WARNING: Adult Content!
Hearts Like Ours
By: Liv-x-Case-Benson & CaseyBensonNovak
Chapter 8: Means
Olivia smiled, picking up the dishes and setting them to soak in the sink before going back to bed and actually being able to sleep.
Casey was sad that the proposal wasn't very special. All she could do was spend her day thinking about how little it meant. It wasn't romantic. Besides, she had all but begged to be proposed to, so what was the point? Seven that night rolled around. Casey got a call about a delivery. She ordered it to be sent up.
The delivery man opened the door carrying two, long-stemmed, red roses with a note. "Casey. That wasn't even close to a proposal, not one you deserve, but I want to prove things to you before I even think of creative ways. So here's one for you and one for what's to come. xoxo Liv"
Casey sighed quietly. Once the flowers were in a vase, she texted Olivia a thank you for the flowers. Then, she returned to work.
Olivia smiled, texting her that it wasn't a problem, she deserved them, and that, hopefully, Casey remembered she still couldn't go out for one more day.
"Why not?" Casey texted back.
"I still have one more day of staying completely indoors. Doctor's orders," Olivia sent back.
"I know. Just forget the romance. I'm used to dry proposals. All that matters is that I said yes..."
"No. I could just bundle up really well. What were you thinking?"
"You are staying home. And for the record, making a woman plan your proposal is a great way to make her feel like an afterthought. I'll bring pizza." Casey got home an hour later, finding Olivia in bed. "Here is your pizza..I'll be in the living room..."
Olivia sat up, taking her wrist. "Casey, I meant I would plan it. Please sit with me."
"I'll never forgive you for making me ask...you basically did. Such a fairy tale romance." Casey sat on the floor.
Olivia sighed. "I didn't mean that soon. I meant sometime...if you felt better. I didn't make you ask."
"Yes you did. You didn't ask until I wanted to leave. It was a last ditch effort to make me stay. I guess I imagined a proposal differently...whatever. Enjoy the pizza."
"Casey, if I had the ring, had everything planned... I said it as a possibility. Down the road. I want to, but not until everything is perfect."
"You only want to marry me because I cried over it! It will never be special, because it wasn't your idea. Fuck the ring. Fuck everything. I just wanted romance for once...from someone." Casey sighed.
Olivia sighed. "You'll get that once I'm better. Do you want any pizza?"
"No. I'm not eating."
"Casey, will you do something for me, please?"
"Anything.."
"Sit up here and close your eyes until I say," Olivia requested.
Casey sighed and did as she was told. "Olivia, this is ridiculous."
Olivia stood, lighting strategically placed candles around the room, turning off the lights before resuming her spot. "It's a bit cheesy, but, for now, it's all I can do. Go ahead and open your eyes."
Casey opened her eyes slowly.
Olivia smiled, the candlelight bouncing off the walls, casting a soft glow as she took Casey's hand, kissing it. "I do want to marry you, but I want to plan it out. I want to take my time. I don't believe a spur of the moment proposal is worth anything. I want to treat you like royalty, earn you. Prove that I love you before I ask you. Is that so bad Casey?"
Casey sighed. "Olivia, that means so much, but.."
"But what? Please talk to me."
"But I fucked everything."
Olivia shook her head. "No I did. Let me make it up to you. Please?"
"I overreacted. I...I just...part of me still dreads the day you'll get tired of me, and all I know is how much I love you. When you said forever last night...I guess part of me thought you were going to propose then...but all you wanted was sex...and that hurt me."
Olivia kissed her hand again. "Casey, I do want forever. I just didn't think it was right to ask because of that. I didn't mean to hurt you."
"Am I...good...you know...in..."
Olivia nodded, kissing her cheek. "You're wonderful. Perfect. Amazing. Mind-blowing."
Casey blushed. "Really?" she asked.
"Yes. I love you and you're perfect for me. I always want you with me."
"Wow..."
Olivia smiled, kissing her cheek. "Mmm, I'm sorry baby. I never meant to make you feel that way."
"No one has ever said that to me. At least...not when they aren't trying to get me in bed..."
