ourselves in here?"

"Nope. Think of this as first grade. You have cooties, so no touching. If you want to get to a higher grade, you have to earn me."

"Oh. Ok. So no jumping into my arms, what's the point of this?"

Casey sighed. "Fuck it. I'm yours to do what you want with. Where are the tickets?"

Olivia patted her arm. "Ok, we'll play your game, but, in here I want to hold you tight. Kissing is fine, arms around each other, but nothing else."

"Under one condition."

"Which is?"

"When I get you to lose control, don't hold back. Be as rough as you want. Cuff me, throw me onto the bed...but when that point comes, don't hold back." Casey smiled. She knew exactly what she was doing to the detective.

Olivia leaned over, kissing her cheek. "Deal."

Casey kissed her hard.

Olivia kissed back, moaning gently, stroking her cheek.

"A-aren't you going to p-park?"

Carefully, the detective parked along the curb. "Better?"

"Mhm."

Olivia kissed her again, purring.

Casey kissed back, then pulled away.

Olivia smiled, getting out and going around opening Casey's door. "May I escort you in?" Olivia asked, extending her hand.

Casey nodded and took her hand.

Olivia smiled, walking in with her. "Who's getting snacks?"

"Can you get them? I need to go check something and I need the bathroom mirror."

Olivia nodded. "Sure. What do you want?"

"Twizzlers and peanut butter cups, please."

Olivia kissed her hand. "Anything to drink?"

"Tea, please. I love you."

"I love you too." Olivia grabbed a Dr. Pepper, tea, four peanut butter cups and two Twizzlers as well as a medium bucket of popcorn, then she sat on the bench and waited for Casey.

Casey sat down beside her a few minutes later.

"Everything okay?" she asked, handing Casey her tea and candy.

"Thank you. Yes, everything is fine."

"Good," the detective said with a smile. "Should we go in and find a spot?"

Casey nodded.

Olivia stood, handing Casey the tickets so she didn't drop the popcorn.

Casey took them and smiled. "Thank you."

After they were handed the stubs back, Olivia followed Casey inside. "Where should we sit?"

Casey smiled. "At the top. One row from the very top."

Olivia nodded. "You go in first."

Casey did as she was told, choosing two seats in the middle of the second to last row. They had the row all to themselves.

Olivia sat beside her as the opening sequence wound down. "Should be good," she said, setting the popcorn in her lap.

Casey nodded.

As the movie began, it showed a darkened house with an eerie soundtrack.

Casey shivered.

A second later a door was thrown open, smacking against the wall. A man comes from the shadows to close and lock it.

"Oh..." Casey tried to distract herself by eating some popcorn.

A few minutes later, on screen, someone barged on the door, busting it down. There were papers on the desk near them with the name Hank scribbled. The man yelled at him to get away, but he only advanced. The light showed the advancer's skin was sickly pale, he had scabs on his face, shirt ripped, he was moaning.

Casey turned away in horror. "I can't watch," she murmured. She was very squeamish.

Olivia set the popcorn by her feet. "Come here. Come sit with me," she whispered in her ear.

Casey obeyed, laying her head on her shoulder.

Olivia wrapped her arms around her. "It's okay," she whispered.

"Okay."

Olivia rubbed her back, now more focused on Casey than the movie. "Do you want some more popcorn?"

Casey shook her head. "No. Sorry I'm such a wimp."

Olivia smiled, kissing her ear. "Casey, relax. I wasn't intending to pay too much attention to the movie anyway and scary movies aren't really for me. You're not a wimp. It's perfectly fine. I just love being with you, no matter what we're doing."

"I.." Casey smiled. "Sounds good."

Olivia kissed her softly.

"Mmm."

Olivia moaned, stroking her cheek. "Mmmm. I love you."

Casey deepened the kiss.

Olivia pulled her as close as she could, slipping her tongue inside, moaning.

"Liv," Casey moaned.

"Casey..."

Casey eventually pulled away, snuggling into Olivia.

The young blonde sitting behind them was distracted from the movie. She new lovers were common in scary movies. The guys would hope the girls would get scared and jump into their arms. She wasn't against it. But...did they just call each other Casey and Liv...?

"I love you," Casey whispered.

"Mmmm. I love you too. Do you want to stay here?" Olivia asked.

"Yes."

Olivia pulled back a bit, taking a sip of pop before smiling innocently at her.

Casey smiled.

Olivia kissed her cheek.

Casey smiled.

Olivia's hands went up her back as she kissed Casey slowly.

Casey bit her softly.

Olivia moaned. "Mmm..."

A bang startled Casey away.

Olivia held her close so she didn't fall. "I swear I know who's watching us..."

"Oh?"

Olivia nodded. "I'm not sure if I want to know who it is though. They might not even know it's us."

"Olivia, you're stressing me out."

The detective shook her head. "Okay, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. Should we continue?"

Casey kissed her again. Luckily, the screams on screen had drowned their conversation.

Olivia growled, biting her lip almost until the skin broke, then she stopped, kissing her again.

Casey gasped, wrapping her arms around Olivia's neck.

Olivia moaned, slipping her tongue into Casey's mouth.

Casey squeezed Olivia's breast.

Olivia growled, pulling her closer.

Olivia smiled, unzipping her jacket and guiding Casey's hand under her shirt.

Casey smirked.

The detective nodded. "Screw our rules," she smirked.

"Which ones?"

