Against All Odds- Chapter 3

I wake up with Christian's words in my mind and Jose's body twisted over mine. It is something that before I would have loved before last night but now it just adds to more of the trapped way I feel. Sighing I turn my head to gaze at Jose as he sleeps. He looks different to me after last night.

Finally getting to share my world with someone else Christian's words keep ringing in my head. "How can anyone not love you?" "Ana I know that I have not known you long but I see so much in you. You are one of those who are just as beautiful on the inside as you are on the out. You just haven't found the one who will appreciate all that...yet but you will." "Ana look at me; all you did was love someone so much that you went after what you wanted. A girl like that is one in a million, you are that girl. If he cannot see what he has maybe you should leave again?" And his last words to me sting as I wonder if he is right, do I deserve better?

I haven't thought of what I would do if I left Jose again. I didn't think of it the first time. I just did it. Was I strong enough to do it again? As if he could hear my thoughts Jose pulled me close to him tightening his grip on me. I did love him but that love was beginning to fade each day that we were together. I thought we would grow closer not further apart after I moved in with him. Now more and more I wonder if I did not make a mistake.

"Where are you going?" I hear as I start to turn my body toward the edge of the bed.

"Getting up."

"Not just yet." His words which used to make my heart race today just made me groan. I knew what he wanted. He pushed me on my side then slapped my ass hard. "So you want to tell me more about your friend?"

Wincing from the slap I shrug my shoulders, "nothing to tell, just a friend who came over to talk."

"Ana." There was a warning in his voice that pissed me off. It was his Dom voice but I was not in the mood to play the little Submissive.

"Jose?" I pushed at him trying to crawl off the bed.

"No, you were up late last night...shall I punish you here or there?"

I shudder as he mentions there. That damn playroom, a room full of what he called toys but I call torture. Belts, whips, crops and canes to spank me with while there were chairs, benches and a cross with shackles to restrain me with. "No here please."

"Playroom it is then." With those words Jose picked me up and tossed me over his shoulder as he walked to the playroom. Putting me on my feet inside the door he just gave me his stern look and then pointed, "You know your place."

I sank to my knees with my head bowed looking calm and ready to willingly accept my punishment but inside I was screaming. I was being punished for having a friend? I wanted to tell him to fuck off but instead I just bit my lip hard.

He sauntered back to me barking orders, "Stand up, strip and get by the bench." I sighed and did as I was told only to have him instantly behind me pushing me over the bench. "You are getting 5 hits for that shit last night." I cried out the count each time he spanked me with his open palm then cried out again as he pulled me to the bed by the hair.

Falling back on the bed I stared up at him as he came at me kissing me hard and immediately pushing himself into me. His punishments used to excite me but now I just want him to leave me alone. I buck back at him hard until he pins me down thrusting harder and harder. Instead of feeling the rush that I usually felt today my body responded but my heart and mind stayed numb.

When I didn't moan like normal Jose stopped and grabbed both my hands pinning them over my head making me growl at him, "Let me go."

"No, you do not order me." With that he thrust one time so hard that I screamed out in pain before he pulled out of me flipping me over onto my stomach. Pulling my ass into the air Jose entered me again and continued his hard thrusts while I fought not to let him hear my crying.

"I want to hear you Ana. Now." He slapped my ass hard at that making me cry out again. I closed my eyes and clutched the sheets trying to forget him and picture someone else...finally my body and mind started to work together. I cried out as I finally exploded around him then I felt him release deep inside me. Collapsing to the bed I let my hair fall over my face as he lies next to me and I can feel his eyes on me. "So you want to talk now?"

"You will just hear the same thing, he is just a friend."

"Ana look at me." I flip my hair off to one side and then peek over at him. "I see the way he looks at you. That look tells me that he has some kind of feelings for you."

"He is my friend and he was worried about me. That is all you saw."

"Let me guess, poor Ana is all alone. I do have work you know."

I sit up and stare at him, "no you cannot use that excuse every time. You don't work every day and you didn't even come home the other night. No texts, no calls...I do worry you know."

With a sigh Jose shook his head, "I told you that I will not cheat on you, is that what you are worried about?"

"No its not."

"Then let it go, I am hungry." He hops up and leaves the room.

I stare after him but I do not move. I sit in the aftermath of being with him...I should be glowing and relaxed but instead I feel dirty and annoyed. He doesn't listen to me at all. I don't worry he cheats but I worry that he is only here because he feels as trapped as I do. How do I ask if he wants all this without hurting him? I sigh and roll on my back to stare up at the ceiling.

