Chapter 16 - I love you
"Santana?" Brittany asks shocked. "What are you doing here?"
"I wanted to see how you were and then I heard your conversation with Quinn." She explains. "Are you pregnant?" She asks nervously and with her whole body shaking.
"I…I don't know." Brittany stutters with panic laced in her voice.
"Quinn can you give us a minute?" Santana asks politely.
"Sure." Then she turns to Brittany and smiles reassuringly. "Everything is gonna be okay Britt. If you need anything just call me okay?"
"Thanks Quinn." Quinn gives her best friend a kiss on the cheek then goes out the door. Silence fills the room which makes Brittany even more nervous. Deciding that it was enough, she breaks the silence. "Are you mad?"
"What?" Santana is taken aback by Brittany's question.
"Are you gonna break up with me?" Brittany asks weakly while avoiding the Latina's eyes.
"Why would I break up with you Britt?" Santana asks her sweetly.
"Because I might…I might be…" Brittany can't finish her sentence because tears start spilling from her eyes and she starts sobbing uncontrollably.
Santana rushes to her side and holds the blonde in her arms. "Shh Britt. It's gonna be okay. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you." She reassures the blonde and gives her a sweet kiss on the forehead. "Whatever happens we're in this together."
"I'm s-so sorry S-Santana." Brittany sobs into the Latina's shirt leaving wet spots there.
"You have nothing to be sorry for." Santana tells her sweetly.
"But I do. If I hadn't been stupid we wouldn't be in this situation right now." Brittany says angry at herself.
"You're not stupid okay? You're amazing."
"No, I'm not!" She pushes the Latina off of her and stands up. Santana just stays in the same spot dumbfounded and a little hurt. "I was the one to tell you not to use a condom!"
"This could have happened with a condom too. These things are not a hundred percent viable."
"How can you be so calm about this Santana?!" Brittany yells at the Latina. "I might be pregnant for God's sake!"
"And you think I don't know that?" Santana yells back. "But instead of yelling at you I'm trying to be supportive."
"You did enough already." Brittany says angrily.
"What's that suppose to mean?" Santana asks with hurt laced in her voice.
"It means that if I had stopped all of this when it started none of this mess would have been happening right now." Brittany says without thinking about her own words.
Santana stands up and walks towards Brittany's bedroom door. She turns to Brittany with tears now falling from her eyes. "I'm sorry you feel that way." And then she goes out the door.
Brittany falls onto her bed and sobs uncontrollably. "What did I do?" She scolds herself and hugs her pillow tightly against her chest.
That night Brittany is laying on her bed thinking about her actions of today, about how she treated Santana. She didn't deserve any of the things that the blonde said to her. She was just only trying to be by Brittany's side and she managed to push the Latina away. Just thinking about it makes her want to cry. A tear escapes from her eyes and falls down her cheek. She wipes it quickly when she hears a knock on her door.
"Come in." She says weakly.
"Hey sweety. Are you feeling better?" Her father asks her worried.
"Yeah dad. Don't worry." She lies to him.
"Do you need anything?" He asks her sweetly.
"No, thanks dad. I was about to go to sleep." Brittany says weakly while avoiding her father's eyes.
Daniel notices this but decides not to say anything, not wanting to upset his daughter. "Okay. Goodnight sweetheart." He gives her a kiss on the forehead and then walks out of her room. Brittany sighs sadly and pulls her pillow closer to her and sobs quietly until she falls asleep.
The next day Brittany is feeling better from her stomachache but lies to her father about it and doesn't go to school. She doesn't have the strength to face Santana. She can't see the hate and hurt in the Latina's face. She doesn't want to accept that she lost the Latina, and probably forever. Tears start falling down her face at these thoughts and she sobs quietly into her pillow. She's snapped out of her thoughts by a knock on her door. She wipes her tears quickly and composes herself.
"Come in."
"Hey Britt." Quinn gives her friend a small smile. "How are you feeling?"
"Like crap. Santana hates me." She starts sobbing again and Quinn is fast in wrapping her arms around the blonde.
