CHAPTER 5: It's too early
Sue Ellen was walking in the hallway of the ER, hand by hand with JR. She was so scared, all the bad things came up in her mind.
*First, JR and his cancer, now, the explosion. Nothing could be worst* she thought.
Sue Ellen saw John Ross and Christopher in the hallway. She reached them as fast as she could.
'John Ross!' she said out loud and she hugged him. JR reached them and she put his hand on Christopher's shoulder. Sue Ellen smiled to herself, she was happy that after all, he cares about his nephew.
'What happened?' he asked to him.
'There's been an explosion. We were all on the rig, fortunately we're all alive' Christopher responded to him. 'But Pamela is the worst' John Ross said, with a worried tone. Sue Ellen hold John Ross' hand.
'Don't worry, son. She's gonna be fine' she said to him. 'Where are Bobby and Ann?' she asked. She was worried, Christopher told her that they were all alive but she needed to see Ann and Bobby with her eyes.
'Uncle Bobby was looking for Ann because no one didn't tell him where she was. I don't know where they are!' John Ross responded to her.
She turned to Christopher, she saw fear in his eyes. He was to worried about Pamela and Elena, but as soon she mentioned his stepmother, he was worried too! No one would ever be able to replace his adoptive mother, Pamelam and Ann knew it, but she cared about him and he cared about his stepmother as well.
'Go find her' JR said. She turned to him. 'Don't worry, darlin'. I'll stay with them' he said holding her hand. She smiled at him and she went to find her brother-in-law and her friend. She has not idea to how to find her, so when she saw a nurse she stopped her.
'Excuse me, do you know where is Ann Ewing?' she asked.
'Ann Ewing?! I'm sorry, I can't help you. I just arrived.' the nurse responded to her.
'Oh, okay. Thank you' Sue Ellen said.
She started to walk in the corridor. There were a lot of people in the ER, most of them because of the explosion the rig. *What the hell happened on that damn rig?!* she thought.
She watched in all the rooms, when she finally reached the room where Ann and Bobby hugging themselves. They were fine. *Thank God* she thought. She walked in.
'Ann? Bobby?' she said, with a happy tone. They both turned to her and smiled to her. 'John Ross told me about the explosion. I came as soon as I could. How are you?' she asked.
'We're fine, Sue Ellen' Bobby responded to her, kissing her cheek. 'Have you seen Christopher?' he asked, while she was hugging Ann.
'I just left him, JR and John Ross in front of Pamela's room. They are all fine, but Pamela and babies are in critical conditions' she said.
'Poor Pamela' Ann said, with a sad and worried tone. 'Bobby, do they know what happened on the rig?' she asked to Bobby.
'I don't think so, Annie. It's too early, but we'll find it out' he replied, caressing her face. 'Sue Ellen, do you mind stay here with Ann for a while? I have to see how are Christopher and the other people!' Bobby continued.
'Sure. I'll stay with her' she replied to him.
'Thank you' he said, smiling at her. Bobby give a sweet kiss to Ann and he left.
Sue Ellen sat next to her friend and she hold her hand. Ann smiled to her and she smiled her back.
'What happen?' Ann asked to her.
'What?' Sue Ellen said with a surprised tone.
'Something is wrong, I got a concussion but I know you' she said. Sue Ellen sighed. 'Sue Ellen you know that you can tell me everything. What's the matter?'.
She turned to her dear friend. She wanted to tell her about JR's cancer and the good news that Dr. Sanders told them about the surgery, but she couldn't. She didn't know if JR wanted to tell them about the cancer or if he wanted to wait after the surgery. She needed to talk about it with Ann, she really did, but the last thing she wanted was to upset JR, especially now that he accepted to do the surgery.
'I'm just worried about all of you' were the only words that came out of her mouth.
The next day.
JR and Sue Ellen were sitting in the Southfork living room with Ann, Bobby and Emma, waiting for some news from the hospital. The doctors had resigned all his family except for Pamela because of her babies' conditions. After the conversation that Sue Ellen had with Ken Richards the previously evening, they found out that there were two explosives on the rig and that it wasn't a problem of Christopher's technology.
*It must be Cliff Barnes. He just blowed up the Ewing rig. But with his daughter on it? What the hell?!* JR thought. *That man is a bastard!*.
Ann just prepared some tea. She was placing some cups on the little table when the main door closed. All of them turned to it. It was John Ross.
'Darlin', what happened?' Sue Ellen asked to his son. John Ross looked shocked and devastated. Something was wrong.
'Pamela's babies are dead. The doctors couldn't do anything to save them' John Ross responded to her.
'What? No!' Ann said, shocked.
Sue Ellen stood up immediately and she went to hug her son. 'Pamela is fine, physically but she's devastated. I'm sorry uncle Bobby' John Ross continued.
'Thanks, John Ross' Bobby said with a quite tone. 'Where's Christopher?' he asked.
'I don't know. He left the ER few hours ago' John Ross replied.
JR stood up and he put his hand on John Ross' shoulder. 'I'm sorry, son' He said.
