Santana rushed to Brittany's room and knocked on the door. "Q! Britts! Open up!" she yelled. The door swung open. "Its about time." Santana said, making her way into the room.
"What are you doing here, Santana? Get tired of quality time with Man Hands?" Quinn Fabray teased one of her two best friends. Santana turned around a glared at Quinn.
"Shut up, Quinn." she snapped. Quinn backed off immediately. "Sorry." Santana apologized.
"Its okay. I get that staying with Man Hands can make someone testy." Quinn said. The Hispanic girl forced a laugh as she felt her phone buzz
New Message
Berry
I'm so sorry about what happened. I totally get it if you want to stay with Brittany.
Santana instantly felt bad. It wasn't like it was Rachel who had kissed her. It had been the other way around. "Who was it?" Quinn asked, snapping Santana out of her train of thought.
"Huh? Oh it was just the dwarf. Apparently she can't reach one of the shelves that holds the towels or something. I better go back and make sure she doesn't fall and kill herself by accident or something like that." Santana said. Quinn laughed.
"I'll walk you out." Quinn said. Santana raised an eyebrow.
"Wow. A whole ten feet. Thanks Q." Santana said. Quinn winked and closed the door behind Santana. The girl walked back to her hotel room and opened the door with her key. She was about to call Rachel's name when she saw the girl in question sitting in a chair facing the window. "Rachel?" she said softly. The girl looked at her before turning back to the window. "Rachel, you have nothing to apologize for." Santana said. She advanced on Rachel. As she got closer to the girl, she realized she was crying. "Rachel, are you okay?" she asked. Rachel shook her head. "Rachel, you didn't have to apologize for earlier. It wasn't your fault. It was mine. I'm so sorry." Santana said.
"Santana, its not that." Rachel said.
"Then what is it?" Santana asked. Rachel took a deep breath.
"I like you, Santana. And for a moment, I guess I thought that maybe you liked me too." Rachel said. Santana closed her eyes.
"Oh wow. Rachel, that… I'm so sorry. I had no idea. If I had known, I wouldn't have kissed you." Santana said. Rachel looked away. "I'm sorry, Rachel. I just… I don't think I feel that way about you." Santana said. Rachel nodded.
"Its okay. I get it. Trust me, I get it. I'm an expert at being rejected. I'll get over it. No harm done." Rachel said. Santana tried to apologize again, but Rachel stopped her. "I'm fine, Santana. Really." she said. She looked at Santana with questioning eyes. "But… can I… can I kiss you one more time?" Rachel asked.
"Rachel, I don't think that's such a good idea." Santana said.
"Please Santana. Just once." Rachel said. Santana nodded.
"Okay." she whispered. She closed her eyes as Rachel kissed her. Slowly, Santana pulled away. Rachel's eyes were still closed. Santana looked away.
"Thank you." Rachel whispered. Santana nodded. Rachel stood up. "I think I'm going to go to Mercedes and Tina's room." she said.
"You don't have to do that." Santana said. Rachel turned around.
"Yes I do. Maybe I'll see you later." Rachel said. She smiled sadly and turned around to leave the room.
"Rachel, wait." Santana said. The smaller girl ignored her. "Rachel…" The girl in question made her way to the room Mercedes and Tina were staying in. She gently knocked on the door. Mercedes opened it.
"What's up diva?" she asked with a smile. Rachel smiled and entered the room.
"Nothing much. Had to get out of the room." Rachel said. Mercedes nodded in understanding.
"Needed a safe haven. I totally get that. Living with Satan won't be easy, but you know you can always come by here if you need to get away from the devil who is taking the form of your roommate for the next two weeks." Mercedes joked. Rachel shrugged silently. Inside, she was upset about what Mercedes had said, but she was also really confused. She was able to pass off the first kiss as Santana getting caught up in the moment. But the fact that she allowed Rachel to kiss her again had to mean something. Rachel was having a hard time dealing with all of the mixed feelings she was experiencing. She was about to respond to Mercedes' multiple attempts to get her attention when her phone buzzed.
New Message
Satan
I think we should talk about this. Please come back.
"Who is it?" Mercedes asked. Rachel looked up.
"Santana. Apparently I left my iTouch playing my Broadway musical playlist on the docking station and Santana doesn't know my password. She wants me to come turn it off before she breaks it herself." Rachel said. She waved and walked out of the room. She made her way to her room and saw Santana sitting in the same chair that Rachel had previously been sitting in. "Hi." Rachel whispered. Santana looked over at her and offered Rachel a small smile and a slight wave. "I'm sorry for walking out. It was immature and I should have stayed so we could have talked about it." Rachel said. Her roommate nodded. "I just… I'm so confused about all the feelings and thoughts that I'm having right now. I know that you aren't feeling the same as I am right now and that you don't feel the same about me that I do about you." Rachel said. Santana looked at her before turning her head to look away. Rachel slightly sighed before settling on her bed to sit down on. Santana stared at Rachel for a few moments. Rachel couldn't meet Santana's gaze. It was too heartbreaking. She stood up and walked into the bathroom. Santana watched the direction her roommate went and followed. She walked into the bathroom and saw Rachel sitting on the toilet lid. Santana walked over and sat down on the edge of the tub.
"Rachel…" Santana said.
"You don't have to say it, Santana. I know you don't have feelings for me. Please, just don't say it out loud." Rachel said. Santana took her hand, lifted it to her lips, and kissed it. Rachel watched her with tears in her eyes. "Why are you doing this to me?" she croaked out. Santana looked at their linked hands.
"Shh… can I talk for a moment?" Santana requested. Rachel nodded silently. "Rachel, I admit that I wasn't thrilled about rooming with you. But when you offered to cover for me with Schuester and let me room with Britt and Q, it made me respect you. It made me think that maybe I could handle living with you for two weeks. When I walked out of the bathroom and saw you having a nightmare, it scared me. It made me want to help you stop being so scared and to make you feel safe and to help you get better. And when I kissed you…" Santana trailed off. Rachel looked at her expectantly, but didn't say anything. "When I kissed you, I felt… I felt something. When you kissed me, I felt it again. It scares me, but I want to… I guess I want to explore these feelings. The feelings that I'm having for you. I know that you've liked me for at least a little while, and I'm sure I've hurt you during the time. I am truly, deeply, sorry about that. And now I'm just asking for a chance to prove that." she said. Rachel looked at her for a moment. "Please say something, Rachel." Rachel looked down at their hands before looking back up at Santana. Rachel leaned in closely and kissed Santana softly. Santana dropped her grip on Rachel's hand and grabbed the back of Rachel's neck to pull her closer. Rachel rested her hands on Santana's waist in return. Santana softly pulled away and rested her forehead on Rachel's. "Is that a yes?" Santana asked. Rachel nodded. Santana smiled and kissed Rachel again before standing up and walking out of the bathroom.