Olivia wrapped her arms around her, snuggling into her. "Well, I mean it. So, what do you say to having dinner in our personal candlelit restaurant?"
Casey smiled and nodded slowly. "Okay. But first, I have to do something."
Olivia pulled back a bit. "And what would that be?"
Casey pushed the detective onto her back. She pounced on the older woman, kissing her passionately for several seconds. Finally, she pulled back, standing up. "So what's for dinner?"
Olivia smiled. "Well, first off, thanks for the kiss. And I was thinking...how about the pizza you brought me?"
"Oh. Right." Casey blushed. "I forgot about that," she admitted.
Olivia smiled again. "We could feed each other."
Casey opened the box of pizza. Grabbing a slice, she peeled a piece of pepperoni off of it. "How so?" she asked, seductively eating the pepperoni.
Olivia bit her lip, kissing her cheek, and grabbing the slice of pizza, offering it from her hand as she bought it to Casey's lips.
Casey took a tiny bite, smiling.
Olivia took the next one, taking a bigger bite, then offering it back to Casey.
"Mm. I just thought of something..."
"Hmm?" Olivia asked after taking a bite.
"Well, once again, your job interrupted our sex life...but don't they know that you're supposed to be off until tomorrow?""
"The squad does and now Alex does too... Why?"
"You told Alex?"
"Remember she called wanting me to go get more evidence?"
Casey sighed. "I hate that bottle blonde bitch."
Olivia hugged her close, kissing her ear, purring softly. "I know, but she's...a decent ADA, gets things done..."
Casey sat up, her emerald eyes narrowing.
"You're fabulous at being our ADA. Amazing. Mine," the detective purred.
"Yeah. Who else is yours, Olivia?"
"No one. I said that she was decent to be professional. Other than that, I couldn't care less..."
Casey sighed, slowly laying down once more.
Olivia sighed. "I was only being polite. God, is that wrong?"
"I was only being insecure. God, is that wrong?" Casey retorted.
"No. I'm sorry," she said, kissing Casey's cheek.
Casey pulled another slice of pizza from the box, beginning to nibble on it.
Olivia continued to eat on the one she had previously.
"I spent my first year there hearing the whispers. You would disappear for days and people would say you were visiting Alex. People would say "No one made Olivia happy like Alex did" or "Alex and Olivia would have been a beautiful couple"." Casey shook her head. "Sometimes I wonder if you would be happier being with her." She looked down at her pizza, suddenly unable to eat it. She placed it on her plate and propped herself up against the pillows.
Olivia shook her head. "Yes, she did make me happy, but never knew I could love someone like I love you. I don't want to be with her. I can't bring myself to hate her because I broke it off. I could sit here for hours, but I don't want to. I don't want to compare you to anybody. You're you and I love you just the way you are. Marriage never even entered my mind when I was with her."
"Well...I guess it doesn't matter. I think part of you still loves her, and I'll force myself to accept that. Do you want some root beer?" Casey asked, pouring each of them a glass.
Olivia shrugged. "Sure. Hey Case?"
"What?"
"Don't you have feelings for you exes you wish you could get rid of?"
"No," Casey admitted. "Just sadness...and that's only because so many people used me. So...you just admitted that you still love her. Let's watch a movie. How about a satire on romance?"
"Casey, that's from the old, still-good memories. Not because I want anything to do with her like that. Does that make sense?"
Casey handed her the root beer. "Movie?" she asked again.
Olivia nodded. "Okay."
Casey sighed and put the movie in. Pressing play, she slid under the covers, holding them to her chest so that only her head and neck were visible. She laid on the edge of the bed, as far away from Olivia as she could get without falling off. It wasn't, however, a conscious decision.
Olivia pulled the covers over them. "Casey." She reached her hand over toward her.
Casey turned. "Do you want the remote?"
Olivia shook her head. "You can do it."
"I already hit play..."
"Then you can keep the remote."
"Fine."
Olivia sighed. "I'm sorry. She was in my past. You're in my present and future."
"I didn't say anything."
"Then why are you as far away from me as possible?"
"I'm not."
Olivia scooted closer to her, taking her hand and kissing her cheek.