"What happened?" Quinn asks worried. "Do you know if you are… pregnant?" She asks cautiously.
"No, I don't." She replies weakly.
"What happened with Santana?"
"I pushed her away." Brittany confesses sadly. "She was there for me and I just pushed her away and yelled at her. Now she hates me."
"Britt you know that's not true." Quinn says seriously.
"It is Quinn." Brittany says weakly. "You should have seen her face. She was so hurt."
"You just need to talk to her and apologize. Santana is crazy about you." Quinn tries to reassure her best friend.
"What if she doesn't want to talk to me?" Brittany asks sadly.
"You won't know if you don't try." Quinn points out. She takes a deep breath and gets something out of her purse and hands it to Brittany. "This is a pregnancy test. When you're ready you can take it."
Brittany takes it from the blonde and hugs her. "Thank you Quinn."
"Anytime." Quinn smiles at her best friend. "Santana is in her room right now. You should go talk to her." Then she stands up and goes out the door without another word. Brittany stands there for a few minutes but then decides to follow Quinn's advice and goes to Santana's room. She knocks on the door and hears a muffled 'come in' from the inside. She opens the door slowly and sees Santana in front of her computer playing games. Santana turns around and sees Brittany with a vulnerable look on her face.
"What is it?" Santana asks harshly.
"I…I'm so sorry Santana." Brittany says quietly.
"Didn't I hear this before?"
"I know. I always mess up. And I know this is not an excuse but I was scared. I freaked out at the thought of me being pregnant. I still am scared but I can't take this without you. You're important to me Santana. I can't lose you. And I know that I messed up and you probably hate me now and-" Brittany is interrupted by Santana's lips crashing against her own. They pour all their feelings and emotions into the kiss. Brittany smiles into the kiss and then pulls away.
"I love you." Santana whispers with her face only inches away from Brittany's. At hearing Santana's confession she grins widely and crashes their lips on a passionate kiss. After a few long moments they both pull away slightly out of breath.
"I love you too." Brittany says sweetly while looking into Santana's beautiful brown orbs. Santana smiles widely and gives one more kiss to the blonde.
"Don't push me away ever again." Santana whispers.
"Never. You're stuck with me now." Brittany smiles at her beautiful girlfriend. "I…I have a pregnancy test in my room. Quinn bought it for me." Brittany says quietly while avoiding the Latina's eyes.
Santana guides Brittany's face to meet hers and says softly "If you're not ready you don't need to take it now."
"I'm ready." Brittany tries to sound strong but fails miserably.
"Do you want me to come with you?" Santana asks softly.
"No. I need to do this alone. You can wait in the living room."
"Okay." They both come out of Santana's room and the Latina stays in the living room while the blonde goes to her room, picks up the pregnancy test from her bed and goes to the bathroom.
Brittany stands there for a few minutes just staring at the test on her hands. She's afraid of the result, afraid of it being positive. What if it is positive? What are they going to do? What are their parents going to think? Brittany can't stand seeing the disappointed looks on their faces. And she's not ready to be a mom. Yeah, she wants to be one but not when she's seventeen. She has her whole life ahead of her, Santana too. But the one thing that makes her smile is knowing that Santana is never going to leave her side no matter what. With that thought Brittany opens the box and takes the test.
Santana is pacing around the living room nervously while waiting for Brittany to come out of the bathroom. She can't deny that she's freaking out. She's scared of what the result might be. She thinks about the possibility of it being positive. What would their parents think? What would they do? What if they broke them apart? Santana can't lose Brittany. She means the world to her. She's snapped out of her thoughts when she hears the bathroom door open.
"Brittany?" She asks with fear evident in her voice. The blonde appears in the living room with a blank expression which makes the Latina even more nervous. "What's the result?"
Cliffhanger again! (I'm so mean ;D)
They said I LOVE YOU to each other! Yay! I tried to make it sort of cute, I don't know if it is but I hope you guys liked it. Till next chapter :D
P.S. Next chapter I promise that you will know if Britt's pregnant or not :)