I hope you like this chapter! I made it shorter because it was a good place to end it. Please comment!

It has been a few days since Tamaki and I have ended it so to speak. Kyoya has been taking care of me and René. He has been the best, he wakes up in the middle of the night sometimes and bottle feeds her. He has asked for nothing in return I feel guilty.

I feel like I am just stringing him on. Using him for my own needs, but he tells me that wants to do this. Kyoya Ootori truly is a great person.

Tamaki has ignored me ever since that day. He has picked up his position as leader again; all of his memories seem to have returned. Things feel normal and strange all at the same time. I mean we should be raising our daughter together.

I just want us to be a family. How can René live with knowing that her father wants nothing to do with her especially when he is so close? I just want him to love me again, but I can't abandon my daughter.

I clutch René to my chest as tears slid down my face. I can't cry, I can't be weak, but still I find reasons to cry. I looked down at René. Her violet eyes smile at me. She is such a beautiful baby. She also looks much like her father which makes it more painful.

My head sinks down even more. My long bangs fall down in my face. "They have grown quite a bit", I laugh to myself.

"Yes, they have." A male voice says behind me. I turn around shocked to see Kyoya standing at the door frame leaning against it with an amused smile as he walks in.

"Oh, hey Kyoya," I nervously smile. "Hey again I am so sorry for imposing on you like this with us having to share a room and all. Also taking care of a baby that isn't even yours-"

"Stop-"Kyoya holds up a hand to silence me. He walks in closer and takes my free hand up to his cheek and holds it there. "Haruhi, say no more you know that I love you and that baby. We may not be related by blood, but I have been there from day one and always will be." He gives me a kind smile with a tilt of his head as his forehead rest against mine.

"Senpai…" I whisper, but I am silenced by Kyoya's lips on mine. . .

I watched him kiss her. I saw everything, the way she blushed when he touched her hand. The way she smiled at him. I saw everything. I would never think that Haruhi would move on so quickly from me.

I was just going over to discuss the next raid plans with Ootori, or so I told myself. I tried too hard to convince myself of that. The truth is that I desperately love Haruhi, I never stopped loving her. I may have been cold to her or used other women. But it was all for her, I needed to use them to regain memories of her. I needed to be cold to her to protect her from me.

Again another lie, well part of it is a lie. I still love her, but I've changed. I don't know what I want. There are times when I want to be with her and other times that I just want her. All of these conflicting emotions. If she were just in my reach I would end up killing her, me us. At least I can admire her from afar even if she is raising our daughter with someone else.

But ultimately he is better for her. He always was and always will be. . .

I pulled my lips away from hers. She stared at me with a dazed look. She adjusted her grip on the baby. Her bangs fell down in her face prohibiting me from seeing her face.

"Kyoya," She whispered, "what was that?"

"It is to show you how I feel." I pushed my glasses up further my nose and stared down at René. The little baby looked back at me and giggles. She raised up her arms and grabbed at the air. I brought my finger close to her to grab.

She jerked my finger down to her mouth and began to suck on it. Then she began to make soft noises. But those noises sounded almost as if she was trying to say 'Dada'. I looked at Haruhi with a look of shock. Her expression mirrored mine.

"Did she just try to say 'dada'?"

"She's too young." Haruhi gasped with tears in her eyes.

I was also shocked myself. This baby only two months old tried to speak. And she tried to call me dad. That was just shocking.

"Wow, I guess that means she sees you as a father." Haruhi wiped tears from her eyes. Her nose was red and stuffed. Her cheeks became red and blotchy.

"Yes, I guess that does." Is it wrong for me to feel happy about this?