Sorry for the cliffhanger :) here's the rest...

Then suddenly from behind him. "Her pride is daunting isn't it?"

Chakotay's sullen head whipped up and away from the door Kathryn had gone out of and found Shane behind him.

"Her loyalty unnerving." Chakotay felt a sickness squirm in his stomach as Shane stepped from the doors of the balcony and smiled.

"I've been aware of it for far too long. I suppose I owe my relationship with her to it." He walked inside calmly. Chakotay watched him smile again as his stomach lurched. He looked Chakotay in the eyes.

"Anyone that didn't know of it would never stand a week with her." His lips quirked up in a smile.

"But you already know that don't you? I dare say you know a great deal more about her than I." He paced over and set himself in one of the luxurious hotel seats. He ran his hand over its arm, appreciating its smoothness. Chakotay's panicked eyes followed him intently. Shane looked up to him and let out a sudden chuckle.

"Don't look so worried. I know what you thinking and you're right. I did hear you, I heard everything. Whether it's a good thing or not I haven't decided yet." He smiled again and Chakotay couldn't help but find the gesture creepy in the situation.

"You may know her better than I, but until tonight there was something I knew that you didn't." Chakotay frowned at him.

"I knew she felt something more than friendship for you." Chakotay winced. Shane looked away from him and patted the arm of the chair with his hand.

"I guess I thought tonight would be safe enough in that respect, even after I saw how much the news Tuvok brought tore her up." His eyes found Chakotay again and they were cold. Chakotay shivered unconsciously. "Au contraire, says you - it proved more dangerous than anyone had anticipated." He slapped the arms as he pushed himself from the seat.

"You still love her." He said matter of factly. "You find she loves you." He folded his arms and Chakotay sighed. "You say you love Sarah, whom, may I remind you, that you are married to. Kathryn denounces your vow to leave Sarah for her to go back to me." He exhaled heavily and regarded Chakotay quietly for several seconds. "Now there's an eventful night if ever I heard one. But how will it end?" He quirked his eyebrow and theories of insanity passed through Chakotay's mind momentarily.

"You're rather quiet, Chakotay. No matter, I have heard your opinions I have no need of any further confusion." He waved his hand dismissively in the air between them. "You must be wondering how I feel right now. Well I love her for one. About as much as one can love a woman like Kathryn. Your little heart to heart with her does not change that, nor her admission of her love for you. That I already knew of. Her loyalty to our engagement is touching, I honestly didn't believe she would come out with that." He looked genuinely pleased by that thought as he paced in front of Chakotay while speaking.

"I can imagine how you feel." He stopped and smiled. "Then again, perhaps not. But I do know the feeling of losing Kathryn. It feels like like a whole part of you has been physically ripped away. Taking half your heart with it." Chakotay's eyes dropped to the floor.

"You should feel honoured that she loves you the way she does. I have strove to get the same love from her - and to her credit - she has tried to give it, but never succeeded." He paused and folded his arms again.

"I can't blame either of you for loving each other, but I can blame both of you for this mess." He took a step forward and Chakotay watched him closely.

"I love her but I won't settle for half of her. I told her that tonight, regardless of whether she heeded it or not it still stands. She wouldn't dream of telling me of all this so I'm thankful I overhead it." He walked right up to Chakotay.

"Maybe you should regret the fact that Sarah didn't." He walked on past Chakotay and reached for the door, much as Kathryn had not so long ago.

"I'm sorry." The sound of Chakotay's voice sounded alien even to himself as he finally spoke. Shane didn't turn in anyway.

"I know." He walked on out and the door closed of its own accord.

"Will you do something for me?" Kathryn whirled around from her drink at the bar to see Sarah standing before her. Against her rational thoughts she nodded. A relief seemed to radiate from Sarah's body.

"I want access to his logs from Voyager." She said and Kathryn raised an eyebrow.

"I know it's not exactly official or anything, but I am his wife and it just might save our marriage. You are the only one who can get the logs without any illegal activities." Kathryn was uneasy with the request.

"You say there is nothing between you, he has said the same. Even if I believed you I still need this. Will you do it for me?" She didn't hold back the pleading tone of her voice.

"When do you want them?" Kathryn asked and Sarah sighed with relief, tension seeping from her body.

"Now."

"Now?" Kathryn yelped. She nodded in response. Kathryn gulped. Firstly this wasn't right, she had no business giving anyone access to Chakotay's personal logs, his wife or not. He might never forgive her for it.

She stared at Sarah for a moment, deciding what she would do. Perhaps it would save their marriage, for it didn't look too hot at the minute and… she was the cause of its sudden demise. If there was a chance, she had to do it.

"Get me a computer." Sarah reacted instantly and went in seek of one. Once she found one and they were sequestered in a private room, Kathryn did a little hacking and accessed Voyagers computer. It was a weak link but her command codes would get her what she wanted. The maintenance being performed would mean no one would be alerted as to what she was doing.

"It will take you forever to read them all." She warned as Sarah became slowly engrossed in the writing on the screen.

"Don't worry, I plan on narrowing down my reading subject." Kathryn raised her eyebrow but didn't question any further. Quietly she left the room throwing a concerned glance over her shoulder.

Sarah pulled her eyes from the screen as she heard Kathryn leave.

"Computer, locate all logs that contain a personal reference to Kathryn Janeway." She swallowed with apprehension as the computer beeped in response and the number of logs decreased somewhat.

"One thousand and twenty one logs found." The computer replied. Sarah sighed.

"Display." She ordered in a tired voice.

She leaned back in the seat and stared at the screen. Her eyes drifted to the door. It was closed and she was alone. An idea flitted through her mind. Her eyes shifted as she weighed her conscious with a need to know. The need to read the logs was overwhelming. She had Chakotay's but she wanted more.

"Computer " She paused as the computer awaited her command. A small smile appeared on her face.

"Access the personal logs of Kathryn Janeway."

"Access denied. Security code needed." She smiled wider.

"Janeway alpha three, pie eleven." The computer beeped in response and the requested logs flickered on her screen.

She bent forward and began to read.