Chapter 28 – It's for the best
The next day Brittany walks out of her room and finds the house completely empty. She's confused as to why nobody is at home, not even Santana, but then dismisses the issue and decides to go to school and eat breakfast there.
She's walking towards her locker to fetch the books for her first class when Santana appears in front of her.
"Hey. Do you wanna go to a classroom so we can talk?" Santana asks smiling and Brittany simply nods.
When they enter the classroom and Santana closes the door behind them Brittany turns around to face her. "So what do you want to talk about?"
Santana smirks in response and walks towards Brittany. She leans in and when her lips are about to touch Brittany's the blonde dodges and pulls away from Santana's embrace. "What's wrong?" Santana asks confused and a little hurt.
"Santana…" Brittany begins, taking a deep breath. "Just because you returned and told our parents about us doesn't mean that we're together again." She explains and Santana visibly deflates at this.
"But… you kissed me yesterday." Santana says a little desperate.
"Yes, I was so overwhelmed with everything and I missed you so much that when I saw you I couldn't help it but kiss you." Brittany says while looking at Santana's hurt eyes.
"But why can't we be together? I don't get it."
Brittany starts feeling a little angry. "You don't get it?" She asks incredulously. "Did you forget about the fact that you didn't want to tell our parents about us and you kissed Quinn just for them to think that you and I weren't dating?! Did you forget about that? Because I didn't! And it still hurts. It hurts to think that you preferred to kiss her instead of telling our parents the truth. It hurts that you ran away from all your problems instead of face them. And it hurts that you left without saying anything and leaving me here to cry every night." Brittany finishes her speech and a tear slowly runs down her face. She quickly wipes it away not wanting Santana to see it, but the Latina sees it and her heart breaks knowing that she's the cause of it.
"I'm sorry." Santana says in a whisper while looking at the ground in shame.
"I don't trust you anymore Santana." The minute she says this Santana's world comes crashing down and a tear slides down her face. Brittany, at seeing Santana's broken expression, almost runs towards the Latina and hugs her tightly, but she regains her composure and stops herself from doing so. She then takes a deep breath and continues sadly. "I think we should be away from each other. We just keep hurting everyone around us. My dad slept on the couch yesterday, our parents argued because of us, their marriage is in danger because of us. So the best thing to do here is to just stay away from each other." Brittany turns her back to Santana feeling her tears run down her face freely.
"B-But I-I love you." Santana says weakly as she sobs uncontrollably.
"It's for the best." Brittany says simply trying to disguise the sadness in her voice and with this she walks out the door leaving a broken Santana behind.
She runs towards the girls' bathroom and slumps to the ground crying her eyes out. Quinn sees Brittany running towards the bathroom with a distraught look on her face and decides to follow her.
When she arrives she sees her best friend in the ground with her head in her hands and the sound of crying fills the bathroom. She crouches down beside Brittany and pulls her into her arms. Brittany doesn't fight and just sobs into Quinn's shirt while her best friend whispers comforting words and caresses her back.
After a few minutes the sobbing stops and Quinn pulls a little away to be able to look into Brittany's, now without the spark and brightness that they used to have, blue eyes. "Do you want to tell me what happened?" Quinn asks softly.
"I told Santana that we should be away from one another." Brittany says weakly while wiping the tears and the smudged make up from her eyes.
"Why?" Quinn asks not disapprovingly but just trying to understand her best friend's reasoning.
"Because of everything." Brittany confesses sadly. "She kissed you just for our parents don't find out about us, then she ran away leaving me here heartbroken. And now she returned and we told our parents everything and they don't stop arguing with each other. My dad slept on the couch last night Quinn. Their marriage is sinking and it's all because of me and Santana."
"They're going to make up Brittany, it was just one fight, they were shocked about you and Santana dating that they didn't know what to do so they yelled at each other. But you'll see that everything will be okay again." Quinn tries reassuring her friend.
"No Quinn, it won't. I know them. And it was an ugly fight. I never saw them have a fight this bad."
"Are you sure about your decision Britt?"
"It's for the best Quinn." Lately it seems that this is the only thing she says to try and convince herself that this is the right thing to do.
When lunch time comes around Puck is about to sit with Quinn and Brittany but stops in his tracks when he sees Santana, sitting a few tables down, all alone. He walks towards the Latina and takes a seat beside her, putting his tray on the table. Santana doesn't even look up and Puck looks at his best friend playing with her food aimlessly.
