AN: Sorry its short, next one is long and will be the day after tomorrow. Thanks for the love guys.

''I think I should go back'', she weakly said again.

''You choose whatever you prefer to do, and we can do that. Whatever you decide is alright''.

Maura let go of the bunched up material she was holding onto and moved a few inches from Jane. She looked at her as if Jane had said she wanted to kill the pope. ''We?'', she asked.

''I'm not letting you go. I can not let you go''

''I think you have already done that Jane. Don't you see it?''

''I let you down, I didn't let you go. The mountains I'll have to climb to have you trust me again and for you to forgive are going to be steep as hell, but I am prepared to do it Maura.''

''How do you expect me to forgive you?'', the conversation was surprisingly calm, so far.

Jane couldn't answer. Her mouth opened, but closed again.

''If you cannot answer that how do you suppose I could?''

When Jane took longer to answer Maura lost her nerve. She pulled herself out of bed and stood up straight, firmly looking at Jane. Jane wasn't comfortable with Maura's change in demeanour so she quickly hoisted herself from the bed as well.

Maura's voice was raised high it briefly frightened Jane. ''You hurt me Jane. Do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep?''

''So-''

''DON'T tell me 'so did you'. Don't you dare Jane! I cried EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. This almost killed me ok. I was going to take MY own life because I couldn't bear to live without you'', Maura was not finished. She was bloody mad this time. And Jane was going to have it. She said she was prepared to climb mountains, well here they were.

''While I was suffering, while I was in misery, you were moving on. You were busy sleeping with Casey and moving in with him and….'', she had to stop to take a breath. Jane was so scared of moving closer, despite how desperately she wanted to hold Maura.

''You can't have it all Jane. You don't get to tell me that you love me more than anything in the world and go off and start a relationship with your ex boyfriend. Then go on to blame it on your mothers happiness. And now that I'm here you're going to tell me you love me and want to be with me, right? That's not happening Jane. Forget about that. I am going back and you have NO say in it whatsoever.''

Maura's words hurt, and it just added on to the pain Jane was already in. She had no right - she knew it. Maura would need a long time to be able to forgive her. Jane would have to work super hard to earn her trust again. Or she could give in, that was a simple option. She could tell Maura that she was right and let Maura walk away and be free from all the hurt she had to offer her. But Jane wouldn't choose the easy way out. She knew Maura loved her, and she loved Maura too. And she knew Maura would never be happy, even if she let her go. Jane knew she wouldn't be happy too, but her happiness didn't matter at the moment – Maura's did. She knew there wouldn't be a person on earth who could love Maura the way she did, who could understand her and give her everything she wanted.

She just hadn't been granted enough time to think about the whole situation, so she had to be extra careful with her words so as not to hurt the delicate woman in front of her.

''I want to forgive you and move on, can you tell me how I can do that, because I don't know''. It was so strange how Maura had turned from this woman who was hugging her lovingly, then looking defeated, and then seeming like she was starting to come around, and now she was a raging mess. Jane was ill equipped to deal with all those Maura's. She just wanted the woman she knew and loved before the whole ordeal started, but she didn't know how to reach out to that woman.

''Don't go away please'', Jane begged.

''You keep telling me not to go. What the hell do you want me here for? You haven't told me''

''Because I love you Maura. I don't wanna to be without you''

''So this is about you right?'', Maura looked offended.

''No, it's about us. Both of us weren't happy, so why should we keep doing this to ourselves?''

''You seemed to have been doing just fine if you ask me''

''Exactly my point, I seemed to be. But I wasn't. We can fix this. It might not be tomorrow or the day after, but we will. I will do anything for you, just name it. Except for one thing – I won't let you leave, I wont do that''

Maura stared at Jane and just out of the blue she started crying. It was very weird for Jane because this time she didn't know what was wrong. She replayed her sentence in her head as fast as she could trying to fish out the wrong word, only to find none.

''God Maura, what did I say wrong?''

Maura had picked up her cellphone and scrolling through something. There went that strange change in her behaviour again; Jane was having a tough time keeping up. The last thing on earth she expected started happening – a song was playing loudly through the mobile phone.

''…..I would do anything for love; you know it's true and that's a fact. I would do anything for love, but I won't do that, no, no, I won't do that…''

Maura was now sitting on the bed with her legs pulled against her chest singing along. Jane looked at her and her face turned into a full blown Rizzoli smile. The tears just fell down her cheeks but she made no effort to wipe them. She was busy admiring the woman before her who was quietly singing along through tears of her own. Jane wouldn't stop her if it could save her life. It was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen and she was speechless beyond speechless.

They let the song play to the end then Maura lifted her teary eyes to meet Jane's, ''Meatloaf, I would do anything for love'', they said in unison.

''It's one of my favourite songs. I had it on repeat on my way here – in the plane, during the time I wasn't sleeping or writing'', Maura added sheepishly.

Jane could not believe her ears. There were millions of things she wanted to ask and say but none could come out. For the most part she was sad though. One of Maura's favourite songs was a meatloaf song. That was a BIG deal! And she had not been there to witness the quirky doctor fall in love with the song. It hurt her, but she was way too happy for Maura to concentrate on the hurt at that time.

