WARNING: Adult Content.
Hearts Like Ours
By: Liv-x-Case-Benson & CaseyBensonNovak
Chapter 4: Barriers Broken
Later, in the hospital, Casey was beside Olivia's bed.
Olivia's body had shut down from the severe cold. It was taking many fluids and blankets to bring her temperature up. Soon, she was breathing more regularly.
Casey had just taken the unconscious detective's hand when she heard a murmur. It sounded like...Alex. Oh God. Olivia was asking for Alex as she woke up. Her heart shattering into a thousand shards, Casey rushed out, sobbing as she reached the elevator.
"..Casey...?"
Casey stabbed the elevator button. Once she reached her car, she completely broke down.
Olivia's eyes opened slowly. She'd been thinking about how she should've pawned the ring years ago, but it'd just been sitting in the glove compartment. Which meant that Casey had gone looking for something. But it wasn't like she could say anything now. Sighing, she went back to sleep.
Casey sighed as she drove home. Of course she was the one who felt guilty. Olivia had all but cheated on her..she had lied to her! And yet Casey was made to feel like shit for asking her to sleep on the couch. There had been blankets on the sofa...Casey sighed. "I mean nothing." She wiped a tear away and drove to her office.
Olivia was out of the hospital at 5 that night, deemed well. She took the ring pawning it and getting a golden locket. "Is it okay if I come by the office so we can talk? We need to talk," she text the redhead.
Casey sighed when she got the text. She didn't respond. Instead, she continued to research.
Olivia sighed, placing the gold locket inside a box with a red rose in it, knocking on the door once. When she didn't answer, Olivia just left it by the door and drove home. She jumped into a hot shower and tried to relax.
Casey's assistant brought the box in later that night. The redhead opened it and read the letter.
"Casey, I'm sorry about what I said. I guess I was just curious as to if I would've fallen so hard for you if I'd been a cop and you were...I don't know a bartender maybe? I realize now it wouldn't have mattered. I heard you leave the hospital room, Casey, but I'm not surprised. I was thinking of how much I could get for pawning Alex's ring. I suspect that you heard her name and ran, right? Casey, I'm so, so sorry! I know I could've slept on the couch, but I wanted to be as close to you as I could get. There must've been a draft. I...I couldn't take anymore cold when I left. It's not your fault. ANY of it. It's all on me. I didn't mean to question your love for me. I wouldn't lie to you. You'd be able to see right through it anyway. What's in this box I hope helps you realize that no matter what, I'll always love you. I know that ring makes everything shaky, but that was a long time ago. I love you. And I'm never going to stop. I don't want what we have to grow cold. I want you to love me as much as I love you - or more. You have my heart. Please don't break it. Oh, and I had the initials scribbled in a hurry, but it is for you. I hope you can forgive me, my little kitty."
When Casey finished reading and found the locket, she broke down once more. She wanted to trust Olivia, that it meant nothing. But how could she after what she had heard? She sighed, sitting down slowly. She began to sob.
Olivia stepped from the shower, drying off and pulling on a t-shirt and shorts. She walked out to the living room, sitting on the couch, dialing Casey's office. "Don't cry," she said when she heard Casey's strained voice. "I'm sorry. Truly. For everything. Whatever you want me to do for us to still be together, I'll do it. Please don't cry."
Casey sighed.
"I'm sorry. I actually just got home from the hospital. I'm feeling much better."
"Good."
"Yeah it is. I'm really, really sorry. I hope we can go out again, but it's up to you. I was about to order a pizza if you want to stop over. You don't have to. I'm just asking."
"Why?"
"Because I want you here. I missed you last night."
Casey sighed. "You really hurt me, Olivia."
The detective sighed. "I know and I'm sorry. I-I don't even know what you heard, but I don't remember her in my dreams."
"Yes you do."
"Okay, if it was right before I woke up it was about pawning the ring, but other than that I swear I don't know."
"You're lying."
"No, I'm not. How do you know I am?"
Casey sighed again. "You only got rid of the ring after I saw it. Are you truly over her, or are you trying to lure me back into your bed?"
"I'm done and I don't care what she says. In fact, bring a movie with you."
"Shakespeare...if I come."
