A/N - I don't know how long this story will go, but I have one more chapter that follows this one in time specifically in mind. This is a little bit of how I picture the 200th episode in my head and a little of just an idea that popped in my head. If you love it, please leave a review. If you don't, I'm sorry but please review because your feedback/constructive criticism/suggestions for the next chapter is much appreciated!

April sat at her mirror, gazing at her reflection. She was just finishing curling her fiery hair, pulling it to one side and pinning it slightly back. As she applied her makeup she admired herself.

There were times when she wanted to hide herself behind her make up, but she had reached a point where she was eager to showcase her natural beauty. She pulled on the full length navy blue bridesmaid dress she was given to wear.

Catherine Avery had asked her to be her maid of honor for her wedding to Richard Webber. Richard had recovered well following his accident and was going to semi-retire to Boston with the elder Avery, still teaching some when his strength improved.

They decided to have the wedding in Seattle per Richard's request to have it where his Grey-Sloan family could attend. He didn't have children of his own so they were his only family. Catherine loved the idea

Catherine had asked both of her older daughters but neither was able to attend since the wedding was fairly short notice and they couldn't get away from the various surgeries they were committed to. April was flattered that Catherine considered her worthy of being her maid of honor.

She was hesitant at first to accept knowing how much time she'd be spending with Jackson since he was an obvious choice to be Richard's best man. She couldn't say no and she knew it. She just smiled and said she was thrilled and honored to do it.

"I'm a solider. I can do this," she thought to herself.

She and Jackson never fully resolved their issues but it just seemed easier to ignore it. April had a lot going on. She passed her boards and was weighing her offers. Case Western Reserve had given her an offer she was really struggling to turn down. She didn't want to turn her back on Hunt.

At the same time since her relationships with Matthew had ended she didn't have much holding her back and a fresh start might just be what she needed.

April was pacing around the pit fumbling with her ring in her hands. She had been hoping for some response from Jackson that would make her decision easy. Instead he told her what she needed to hear.

She needed to decide for herself and she knew what her decision would be. She didn't want to hurt Matthew so she wanted to avoid the inevitable.

"April," said a familiar voice.

"Matthew," she whispered when her gaze met his.

"I think we should talk," he said before she could say anything else. She just nodded and followed him to a nearby on-call room.

After he closed the door behind them, she sat down on the bed. "What is going on, April? Something is going on with you that you aren't telling me about? Did something happen between you and Jackson? Was he your-," he stopped himself before finishing the last question. He wasn't sure he wanted the answer

April nodded as tears formed in her eyes. She tried to compose herself before responding, "He was my first time. He and I got involved a year ago. We didn't want the same things, and it ended after a few months. I thought I had moved on. You are everything I could ever want and ever dream of. I want to love you, but-" she stopped as the tears began to flow.

"You love him," Matthew finished for her. The pain in his eyes was evident

"I do. I love him. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you," she slowly continued before holding the ring in her hand out to him. He took it in hand and ran his fingers over it.

"I know," he answered giving her a small smile, "He doesn't know how lucky he is and how jealous I am. Good bye, April." With that, he walked out, letting the door close behind him. Alone in the silence she took her face in her hands and began to cry.

She sat this way until the door creakind open and light flooding in caused her to look up to see the figure standing in the doorway.

"I'm sorry April. I didn't realize this one was taken," Meredith apologized. Just as Meredith turned to leave, she noticed April's tear stained cheeks. "April what happened? I saw Matthew walk out earlier. Did something happen between you guys?"

"We're not getting married anymore," April answered, "We're not together anymore."

"Why not? You were so happy when he proposed. You seemed like a perky match made in heaven," Meredith replied letting out a slight chuckle.

"I don't love him. I had been ignoring it, but when he saw my reaction to Jackson in the bus and after, I couldn't hide it from him anymore, or myself."

"I'm not that surprised. You and Jackson couldn't get enough of each other. I never really understood why everything stopped between you two. I think you need to talk to him, because clearly whatever is going on between you two didn't just go away. Besides, what makes the carnival rides good is who you go with," Meredith advised before she left the room.