With my eyes closed I drift back to the last thoughts of last night. When Christian touched me a shock of electricity went through me but today when Jose touched me I felt nothing. I had to fight my own body to climax, what was happening to me? When I finally did manage to climax I had Christian's face in my mind.

Hearing my name being called I grabbed my clothes and dressed before I headed to the kitchen. I thought maybe he called me to say food was ready but no he was standing there waiting for me to cook for him. With a sigh I went into robot mode and made him something to eat before retreating to my bathroom locking the door behind me.

As I sank into the hot water letting myself relax and my mind wander...it went right back to Christian. I closed my eyes and thought of how he made me laugh, the smile he brought to my face without effort and the wonderful way I felt around him. I was relaxed, happy and confident in his presence.

Then I sat straight up in the tub as my cell went off, it was from Christian. I grabbed a towel for my hands before I read it and his words about the confident and sexy Ana that he met came to me. I open his message and lie back in the tub to read it."Ana, I just had to check to make sure that you are okay. I hated leaving you with him last night. If you need me I will be there in a heartbeat."

"Christian, I am fine. It has not been my best morning but I will survive."

"Did he hurt you?"

"Why do you jump straight to the conclusion?"

"Because the way he looked at us last night."

"I won't answer that question. Moving on...I am fine."

"Ana, I am coming over."

"NO! Christian NO!"

"Please no, I just can't."

"Okay I won't but then answer the question."

"That is not fair and you know it."

"You have two minutes before I walk out to my car."

"Okay damn it, you won't like it."

"That is not an answer Ana. You are down to 1 minute and 30 seconds."

"FUCK!"

"1 minute."

"Yes."

"Yes he hurt you again?"

"No worse than normal playroom stuff."

"I don't want you going in there with him anymore."

"WHOA! Christian do you realize what you just told me?"

"Yes."

"And why should I listen to you?"

"Because I worry about you."

"It is not your job to save me."

"No it's not, only you can do that but it's my job to make you see the reasons why you should before it's too late."

"Too late for what?"

"Ana, you know. Too late for you not to get hurt."

"It is already too late for that."

As my cell buzzes over and over I sit up straighter leaning over the tub trying to keep up. I love that Christian cares enough to check on me but it makes me wonder how long I have before he starts to push me to do something. It is obvious that he hates the mess I have myself stuck in. A loud bang on the door makes me jump and almost drop my cell. "Yes?" I call out.

"Are you planning to come out anytime soon?"

"Yes, was just relaxing."

"We need to talk."

I text Christian quickly that I will talk to him later and toss my cell under a pile of towels as I hear Jose rattle the door handle again. I step out of the tub to open the door then slip back into the water. "Mind if I join you?"

I shrug and lean back in the water. "If you want."

He strips and climbs in making the water slosh as I watch. "I am sorry I overreacted, you are allowed to have friends but you really didn't see it?"

"See what Jose?" I shift my legs to make room for him as we are now sitting facing each other.

"The look in his eyes. He has feelings for you."

I laugh and splash water at him, "whatever, you always think that. He is just a good friend who wanted to make sure I was okay. Nothing more."

Pulling on my leg Jose nods, I squirm trying not to slide as he pulls on it more. "I trust you Ana and I know you have been alone a lot. I don't mean to do that. I am not used to living with anyone or being with just one person. I do love you."

"I know and I love you." I grin at him.

We spend the next few hours together just the two of us. After the tub we watch a few movies together. I gaze over at him from time to time. I do love him so much and it is times like I live for, just us. The rest of the night passes as if a dream till bedtime. Jose went to bed first while I stopped in the bathroom to retrieve my cell. Just as I thought there was a message from Christian after my last text. "Ana text me back whenever you get this no matter what time it is. I just want to know that you are alright and if you are free tomorrow let's do lunch or something."

His message makes me smile and I text him back quickly, "Christian, you are definitely the best friend I have right now. You know all the things that I didn't want to share with anyone else. I am fine, it was a quiet day. Lunch sometime sounds great; we will figure out a time."

I spent hours that weekend lost in thought, Jose was near me but yet it didn't matter. It was not enough, to be here with me but yet miles away. Sitting at my laptop I wanted to scream but instead cranked up the music and found myself stalking Christian. I looked her up on Google and then on his face book page. All my thoughts keep turning to him even with Jose right in the same room.

"Ana?"

I jumped as Jose came up behind me and tried to quickly flip off Christian's face book page but it was too late Jose had seen it. "Yes?" I whispered afraid of what was to come. He turned my chair so I was staring at him and we were nose to nose then nothing as his green eyes stared into my blue ones.