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Previously

Mom I hope your watching me and that your proud. I'm sorry I let grand mom call you nasty things but I won't let ever again. It's okay if she does it to me though as long as it's not you. Mom, dad never talks to me anymore. I hate to think that he's dead or just doesn't want me anymore. I don't know why grand mom hates me so much but everything I do is wrong or never good enough. What should I do? Oh yea, I met a couple of new faces today. There's this kid Carlos, he's very energetic and funny; there's also a girl name Camille , she's talented and sweet; she has a boyfriend named Logan, he's smart and seems like the one who helps them out a lot; there's also a girl named Jo I think she's okay but I can tell she doesn't like me; um and James , he's funny and where going on a date tomorrow so I guess it will be fun; last there's Kendall he's the one I don't get, he's sweet and kind but there's something about him... I guess ill never know because he's Jo's boyfriend and I don't want to be near her. Well I guess this is goodnight, wish me luck with grand mom and Cass.

I stood up and started to walk back to my room when someone stopped me. It was Kendall, oh boy what he want.

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Izzy's P.O.V.

Kendall stood there just staring at me, not even saying a single word. I was about to walk pass him to go to the lobby when he grabbed my wrist for me to stop. I simply turned around and stared into those gorgeous emerald eyes of his waiting for him to speak. Minutes gone by and still nothing, so I decided to break the silence.

" If your just gonna stand there and look at me, might as well take a picture. it will last longer" with that being said I managed to escape out of his grip and head towards the elevator.

Then I heard foot steps behind me but I decided to ignore it and keep walking. I heard Kendall call my name but I just shrugged it off avoiding him. Once again, Kendall grabbed my wrist making our faces barely an inch away from each other.

" didn't you hear me calling your name?"

"Yes, what the fuck do you want Kendall"

" Why were you so sad and singing a depressing song" I was about to speak but Kendall put up his finger silencing me not to speak " I'm not finished, don't get me wrong.. it's a beautiful song , heck its amazing but why so sad?" Is he really concern about me? Why? I can see that he's clearly concern about me being all moody but it's none of his god damn business!

" Listen Kendall, your great guy but you need to learn to mind your own business"

" I don't like seeing people upset. Come on, I can help you"

" I'm not some charity case that you need to rescue Kendall! Just leave me the fuck alone and I'll be peachy! OKAY, god what part of that don't you get! I just need my personal place!"

"Fine but I will find a way to make you see there is good in people and that you can trust me Izzy" he said trying to pull her in for a hug but she stopped him.

" Don't Kendall, you done enough" I said with tear down my face and walking away quickly from him so he won't try to stop me again.

Next Day: Kendall's P.O.V.

Why is this girl having a huge impact on me? I have a girlfriend who happens being my first and only true love, right? Why am I second guessing myself? Do I really I have feelings towards her? Or do I only feel bad for her ? Ugh, life is so complicated!

Kendall was deep in thought not realizing Katie has stepped into the room to talk to him. He was to concentrated on his feeling for Izzy and Jo to notice Katie speaking. Kendall was really conflicted on what to do, or even say to either girl. Yeah, he loved Jo with all his heart but there was something about Izzy that drew Kendall to take interest in her. The way her brown eyes shined when the sun hits it, the way her long dark brown hair looked , the way her lip are perfectly shaped and beautiful, but what he loved most was her smile and personality. He loved the she sang with so much passion and emotion. How she wasn't afraid to pour out her emotions into each word she sang. The best part was she wasn't afraid to act like a guy then when necessary be a girl when needed. All those things makes her perfect to Kendall and he will never want to change her.

"Hey big brother, what's going on in that head of yours" Katie asked curiously "Ummm, hello anyone home. Hello, Kendall? HEY ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME! Maybe this would work. Katie filled up a bucket of water and poured it on Kendall causing him to scream.

"What The Hell Katie!"

"Well I was asking you what's up and clearly you looked blank to the ceiling. You were ignoring me and I had to get your attention so I thought a nice bath with clear the mind" She said with a smirk

"Oh yea, I think I just need..." before Katie knew what was going on Kendall pulled her into a hug getting her wet as well "a lovely hug from my all so caring baby sister"

"Yuck your all smelly and wet and ewwww! Now I'm all covered because of you!

"Well your the one who decided I needed to chill"

"Which you do, so what's up?"

" Well I have to change and you have to clean the mess up"

" What! No I don't "

" You made it, you clean it"

Katie P.O.V.

Well, all I wanted to tell him was that I made a new friend and mom had me invite her over. I guess ill just introduce them at dinner. Woohoo I got a new friend and she's make me feel loved because really all Kendall does these days is work and Jo. Not that I don't like Jo but she barely hangs out with the guys or even talk to me. All she cares about is having Kendall wrapped around her anorexic fucking finger. Ugh I hate girls like that!

Knock, Knock!

Hmmm, I wonder who that might be? I was about to walk to get when Kendall beat me to it.

" What are you doing in there" I heard a familiar voice but cant make it out

" I should ask you why your doing at my apartment"

" Um, I'm looking for James and Katie asked me to come here"

" What are doing talking to my sister and what are you doing with my best friend!"

" Well you best friend and I have a date and I'm here to tell Katie I can't make it tonight but it seems like I wouldn't like it here!"

Before things can get horrible in there I ran towards the door and hugged her causing her to laugh. I just remembered she told me she was sensitive and a slight touch could make her laugh unless she was pissed.

" Oh my god, im so sorry I forgot that you told me never to do that and you probably think im weird now since im rabbling and live here with four insane brothers and being the only girl here drives me crazy-"

" Hey, its all right most people don't care"

" Okay um, so your going on a date with James?"

" Yea I totally forgot until he reminded me and I felt horrible so I decided I'll tell you in person then through silly text"

" Wow, that was sweet of you''

" Yea well, to make it up I was wondering if you wanted to help me get ready and we can get to know each other better and tomorrow I will definitely make it to dinner."

"You want may help?"

"Yea why not, you seem like you know more then I do about girl stuff"

" Well Okay, Kendork tell mom I went out with Bella"

" Why can't you tell her"

"Because I'm busy, let's go Bella"

Kendall P.O.V.

What the fuck just happened? The girl I'm conflicted with loves my family and not me ugh!

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