AN ~ Hey all! I have that chapter that should have been up way back when! Lol I just had a lot to do, with final projects and finals studying (Dx not fun. I'd rather have been writing this story), along with lots of swimming (woo swim practice/swimming 6 days of the week! *serious sarcasm*) and my little sister's birthday parties (that was… interesting) but now that all that is over, I should be able to write a lot!
I don't think I've mentioned that on my profile, I update it with the progress of this story, so if I disappear, check to see if I updated that.
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Disclaimer ~ Sadly, I don't own Pokémon.
Chapter 4 ~ I Really Want To Love Somebody
I really didn't see Ash for the rest of the day. I didn't really have a chance to talk to him either. The only time I saw him was at dinner. He looked like a mess when he came down – pale skin, messy hair, red eyes. I cocked my head slightly to look at him. Had he been crying? I hoped not. He refused to look at me after that… He kept his head down all throughout dinner, and stayed silent. I did too, and it felt uncomfortable. Even the Pokémon were silent. The normally attention-seeking Eevee was quiet and kept to herself. As terrible as this sounds, I hope she feels bad for what she did.
When Ash and I finished eating, we silently took our dishes to the sink. We both reached the stainless steel sink at the same time, and we both paused at the same time. There was maybe half an arm's length between me and the raven haired boy in front of me – the closest we had been since Eevee's "ingenious" idea. He looked up again, and our eyes met.
"Ash," I whispered, hoping to get his attention, but he just turned and went to go upstairs. I grabbed his upper arm. "Ash," I said again, a bit louder, but still quiet. "Please. Talk to me." The beautiful boy in front of me shook his head and mouthed the word no. "Ash. Please." I begged the boy in front of me to talk to me just so I could hear his sweet voice again, his beautiful laugh, see his face light up. It hurt me to see him like this – so sad, so depressed looking. Again, he just shook his head, refusing once again to look at me. "Ash Ketchum, you are going to talk to me whether you want to or not. So it would be nice if you actually tried so I didn't have to force you to sit there and talk to you," I commanded, and then softened my voice, saying, "Please Ashy. We need to work this out. I-I-It hurts me to see you so sad looking. It's not normal for you. Please."
"Why should I?" came a quiet voice. "Tell me Gary, why should I talk to you? What good will come out of it?" He still refused to look at me. "I know you just want to make fun of me for what I said. I can just tell."
"I don't want to Ashy. I want to just talk to you. If you looked at me, you'd see that."
"No. I don't believe you."
"GODDAMMIT ASH!" I almost yelled. "I'm serious! Alright? I am not going to make fun of you. I want to talk to you. I want you to look at me right now, though, so we can have this conversation. Or I am going to drag you against your will to my room to talk." I wasn't joking around too. Either way, I was going to talk to him. No matter what. At that point in time, I noted that the pokémon vacated the kitchen. Interesting.
Ash didn't budge. Alright he wants to do this the hard way. I gently grabbed the sides of his face, and turned them to face me. "There, that wasn't hard now was it?" I asked, not letting go of his face, for the fear he would turn away. I wanted him to continue looking at me. I wanted to stare into his brown eyes forever. And then I noticed the tears spilling out of those beautiful eyes. I gently wiped them away, soothing the younger boy with "Don't cry Ash. Please. Don't cry." This only caused him to cry more. So I did what I used to do with Daisy or any person I knew who was crying – I pulled Ash into a tight hug, not letting go. I rested my chin on his head, still soothing him. Eventually, I felt his skinny arms wrap around my midsection and him bury his head into my shirt and chest, tears still falling. "Shhh it's alright Ash."
I'm not sure how long we were standing there hugging, but it felt like a hell of a long time. Eventually, the tears stopped, but the hug didn't. It just felt… so good and so right to be holding Ash like that. I didn't want to let go. But I loosened my arms slightly when I heard a small "Gary?" come from the beautiful creature in front of me.
"Hmm?" I asked as Ash's head appeared and looked at me.
"… I'm sorry for what happened with the whole tripping thing. I just… I have no idea what I wa-"
"It's alright Ash. Just stop there. I didn't mind it at all." I had stopped him in the middle of his sentence with a finger on his lips. I moved it, and leaned my head down to rest our foreheads together, looking him straight in his sienna eyes. "It's alright," I whispered, not moving my eyes. We were so close in that moment. I could hear Ash's heartbeat speed up, and his breath catch for a second at the simple yet romantic position we were in at the moment. I almost smiled at him, because I found it funny and yet adorable at the same time.
I'm sure we could of stayed like that forever if it weren't for a loud "PIKAAA" behind Ash. We slowly separated, still not breaking eye contact, and still breathing hard. He must have realized what I had done (finally), because his face and neck flushed a light pink. I'm sure my face was the same color also, and I could feel the heat radiating off of it. I finally broke eye contact to look at the clock. "Oh. It's 10:00." Oh my Arceus, we were like that for almost… 3 and a half hours. From when we sat down to eat dinner to now was 3 1/2 hours. Wow.
"I'm gonna go to sleep now Gary," Ash said. I could already see his skin returning to its normal color, and that made me happy.
"Alright Ash. Goodnight." As an afterthought, I said, "If you have another nightmare, you can come into my room, okay?" A simple nod was what I received, as Ash was in the middle of a huge yawn. He left the room, and climbed up the stairs. I heard the soft click of the door shutting, and I leaned against the wall, running my hands through my hair. I took a deep breath to control my breathing and heartbeat. Did that really just happen? I don't know, but it felt so right, so reall. I want him to stay. Here, in my house, forever.
I know your inside, you're feeling so hollow.
And it's a hard pill for you to swallow.
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover.
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same.
I really want to love somebody.
I really want to dance the night away.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
I really want to touch somebody.
I think about you every single day.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
You're such a hard act for me to follow.
Love me today, don't leave me tomorrow, yeah.
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover.
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same.
I really want to love somebody.
I really want to dance the night away.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
I really want to touch somebody.
I think about you every single day.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
Oh, oh, oh oh.
I don't know where to start, I'm just a little lost.
I wanna feel like we never gone, ever stopped.
I don't know what to do, I'm right in front of you.
Asking you to stay, you should stay, stay with me tonight, yeah.
I really want to love somebody.
I really want to dance the night away.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
I really want to touch somebody.
I think about you every single day.
I know we're only half way there,
But if you take me all the way, you take me all the way.
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
You take me all the way, you take me all the way.
AN ~ Well there you go! The chapter that should have been up forever ago! Btw, I love the song at the end (I don't own it, Maroon 5 and their record company does). I might use songs every once in a while to help progress the story or explain feelings.
*Shameless self promotion* :D please rate and review! It really helps. Also, let me know, should the next chapter be in Gary's view and the story progresses, or should it be in Ash's view on the fall (starting right about there) and this whole entire chapter? Please, LET ME KNOW! :) I should have another chapter up as soon as I get a couple responses on my questions. Thanks again, and have a nice however long until I post the next chapter!
Love,
Shadows