Leigh watched Sebastian's face change from shock to pure anger in the blink of an eye. He backed away from her and Meghan. Her daughter squirmed in her arms and began to cry. Strong emotions always made her upset, at least if they were not kind. Hate, anger, and evil thoughts affected her more than any other. Pash had told her it was due to her soul. She was purity personified. Leigh passed the little girl off to Hope and stepped forward toward Sebastian. She had to explain, she had to try to make him understand why she did not tell him. She saw him flinch when she reached for him before he started yelling.

"Get away from me!"

"Sebastian please, let me explain."

"I will hear nothing from you demon. You think showing me this would make me give in?" Leigh gave him a confused look.

"Sebastian I am no demon."

"Liar! You are just like the one who helped Lady Harimann. I will not listen to your kind again." Pash appeared beside her and placed a gentle hand on Leigh's shoulder.

"He thinks you are Allure or a demon like her."

"Wonderful. How to I make him believe it is me?"

"I don't know if you can. Not here at least and it is too dangerous to take your family out of Ferelden to prove it to him. If the Chantry finds you they will kill you and your daughter."

"Maker, what a mess..." She saw Sebastian watching them. His eyes flitted back and forth between the spirits and Leigh. Having never truly been awake in his dreams he was afraid. Meghan twisted herself out of Hope's embrace and ran to him. Her hand glowing white. Leigh know what kind of magic it was. A calming spell to stop his anger, but Sebastian glared at the girl stopping her in her tracks. He took a step forward, but Leigh got to her first seeing Sebastian raise his hands to defend himself. "Stop! She's just a child. You want to fight someone you fight me."

"So be it." He rushed at her. Leigh was able to push Meghan out of the way and take the full force of the blow. She was just thankful he had no weapons, just his fists. It hurt, but it wouldn't kill her, at least not yet. She was so busy ducking his punches that she did not see Meghan run out of the dream. Pash turned to Hope and nodded, The spirit sprinted after the child leaving Pash to watch her friend fight a battle she did not know if she could win.

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Anders and Justice had learned from Leigh and Pash how to be separate in the Fade. Both man and spirit walked next to each other looking for their loved ones in the vast piece of the Fade Leigh had claimed for their own. She had made it look more like Lothering than the strange emptiness the Fade normally had.

"Where could they be?"

"I am not sure Anders." The soft sound of sobs got both their attention and they took off running. Anders saw Hope rocking Meghan in her arms trying to sooth her. "Sister what happened?" Hope looked up and smiled sadly at Justice.

"Meghan wanted to see her mother and broke from my sight. She found her talking to the Prince of Starkhaven. It did not go well."

"Where is she?"

"She is in his dream over there in the mist Justice. Compassion is with her, but..."

"But what?"

"The prince thinks she is a demon and is fighting her." Meghan let out a wail and reached for her father. Anders was torn, he wanted to stay and comfort his daughter, but he also wanted to go defend Leigh.

"I will go and make sure Hawke is safe Anders. Stay with your daughter." Before he could speak Justice was gone.

"He will make sure Hawke is alright."

"I know." he cradled Meghan to him and sat down. His fingers smoothed out her hair and he hummed her favorite lullaby. "It will be alright sweetheart."

"He was mad."

"I know, but it was not at you. You did nothing wrong."

"Why was he mad?"

"He doesn't understand the difference between spirit and demon. Most people can't."

"We can."

"Yes we can. We are lucky to have spirits as friends. The Fade will never be lonely for us." Hope sat next to them and smiled at Meghan.

"You will always have us little one. You are precious to us, just as your parents are."

"See, you will always have friends here."

"Just like Dun."

"Yes, just like Duncan is your friend in the waking world. That man that called you a demon...he can't see what we do Meghan. He can not see the beautiful light that surrounds you. If he could he never would have called you that."

"He said I was his." Anders winced and closed his eyes. He opened them again when he felt small hands touch his face. Blue eyes searched his amber ones and he sighed.

"Your his daughter."

"No I'm yours."

"In my heart you are mine, but..."

"Your my Da. No one else." Anders opened his mouth to speak, but Meghan put her hand over his lips. "No Da I am yours." The hard look she gave him made him laugh. She looked so like her mother at that moment.

"Always sweetheart."

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"You've gotten soft Sebastian." Leigh easily sidestepped his fists and heard him growl.

"I will rip you apart demon!"

"If I were a demon I would not be playing with you like this Sebastian. I would beat you into submission."

"You would be trying to trick me."

