AN: Well, no such gift for Valentine's Day. Still broke and no ownership of anything. Oh well. On to the story!

LAST TIME

Ziva knew in her heart that she needed to talk to someone. She hid everything so well from the NCIS psychologist that they mandated her to see. She had previously told Gibbs some of the things that had happened since he diligently watched over her when she was first brought home.

Ziva took a deep breath and began, "Tony, I…."

REGULAR POV

"Tony, I…" Ziva started, and before she got anything else out, the tears that she had been holding back, started falling. "Damn it." She said under her breath while starting to wipe them away.

"This dream was a nightmare, it is one of the many I actually have at night. This time, I was back in that camp." Ziva sucked in some air and paused. She was too afraid to look at Tony.

"Go on. I'm right here. Nothing you will tell me will make me go anywhere." Tony said, he could tell this still scared her. He pulled her closer to where she was almost sitting in his lap.

"I was back in that camp. It was one of the last days. I was chained to my bed, naked from the waist down. I had been drugged, so I could not fight. At this point, I had given up. I wished that death would find me and relieve me from this pain and torture. I would not give up information about NCIS, Gibbs, you, or anyone." Ziva said with tears still staining her cheeks.

"Saleem brought men into my cell. He watched while they, while they.." Ziva could feel her stomach turn as she recalled what happened. She did not want to bring pain to anyone. But she could not keep pushing Tony away. She lost him once before, she could not go through it again because this time, she might not survive.

In a small voice, barely above a whisper, she finished, "raped me."

Tony felt anger like no other time before. He wanted to bring Saleem back and hurt him like he hurt Ziva. Tony also felt guilt. If it wasn't for him, Ziva would have never been hurt. Tony didn't realize it, but he was crying also.

Ziva continued, "He watched. But before Saleem left he told the men they had one hour and then I was to be brought to him. He had other prisoners to interrogate then I would be killed. That's when I woke up."

All her fears were threatening to be unleashed in a rush of words. Ziva fought hard to keep them hidden and locked up. All it took was one look at Tony for them to break through the walls and spill out like water from a broken damn.

"Tony, look at me." She placed her hands on each side of his face and made him look at her. "I do not blame you. I blame me because it was my pride that I stayed behind. I blame my father. He was the one who sent me and left me. He is the reason I am broken."

"Ziva, you are not broken. You are strong and beautiful. When you were gone, I became an alcoholic. More than once I had Gibbs come and pick me up from bars. He would even bench me more than a few times. I became something I didn't recognize. I thought I lost you Ziva. It made me realize that I loved you." Tony said staring in the fire completely surprised that he told her his secret.

Ziva blinked a couple times not believing her ears.

Still unsure that he said he loved her, she looked at him and asked, "You love me?"

"I sure do. I didn't realize it until I thought it was too late. Every time we went out on a case, I didn't want to come back."

"Tony, you kept me going through all that hell. All I wanted was to be back here, with you. I love you too." Ziva replied and continued, "When Saleem jerked that bag off my head, I thought he had killed me already. I saw you, and I never thought I would again. Then when I was brought home, I saw these other women, and how oblivious they were to things going on around the world. You deserve that. I'm too broken. Saleem took any chance I had to have a normal life away. I'm not even sure I can have children anymore, and I want that. I want that and a life with you."

Ziva was crying again, and Tony wipped away her hears with his thumbs.

"I don't care. Zi, if you give me, give us a chance, I don't care. We can make it through anything. Please." Tony said desperately.

Before she could say anything, he brought his lips to her.

They both thought this is home. This is where I want to be.

AN: Sorry it was short and all TIVA, well, I don't apologize for all TIVA because I LOVE THEM! But I also felt that this needed to be a chapter all on its own. I hope everyone is still liking the story! Please review!