Jackson fiddled with his tie for a few minutes before getting it right. He was so nervous. He knew he'd be seeing a lot of April and she'd be all dressed up. When he saw her in her scrubs he couldn't breathe. He didn't know how he'd get through tonight.

He pulled on his navy jacket and stared in the mirror. His hair was a little longer on his head and his stubble trimmed enough to please his mother who though any longer made him look like a bum. He rubbed his chin thinking about how much he liked it when April giggled when his stubble brushed her cheek.

He didn't have a date for this wedding, with him and Stephanie ending just the night before so he was going to have a fight ahead of him. Even with a date at Bailey's wedding he could barely handle it and against his better judgment ended up in the back seat with Stephanie. To make matters worse as far as he knew Matthew would probably be there with April. It was going to be a long night, he just knew it.

Jackson sat at the bar after the rehearsal dinner was over. He just needed some space from various family members drilling him about his new job. He took a sip of his beer before he heard footsteps behind him. He looked over his shoulder to see the intern coming to join him. She gently touched his shoulder, inadvertently causing him to wince from his lingering injury.

"Oh, I'm sorry. How is it feeling?" Stephanie asked, genuinely concerned.

"It's fine," he mumbled, not really wanting to get into a conversation with her.

"Today was crazy," she continued, oblivious to his annoyance, "Yang had me running ragged on her post ops but I did get to scrub in on CABG which was worth it, even if it was only to observe."

"I can't do this," he said as she rambled.

"What?" she responded, somewhat in disbelief.

"Us. I can't do us anymore," he said bluntly.

"Where is this coming from? I thought everything was going better," she stared at him in confusion.

"I don't feel about you the way you feel about me," he answered.

"Is there someone else?" she responded pointedly.

"Maybe, I don't know" he said before taking the last drink of his beer.

"What kind of answer is that?" She retorted.

"You want an answer. Fine. It's April. I still have feelings for April. In fact I think have always have," he snapped at her, unintentionally.

"Ass," she hissed at him, before taking a swipe at his cheek. Not hard enough to even leave a mark just enough to make it sting. She walked right out, leaving him to stroke his cheek.

As Jackson ordered another drink, Alex took the seat next to him.

"Dude, what was that? Thanks to you my girlfriend is making your girlfriend feel better instead of going home with me. Thanks a lot!" the Peds surgeon interrogated him.

"Whatever. She's not my girlfriend anymore anyway" He responded taking a drink.

"Really? Why?" Alex asked gulping down his beer.

"I told Stephanie I still love April," Jackson muttered under his breath.

"Kepner? That was a mess. Why would want to go back there?" Alex asked curiously

"As much of a mess as we were, My life has sucked without her," an fairly inebriated Jackson answered, "I used to tell her everything and I haven't been completely honest with her in a long time."

"Well, now is probably not the best time. I should probably make sure you get home or Mama Avery will have my head," Alex replied taking Jackson's arm over his own shoulder and leading him out of the bar.

April found her way to the back of the aisle, where she was joined by Catherine and shortly after Jackson. She was surprised to see him there but then she realized he'd be giving his mother away.

"April you look stunning," Catherine beamed as she stood there in her silvery white gown. She was too old to wear white but she felt this still seemed like a bridal gown.

"Not as stunning as you Catherine," April responded with a big smile. Jackson couldn't help but just stare at the vision that April was. He loved everything about her from the freckles on her shoulders to the flecks of brown in her eyes. He was snapped from his thoughts by his mother's coax.

"Come on baby, it's our turn." Catherine pulled him by the arm, as April was well down the aisle. They followed behind her and he took his position next to Richard once they reached the front.

When the ceremony was over and they met in the middle of the aisle, he naturally offered her his arm. As she slipped her arm in, goose bumps formed on his neck causing his hair to stand up. Quietly they made their way up the aisle behind the happy couple, smiling for the camera.