"Think what ever you want." Leigh stepped in and gave him a good right cross knocking Sebastian to the ground. "I could kill you with a thought if I so choose. I could control you so easily, but that is not what I want to do. I wanted to talk to you...try to explain why I didn't tell you about Meghan. Please stop fighting me and let's talk."

"No."

"Andraste's Knicker Weasels your such a stubborn ass Sebastian."

"What?"

"It is something Anders says when he is frustrated. It has rubbed off on me." Sebastian thought back and could not remember the mage ever saying that at least in his presence.

"You could be just making that up. Or read my mind for something obscure to snare me with. "

"Why bother, as far as I can see there is nothing but hot air and Chanty bullshit floating in it." He stayed on the ground. The hard look she was giving him he had only seen a few times. The last was when he told her to kill Anders for what he had done. The look make him shiver. Something in him told him this was Hawke and not a demon. The same something told him that girl was his. He sighed and his expression changed to one of defeat. Tired and aggravated Leigh flopped down on the ground a bit away from him and shook her head. "Do you believe me now?"

"I...don't know."

"How can I convince you?"

"I don't think you can."

"No I don't think I can either." Leigh looked over to Pash and the spirit just gave her a sad smile.

"Leigh you can not make him believe. He has never walked the Fade like you have."

"Like you have? Hawke what does she mean?" Leigh lifted her hand and let a small flame flicker to life.

"There are a lot of things you never knew about me. And you wondered why I supported the mages ever chance I got."

"You're not a mage...your a rogue."

"I am both. I had to hide...this from everyone."

"Why?"

"You know why. Meredith would have had me thrown in the Gallows faster than you can say apostate."

"You did not trust me?"

"I couldn't trust anyone. Anders found out by accident as did the others along the way. Fenris didn't find out till after you stormed away."

"Is this the reason you are the leader of the mage rebellion?"

"Yes, but I would have done it even if I wasn't a mage. After what Meredith did...I couldn't let it continue anymore."

"The Divine wants you dead."

"And I want her dead...but not for the reason you think. She is possessed." Sebastian stared into Leigh's eyes. There was no hint of lies in them, but he still wasn't sure any of this was real. "I know you don't believe me, but hopefully one day you will. I...need to leave..."

"Why?"

"I need to find my daughter. She was upset when she left. She can't take strong emotions. Hate and anger being the worst for her."

"I..."

"You didn't know and it is my fault for never telling you about her."

"Wait, when you were last here you said you were carrying twins is the other mine also?"

"No, her brother is Anders, blonde hair, amber eyes and all. I don't know why the Maker wanted me to have...she is very special Sebastian."

"And Anders...?"

"Loves her dearly. He has taken it upon himself to train her, protect her." Another flash of anger panged through him. Sebastian grit his teeth and growled at her

"It should be me, not him."

"I know, but you can't understand what it is to be a mage, but we do. She needs to be kept safe until she can defend herself against Templar and demons alike."

"So I will never know her." Leigh felt her heart break seeing the pain she was causing him. It was not fair and she knew it, but she could see no other way to protect her children.

"I wouldn't say that." Both rogues jumped at the sound of Anders' voice. Leigh looked over and saw Justice had joined Pash she just did not know when. Her focus had been so intense on Sebastian she let her guard down to her surroundings. "Meghan wanted to come back and make sure you both weren't hurt." Sebastian jumped to his feet and narrowed his eyes at the blonde man. He opened his mouth to speak, but the small bell like voice stopped him.

"Don't fight." Seeing her head laying on Anders shoulder and her little fingers grasping at his shirt made Sebastian ache inside. He could see that his daughter loved Anders. He was her father in everything but blood.

"We won't sweetheart. Right?"

"Yes." Meghan wriggled out of Anders arms and ran to her mother making sure she was okay.

"Mummy..."

"I'm fine little one. He and I were just discussing something."

"He called you a demon..."

"He did not mean it." Meghan nodded and turned back to Sebastian. She stepped a bit closer, but kept her distance.

"Princes aren't suppose to be mean. You were mean."

"I was upset and I said things I did not mean. I am truly sorry Meghan." She gave him a small smile and went to play with Pash and Justice. "She isn't afraid of them?"

"No they're her friends and guardians here. Justice you know..."

"That is the spirit that was in Anders?"

"Still in thank you, but here we are separate."

"Hawke...what I am to make of all of this? I don't understand."

"I know and I wish I could help you understand it, but I can't. I have to protect my children, my fellow mages and my country. I can't...I can't tell you everything. It is too dangerous, for us, for you. The Divine is scared and she is trying everything she can to get to me and end me. She'll even try to use you if she can."

"I won't let that happen. Starkhaven is staying out of this war."

