A/N: Okay, so I was going for a more angsty approach with this chapter. Obviously, when she was being held captive, Shiho had the shit kicked out of her by her awesome little clone and sustained a few knicks and bumps. Well, you'll see. But, I'm trying to touch on that tension that's building because she can't put out for Leo. We'll see how that goes ._.

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"Come on guys, we got a long drive ahead of us. If we want to get back to the city by morning, we need to leave now," Leo ordered. His grip on Shiho tightened as they all managed to get back downstairs and find April and Casey waiting with the van, the sliding door ready and opened for them to jump in on the run. Needless to say, Casey had taken care of all the Foot that was giving them trouble.

In the van, Leo's brothers and Splinters were all out cold; exhausted from their fights. But he stayed up, Shiho tucked between his legs and clutching his shell. He wasn't able to say anything to her, the words just weren't coming into his head in the right order. When they got home, he'd talk to her. He'd fix what he'd done to her and make sure she never was unsure again. For now, she rested; she slept like the dead against his chest but did so with a smile of serenity.

"Good to have you back,"

To say that the turtles felt somewhat embarrassed that they'd had the snot beat out of them by a girl was an understatement. None of the brothers took it harder than Raphael, naturally. In his head, he was the strongest, the muscle! And yet, he'd nearly been the first turtle to have his spine ripped out and snacked on by Leo's little pet fox. He'd long gotten over the jealousy he held towards her from before, now, it was replaced with a mixture of anger and fear. He'd never admit to being afraid of her, of course. But something about the way her tongue had rolled up his skin before her teeth almost sunk into his neck gave him nightmare after nightmare.

Who was there to talk to about this? No one, because none of his brothers would understand the damage done to his ego in particular. Splinter? Nah, he'd just tell him to find some balance and tranquility in his heart to look past Shiho's demented appetite for turtle shell. That's what Magdalena had said about the Madness…that her taste for crunching bones wasn't really even designed for that at all. It was for crushing turtle shells. The only one of the ninja sons to walk away with any scathes was Donatello with three deep scars sliced into the back of his shell where Shiho had grabbed him.

"Damn…" Raph shuddered, and turned over on his side as he tried to catch some sleep.

They'd been home for two days now. The first thing they did was patch up the fox and put her to bed, she'd been asleep almost the entire time occasionally getting up to eat. With three cracked ribs and a fractured pelvis, Donnie scored enough drugs to knock out an elephant for a week. And of course, Leonardo hardly left her side, he was probably sleeping with her now. It was a little past 3am after all, everyone was asleep. But not Raphael. He couldn't take it anymore and threw himself out of bed and wandered aimlessly around the lair with his mind buzzing.

"Raphael, what are you doing awake so early, my son?" It was Splinter, he was standing in the doorway to his meditation room. Must have heard his son grumbling as he went about.

"Eh nothin', Sensei. Couldn't sleep," He said, rubbing the back of his neck like it was a normal thing.

"You may be able to fool your brothers, or even yourself. But you cannot fool me, Raphael. Whatever this inner turmoil you are suffering with is, you must face it. Ignoring the fear will only make it fester,"

"I'm not afraid of anything. I just couldn't sleep," Raph snapped back. Folding his paws behind his back, the rodent master shortly nodded and slowly re-entered his space. Splinter knew better than to force open the doors to his son's mind, doing so would only tighten the lock and build a wall. Raphael shook his head in denial and just kept walking. He didn't care where his feet were taking him anymore.

That is until his feet took him to Leo's room. The hell was he doing there?

"Alright…" The flustered turtle made the door open and took only a step inside. The dim light from the outside cast a narrow ray into the dark room and sprawled across the bed. He couldn't see Shiho, she was hidden behind Leo who was laying on his side. But she must have heard him, those ears of hers weren't just for show, and sat up slowly.

"Raph..?" She said, rubbing the sleep out of her drug-drowsy eyes. She looked a lot better now that she'd had the rest and nourishment she was denied in Marcus' possession.

"Yeah, I'm sorry for botherin' ya. I'll come back in the morning," He stopped when he heard her yawn.

"No, no I'm up. Hold on let me get something on," Something on? What did she sleep in the nude? His speculations were given gratification when the fox stood up and the glow from outside framed her bare form in dark shadows. Instantly, he blushed and cleared his throat while she threw on some cotton grey shorts and zipped up a loose hoodie.

"You can go back to bed, I didn't mean to wake you up,"

"Raph, it's fine. I'm up already. What is it?" She glanced down to make sure Leo was asleep before meeting Raph at the door and closing it. "Something wrong?"