Olivia smiled. "Well, IF you come over, what kind of pizza do you want?"
"Pepperoni."
"Mm. Sounds good to me. Anything to drink? I apologize for the heat beforehand, but I have to try to avoid the cold for the next day or two."
Casey sighed.
"Casey, none of this is your fault. I promise. I'm going to be okay."
An hour later, Casey was sitting on Olivia's couch. "Why am I here?" she murmured.
"To eat?" Olivia asked. "And watch a movie?"
"I guess so."
Olivia answered the door after a series of knocks and grabbed the medium pepperoni pizza, setting it on the coffee table before grabbing plates and forks from the kitchen as well as an iced tea for Casey and a glass of water for herself, sitting beside her.
Casey looked away, thanking her quietly.
Olivia smiled. "Do you want to put the movie in? Assuming you brought it."
Casey handed her Macbeth.
Olivia got up, turning on the DVD player and putting it in, turning the TV on as she sat back beside Casey. "Oh, a classic."
"I love Shakespeare," Casey admitted.
"Me too. Though I have to say Romeo & Juliet is my all-time favorite," Olivia said.
Casey shrugged. "It's an exaggerated love story. They love, they die..."
"She follows him into death because she loves him so much."
"She loved. Look where it got her!"
"They both did. They were secret lovers. Casey, I love you and I'm sorry I hurt you. I'll do anything to make it up to you," Olivia said.
"Who said this was about us?"
Olivia sighed. "I did because I want us to move past this and be an 'us' again. We don't have to be together every night. Unless you want to be. Like I said, lunch or dinner, maybe breakfast. Just as long as I see you. I don't want this to only be about sex because you deserve better than that. I mean it was great. Spectacular actually, better than anything else, but I want us to continue to be who we are. Can we try to do that?"
Casey returned the sigh with one of her own. "I really love the locket, Olivia. But it hurts that you didn't get rid of the ring before I found it. And before you accuse me of searching, I knew you kept the band aids there. I sliced my finger open and I needed one...it was on top.."
"That was...that was my next question. I didn't know anything was going to happen before it did. I gave you every way out possible, but...you loved me enough to trust me and that means the world to me. I'm sorry. I don't want her in my life anymore. I want you. Is your finger okay?"
"It's fine," Casey murmured. "So you kept her as a back up?"
Olivia shook her head. "It was over a long time ago. I'd always meant to pawn it. With this job, I never had the time."
Casey looked away.
Olivia opened the pizza box, grabbing a slice and offering it to Casey. "Casey, you mean too much to me to use, especially that way."
Casey slowly took the pizza. "I feel like that's all I'm good for. I love having sex with you but only if it means something."
"It's not all you're good for. You're also an amazing kisser, a top-notch attorney, my best friend, extremely, beautiful, smart, caring, loving... Would you like me to go on?" she asked before biting into a slice of pizza.
Casey blushed. "Do you really believe those things?" she asked. She nibbled on a piece of pepperoni.
The detective nodded. "More than anything."
Casey sighed and turned to face her.
Olivia smiled, swallowing the food in her mouth. "All I want is you."
"How much?"
"All I want is to make you happy. I would die for you. And I'd do it gladly. Every day, any day. I want you with me."
Casey reluctantly crawled up to her. She knew it was crazy...but she also knew that her heart would win.
Olivia set her food on the coffee table, wrapping her arms around her. "I missed you. I really did. I love just being near you. You're so soft and you always smell so nice."
"But...you were in the hospital because.."
"But that was my fault to begin with for asking that ridiculous question," Olivia insisted.
"Well...I already paid the hospital bill."
Olivia smiled. "Thank you, but you didn't have to do that."
"Don't worry about it."
Olivia rubbed her back a bit. "You look so beautiful. Can I...?" she leaned in to kiss her cheek, but waited for Casey to respond beforehand.
Casey nodded silently.
Olivia slowly kissed her cheek, then pulled away to hold her tight.
"Do you still have it?"
"Have what?"
"The..thing..."
The detective nodded. "Yes, but Case, I'm not nearly up to full strength. If you want me to try, I can, but I might not be as strong. Though I could just hold it and go that way...if you wouldn't mind, for tonight."