"I hope so. I don't wish this on anyone." The sound of Meghan laughing made the three adults turn around. The sight that greeted them was one none of them ever thought they would see. Justice was spinning Meghan around and the little girl was shrieking in delight. Even Justice was grinning from ear to ear at the bell like laughter coming from the girl. Pash walked over to the three and shook her head smiling.

"I never thought I would ever see him like this again."

"He has changed a lot since Kirkwall. He is much more human." Leigh patted her husband's arm.

"I think Anders has been rubbing off on him." Even Sebastian let out a laugh seeing the spirit playing with his daughter. His eyes met Leigh's and he sighed.

"I can never be part of her life can I?"

"I don't see a way right now Sebastian. It is too dangerous to take her out of Ferelden. I..." Anders stared at the ground rubbing his chin, thinking.

"There might be a way, but we would all have to agree to it."

"How love?"

"He sees her here in the Fade. She can get to know him and start to understand everything. The only problem is if you are not around getting him here. I don't have your powers of entering others dreams Leigh. It could take me forever to find him." Sebastian quirked his head to the side and raised a eyebrow at Leigh.

"You can enter others dreams?"

"I can, but it is not something I like to do. I am what is known as a dreamer, a mage that can control the Fade and those in it."

"Maker...just like that boy, the half Dalish."

"Yes, see why I hid it."

"I do." His eyes fell back on Meghan who was now playing with Hope making different spells in her tiny hands. Before he realizes it his feet had carried him over to her and he knelt down beside them. Leigh and Anders followed and took their places next to him.

"Meghan sweetie, would you like to have Sebastian come back and see you again?"

"Yes, but he has to be nice." Sebastian held up his hand over his heart and made his face serious.

"I swear Meghan I will behave myself from now on."

"Good." She went back to her play with Hope for a moment then turned to him giggling. "Can you do this?" She cupped her hand and made a small ball of light. It rose off her palm and floated around him.

"No, I'm afraid I do not have magic like you and your mother."

"What can you do?"

"Sebastian is and archer Meghan."

"Archer?"

"He uses a bow and arrows like your Uncle Nate."

"I want to do that too."

"Perhaps I can teach you when I come back to see you."

"Mummy can I?"

"I don't see why not. It is good to learn a different skill." Meghan squealed in excitement and hugged her mother's leg before running off to play again. "She hasn't been that excited in a long time."

"She seems very happy."

"She is such a bright light Sebastian. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body. She sees the world with such wonder it is humbling. Elthina said she is a lot like you in many ways."

"She knows?"

"Yes, she does."

"Maker, she must be so disappointed in me."

"She's not. Trust me she's not. If anything she was happy. Meghan loves sitting with her when she reads the Chant." Sebastian smiled picturing his daughter sitting next to the Grand Cleric listening intently like he had done years ago. He felt a small hand touch his and he looked down. Meghan began pulling him away from her mother.

"I want to show you something." He nodded and followed the girl. Anders slipped next to his wife and wrapped his arms around her.

"Well this went better than I ever expected."

"I...Maker, it is like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders."

"After seeing her I think he understands Leigh."

"I have agonized over how to tell him for three years."

"I know love. I have spent those years worrying he would take her away from us if he ever found out, but now...now I don't think he will."

"I wish he could see her. I mean really see her in the flesh. I want so much for this war to be over."

"It will be Leigh, it is just going to take time to..."

"I know and this is what I was born to do right?"

"No, you were born to live, this was something I know you did not want. We will end this Leigh and I will be by your side through out all of it."

"You have no idea how happy that makes me. The thought of winning this and you not being there to see it..."

"That still might happen, but it won't be because of the Blight."

"Pash and I will have to think of a way to bring him here when I am not able to."

"I am sure you both will figure it out. You figured out how to make Justice and I separate here, it should not be too hard."

"Difference is your a mage and use to all this. It is easier when the person has mana in their blood."

"We'll figure it out." They watched Meghan play with her father long into the dawn. When Sebastian began to fade Leigh knew that he was waking. She held him there long enough to converse about their next meeting here in the Fade. It would be the beginning of many visits to the Fade for the prince. He did not know who to tell Kali about all this, but he knew he had to before they could share their life together. He wanted no secrets between them.

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Kali shook him violently trying to wake him up. Her father stood behind her trying to clam her down. She had come into Sebastian's room over an hour ago and could not wake the man she loves. Fenris and Isabela came looking for them when they did not show up to the meeting place. The elf could feel the magic holding the prince, but kept silent.

"He won't wake." Colm tried to comfort his daughter, but she shook him off. "Why won't he wake?"

"Something in the Fade is holding him there."

"A demon?"