'Kick your hand off of me' John Ross responded to him.
'John Ross?!' Bobby said with a shocked tone.
'No, uncle Bobby' he responded to him. 'Where were you yesterday? You were somewhere happily together, in love, while someone blew us up on that damn rig?!' he asked with an angry tone.
'John Ross, not now. You're shocked for what happened to Pamela. And this is not the right moment' Sue Ellen said, putting herself between him and his son. JR didn't know what to say to him.
'Bullshit!' John Ross screamed. 'We all almost died on that damn rig and you where hand by hand in the middle of nowhere' he continued.
'John Ross..' he started. 'Your mother and I were..' Sue Ellen turned to him '..to meet Dr. Sanders because I've..' JR had to take a breath 'I have cancer, son'. All the people in that room were speechless, no one said anything. 'None of you should have known about this, but Sue Ellen found it out and she convinced me to fight it' JR continued, he felt the glace of everybody on himself.
'What?' John Ross asked.
'He didn't want to tell about it to anyone, even to me, but I found it out and I persuaded him to do the surgery' Sue Ellen anticipated JR. 'We didn't come to Christopher's presentation because I was try to save your father's life, son' she said, holding JR's hand. He was happy that she said it.
'And why you didn't tell me anything? Damn it, I'm your son' John Ross replied.
'Because you know me. All of you do' JR responded to him, watching his family. Something was wrong inside of him but he just took a deep breath. 'I detest pity and I didn't want to do the surgery, I just wanted to..' he continued but before he could finished the phrase he felt a chest pain. He left Sue Ellen's hand and he fell at the ground.
'Ann, call 911' Bobby screamed.
JR opened his eyes and he saw that all reached him. His chest was still hurting. He turned to Sue Ellen, she had tears in her beautiful brown eyes. He caressed her face, 'I'm sorry. I love you' he whispered to her.
His hand fell at the ground near to Sue Ellen.
'No! JR!' Sue Ellen screamed.
All he could see was dark.
It was the end.
Sue Ellen was in the waiting room of Dallas Memorial with her family. They arrived at the hospital few hours ago but they haven't had the chance to talk to a doctor since JR was brought to the surgery. She was sit next to Ann and her friend never left her hand since the moment they sat. Sue Ellen was trying to fight back the tears. She was so scared for JR and to lose him, for good this time.
'Sue Ellen? Ann?' Bobby said. They both turned to him. 'Would you like a cup of coffee or anything?'.
'No, thank you sweetheart' Ann replied to him.
'Thanks Bobby, but I'm good' she tried to sound calm but she wasn't good at all.
'He'll be fine, Sue Ellen' Ann said, tighten her hand. She turned to her. 'He's strong, he's a Ewing. They don't give up so easily' she said, trying to put a smile on her face and she got it. Sue Ellen smiled at her. 'And he'd never lose a chance to be your man again' Ann continued.
'He has always been my man and he will always be' she replied to Ann. 'I can't imagine my life without him'. Sue Ellen burst into tears. Ann hugged her in a warm hug. She was the best friend and sister-in-law she ever had. Ann's hug helped Sue Ellen to calm down.
John Ross was sit in front of her, next to Emma. He stood up and he started to walk over the corridor. He punched the wall, cursing. Bobby started to get up to go to talk to him but Sue Ellen stopped him.
'No, Bobby. Thank you but I have to do it' she said, smiling at him. He smiled her back.
She stood up and she started walking over her son. She reached him and when he turned to her, she saw that he had tears in his eyes.
'It's taking too long. It's hours that we don't hear any news from him' he said. She noticed that he was trying to fight back the tears. 'What the hell is going on?' he asked, starting to raise his voice.
Sue Ellen took his face in her hand. 'Hey, hey, hey. Your father is strong. He's gonna be fine' she said, trying to calm him down. She actually wasn't sure about what she just told to him but it helped to calm herself down too.
'It was my fault' he said, with pain in her eyes.
'It wasn't. Don't even think that' she replied. Her heart broke hearing that he thought he caused it.
'It was, mama' he said, holding her hands. 'I was shocked about what happened to Pamela and I was furious with Cliff Barnes to have caused the explosion, so I yelled at him without reasons. It was my fault if he will die' he said, staring to cry. He turned his back to her. She couldn't believe in what he just told her.
Sue Ellen put her hand on his shoulder and she made him turned to her. She hugged him and he hugged her tighten. They both bursted into tears.
'It's not your fault, darlin' she whispered to him. 'I'm scared too' she confessed, still hugging him. 'I can't lose him'.
'Mama?' he said.
'What?' she responded.
'I don't know if I ever told you but, I love you' he said, hugging her more tighten.
'I love you too, darlin' she said, crying even more.
It was a long hug but with one gesture they both felt a little bit better.
'Sue Ellen? John Ross?' Ann said, behind them. They both turned to her and tried to wipe the tears. 'The doctors arrived' she said.
All of them started to walk over the waiting room. Sue Ellen wasn't sure if she wanted to know the truth but she need to how JR was.