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Chapter 2
He was still typing away at his desk... she stood in front of the desk... folded her arms across her chest and spoke... "Castle, look at me"
"Can this wait Kate...? I really need to finish this tonight…"
Kate instantly pushed his laptop screen down... closing it in front of him saying sharply
"No it can't wait..."
"What the hell Kate... that wasn't even saved!" he panicked
"Explain to me why there's such a mess in the living room and why Alex was sitting unattended in there"
"he was playing... I put the movie on for him and then he got sleepy…"
"So you left him there to what? Fall asleep?"
"What? No! He fell asleep on the couch... so I tucked him in... And came in here to get some writing done. Trust me... he was asleep when I came in here"
"Well so were you when I came in here!"
"Kate I wasn't sleeping! I must have just dozed off for a minute when you entered…"
"That's not even the point Castle... What if something had to happen to him while you were in here?"
"Kate…"
"No Castle... I don't understand what it was so important for you to write tonight that you completely forgot that you're a father now…"
she was losing control over her emotions now… her tired mind not thinking before letting the words out... her cool was slipping..
"You can't just do what you want anytime you want" she was raising her voice at him
"Kate... you're way out of line here… I wasn't in the same room as him but…" Castle spoke firmly, not willing to just listen to her yell at him and take it all... he didn't deserve it.
"You know, I see it now Castle..."
"See what?!"Castle asked, confused.
"Gina, Meredith… your failed marriages… I bet it had something to do with the way you get so engrossed in your writing that you hardly pay attention to what's going on"
Kate regretted it the minute it was out there. Castle stood up and in an effort to keep his cool… yet with anger showing through his body language, he said
"How dare you say such a thing... you of all people Kate!"
Kate knew this was getting out of hand... but she had no control over her anger anymore... she was saying things that had no relevance to why this fight even started...
"From the time I've walked through the door Rick... you've been typing endlessly! Not even once did you look up to acknowledge my presence... I have a tough job castle... when I come home I want to be able to have the full attention of my husband!"
"What are you implying Kate? That I don't have a job, my Job is not as important?! Writing is my job Kate!"
"You're not actually Catching the killers Castle!" she yelled
"I am"
"That's enough!" Castle said "i don't want to hear another word from you Kate!"
he couldn't take the things she was saying... she was obviously not in the right mind to realize the things she was saying.
"You married me knowing I am a writer... I write when I'm inspired... I've been having writers block all week... and you coming home and yelling does not help one bit"
He was losing his cool too.
"So what..? I don't inspire you anymore? Is that what you're saying Castle?"
"That's not what I'm saying… you married me knowing I'm a writer... then why is it such a problem for you now!"
"Cause we have more responsibilities now! We're parents!"
""I've done this before with Alexis, Kate... I know what I'm doing!"
"I don't know what I'm doing. Why didn't you think of all this before asking me to marry you Castle... before showing me that ring?!" she spat out in anger
"Well your right! Maybe I shouldn't have proposed in the first place" he yelled!
And it took both of them exactly one second to realize what they had just said to each other...
and in the very next second... they looked into each other's eyes and a silent cry passed between them both that spoke in the air "I didn't mean it"..
But that was it... it was a silent four words that their hearts spoke out to each other... nothing more was said out loud.. Until
"Castle... I think we should talk in the morning" she said without looking at him...
Saying this she stormed out of his study and into their bedroom... closing the door behind her…
Castle ran his hand through his hair in frustration and sighed 'what just happened?' he thought to himself...
he needed a glass of water to calm his nerves... he had never had to raise his voice that way at Kate before… and he was already feeling horrible about it.. Obviously... both of them had had a bad day and they had just taken out all their frustration on each other…
Castle walked into the kitchen and poured himself a glass of water… he drank slowly and then went back into the study.. He shut down his laptop and turned off the lamp on his desk... he looked to the bedroom door...
he wanted to talk it all out with her tonight before they fell asleep… he wanted to apologize to her.. And he hoped she'd apologize too... it was never good to sleep with such a heavy heart... and with the things they had just said to each other… he knew exactly what a horrible night he'd have if they didn't talk it out now..
So he turned the knob of his bedroom door and just then Kate pulled the door open from inside and when he looked at her… her eyes were puffy red... her nose red from the wrath of the tissue she was holding in one hand… and that's when he noticed the bag in the other hand…
"Kate... where are you going?"
"I can't be here" was all she said as she rushed past him and walked away briskly…
Castle stood frozen… "What just happened?" he asked himself… and even before his head answered his thought... his heart led his feet to move quickly after her…
she was running… Like she always did… running when the relationship got complicated… running when something needed to be fixed between them… he couldn't let her run… for god sake they were married now... they have a kid together... they're supposed to talk things out... Fix these things when they come along…
when he reached the living room... and looked around... she was nowhere in sight…
suddenly he heard a sound from Alex's room. He ran in that direction "Kate!"
When he reached the door... he saw her lifting Alex from the bed and holding him close to her... letting him sleep on her shoulder… Castle's heart began to race.
"Kate... what are you doing?" he spoke softly... in an effort to not disturb their son's sleep… but she didn't answer him... she simply walked past him...
he went after her… asking again "Where are you going with him?"
she wasn't answering him… she neared the door and he grasped on to her elbow.. Stopping her from moving any further…
"What's going on Kate... we can talk this out… where are you going?"
She finally turned to Face him "I can't be here… this is not... I can't..." she was choking on her words...
she finally found it in her to speak… "If you love me at all Castle... don't come after me now… I'll call you okay…"
saying this she turned and opened the door and walked out of the loft… taking their only son and Castle's crushed heart along with her…
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