''I love it too. I havn't heard it in a long while though. What reminded you of it?''

''You'', Maura answered simply.

''Me?''

''You said you'd do anything except for one thing. It reminded me of the song''

Jane could not for the life of her figure out why she couldn't keep her emotions in check. She had never been like that before. Tears kept coming to her eyes and there was absolutely nothing she could do about it. She went and knelt by the bed facing Maura.

''Will you please stay?''

''I don't know Jane. It's all just too much for me. What are you intentions with me anyway?'', Jane had to chuckle at Maura's word choice, despite the gravity of the situation.

''I intend to make it up to you, and to love you, and to make you happy, and to keep you singing…'', that at least earned her a very small smile, ''…I intend to never hurt you, and to never do what I did again. I intend to never leave you, to listen to you, and trust you. I intend to be the person you deserve. I know I can be that person. I want to give you everything within my capabilities. My greatest priority is to never make you cry the way you did before. It is the first and last time I will be the cause of that much hurt, I can promise you that with all the certainty I have.'' She took a deep sigh, ''there is more I want to say Maura, but given the circumstances you wouldn't believe me just yet, maybe another day.''

''If there is something to be said, now is the time Jane'', Maura warned.

After thinking for a moment she took a deep breath in and went on, ''I was going to leave Casey. I talked to Frankie about it two days ago, you wouldn't believe it. I'm not justifying myself. I am just telling you. Those are some of my intentions. I am going to leave him.'' She didn't get a reaction from Maura. ''I don't like the way I sound right now, like some kind of pimp - leaving someone, getting together with another. Please say something Maura.''

''I don't want to be around whilst you sort things out with your boyfriend''

That stung.

''What are you saying?'', Jane sounded panicked now.

''I'm saying maybe I should go back. When you have your life together, and it's clear where I fit in, then maybe I could come back''.

Jane was initially elated that Maura was considering coming back, and then she was worried about the prospect of her leaving again.

''You don't have to be away whilst I fix things. Its not a very long process you know''

''I don't want to hinder your judgement. And I don't want to be bumping into Casey like today''

''I understand what you mean. But I won't let that happen. If you want to leave I am leaving with you. I will not let you go on your own. And where is it anyway that you have been living?''

''We'll get into that later, it's not the point right now''

''Fair enough''. Jane had to stand, her legs were cramping up again. She had done an awful lot of kneeling for one day she surmised. She looked at Maura, silently asking if she could join her on the bed. Maura gave her a small smile and Jane felt like she had won the freaking lottery.

Love is a difficult thing. Its impact can never be calculated and its consequences never foreseen. Maura wanted to hate Jane and never see her again. She wished for Jane to suffer the way she had. She wanted to punish her by never giving her the opportunity to love her. Maura wanted Jane to sweat and beg for forgiveness a thousand times over. But the love she had for Jane wouldn't let her. Her love for the detective caused her to give in. She could make their lives hell for as long as she pleased, but she knew eventually they would be together. No point in prolonging the inevitable, right? The doctor had hurt enough and she just wanted the pain to go away. She knew what would take the pain away, and that person was sitting there next to her. She could deny it all she wanted, but she had forgiven Jane. She might not forget for a while, and hurt from time to time, but she would rather be with Jane than without her.

''I was afraid of coming here. I was scared to see what state you would be in. And I was embarrassed by what I had done before I left. But all of that was crushed by the need to tell you one thing. It's the thing I regretted the most when I thought you were dead. I hated that you went without knowing. I never told you before, but I need you to know now. I love you Jane'', she turned to look into the beautiful brown eyes that belong to the woman she was professing her love to. ''I have loved you for a very long time. I am in love with you to be precise. That's the first thing I promised myself I would tell you as soon as I saw you.''

''Do you love me even after all of this?'', Jane asked, fear evident in her voice.

''If somebody loves you, won't they always love you?''

''Yes they will'', Jane spoke through the lump in her throat.

Maura pulled Jane into an almost bruising hug. It was awkward because they were sitting on the bed but neither of them cared about such a petty issue. They stayed that way till Maura's stomach grumbled loudly. They both laughed and Jane pulled her up to take her to the kitchen for lunch.

''I haven't eaten anything since yesterday if I remember well''

''Oh my God Maura! Why didn't you say something,'' Jane looked horrified as ever and even faster began preparing some food for them. Angela had long since left the house knowing the two could do with as much privacy as possible.

''There wasn't much time for me to entertain an empty stomach, I think you'd agree''

''I'm sorry''

''Don't be''

When the turkey sandwiches were ready, Jane placed their two plates on the table with glasses of juice. They ate in an almost uncomfortable silence. The type where you want to speak but are not sure what to say, or if you should even be saying anything at all. Their relations hadn't been defined, which made it the more difficult.

''I need you to explain your outfit to me Maura. I have never seen you like this'', Jane exclaimed through a laugh after a long silence.

Maura just laughed back lightly.

''Seriously, where did you get those clothes from?''

''They are mine Jane. If you want to know so much, you can come back home with me''