Casey sighed. She curled her legs, readjusting her pillows. "Have you seen this movie before? It's a satire...but honestly, I think satire on romance translates to the truth: there is no such thing as someone who truly loves you and only you."
"Then you don't love me?"
Casey sat up so quickly that she almost fell off of the bed. "How can you ask me that?" she demanded. "You're the one who has feelings for another woman!"
Olivia shook her head. "No I don't. I remember the good memories. It doesn't mean I have feelings for her!"
"If you pine for her, then you still love her!"
Olivia wrapped her arms around her. "No, I love you."
"Partially."
"She is my past, not you."
Casey turned away. "Oh, look, opening credits."
Olivia ignored them, holding her hand before getting up and blowing out all the candles, then sitting back beside her. "Do you really love me?"
"If you have to ask that...then..." Casey sat up. "You're an idiot to think otherwise. For the record, Benson, admitting that part of you loves someone else is a perfect way to kill the mood." Casey blew out the one candle Olivia had forgotten. Tears sprang into her eyes. "I wanted to be your one and only...now I know I never will be."
"Casey, I don't love her! I didn't ask because I doubted you. I asked for reassurance. You are my one and only. And you always will be."
"You said you still love her. You two deserve each other. She's the ice queen, and you're just ice."
Olivia took a breath, throwing a small box at her before stalking away.
Casey looked down at the box, picking it up.
The box had a pendant inside with Casey's birthstone...and a small diamond ring.
Casey gasped.
Underneath was a note. "Forget the past and the fights. You're my forever. I love you. If I ever break your heart again, I'll be six feet under..."
Casey lost it. Dropping the ring and the necklace to the floor, she locked herself in the bathroom. Sliding to the floor, she pulled her knees to her chest and began to cry.
Olivia walked back into the room, seeing Casey was gone. She could hear Casey in the bathroom. She walked over and knocked on the door, finding it locked. "I love you. I never intend to break your heart again."
"Just go away!" Casey cried. "I keep ruining everything. I just feel so sad all of the time...happiness only stays for a fleeting moment..then it's back to sadness. No one loves me...I don't make anyone happy."
"You're wrong, Casey. You make me very happy and I haven't been happy in a long time. I'm happy because you're with me, because I love you. I'm not leaving because you're upset. I want to see all these different sides of you. I want to help you through everything. Please come out."
"I'm a failure. I can't do anything right."
"No you're not. You could never be a failure in my eyes. I love you."
"Stop it!"
"No. Come out of here. Cry on my shoulder. I don't mind. Let me help you."
Casey sighed.
"Please Casey."
Casey reluctantly opened the bathroom door.
Olivia pulled her into her arms. "Thank you," she whispered into her hair. "It's okay. I love you so much."
Casey began to cry again.
Olivia carried her to the bed, sitting with her, holding her close and rubbing her back. "Ssshh, let it out. It's okay. We can just sit here until you want to move okay?"
"I'm sorry...god, I keep flying off the handle.."
"It's okay. If you need to let it out, go ahead. Just know that I'm never, ever going to get tired of you or stop loving you. Know that you're always going to be my number one. I love you. And never forget that."
"Promise?"
Olivia nodded. "Forever."
"Forever," Casey echoed. "I like the sound of that."
Olivia kissed her cheek, purring softly.
"Mm."
"Mmm," Olivia did it again. "Can I get a smile from my favorite girl?"
Casey managed a tiny smile.
Olivia smiled. "The most beautiful smile is one managed through tears."
"Why is that?"
"Because only someone you truly love can make you smile after being so upset."
"That's true."
"I love you," Olivia said, caressing her cheek.
"I love you so much."
Olivia held her close. "Can I...kiss you?"
"Yes."
Olivia kissed her slowly.
Casey moaned.
Olivia purred, kissing her deeply, placing a hand on the back of Casey's head.
Casey purred. "Olivia, I'm so sorry."
Olivia shook her head. "I forgive you. Don't focus on that. Focus on here and now."
"Are you sure?"
The detective nodded. "Yes."
"Okay, beautiful."
Olivia smiled. "I love you. Should we just sit here and snuggle or do you have something else in mind?"
Casey hit pause on the movie.
Olivia kissed her again. "It's up to you."