"I don't know. ..Can't think too straight right now. Th-the ones I said..."

"Which were?"

"No touching, just kissing...I-I think..."

Casey purred seductively in her ear.

Olivia kissed her neck gently, her hands rubbing her back.

"Oh...mmm..."

The detective smiled."I can't wait to have you all to myself. You're so beautiful and perfect..." she whispered in her ear.

"Do you want me?" Casey murmured, her voice drowned by a shriek on screen.

Olivia kissed her cheek, licking her out ear a bit. "Yes. God yes... Why?"

Casey shivered. "Earn me," she purred. Then, she pulled away, taking a tiny nibble of popcorn and watching the movie.

Olivia's hand rested in her lap as she munched on the snacks and brought the popcorn back up into her lap.

Casey sighed, crossing her legs.

Olivia sighed, pulling back as a bob of zombies broke into the warehouse where a small group of people were hiding.

Casey sighed and looked away. She wasn't one for zombies.

Olivia took her hand. "We could leave and get a romance movie to take with us. I'm sorry. I thought you'd be in my arms for the entire movie, but it's not fun if you don't like it."

"If someone is watching, I can't. I'm sorry."

Olivia nodded. "I understand, but..." she offered Casey her hand again. "It's going to be fine."

Casey sighed and took it wordlessly.

Olivia took off her new jacket. "Sit up."

Casey sat up.

Olivia draped her jacket over Casey's shoulders, kissing her cheek.

Casey smiled softly.

Olivia smiled too, carefully, wrapping an arm around her shoulder as she leaned in closer. "Personally, all I'm concerned with is you. These are our personal lives and people should mind their own business."

After they got home, Casey slipped out of her clothes. Underneath, she wore a sexy, curve hugging teddy. She sat beside Olivia on the couch.

Olivia smiled. "Did you wear that just for me?"

"Maybe." Casey winked and reached for the remote, giving Olivia a view of her lifted cleavage.

Olivia smiled, pulling the life-like toy from her pocket that she'd stopped briefly for before going home with her.

"That's what you bought?" Casey had stayed in the car.

Olivia nodded. "Yes. Does it bother you?"

"No."

The detective nodded, wrapping an arm around her and kissing her. "You look so hot..."

Casey purred, deepening the kiss. "Thanks. You too."

Olivia smiled again, shedding her jacket. "So do you think this will feel more real?" she asked, holding it in front of Casey.

"Well...does it?"

Olivia carefully took Casey's hand to run along the toy. "I think so. Do you?"

"Mmm. Yes."

"Mmm. So what would you like to do now?" the detective asked, putting the toy to her lips and kissing it.

"I'll get the popcorn." An hour later, Casey curled up in Olivia's lap. She purposely nuzzled her head into the older woman's center.

Olivia moaned, rubbing Casey's stomach and smiling. "You do look really beautiful in that."

"Mmm. Thanks, sexy cop."

Olivia ran her hands through Casey's hair. "My little red kitty..."

Casey purred.

"Awww, that's it," Olivia said, kissing her head gently. "I love you."

"I love you too."

"You love me for me and wouldn't change a thing?" Olivia said.

Casey sat up and looked at her. "Are you trying to question my feelings for you?"

"No, I just mean, you'd love me even if we were complete opposites?"

"Olivia, how can you ask me that? I've never asked for anything but your love." Casey sighed. "The mood is ruined because you don't care."

Olivia sighed. "Yeah, I know. It was just a question: if we had different jobs and were still best friends..." She sighed again. "Forget it. I'm sorry. So what? Do you still want me here tonight?"

"I don't know what I want now. How dare you question how I feel?" Casey sighed and stormed into the bedroom, slamming the door. She locked it and sat on the bed,, tears flooding her eyes.

Olivia sighed, following her, knocking on the door. "I'm sorry. I should've phrased the question differently. I...I didn't mean to upset you. I meant if we weren't both in the same range of job, do you think we'd still be here? I'm sorry. I...I love you. I want to fix this. I'd do anything to fix it."

"There is no fix. Go comfort yourself in Cabot's bed," Casey snapped.

Olivia sighed. "No, fuck her. I don't care." She slid down the wall and sat.

"I saw the engagement ring in your car. Her initials on it. And now this."

Olivia sighed. "That was from years ago. I'm still planning to pawn it. I just haven't had time. I guess I'll sleep here," she scoffed. "I don't care. Obviously this is as close to you as I'm getting unless you say different. I don't want her and I'm sorry I said that."

Casey sighed. "Go away," she murmured. "And if you kick down my door I'll never speak to you again." Casey buried her head in her pillow, crying.

Olivia sighed, getting up and knocking on the door, continuously. "Casey, I'm sorry. Please..."

Casey ignored her.

Olivia sighed, going to get her jacket and covering up with it, going to sit where she was.

Casey cried herself to sleep on top of the covers.

Olivia sighed, falling asleep outside the room.

The following morning, Casey showered and dressed in a simple black suit. She found Olivia in the kitchen and ignored her.

Olivia sighed. "Morning. You look great. Bye," she said, leaving quickly. "I...I'm sorry, really."

"Can't give her up," Casey murmured to herself. "She won't give her up. I don't make her happy enough."

The second the detective stepped outside, however, she collapsed. The house had been freezing where she slept and her body couldn't take anymore cold.

Casey found her outside. "Oh my God!"

Olivia groaned, but she couldn't say anything, her systems shutting down.

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