Raph didn't answer right away and just knocked his head to the side for her to walk with him. He sheepishly looked at her neck, bandaged with gauze to keep her burns clean before shifting his attention to his stepping feet. "Raph?"

"Have you ever…had a nightmare so bad that you can't shake it even after waking up?" He said, still not looking at her. But she sensed where this was going and scratched behind one of her ears.

"All the time. I'll wake up screaming and scare Leo half to death. I know he's there, but I can't make myself go back to sleep," He chuckled, he imagined his brother being shocked out of bed and landing on the floor. "Why?"

More silence. Shiho hated when he did this, there was always something under the surface with Raphael and the hardest part was peeling back the iron exterior.

"Raphael,"

"I keep seeing it," He came to the stairs and sat on the top step. Shiho crossed her arms as a chill surrounded her before joining him at his side and sitting. She waited until he finished. One thing about Raph, you didn't want to push him to talk too much or he'd let you have it.

"I keep seeing you in that crazy state of mind of yours. How I almost bit the dust because I wasn't careful. And…" He stopped and nervously rubbed his arm. Shiho understood, he was afraid of her. Well, not HER but the darkness inside. "I keep closing my eyes and it starts all over."

"I see. It's not surprising. Not many people see the Madness and live to tell about it, so I guess I can see why it's so upsetting and disturbing," He gave her a look that screamed 'You can say that again.'

"I'm sorry that you were on the bad end of the stick, so to speak."

"Donnie was," Shiho gulped. Yeah, he was. She'd never forgive herself for scarring his shell.

"Right. But, I mean, you just need to know; I don't get that way because I want to. If you're worried about me actually wanting to hurt you then you're wrong. You guys are everything to me," A sideways glance at the fox brought him in the same gaze she held towards him. Only she held him there.

"You're all my heroes and best friends. The only family I will ever have. And you, Raph, haha well you're my shiniest knight in shining armor when it comes down to it," No one had ever called him that before.

"When those nightmares come, try to tell yourself it isn't real. That that isn't me," Raph kind of smiled, almost too small for anyone to notice but she did as he looked away. This must have been hard for him to come and actually say it, Raphael never admitted when something was bothering him. At least, he never admitted it at a level that wasn't yelling at someone.

"You promise that no part of you is ever awake in the Madness?"

"Yeah. The only part of me that's there is the part of my mind that's fighting it to come back. Never telling it what to do and who to hurt." A short chuckle and the ninja nodded.

"Alright. How you doin' after Donnie's patch job?" She puffed a long breath through her blown out cheeks and widened her eyes a bit. He changed the subject quickly, he was satisfied, but growing uncomfortable with the focus being on him for so long.

"It sucks. I've got these awesome burns on my neck and wrists that itch something terrible but Donnie won't let me take the bandages off unless he's cleaning and redressing them. My ribs are cracked and Mikey keeps telling jokes. And my pelvis is cracked so that rules out…squats," Shiho cleared her throat and fiddled with her tail between her fingers.

"Hah! Squats, I know what you're actually not suppose to be doin'." Raph cackled as she elbowed him in the thigh. Hard. That didn't stop him from laughing at her though; the blush on her pretty face was rich. "What, you think I don't know?"

"I don't see how you would, since we always make sure everyone is gone,"

"Ahh I didn't know. But now I do, thanks for tellin' me," A gasping fox was enough to make the ninja almost fall down the stairs laughing like his idiot brother.

"That isn't funny, Raphael! That's private and you…you! Ohhh just you wait until I'm healed up and I am so gonna make you pay for that. Ow!" He flicked her on the head.

"I would love to see you try, little girl. How are things with you and Leo now, anyway? I mean, yeah he saved you and all was good after that. But did you ever work out what happened at the cabin?"

Shiho shrugged her shoulders just a tad and leaned back to stand on the steps. She brushed off her backside and scratched the back of her head before she answered.

"Not really. I've been drugged like a race horse with a bad leg and he doesn't want to talk about it. And now with me being out on sick leave, he's angsty."

Raphael could see why. Leo was their leader, he was the oldest. He never jumped to conclusions without figuring out all the possible answers that he could. What happened that night in the woods was downright humiliating for his character and reputation amongst his brothers. Talking about it would only rub salt on the gaping wound he'd given himself.

"Give him time. I'm sure it'll be evened out soon." Shiho helped the exhausted turtle to his feet and nodded as she did so.

"I know, c'mere," She said before wrapping her slender arms around his neck. Raph had to remember her injured sides and held her like some museum piece that could shatter. You break it you buy it, they always say. "Go to bed,"

"Shiho?" A sleepy voice brought them apart. Leo yawned and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes with the heel of his palm. Shiho chuckled and went on to grab his hand that he had outstretched and left Raph standing at the top of the stairs.