Casey sat on the bed.
Olivia crawled up beside her, wrapping her arms around her. "Now what do you want to do?"
Casey shrugged, laying down. Her fingers ventured between her own legs.
Olivia smiled, lying beside Casey and kissing her passionately.
Casey propped herself up. "Wait...maybe I shouldn't get undressed..."
"Awww, but I was looking forward to watching you," Olivia said.
Casey slowly unbuttoned her blazer. Underneath was a lacy teddy.
Olivia's eyes widened as she whistled.
"Something wrong, officer?"
"No. So sexy..."
Casey blushed. "Shall I continue?" She unzipped her skirt, sliding it down her legs. Now she was in nothing but the teddy.
Olivia's eyes darkened as she kissed her again. "So beautiful."
"I love you so much."
"I love you too. You look so sexy in just this."
"Yeah?"
Olivia nodded, kissing her neck, running her hands up and down Casey's ribs.
"Oh...god.."
The detective sucked on Casey's neck. "Mmm, good?"
"Yes..."
Olivia kissed her collarbone, the palms of her hands, running over Casey's breasts in circles, as she moaned.
"Oh...fuck..."
Olivia growled, switching breasts.
"Olivia..." A flood of wetness shot to Casey's core.
Olivia pulled away. "This needs to come off, doesn't it?"
"Oh, does it?"
"Well, things would be easier..."
"Make me," Casey replied defiantly.
Olivia smirked, sucking hard on her breasts.
"Jesus..."
Olivia smiled, moving to the other as her hand rested between Casey's legs.
"Olivia...forgetting...the...I dropped...the..."
She pulled up. "You jewelry is on the nightstand."
"Help me."
Olivia stood her up, stripping her of the teddy and holding her close, the side of the detective's face gliding against her stomach.
"Fuck...j-jewelry?"
Olivia showed her the pendant and...
"Is it a...r-ring?"
The detective nodded. "Yeah."
Casey purred. "Oh my god. I..I don't know what to...say..."
Olivia kissed her. "You don't have to give me an answer now."
"But...I...yes..."
Olivia's eyes widened. "Y-yes? Really? Yes?"
"Yes."
Olivia hugged her tightly, laying her head on Casey's shoulder and slipping the ring on her finger.
"But where did you...you said you didn't have a ring..."
"I ordered one from the jewelers and had it delivered while you were at work."
"That quickly?"
"Yes when I've botched more than a fair share of robberies from there."
"You robbed the jewelry store?! What kind of cop are you?" Casey was too happy to be logical.
Olivia kissed her gently, moaning against her neck.
"Olivia, you robbed a store..."
"No, I ordered it and a worker brought it to me."
"Ohhhhh."
Olivia smiled. "I love you."
"But you said you botched robberies there."
"Yes, I stopped them."
"Oh." Casey blushed. "I knew that."
Olivia laughed lightly.
"What's so funny?"
"You. This. Us."
"It's funny?"
Olivia shook her head. "A bit. It's more happiness though."
"Why is it funny?"
"I don't know. It's nothing bad," the detective said.
"Okay."
"Can't I just be happy?"
Casey nodded.
Olivia kissed her again.
"Who do you love, Detective?"
"Mmmm. A sexy redhead, who also happens to be my fiancée."
"Mmmm."
"I love you, Casey Benson..."
"I like the sound of that."
"Now what should happen?"
Casey sat on the bed. "What usually happens in these moments?"
Olivia wrapped her arms around her. "Well..." she kissed Casey's neck.
"Mmm. Go on."
Olivia moved down to suck on her breasts. "Mmm..."
Casey gasped.
Olivia pulled away, straddling her before kissing her passionately, moaning.
Casey whimpered. "Oh...Liv."
"..Case...So perfect, beautiful..."
"Sexy cop..."
"Smoking ADA..."
"Fuck."
Olivia smirked, pushing Casey onto her back as she stripped, lying beside her and kissing her.
Casey whimpered.
Olivia threw a leg over her, caressing her cheek.
Casey bit her.
Olivia gasped, pulling Casey's hair.
"A...Amazing...ohhh..."
