Chapter 8 – This is very wrong

I gave a sarcastic half laugh. "You missed me?" Making sure I stressed on the word, I wanted him to know the pain too. "Rin, you've never missed any of us." My tone was getting sharper. "When you were off studying in Australia, have even thought about writing to any one of us? Makoto? Nagisa? Me? You didn't even give us a phone call." I could see some hurt on his face. "You came back, but never contacted us and the only time you came to see me was for that stupid race." Rin's eyes were covered with pain. But to me, telling Rin off was something I wanted to do for years now.

"Look Haru, I'm sorry for all those things I've done but I can't change the fucking past." He rested his chin in the palm of his hand.

"Are you really sorry?"

He clicked his tongue. "Of course I am." He was getting exasperated.

I laced and unlaced my fingers together. Was Rin really sorry? Or is this just another game? My lips still held his scent.

"Haru," his tone softened.

"I'm not a child, you know."

He shut his eyes. "Just, listen. Please."

Fine. I was all ears right now, he could say whatever he wants to and I can just retort. I have the whole night. I crossed my arms.

Rin took a deep breath. "Haru, for one I really did miss you guys. Makoto, Nagisa and you. But I never did write or call. That is something I can't change. Maybe I was too stuck on the swimming competitions there that I stopped everything else." Rin shifted uncomfortably in his chair. " But I did think about you guys... No, it would be more correct to say that all I could think about during all of my fucking years there was you, Haru."

"Aren't you being too dramatic?" All he could think about was me? Somehow that sentence gives me a strange feeling. Like before going for a competition.

Lightly, the cerise haired male touched my cheek, holding my gaze. "Haru, I love you."

My pupils widened. I could feel my insides break down. "Rin, we're both guys." I managed to say a little breathlessly.

"So what? Can't a guy love a guy?" A small smile was playing on his lips. "I love you, Nanase Haruka. That's all there is to it."

His eyes were full of sincerity and pain and love. My heart was thumping in my chest. The beats were so loud I wonder if Rin could hear them.

Rin loves me.

On an impulse, I placed my lips on Rin's, earning a surprised look from the other youth. This time, our mouths opened willingly, both of us locked in a dance of our tongues. I could feel Rin's breath against mine. I could feel his ragged cerise locks of hair. I could feel his toned muscles rip beneath the fabric of his shirt. I could feel everything, including Rin's hardened member. With a dull throb, I noticed that my own was hard as well.

"Need me to help you with that Haru?" Rin teasingly asked.

"Shut up." My face was flushed from the exertion and embarrassment.

I felt a hand being placed on my cock. "No need to be shy, Haru." Rin placed a kiss on my cheek and my cock throbbed achingly.

From my cheek, Rin slowly trailed kisses along my jawline, down to my throat. "R-rin..."

His kisses went all the way to the base of my throat, where he had left a hickey the night before. He smirked into my shoulder. "You're still keeping this?"

"A-and whose fault do you think it is?" It felt good.

Rin circled his tongue around the hickey and I almost let out a moan. Luckily I managed to stifle it with my hand. He licked and bit it, giving it a redder appearance. His sharp teeth almost pierced my flesh.

Rin took my hand in his. "Don't. I want to hear your sounds." He kissed my neck again and a soft moan escaped my lips. He tilted my head and I was forced to look into his eyes. They were glazed over with lust, just as mine. "That's much better, Haru."

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The rest escalated pretty quickly. As this is somewhat of an autobiography, I really don't want to go any further, ladies and gentlemen (if there are any here). I am sorry to disappoint.

It was just way too embarrassing!

[Let me just say that it all came with Rin sucking on my nipples, we explored each other's bodies a lot, he gave me a blowjob and I helped him jerk off with my hands, and he penetrated me. And I screamed. And he hit my prostate and it just felt so damn good. He came all over my back though, not inside me. And after that, there was a lot of touching and cajoling and 'playing'.]

Yep, Rin back afterwards, when the sun was just about up and promised to visit me again, during the day and at night. He got out of the window but not before he could kiss me again.

My ex-friend become rival become secret lover. I miss him already.

One thing I sure will get him for next time: My arse is still sore.