"Night Raph," She whispered back, with a small wave of her tiny hand as she was led away at Leo's guide. If you could call him a guide, he stumbled and bumped into the wall in his half-asleep state. "Leo, this way,"

"What was that all…" His question was interrupted by a yawn. "All about anyway?"

"Nothin', he just had a bad dream is all," After shutting the door and sitting up in bed, Leo held up his arm for his vixen to crawl in beside him.

"Raph can be such a baby sometimes. You okay? Do you need anything for pain?" His attention to her needs was enough to make any girl, human or not, flutter on a cloud of bubbly feelings. Blowing out the bright candle, the bandaged little minx settled right against Leo where he wanted her to after sliding out of the clothes she'd sloppy put on, his arms wrapping around her like a shield. The bandages rubbed on the fabric and pulled at her stitches and bandages, being naked was her only option for any comfort.

"No I'm fine. I'm afraid if I have anymore I'll fall into a coma," Leo laughed quietly, the glow from her eyes was enough to illuminate her face for him to see. She was such a little glow worm in the dark.

"I don't even know how Donnie gets his hands on half the things he does. But I guess that's why he's the genius," Out of habit, Shiho grasped onto Leo's bicep. It became abundantly clear to him weeks ago that she did, in fact, have quite the thing for his muscles. Who could blame her? His arms were deliciously toned and not over-ripped. Her fingers twitched to trace the muscles and veins that ridged out under his smooth skin.

"God how do you guys get so…so…"

"Fit?" She snorted. She didn't want to sound like a little airhead.

"Yeah," Leo's three fingers found the strands of her hair and coursed on through, passing along her cheek.

"It's a ninja thing, Babe," Ugh, he called her 'babe'. He was hanging out with Casey way too much. She'd have to have a chat with that mask wearing vigilante. "Now shut-up about my muscles and kiss me already. I haven't had a single one since before I brought you home,"

"Woops…" Ducking down, like she had a shell of her own to hide into, Shiho laughed nervously.

"Yeah, woops. Pucker up, dammit," In the violet glow of her eyes, Leo navigated his face down with the assistance of her hand grasping the back of his neck. A low giggle vibrated in the back of her throat when he kissed her. The glow disappeared when those eyelids fluttered closed, her little frame being gingerly pulled across his chest and her lip being bitten. Leo demanded entrance into her mouth, a demand she was all too eager to meet.

Leo osculated sweet lips hard and slow in multiple kisses, deeply tongued and mildly rough in pressure. He growled against her open mouth as their lips molded tightly together, sucking down her sweet tasting saliva. Shiho's ears flattened when his fingers tangled in her hair to gently tug at the roots. Brows knit together as she forced herself to pull back with a tormented expression. Leo didn't let her have much of a chance to say anything before crushing their mouths together again, he'd never felt so needy to just kiss her.

"Leo," She spoke between kisses. "Mmn..Leo!"

"Wh-what?!" He stammered, his left hand tightly holding onto her waist while his right was still buried into her hair. Both of her hands sprawled against his heaving chest as she managed to get a breath.

"Stop it, you know my pelvis is cracked," She was absolutely breathless, looking hot and bothered just the way he liked it. That was obvious in the bright glow she was giving off. With a drawn out groan, Leo dropped his head back.

"Craaap. How long until it heals again?" An expression that could be the textbook definition of annoyed covered her features.

"Donnie gave me a doctor's note of at least 2 more weeks. It isn't bad, just painful," Leo pouted, he pouted hard. Here she was, completely naked and in bed and there wasn't a damn thing he could do without her hurting in some way. Pressing his hand gently into her cheek, his thumb digit grazed the apple and brought out that sweet smile that he was the only one to ever see.

"Just what am I going to do, then?" Another kiss, soft and brief.

"Do…ninja stuff? I don't know. Maybe I should stay with April and Casey until I'm all healed up," The arm that he had around her tightened some, the thought of sleeping alone for two whole weeks wasn't one he enjoyed. She'd been staying at the lair rather permanently for the last few months, she just belonged there.

"What? Why?"

"I'll still see you, Leo. It's just so I'm not tempted to tease you. Because let's face it, even though they were failed attempts, every time we tried, you destroyed me," Leo gulped nervously. He couldn't help himself and had the bad tendency to get carried away in the heat of the moment.

"Also, Donnie is making me crazy. He won't let me do anything without telling me I'm injured," The way she fell back against her pillow and sighed Leo could tell just how exasperated she really was. Scooting down and resting on his side, Leo propped himself up on his right elbow and looked at her with a drawn out sigh.