Olivia kissed her neck, nipping at it.
Casey whimpered.
Olivia kissed down, sucking on her nipple.
"Oh...Olivia, I can't believe a t-teddy made you so...horny..."
Olivia pulled away. "It's you. It's you wearing the teddy. Just for me. So sexy."
Casey smiled. "Just for you," she echoed. "Always."
"Mmmm. You're so perfect," the detective said, switching breasts.
Casey gasped, arching her body off of the bed.
Olivia moved to the floor, grabbing a butterfly clit vibrator and sitting back next to her. She clamped it to her clit, just barely tugging at it, eager to see Casey's reaction.
"Olivia...oh...fuck..."
Olivia let go, lying back beside her and pulling her close to her on Casey's side and throwing a leg over Olivia's hip. With a touch, the butterfly hummed as she quickly thrust three fingers inside of Casey, moaning into her neck.
Casey squirmed on the bed, moaning in pleasure. "H-how are you-doing-that?" she whimpered.
"Doing what?" Olivia asked.
"You're not...holding..it.."
Olivia smirked. "It's clipped onto your clit, baby," she whispered into her ear.
Casey squirmed in response.
Olivia's fingers worked in and out. "Mmm, so wet. So warm."
Casey whimpered. "Oh god...harder...oh...yes.."
Olivia's fingers moved faster and faster. "Mmm, will you do this for me too? Make me come with you? I want to feel you..."
"Can we come together?" Casey moaned in the older woman's ear.
Olivia groaned. "Th-that's why I asked..."
Casey kissed her passionately. Her fingers wandered between the detective's legs.
Olivia moaned, biting Casey's lip.
Casey penetrated her with three fingers. "When I think about you, Olivia...it drives me crazy. Nothing is sexier than you in action. Your gun, your badge...your deep, husky voice..."
Olivia moaned, burying her face in her shoulder. "K-keep g-going...God keep talking..."
"When you interrogate a perp...I love the way you bend over to talk to them...I love...when you take control of me...give me orders...oh...Olivia..." The vibration against Casey's clit felt a million times magnified.
Olivia moaned louder. "..Oh... Case... Mmmm, I love the way you talk like that..."
Casey kissed her passionately. "I'm so close," she moaned in the detective's ear. "Olivia, fuck me," she begged, her own fingers curling within the older woman.
Olivia gasped, feeling the same intense wetness flood her ore that she felt from Casey. "Yes, my kitty," she purred, kissing Casey, going faster and faster. "..Fuck! So good... Don't stop with me."
"I love you," Casey moaned. "Oh god, Olivia..." She began to squirm, her whimpers growing louder. It was a sign that the redhead was ready to come.
Olivia smiled, groaning. "Mmmm, going to come for me? Just like this? I-I want you too. God, you're so sexy! Fuck!"
"Olivvvviiaaa..." Casey screamed Olivia's name at the top of her lungs, throwing her head back. Her thumb circled the older woman's clit hard as she came for the detective. "Fuck...oh fuck yes...Olivia...ohhh..."
"Caseyyyyyy! Fuck! Oh...God! Yesssssss!" Olivia screamed coming with her, turned on even more by hearing Casey.
Casey slowly collapsed beside her, panting. "Now I know...why they...say make up...sex...is better..."
Olivia nodded, turning off the toy and gently pulling it away from Casey.
"Yeah, it is, but I still hate fighting with you."
"Olivia...mmm. You're such a lion in bed."
Olivia smiled, kissing her again. "Mmmm, I love how Submissive you are to me."
"I'm yours..."
"Will you do something for me?" the detective asked.
"Well..."
"Please? You don't even have to move..."
"What do you want?"
"To ride and come directly into your mouth," Olivia said.
Casey swallowed hard. The mere thought of it sent shivers through her. In lieu of a response, the attorney laid flat on her back.
Olivia kissed her softly, fully and completely before placing a leg on either side of Casey's head. "I'm not on your hair, am I?"
"No."
Olivia looked down at her, smiling. "Good. And feel free to do what you want. Just no anal, ok?"
Casey sighed. "Olivia...I told you from day one that the mere thought of anal sex churns my stomach."
