Chapter 19 - Insecure
Later, at night, Santana comes out of her room and sees her parents on the couch with a laptop on their laps.
"But the room is going to be white. I hate that thing that the blue is for the boy and the pink is for the girl." Santana hears her mother say and rolls her eyes. She goes to the kitchen and grabs a glass of water.
"Yes. But we will have to move, we need another bedroom." Daniel points out.
"It's still soon to think about that." Maribel reasons. "In the beginning the crib stays in our bedroom and after that we'll see."
"I would like it to be a boy." Daniel confesses smiling widely.
"No matter what it is, I just want it to be healthy."
"It will be." Daniel says and they continue seeing room decorations for the baby on the internet. Maribel melts at the cute little things and Daniel smiles at the sight. At that exact moment Brittany arrives home and stares at her parents, confused and curious as to what they're doing in front of the laptop.
"What are you doing?" She asks them, trying to get a peek on what they're seeing.
"They're seeing bedroom decorations for the baby, because now we're going to be a big happy family." Santana says sarcastically while rolling her eyes.
"Come see Brittany." Maribel says visibly excited. Brittany takes a seat beside Maribel and stares at the computer with a blank expression.
"Come see too Santana." Daniel pats the spot beside him on the couch and Santana takes it but not before letting out an annoyed sigh. Brittany looks at her with panic eyes and Santana just stands there, just as scared as the blonde is.
"Is this means that you already made the test and that you're really pregnant?" Santana asks nervously.
"No, I didn't make the test yet." Maribel says not taking her eyes from the computer screen. Santana and Brittany let out a relieved sigh at the same time.
"So why are we all in front of the computer seeing baby's clothes and stuff?" Santana asks confused.
"Because you just feel these things. When I was pregnant of you I felt it way before I made the test." Maribel confesses.
"You felt it?" Santana asks with panic laced in her voice and Maribel just nods happily.
"So this means that you think that you're really pregnant?" Brittany asks, scared of the answer.
"I'm sure." Maribel replies confidently. "I feel different. But tomorrow I'm gonna make the test just to confirm it." Brittany just shakes her head not wanting to believe that any of this is happening. Santana just sits frozen on the other end of the couch with wide eyes. "I've gotta go make dinner. It has to be something light."
"No. You stay here and I'll make dinner." Daniel says sweetly to his wife which earns him a sweet kiss. He then stands up and goes to the kitchen to prepare dinner.
"We're gonna be a big family." She says dreamily. "We're gonna take walks in the park, you can push the baby stroller." She says while looking at Brittany and the blonde forces a smile. "You pick up the baby in your arms." She says while looking at her daughter now. Santana just stands there frozen not knowing what to say or what to do. "What do you think Santana?"
"I…I…Sorry, I need to make a phone call." She says and then goes to her room hurriedly. She closes the door behind her and picks up her phone to call her best friend.
"Go for Puck." Santana laughs at the boy's idiot way of picking up.
"Hey. Are you gonna do anything tonight?"
"No."
"No? That's surprising." Santana teases. "Do you wanna go somewhere and grab a drink? I can't stay here any longer or I'm gonna explode."
"You already convinced me when you said drinks." Puck says making the Latina laugh. "I'll see you later."
"Later Puck." Santana hangs up the phone, takes one big deep breath and goes join her family at the table.
"What was that urgent phone call you had to make?" Maribel asks her daughter.
"I'm gonna go out after dinner. I need a little fresh air." Santana confesses and Brittany sends her a questioning look.
"Don't you have school work to do?" Brittany asks her.
"No." Santana answers her simply.
"Why this sudden need to get fresh air? Don't tell me you are with problems." Seeing that Santana is not going to answer, Daniel continues. "Are you going to go out with that girl?"
"Daniel, you know that she doesn't like us talking about her private life." Maribel points out.
"No, I don't." Santana confirms her mother's statement annoyed.
"Okay. Sorry." Daniel says apologetically.
"And who you're gonna go out with?" Brittany says a little mad with Santana.
"Puck." Santana says a little confused about Brittany's behavior.
"So does that mean that things didn't go well with that gi-?"
"What were we talking about before?" Maribel says while giving a pointed look to her husband who smiles apologetically at her.
The rest of dinner is eaten in silence and with Brittany avoiding Santana's eyes, which makes the Latina confused and wondering about what she did wrong.
After eating the delicious meal prepared by Daniel and after cleaning up, Santana goes to her room. A few minutes later she comes back to the living room and sees her girlfriend with her arms crossed and with an angry look on her face.
"You're really gonna go out?" Brittany asks her.
"Yes." Santana states simply.
"With only Puck? Just the two of you?" She asks suspiciously.
"Yes." Santana says, now really confused with the conversation.
"Why didn't you tell me anything? Why didn't you invite me?" Brittany asks mad at the Latina.
"For no reason. I just thought it could be just the two of us, me and Puck." Santana shrugs.
"Okay then. I'm going to go out with friends too."
"Okay." Santana smiles at her.