"Fine," He hated this, not being able to have his way with her. She was always willing to satisfy every little need that came to rise in Leo, but now, she was out of commission until her injures went away. Leo couldn't help how rough he'd gotten, he hardly knew his own strength with someone as fragile on the outside as Shiho. But this...this...he didn't know what to call it, it was building and building inside him, layer after layer. The mind-numbing lust to be between those sun-kissed thighs was enough to make the normally composed and level-headed leader an absolute wreck.

"Well don't be mad, Leo. Give me a break, you aren't the only one this kills," Now he was being stubborn over something that wasn't her fault. She didn't want to be in pain, she'd jump his bones right now if grinding him alone didn't send gut-wrenching pains up her spine. When he didn't say anything else, Shiho turned on her side with her back against him with an exaggerated huff. She was mad.

"You promise you'll be okay when you're up there?" With his finger, Leo pulled the hair off her neck and nestled his chin against the nape, his cheek rubbing against hers. Really? He was marking her with his scent, like territory. Sometimes the very basic primal instincts that still resided with the animal within him made her nuts. But, to humor him, she chose to ignore the intention and focused on the nuzzling. Leo knew damn well that she didn't possess the capacity to stay the slightest bit annoyed with him for more than a few minutes and buttered her up.

"Yeah. And when I get back, I'll be all yours," Just the way she said it made his angst fill to the brim and trickle down in rivers of want and need. His arm came around her and scooted her as close to him as he possibly could, holding her a little tighter than he should. "Ow.."

"Sorry…don't-..ah..don't talk like that, Shiho," Shushing her turtle with a goodnight kiss, the fox didn't bother going on anymore. She was tired, she was sore, and borderline cranky from the bitchin' drugs she was given a few hours earlier. Leo had to suffer in silence and fight the arousal that threatened to rear up. It was going to be a long rest of the night.

So far, so good. Shiho had been at April and Casey's for a solid week without seeing Leonardo even though she told him she would. But the fox couldn't risk seeing the turtle and being driven over the edge by her vixen desires. No, no. Plus April had her busy in the shop, keeping Casey away from the bone china and anything that had the potential to break. She was actually enjoying her time alone with the couple, it had been some months since she had been back at the apartment for a period longer than a few hours. Even her healing was going on without a hitch and she felt no need for the painkillers by the end of her first week.

One thing about Shiho that made Donatello giddy with excitement, was her ability to overcome injuries three times faster than humans. Her cracked ribs and pelvis would have taken six weeks in someone like April, but Shiho? She just seemed to regenerate her cells at a faster rate, enough to get the genius turtle buried in slides of her cells and always checking her wounds.

Shiho felt awkward at night, always at night when April and Casey went to bed and Shiho was left awkwardly in the guest bedroom by herself. They'd gotten married a little over 6 months ago and everything was the same, except now, they were always together. Being aware of their intimacy didn't bother Shiho, it was the whole being together until death did part them. She'd lay awake sometimes wondering what it was like to have something like that. To have someone else's last name and have arguments over bills.

One thing about being the girlfriend to a mutant, the relationship was anything but normal. It felt normal to them, because it was all they knew. But when she was in the apartment, she couldn't help but feel like she was missing something. Though, when the image of Leo's captivating smile or the memory of his arms coming around her when they were alone never failed to extinguish those negative thoughts of 'what if.' She had a special bond with Leo, why ruin it with ideas like that?

"Shiho, Donnie called and asked how your burns were. I told him they were gone," April said, arranging a display in the window of some antique dresses she'd just received. Shiho was dusting the collector plates in the cabinet when she hesitated.

"And?" April pretended to not hear her foxy friend and went along with the tune she was humming and sorted out the skirt on the posing mannequin.

"April!"

"He should be here any minute," She said, almost too fast for Shiho to comprehend. But judging by the glare she was receiving, April guessed that Shiho understood. "I'm sorry! He wouldn't let me say no,"

"How about this, uhh NO. Uuugh, now I'm going to have to sit in the stool and listen to him chant the words 'interesting' and 'fascinating' over…and over…and over," Placing one hand on her hip, her other raised to pinch the bridge of her nose between her fingers.

"Glad to know you're always so happy to see me," Shiho's tail went stiff and she screamed.