"What's wrong?" He asks worried. "Why aren't you sitting with Brittany?"
At the mention of the blonde beauty's name Santana's head perks up. "She said we should be away from one another."
"What? Why?" Puck asks confused.
"Because I messed up when I kissed Quinn and when I ran away. I'm such a jerk!" Santana says irritated at herself.
"Yeah, you are. I'm not going to deny that. You did mess up. But San… I never knew you gave up so easily. The Santana Lopez I knew never turned away from a challenge, she would fight for what she wanted, but I guess Argentina really changed you." Puck says seriously and when he's about to get up he hears Santana's response.
"I'm still that Santana." Santana says with certainty as she looks at Puck's eyes.
Puck smirks triumphantly. "So what are you gonna do?"
"I'm gonna fight for her." Santana says with determination.
That night they're all gathered at the table, not speaking or laughing, there's just heard the sound of the cutlery hitting against the plates. Santana glances sadly at Brittany and Daniel notices it but interprets the exchange as it being something else.
"You two don't even think about sneaking into the other's room." Daniel says in a warning tone as he looks at the two girls.
"You don't have to worry about that dad, we're not together." Brittany says sadly as she looks at her plate, not wanting to look up and see Santana's hurt eyes.
"You're not lying to me, are you? Because I don't want any more lies." He says in a stern voice.
"No dad, I'm not." Brittany says seriously and a grin appears on her father's face.
"But that's great news." He says happily and it seems he's the only one. Maribel is relieved yes, but her heart breaks at seeing her daughter so sad.
"I'm going to my room. I lost my appetite." Santana says sadly as she gets up from her seat and then goes to her room.
"I'm not hungry either." Brittany says monotonously and, without waiting for any reply, goes to her room.
"You're unbelievable." Maribel says a little annoyed at her husband's manners.
"What did I do?" Daniel asks confused.
"Our kids are unhappy and you're grinning like an idiot."
"They're not together Maribel, that's great news. Now we can be a normal family again." Daniel smiles and tries to grab his wife's hand but she pulls away. "It's for the best."
"I don't know what your definition of normal is, but this" She moves her hands in the air, referring to everything that happened just a few minutes ago. "is not normal. And now excuse me, I lost my appetite too." And with that Maribel goes to her room, leaving Daniel confused and dumbfounded sitting at the table alone.
The next day Brittany is walking towards her locker with a gloomy look on her face. Some people send her weird looks but she just ignores them or simply doesn't notice, it's probably the latter. After what feels like a 1 hour walk she arrives at her locker. She opens it and gasps in surprise at seeing what's inside of it. There's a cute little duck sited on top of her books, Donald Duck to be exact. In his hands there's a letter with the name 'Brittany' written on it. She picks it up and unfolds it carefully.
Dear Brittany,
I know you said for me to stay away from you but as you know that's impossible. Not just because we live in the same house and we have the same classes but because I need to be around you, to be near you, to be with you…
It was only yesterday that you decided that we shouldn't be together, but it was only needed one second after you left me in that classroom for me to shut down. I'm not the same without Brittany. You changed me for the better.
I know I made mistakes, I was a dumbass. I should have just told our parents how madly in love I am with you, but I was a coward. I hurt you and that was the last thing I wanted to do. If I could I would go back and change everything I did, but I can't.
I'm sorry for everything that I did to hurt you. I know that sorry it's not enough to erase all the things I made you go through, but I'm going to prove to you that you can trust me again. I'm going to do everything I can for you to give me another chance because I can't live without you Brittany.
I love you, never forget that.
Love,
Santana
P.S.1. I bought Donald Duck for you because I know ducks are your favorite animal and you love Disney. I hope you remember how much I love you when you look at him.
P.S.2. I give you permission to cuddle with Donald Duck but no kissing allowed, I don't want any competition.
As she finishes the letter tears are rolling down her face slowly. She smiles a little at Santana's sweet words and her proclamations of love. She even laughs at Santana's silliness on the last P.S.
But then she remembers why she's doing this, it's to save their parents marriage. And with that in mind she folds the letter again, puts it back in her locker and closes it with more force than she intended to.
The one thing that Brittany didn't notice was that Santana was just a few lockers away from her and saw the blonde's cute smile and melodious laugh. And even though the blonde quickly threw the letter into her locker and closed it with force, Santana's smile didn't leave her face. The only thing that was running through Santana's mind at that time was, There's still hope.
It's a sad chapter, but things will get better soon... Don't stop believin' :)
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