"I know, but I just thought I'd say something. Are you still okay to do this, Benson?"
Casey blushed. "I really love the sound of that."
Olivia smiled, stroking her cheek as she lowered herself down, moaning as she came into contact with Casey's face. "Oh God...Case..."
Casey purred, her tongue circling Olivia's clit.
Olivia jumped, groaning and grabbing the headboard.
"Mmmmm..." Casey's tongue ventured into the older woman.
"Mmm...Casey... So good. No wonder you can argue so well," the detective moaned.
Casey nipped at Olivia's clit. Olivia's sounds were driving her insane. "Imagine me...in your arms..whimpering your name as every thrust you drive into me makes me quiver.." She moaned between licks.
Olivia gasped, moaning and beginning to grind into Casey's mouth. "...Mmmm, yes... I love you. How I...love y..ou..."
Casey's teeth grazed the brunette's clit. At the same time, her tongue swirled inside of her. She knew Olivia was close.
Olivia trembled. "Mmm, please, baby, come on," she moaned. "Oh..."
Casey squeezed Olivia's breasts, her fingers pinching the hardened nipples. She bit into Olivia's clit one last time, purring seductively against her.
Olivia ground against her fast and hard. "God C-Casey! F-fuck, baby! Oh, oh...OH! CASEY!"
Casey's tongue penetrated Olivia as deeply as she could reach.
Olivia ground into her as hard as she could. "OH GOD! CASEY!" she screamed, feeling fluids gush into Casey's mouth as her orgasm overtook her and she collapsed against the headboard, panting.
Casey moaned, swallowing every drop that the older woman had to offer. She collapsed beside Olivia, panting. "Oh...god."
Olivia laid beside her, holding her close. "Casey?"
"Yes?"
"I love you. You feel...so great. And I just...I love everything about you."
Casey purred. "I love you too." She laid her head on Olivia's chest. Then, she began to pull away, thinking Olivia didn't want her in that position.
Olivia wrapped her arms around her. "What are you doing?"
"Moving...I figured you didn't want me there."
The detective shook her head. "What gave you that impression?"
"You're so tough...I didn't know you like to cuddle.."
Olivia smiled. "Shhh, it's my best-kept secret."
Casey smiled too. "Okay. Good. Because I love being held after sex." She blushed.
Olivia kissed her passionately. "Mmm, me too. So, any secrets I should know about?"
"Such as? Pick a category."
"Such as sexy ones?"
"I have a few of those," Casey purred.
Olivia purred, kissing her neck. "What are they?"
Casey smiled. "There is a spot on my body that turns me to Jell-O...one that is not obvious. When it is found, it makes me do anything you want."
"Hmmm. I think I could find it. Does it start with a "G"?"
"Nope. Olivia, I told you, it's not an obvious spot."
Olivia smiled. "Hmm. I might need to go searching..."
Casey purred in the older woman's ear.
Olivia moaned, hugging her tightly.
"Tonight was amazing," Casey murmured.
"Mmmm, yes it was. So... do you want me there when you tell your parents you're staying here or do you want to just tell me afterwards?"
"Olivia, I thought you already agreed to go with me?"
"Oh yeah. Guess I forgot. I'm sorry."
"It's okay."
Olivia nestled into her. "You're warm..."
"I wonder why..."
"Hmm. Yeah, but I don't to exhaust you too terribly bad. Making you sleep in later than usual... Unless you, you know, wanted it..."
"But you have to go in at four...it's almost eleven."
The detective smirked. "So? I can get by on less than adequate sleep. I'll just be pounding down coffee...as if that's unusual."
Casey giggled. "Among other things," she murmured.
"At work, I'll be pounding down coffee. So what? Do you want me to...oh, say...pound you? Not in the injury sense," Olivia purred in her ear.
Casey blushed. "Maybe." Her heart swelled in her chest.
Olivia smiled, kissing her again, pulling her close as she sat up, pulling Casey to sit in her lap, leaning Casey's back against her chest, sitting her on top of her. "You'll get a prime view this way," she said, grabbing Casey's breasts.
Casey whimpered in surprise. "Mmmmmmm. Take me, Detective Benson...I'm all yours."
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