"Okay? You're not mad?" Santana just gives her a nod which makes Brittany even more angry. "If you say so."
"Is there something wrong?" Santana asks confused as to why the blonde is acting like this towards her.
"No, nothing." Brittany says sarcastically. "Are you going to Puck's house?"
"No. We're going to a bar."
"With girls?!"
"No, it's just the two of us. But there will be girls probably. Is there a problem?"
"I don't know. You tell me." Brittany says angrily. "Would you like for me to go to a bar filled with guys?"
"If you wanted to." Santana says seriously.
"Fine! Then I'll go!"
"You're arguing again?" Daniel asks them as he enters the living room and takes a seat on the couch.
"It's just that Santana prefers to go out than do her school work. I was just trying to put some sense on her mind but I guess it doesn't matter." Brittany says angrily while glaring at Santana.
"I'm just gonna go." Santana says and then walks out the door without another glance at Brittany. The blonde just stands there gritting her teeth and fuming. She then goes to her room and picks up her phone. Almost instantly her blonde best friend picks up her phone and Brittany starts telling her about her conversation with Santana and how the Latina went to a bar full of girls. After Brittany's rant Quinn tells her to calm down and to go to her house. Brittany hangs up the phone, and after telling her dad that she was going to Quinn's, she goes out the door.
At the bar Puck puts their drinks on the table and sees as Santana takes a big gulp of her beer.
"Woah. Take it easy Lopez."
"Why did she make such a big deal out of this? Why was she so jealous?" Santana asked more to herself than to Puck but he decided to answer her anyway.
"It's because she likes you."
"But she doesn't need to freak out like that." Santana reasons.
"Are you forgetting about all the girls you would take home?" Puck points out with a smirk on his face.
"Yeah. But that's in the past. The only girl is her now."
"But she still remembers it." Puck points out.
"She should have believed in me when I told her I was just going out with you without any intentions."
"I'm happy you don't have any intentions with me." Puck says jokingly.
"You're not helping Puck." Santana glares at him.
"My bad." He says apologetically. They continue talking and drinking when suddenly two girls, one with long brown hair and the other with short red hair, approach them.
"Hey. Me and my friend here want to ask you two if you want to go to my place and have a real party there." The girl with brown hair says while winking at Santana and putting her hand on the Latina's arm.
"Sorry girls, but no." Santana says as she takes the girl's hand from her arm. "We have girlfriends."
"We're not jealous and they don't need to know." The girl says seductively while checking out Santana.
"But my girl is, and very." Santana says, now a little uncomfortable with the girl's persistency. "Maybe in another life." With this the girls return to their table and Santana sighs in relief.
"You're so whipped already." Puck teases her which earns him a slap in the arm.
Meanwhile Brittany arrived at Quinn's place and told the blonde to meet her outside because she needed a little fresh air to calm herself. When Quinn arrived Brittany just started telling her about Santana going to a bar and that she was going to be surrounded by girls and wouldn't be able to resist.
"You're being paranoid Brittany." Quinn said after 15 minutes of Brittany talking. "Santana loves you. You have to trust her and not start yelling at her just because she's going to a bar with a friend."
"I know. But I just have this feeling…" She trails off.
"Just relax Brittany. It's normal, you're in love."
"No, it's not. I never felt this for anyone before and I was never jealous." At that moment, Allison walks down the street and sees them talking. She gets closer and starts listening on their conversation without them noticing.
"Because you weren't in love before." Quinn reasons. "And all this is because you two have to pretend to be sisters when in fact you just want to be together. So this is normal. It makes you desperate because you can't be with the person you love."
"I know. I feel like I can lose her at any moment." Brittany confesses sadly.
"And you can, if you continue with this attitude." Quinn says seriously. "You two have to enjoy the good times you have together."
"Put yourself in my place Quinn. Imagine that you are in a relationship that you love but that you think it could end at any moment. My heart is beating like crazy and my mind is ready to explode at any minute." Brittany says on the verge of tears.
"I understand Brittany, but Santana is not going to run away from you, on the contrary, if she could she would be screaming on top of a building that she loves you. But she can't, she knows perfectly well what is going to be the reaction of your parents. "
"I hate this situation."Brittany confesses sadly.
"I know honey." Quinn says while hugging her best friend. "And you don't need to worry about Santana because she just went out with Puck to grab a drink okay?" Quinn says reassuringly. It's then that she notices Allison and stands up. "What are you doing here?"
"Taking a walk. Is that illegal?" Allison asks with a smirk on her face.
"Were you eavesdropping on our conversation?" Quinn asks suspiciously.
"Please. Don't make yourself so important. I have better things to do than hearing your boring conversations." Allison smirks at them. "So if you'll excuse me, I have somewhere to go." And then she walks away leaving Quinn and Brittany behind with a suspicious look on their faces.
"Do you think she heard?" Brittany asks with panic starting to fill her body.
"I don't know Britt, but I hope not."
Allison is really up to something, and it's not good. (In case you don't know Allison is Santana's ex-girlfriend, at least in Allison's point of view.)
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