"We can wait."
Olivia nodded. "Well, we could just cuddle for the night and you can keep me warm."
"Yeah. Um...let's watch the movie."
Olivia smiled, kissing her cheek again. "Sit with me?" she asked, wrapping herself in a heavy quilt.
"I will be right back."
Olivia nodded, letting go as she watched the movie.
Casey sighed and turned the lights off before sitting beside her.
Gently, Olivia's hand held Casey's.
Casey smiled softly.
Olivia smiled, partially covering Casey with the blanket. "My heater doesn't get the place too warm."
"Is it broken?"
"No, it's just never gotten very warm. That's why I have four blankets on my bed."
"That makes sense."
Olivia nodded. "Yeah," she said, resting her feet on the coffee table and relaxing, kissing Casey's hand.
Casey sighed.
Slowly, as the detective's body warmed up, she became sleepy, but, not wanting Casey to leave, she fought it to stay awake.
Casey remained silent. She still had doubts.
Olivia sat up, pausing the movie. "Casey, please talk to me."
"There is nothing to talk about."
"Yes there is. You're still worried. Doubtful."
Casey sighed. "It doesn't matter."
Olivia held her hand tighter. "Yes it does. I love you and I want to make you feel better. Please?"
"There will come a time when you get tired of me..."
Olivia shook her head. "You're beautiful, smart, funny, stunningly gorgeous, I love spending time with you, you're an amazing kisser. Why would I get tired of you?"
"Because I'm not her."
"But that's a good thing. If I wanted her, I'd still be with her. I don't want her. I want you."
"Promise?"
Olivia nodded. "On my life. Please come snuggle with me and keep me warm?"
Casey sighed and crawled up beside her.
Olivia wrapped her arms and the blanket around her. "Mmm, I feel better already," she said with a smile.
"I...love you..."
"I love you too." Slowly, Olivia kissed her.
Casey purred.
Olivia kissed her more deeply, rubbing her back.
Casey deepened the kiss.
Olivia groaned, her hands going through Casey's hair. "Mmmm, I love you."
"I hope so. I love you too."
The detective nodded. "Yes, I do. I want you with me."
"I am here for as long as you want me."
"Bed?"
"Are you tired?"
"..A bit, but I'd just like to be a bit more comfortable, with you," Olivia said as she stood, shakily.
Casey stood beside her. "Okay."
Olivia smiled, offering her hand after turning off the TV and DVD player.
Casey took it.
Olivia lead her back to her bedroom, sitting her on the bed. She discarded her sweats, climbing into bed. The room wasn't nearly as clean with a dirty clothes pile peeking from the closet and numerous shirts scattered across the floor. "Sorry for the mess, but most nights I just get home, undress and slip into bed."
Casey smiled. "It 's okay. I understand." She gazed around the room. "It's not so bad..."
"Thanks," the replied, opening the blankets for her.
Casey crawled into bed.
Olivia wrapped her arms around her, snuggling into her and kissing her cheek.
"Mmm."
Olivia smiled. "I love you. You're the only one I want."
"I believe you."
Olivia kissed her again, moaning gently.
Casey whimpered.
Olivia bit her.
"Fuck."
Olivia soothed the bite, kissing gently before pulling back a bit. "Mmmm. I love you... I feel better."
"I do too."
"How do you feel?"
"Better..."
"Good," Olivia said, kissing her neck, sucking a bit.
"Olivia, I.."
Olivia pulled back a bit. "I'm sorry if I'm going to fast.."
"I thought you didn't want to do anything?"
"I didn't before, but I'm feeling better. We don't have to if you don't want to..."
"Your kisses drive me insane."
Olivia smirked, kissing her passionately.
Casey moaned.
Olivia smiled, slipping her tongue inside, moaning.
"Mmm."
Olivia pulled her close, draping a leg over her. "I love you..."
"I love you too!"
Olivia's kisses moved to Casey's neck, growling.
Casey gasped.
Olivia kissed her neck, purring against her as her hands came around to rub Casey's stomach.
Casey squirmed.
Olivia kissed her lips again. "Mmmm. So sweet."
"I need you.."