"DONNIE!" At the backdoor, the genius was leaning against the door frame looking so very smug and laughing with Leo behind him. "Yeah, yeah laugh it up chuckles. Come on let's get this over with,"

Donnie went right upstairs with April on his tail after she'd posted the 'CLOSED' sign on the door. Leo went towards the stairs and waited at the bottom for his fox to come. She stood awkwardly still, the tip of her tail twitching back and forth. He looked annoyed that she hadn't come down to the lair like she promised. The ninja had been blowing up her cell phone with voicemails voicing his concern and growing agitation. With his arms crossed firmly across his chest, Shiho had to look away. His muscled flexed when he would do that and it always made her crazy. But, they hadn't seen each other in a week and she was in absolute agony.

"Come. Here," He said, ordering her to come to him like an animal. Leo knew she'd obey, she always did. Something about when he executed being a leader really rustled her jimmies and she ran right to him when he opened his arms. His shell crashed against the wall as her body slammed against his embrace, her lips eagerly finding his in a haste. His hands held her up by her firm, little rear and gave each toned cheek a squeeze. Obviously, her pelvis was doing better, he could very clearly tell by the way she was grinding against him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from…well…this. I'm better now, see?" Leo nodded quickly before sloppily sealing his lips against hers to shut her up. To her best efforts, her legs wrapped around his legs and shell as her arms embraced around his neck. She didn't bother making him work and let him in to taste her wriggling tongue, just like mint, only her flavor seemed to have intensified in their time apart. Leo was, without a doubt, addicting to kissing her. Roughly. Deeply. In every manner of kissing there was possible. She was in just as deep. There was hardly anything that she loved more than letting him dominate her lips and tongue. Well, there was one thing she loved more...

"Leo.." She panted, her hands on either side of his face and kissing down to his neck. "I want it, Leo. I want it so bad…"

"I know, just hang on a little longer, okay? Just hang on and then when we get home...you're all mine like you said. I don't give a damn who hears," He replied, his voice just above a rugged whisper as his hands gave her butt a good, hard squeeze making her tighten the hold her legs had. "Tell me how bad you want it,"

"Leo, don't..." The ninja didn't need two hands to hold her up, she hardly was anything to lug around. Using the wall to his advantage and pressing her against it, Leo let one hand glide up her smooth thigh and back down to that noticably warm space between her legs.

"Tell me, Shiho. I want to hear just how much you want me," When did he become such a deviant? He knew she hated wearing underwear. It was convenient she was wearing a pleated skirt, it gave him the ease of access he needed and roughly rubbed a calloused, thick finger against he mound. Instantly, her breath hitched and her hips jolted with a gasp. "Answer me."

"Leo I'm so desperate, stop it!" She hissed in a barely contained moan. Leo noticed and couldn't stop that smirk that came to play on his face. Another hard stroke of his finger in response to her defiance. "I need it...God I need it.."

And again, a hard rub and a dip of his large digit into her moistened core. He didn't even seem to care that they could be caught at any second.

"You need what?" He wanted to hear those filthy words come out of those beautiful, talented lips of hers.

"Need you..." Deeper he pressed into her making her bite her lip sharply. She had to say it. "Need you to fuck me,"

His brows rose, waiting for more. Defeated, she sighed and leaned in close so he could almost feel the desperation in her voice. "Fuck me hard, Leo,"

"Good girl. I'll take extra special care of you when we get home. You will go straight to my room, do you understand?" Why did it turn her on so much when he ordered her around like that?! Shiho couldn't stand it. When he had first come into her life he was this compassionate, strong-willed leader with a focus that made her dizzy. He was still that leader, but damn when he was aroused with no way out? He was something completely different. Something so masculine that it made her head spin.

Leo noticed her ear flick backwards and open a second before she jumped down to her feet and ducked away from the wall, pulling her skirt back around her thighs and clearing her throat. Donnie reappeared at the top of the stairs, unaware of what had happened not 3 seconds before.

"Shiho, you comin'?"

"Be right there, Don," She said without looking back, her eyes glued to Leo. He gave her that wink that detonated an explosion of nerves and tingles in her belly. The turtle watched her scurry up the stairs for Donnie to have his fun with her wounds once again; he had to take the time to recompose. Damn that fox was, as Mikey so colorfully put it, an absolute babe. He'd have her soon, and when he did, he'd make sure she wasn't walking right on his own accord.

"Far out," He whispered, following the flick of her tail.

A/N: Is it wrong when I say this came to me ... in a dream? - Dafuq am I dreaming about being pinned against a while by a turtle for?! Ugh! It's so frustrating though. I know there's a lot of turtle smut out there and I'm trying to stay away from curse words and those gross things you know saying things like "cock" and "pussy" to describe anatomy. But you know, as a chick who's been teased almost to the point of no return, I just had to give Shiho a little bit of a dirty mouth. Hehehe, hope you liked. :)