"Most likely. The Veil is thin here."

"We have to do something..." Kali let out a mournful sob and laid her head on Sebastian's chest. Colm let out a gasp when he saw the prince's hand move to touch his daughter and had to be restrained by Fenris. The elf pulled him back and whispered in his ear.

"He's not possessed." Colm looked at Fenris like he was mad. "Look." Sebastian's eyes fluttered open right when his hand landed on Kali's back. He heard her sobbing and tried to sit up.

"Kali? What's wrong?"

"Sebastian..."

"Why are you crying?" He sat up straight and a dreadful thought hit him. "Is Colm alright?"

"I am fine Sebastian. She was worried about you. We have been trying to wake you for over an hour now."

"I...I was talking to a friend." Colm raised an eyebrow and pulled his daughter up away from Sebastian. "It wasn't a demon Colm, it was a mage."

"Most people are not awake enough to talk to another person in the Fade. Unless you are a mage yourself, it was a demon infecting your dream."

"No, Hawke is no demon."

"Hawke talked to you in the Fade?"

"Yes Isabela. She had that boy help her enter my dreams. Asha was able to get word to her about Colm and other things. She wanted to talk to me."

"Why?"

"That...I would rather not say just yet. I need to talk to Kali privately first."

"Over my dead body. You could be controlled by a demon...I will not leave her in here with you alone."

"Fine. Could you two give us a few minutes?"

"Sure, We will be back in two hours I have to go get other cargo for our journey." Sebastian nodded and waited til both Isabela and Fenris were gone. Inside he already knew that they had seen Meghan and knew she was his, but he did not need them adding to the conversation. Kali took his hands and stared at him with a mix of fear and love in her eyes. He gave her a weak smile and sighed.

"I have something to tell you and I want it to come from me before...before you choose to spend your life with me."

"You can tell me anything you know that." He nodded and laid out everything. He told her about his love for Leigh and what happened between them. It killed him to see the hurt on her face, but she said nothing and her hands stayed in his. He told her about why he did not wake and she tightened her grip on his hands.

"So you have a child?"

"Yes."

"And Hawke never told you?"

"No, but I understand why. I threatened to kill her and Anders. She was protecting her family."

"It still does not give her the right to keep you from your daughter! How can she be so cruel?"

"She wasn't being cruel. She was afraid I would take Meghan away from her. Give her to the Chantry because the child is a mage."

"How can they know she is a mage. Our magic does not manifest itself til we are almost adolescence."

"She is a Somniari Colm, a dreamer...just like her mother."

"Impossible...dreamers are myths."

"Rare, but not myths. I met one in my adventures with Hawke. The boy was powerful."

"You said Hawke is also a dreamer?"

"Yes."

"Maker then what I overheard in the Tower was true."

"What did you hear Da?"

"Your mother said she had a dream about a woman that would set us all free. She would be the strongest mage to be born in over a millennium. I thought it was wishful thinking, but if...if this Hawke is she then...Maker we have a chance. Things could really change."

"That is her hope Colm. She is fighting so that no one will have to go through what you and Kali had to endure. Children will not be ripped from their parents' arms anymore by the Chantry. I know why you are angry Kali for her hiding Meghan from me. I know how you feel about what the Chantry did to you, to your parents. Hawke is not like that. She wanted to tell me, wanted me to be a part of Meghan's life."

"So where does that leave us Sebastian?"

"What do you mean?"

"You have a child with a woman you love, why would you need me?"

"I did love her, but she did not love me back in the same way. She has a husband and I have you. I love you more than I ever thought possible. I don't want to be with Hawke, Kali. I want you in my life, but I could not go through with marrying you without you knowing the truth. I did not want you to find out one day and hate me for not telling you. I want you to know everything. It is the only way we can..." Kali smiled and wrapped her arms around his waist.

"Truly trust one another. I do trust you. You are risking so much to get my father out of here. I know you love me Sebastian. I was just worried you would run off and..."

"No, never. I want to see my daughter in the flesh, but I will never leave you behind to do so. If we try to go to her now the Divine might think we are aiding Ferelden and march on Starkhaven. I have to bide my time."

"But you do want to see her?"

"Yes, I do. I thought...I never thought of having children til I met you Kali. I...did not want this, but I will not turn my back on my child."

"I wouldn't want you to. We will face this...together."

"You are a wonder Kali. The Maker blessed me when you came into my life."

Not really sure how I feel about this chapter. I have been on the fence with it for over a week now and if I don't call it done I will go insane. As always I want to thank all of you that are reading and reviewing. I also want to apologize for not updating as often as I use to. Life is crazy right now. All your support keeps me going.

Raven