"Mmm. How much? What do you need?"
"Everything...deep and hard.."
Olivia smiled. "If I'm going to do that, you need a lot less on. If you can take care of that, I'll do whatever you want," she said, sliding from bed.
Casey stripped quickly.
Olivia quickly stripped as well, grabbing the harness and the feel-real toy, stepping into it.
Casey watched with a smile.
Olivia crawled up beside Casey, straddling her, the toy pressing into Casey's stomach as she leaned down and kissed her passionately.
"Oh...mm."
Olivia wrapped her arms around her, pulling her up from the bed a bit. Breaking the kiss, she kissed down her chest.
"Oh God..."
Smiling, Olivia laid Casey back on the bed and kissed her breasts, flicking her tongue around the peaks, alternating every few seconds.
Casey threw her head back, moaning.
Olivia smiled, sucking the peaks until they hardened, her teeth grazing them.
Casey gasped. "Oh...fuck."
Olivia went back up to suck gently on her collarbone.
"Olivia...mmm."
Her hands raked trails from her breasts down to her stomach as she kissed Casey again. "Had enough yet?" she asked with a smirk.
"No," Casey fought between whimpers.
Olivia leaned into her completely, embedding the toy into her stomach as she kissed her jaw line.
Casey moaned, throwing her head back. Her legs tangled around Olivia's waist.
Olivia smirked, kissing her deeply. "You know, I could keep torturing you..."
"Fuuuckk."
"How?" Olivia breathed in her ear.
"Liv...please..."
Olivia supported herself on her arms above her. "Alright, but does what you said earlier still apply? You don't want me to hold back? Hard and as fast as I want? Whatever I want?"
"Y-yes."
Olivia smiled, pulling herself down Casey's body, the toy rubbing, until she found the spot she was looking for. She licked Casey's clit once in a long stroke.
Casey bucked against her. "Oh God...mmmmmm..." Her clit hardened painfully in Olivia's mouth.
Olivia continued to suck on the bundle of 9,000 nerves, her finger stroking Casey's sopping slit. Tonight the distinguished, young, attorney would beg for her. She was sure of it. She knew how to control her body better than she'd let on the night before last.
Casey squirmed, whimpering. Her nails clawed at the sheets, her body writhed. "Fuuck."
Olivia's tongue licked up and down her clit.
"Oh God.."
"Mmmm, sweet, juicy..."
"Fuck.."
"Had enough yet?" the detective purred.
"No...I can take it."
Olivia sucked on her clit hard, parting her nether lips to get a firm grip.
Casey gasped.
Olivia let her teeth graze the nerves.
"I...fuck yes.."
Olivia pulled back, rubbing Casey's clit with the palm of her hand an her fingers drew a line down from her navel down to the light trail of hair. "Say when..."
"W-whenever you say..."
Olivia moved up, rubbing the toy against Casey's stomach, hard. "No, I want you to tell me when you can take it. When you have to have me inside of you..."
Casey moaned, but said nothing.
Olivia sucked on her breast, biting into it.
Casey whimpered as her nipple hardened.
Olivia moved to the other, pinching the hardened one between her thumb and index finger.
"Oh my God!"
Olivia pulled back, pinching and twisting both of Casey's nipples.
Casey cried out in pleasure.
Olivia wrapped her arms around her and kissed her again. "Mmmm."
"Do you want me?" Casey purred.
"Yes. I need you. Your touch, your kiss, the feel of you. To see you lose control," Olivia said, running a hand along the toy. "But being as I'm not up to full-strength yet, I figured it was easiest to get you as close as possible," she said by her ear. "Are you ready yet?"
Casey nodded. "I think so."
"On your stomach," she said moving to the side of her, cupping her chin, "now."
Casey obeyed, rolling over.
Olivia spread her legs before getting on her hands and knees above her, slowly penetrating her, going until they touched, before lying on top of her.
Casey whimpered, clawing at the sheets.
Olivia kissed her shoulder. "Now...do you think it feels real?"
"Fuck...yes..."
Olivia smiled, moving Casey's head so she wasn't staring at the sheets, beginning to thrust slowly within her.
"Oh...god..." Casey squirmed.
