SORRY READERS.. I FINALLY UPDATE THIS STORY.. Ugh took me awhile but I said screw it sat at the laptop and started typing away. This is what I came up with, hope you like it..

DISCLAIMER: SM OWNS TWILIGHT, I JUST PLAY WITH HER PPL FOR MY OWN STORY.

~PAUL POV~

Driving back was going be awhile since this time I wasn't riding my bike back, had to load it up on the flat bed trailer to my baby ( 2009 dodge 1500). God I love my truck probable more than my bike, her shiny black paint. Just sitting in it everyday and taking the time to appreciate the hard work and long hours so I can put a large payment on it. I was happy I left La Push because stay there would have been a hard for me.

~FLASH BACK~

2 years ago….

She look so fragile laying in bed, I didn't know what to do to make her better. I just know everything will change if I lose her, shaking my head I couldn't think about that now. I jut needed her to get better.

" please promise me, you will be careful. don't go looking for trouble Paul." she whispered. Just whispering was taking a big toll on her, she need to rest.

" shhh.. Its ok please just try to sleep. When you get better, I will take care of you. Better this time, I will quit school. Please don't ….." she didn't give me a chance to finish.

" NO.. now listen to me. Im not going get better, u know this. Just take care of yourself , if you need to leave the rez. Just do it. I don't want you staying around and beat yourself up. I love you always have and always will. Now be a good for me please baby." tears were streaming down her face. Wiping them away for her, my own tears running down my face, I couldn't lose her yet.

" I love you," I told her. Putting my face down so she can run her finger thru my hair. " please don't leave me"

" I will always love you"

How long I sat there, I don't know. Then her hands just stop laying limp by me. I thought she finally went to sleep when the machines started beeping, nurses running in. from there everything became blurry and I look back at her one last time before the nurses took me out of the room. She finally look peaceful , she didn't have to worry about anything anymore. A pair of hands went around me helping me walk out to of the hospital. Im not even sure who handle everything, I just wanted to go home,

The arrangements were made and a small wake was head at the Clearwater house. The next day Harry Clearwater came over to bring me her urn. Putting it in her room knowing it would be alright in there. Everything didn't matter anymore for me, the only one keeping me sane was Jared making sure I ate and went to school. Sleep didn't even come anymore, only when they gave me a pill to take. Finally sitting outside on her swing one morning it came to me, jumping up I ran to her room and grab the urn. Walking to the cliffs the urn snug tight in my arms. I stood at the edge and took the lid off. Tilting it I said my last words to her.

" sorry for making you watch my mess. Im going leave the rez just like you said, when I will be back im not sure but hopefully one day. I will come back and see you . I love you" with that I poured it over the edge, a breeze came just then " take care of her for me plz" I beg the breeze. I sat there till the sun went down and walked home im going to pack my bag. Now I just had to tell Jared about this.

~END OF FLASHBACK~

Instead of going back the same way I came. I took a different route and ended up in DENVER, COLORADO. It was too big for my taste so I drove to a smaller town. Pulling into the motel, it suddenly just felt right to be here. I got a room went to get my bag out of the truck when I heard her voice cussing away like a sailor.

" son of a bitch" looking around I found the owner. Standing by a NITRO. Oh a woman after my own heart. Look like she had a flat tire, walking over to her forgetting about my own bag. As I got closer the more I notice how beautiful she was. She had to be atleast 5'9 and Not to mention sexy as hell, long chocolate brown hair in a clip with a few strand loose. Her short skirt showing off her long legs and a cropped van halen shirt, that was snug tight against her top. I got a control over my thoughts before I made a complete ass of myself. I cleared my throat so she knows im coming behind her. Ok bad paul. Trying my hardest not to screw up.

" Excuse me, do you need some help there?" I asked. She turn around, I look into her eyes and everything disappeared. Everything about her was important to me know and I had to hold her and hide her from the world. This pull I had to her was so intense, I closed my eyes. And just doing that made my chest hurt I had to look at her and hold her. Opening my eyes I saw her looking at me weird. I smile at her.

" so can I help you or do you have someone coming already."

God I wanted to kill whoever was the guy that had her.

" no " she said. I look at her again and to the tire.

" no u don't need help or no noone is coming?"

" noone is coming" she said

I couldn't help the way my heart then the flip and jump for joy. Smiling back at her

" I have a kit for that or do you have a spare?"

" spare its in the back, its okay u probable have somewhere you need to be right now. I can call the shop"

" no its ok" I growled. I couldn't let her get away just yet. " its ok I don't have to be anywhere. If you could show me where the spare is I can fix it in no time."

" yea"

After about 20mins I had the tire fix and everything put away and my stomach decide to make noise. Wiping my hands in the towel. She looked at me,

" sounds like someone is hungry, come on I can buy you dinner? There's a diner down the block."

" ok let me change my shirt first" I pulled it off and turn towards the truck still havent put my bag in the room. Pulling out a shirt I walked back to where she was standing and pulled my clean shirt over my head when I heard her gasp. Looking at her it see if she was ok, she was ok. But she was staring at me, and the a sweet flowerly scent hit me like a ton of bricks, her eyes were brim with lust. Smirking at her.

" like what you see. Looks like im not the only one that's hungry." she blushed and look down. Damn she look so sexy and innocent as hell. I reached forward and put tilt her head up at me.

" its ok, I don't bite unless you want me too." And as much as I want to right now im hungry and would like some food."

She nodded and lick her lip, my eyes flickering to her lips. I wanted to kiss her but didn't want to scare her away.

We walk to the diner and sat a booth in the back. Ordering our food I dug in since I didn't eat this afternoon I was starving. Making small talk I found out that she was going thru town to and headed up to see a old family friend in Washington. Said she was getting away from her past, I wanted to ask but I held back. I realized then that I may never see her again, my chest hurt making it hard to breathe. I need to do something just so I wouldn't lose her. I wrote my phone number down for her. Handed her the napkin

" if you ever want to get together call me Im heading to Washington too. Or if you need anything just don't hesitate to call."

" ok" she smiled and put it in her bag.

Paying for the tab and walking back to the motel. I wanted to hold her hand so I didn't she froze, realizing I just screwed up I drop my hand.

"sorry"

She surprise me by reaching down and entwine our fingers. I felt whole then and we reached the trucks sooner than I like. I stop in front of her.

" seriously about my number you can call anytime and I will come. No matter what it is. Okay?"

Nodded her head I did what I been wanting to do for the past hour. I kissed her lips, a second later she kissed me back like she didn't wanna let go to. Coming up for air I hugged her close to me. She hugged me back. Signing in pulled away from her,

" just call me"

I walked away to the truck grab my bag and headed to my room. I left the next morning early and looked around in the lot, she was gone. It took all I got to not go looking for her. I wanted her to come to me, putting my bag back in the truck I stop what I was doing.

"FUCK"

I didn't even get her name. I asked the front desk worker and he wouldn't give me her name frustrated as hell. I couldn't really do anything about it. I just hope she calls me. Taking off again on the road it was going be atleast two more days before I got to La push.

A/N alright there it is.. Some one asked why paul left in the first place so there it is.. If I could for some reviews please.. Thxs for reading