Moaning, Olivia leaned back, gripping Casey's legs, and going faster. "Mmmm, so warm and wet."
"Olivia...fuck me..."
"Whatever you want," she whispered, kissing her cheek, picking up the pace.
Casey cried out, digging her nails into the comforter.
Olivia smiled, leaning down and moaning in her ear as she went faster.
"I need you."
Olivia purred by her ear. "You can get to your knees if you want. I can fuck you much harder that way. But only if you want..."
Casey crawled to her knees.
Olivia held her hips, thrusting up into her. "..Oh..."
"FUCK!"
"Mmmm, does this feel good, hmmm? Tell me what you want?"
"I want...you...deep...hard.."
Olivia growled, deeply. "Sorry in advance if anything hurts. And don't say stop unless you want me to stop. Got it?"
"Y-yes."
Olivia kissed a line between her shoulders, before going harder and much, MUCH deeper, nearly slamming into her with each thrust, groaning with every touch of skin. The detective was already panting from the effort and ecstasy of it all, but she refused to give in before her little kitten.
Casey screamed in ecstasy.
Olivia moaned going faster, stroking Casey's clit with one finger.
"Liiiv...I'm going to..."
"Going to what?" she purred into her ear. "Going to come? Hard? From me fucking you?"
"Fuuck...n...no I..ohhh..."
Olivia slowed down a bit. "What? Take a breath and say it."
"DON'T STOP!"
Olivia nodded, resuming the fast pace, gently guiding Casey's face to the pillow as she went faster.
Casey lost it. Screaming into the pillow, she came hard.
A few more strokes and the detective screamed into her shoulder, wrapping her arms around her as she fell to the side.
Casey collapsed on the bed with a whimper.
Olivia pulled her close, kissing her cheek. "..You okay?"
"I...I think so...is the room spinning?"
Olivia pulled away, discarding the toy and getting Casey a glass of water, sitting beside her. "No, the room isn't spinning. Here, roll over toward me and have a drink of water."
Casey did as she was told.
Olivia slid under the covers, resting her head in Casey's neck.
"Mmm."
Olivia smiled, taking the glass from her and setting it on the nightstand, wrapping her arms around her. "That was wonderful."
"Mmm. Yes it was."
Olivia smiled, kissing her passionately. "I love you, my kitty."
"I love you too."
Olivia kissed down her neck.
Casey moaned.
"Mmm, I love that sound."
"Mm."
Olivia smiled, going over to dip her head between Casey's legs, kissing her.
Casey moaned.
Olivia slid her tongue into her core.
"Fuck!"
Olivia swirled her tongue inside, pinching her clit. "Mmm, can I taste?"
"Y-yes.."
Olivia continued to lick her out, faster and faster.
Casey squirmed, whimpering.
"Mmmm." Olivia pulled away a bit to suck on her clit, burying four fingers inside of Casey.
Casey cried out.
Olivia pulled her fingers out, seductively licking them clean, winking at Casey.
Casey squirmed. "Liiv..."
Olivia smiled, leaning back down in and licking her clit again.
"Fuck yes.."
Olivia purred against her clit. "Mmm, so good."
"Mmm."
Olivia bit down on her clit.
Casey moaned.
Olivia smiled, kissing it then biting down a bit harder, taking it between her teeth and licking relentlessly.
"I'm...so...close.."
Olivia slipped her tongue inside. "Mmmm, so good baby. Come on, come for me..."
Casey dug her nails into the sheets. Her legs pulled Olivia closer. Screaming, she came in the older woman's mouth.
Smirking, Olivia drank in everything she had, pulling her closer to get every last drop before sitting up and smiling at her, licking her lips.
"Oh...wow.."
"Hmm?" the detective hummed, smiling, gesturing for her to come to her.
Casey crawled into her arms.
Olivia smiled, holding her tightly. "Mmm, you are amazing..."
"Mm. You too.."
The detective rested her head her ADA's neck again. "Is there anything else you'd like to do?"
"Mmm. You choose."
Olivia shook her head. "No you choose. Whatever you want."
"Olivia, I always wanted..."
Olivia nodded in encouragement. "Go on."
"I always wanted to make love in a bubble bath..."
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