AN: Pretty much all the vampires and a bit of the wolf-pack belong to SM.
I don't even own Trisha, Ethan, David, Taylor, or any of the other wolf kids, except Jesse. They belong to yay4shanghai. She's just letting me borrow them for a little while because she's cool like that!
Thank you to all of you who continue to read and review! You guys are awesome!
Very, very special thanks to yay4shanghai for being the most awesome beta on the face of the planet and to KupKakes09 because she rocks! Don't forget to show them some love! Also, check out She's A Boozer.
Stay tuned to "Once the Earth Settled" by yay4shanghai, as Trisha, Ethan, and David will be mentioned in the near future.
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Chapter 14: "The Best Laid Plans"
ETHAN'S POV
Exactly how did this happen? Less than forty-eight hours ago, I was basking in the orgasmic bliss that was my Trisha. Now, I'm trudging through the SeaTac Airport, at 5:45am, waiting for my flight to leave.
She cut me out. She pushed me away. And all I wanted now was to get the fuck out, to leave that godforsaken town, with its mythical creatures and legends that I had once been so proud of. The only thing that mattered to me in the entire world, didn't want me anymore. How was I supposed to deal with that? How was I supposed to see her everyday, moving on with her life, while I sulked miserably for the rest of my lousy existence? I wanted her to be happy, that's all I ever wanted, but I couldn't stand to see it if it meant her happiness was with David.
You know, maybe this was my fault to begin with. Maybe, when I found out she was David's imprint, I shouldn't have allowed myself to love her like I did. I had put this all on her and on my ex-best friend, never realizing that in actuality this all might have been avoided, had I really broke it off after the imprint. Then, I made it worse by coming back, by following her around and revealing myself in the library that day. I should have stayed away… I made this harder for my Ray than I needed to, than it should've been. Shit, I made it harder for myself, I had a taste of what things could be like with Trisha, and now I knew that's all I would ever get. Now my entire family were La Push pariahs and it was all my fault.
Not to mention what I had done to my ex-best friend. My irreplaceable best friend… She was his imprint. It wasn't like he could help it. David had always supported me. No matter what it was. We shared almost every coming of age moment together. He and Trisha were like extensions of my family. They completed me. If I had just let him have her, I would still have the two most important people in my life. I would have my two best friends. We would still be a family. And we would continue to be friends, and then our kids would be best friends, and nothing would've changed. But then I couldn't handle the thought of someone else loving Trisha, loving her like I had, like I would continue to.
I literally felt my life fall around me as she said those words. "I don't want you anymore." How could it all end just like that? After so many years? After so much love and life? After everything we had fought for?
I only had time to grab a few things: some money, passport, a few clothes. I said my goodbyes to Taylor, he supported me, he always did. I didn't deserve a brother like him. He knew I was wrong, that this whole thing was my fault. But he didn't throw it in my face, he just hugged me and asked me to take care of myself. He was my baby brother, but he was already a better man then I would ever be. I apologized and begged him to take care to the family, not to let anything happen to them. Not to stand for them taking the blame for me.
I left a note for Mom and only hoped she would forgive me for running off and leaving all of that behind me, for not being a better big brother and son.
Mom-
I'm going away for a little while.
Things with Trisha kind of went to shit.
I'm sorry I can't be the son you deserve.
I'm sorry I wasn't the brother I should have been.
Taylor will look after the girls.
Tell Dad I love him and always have.
I'm so sorry for all the pain and embarrassment I've caused our family.
Maybe, one day, I'll come back.
I'll write.
Love you so much.
Your son,
Ethan
I had no idea where I wanted to go, where fate would lead me. So I went to the airport, looked at the list of available flights, and paid double what a ticket online would have cost, to leave this piece of shit life behind ASAP. To leave my livelihood, to let her choose him, like I knew she wanted to, like she should have in the first place.
"Delta Flight 2422 with service to Dallas/Fort Worth, now boarding at Gate E11." Dallas was not the ultimate destination. My goal was much farther south. From Dallas, it was on to South America. I knew absolutely nothing about South America but I spoke enough Spanish to get by and it was far. It was far enough away to ease the heart ache, to make it easier to say goodbye. In South America, I could mourn my losses— the loss of my love and the loss of my best friend, both of whom I wasn't sure I had given that much of a fair chance anyway.
TRISHA'S POV
Cutting him off shouldn't have felt this way. It was supposed to be easy, I was letting Ethan go on to live his life. It wasn't though. My feeling of things returning to normal, of letting him move on and find his own imprint and life, were supposed to be good. That was the plan, make him believe that I didn't want him anymore… but you know what they say, "the best laid plans of mice and men often go awry."
Exactly two minutes after Ethan walked out of our loveshack, I realized I had made the biggest mistake of my life. How could I just let my beautiful love, my other half, go? How could I listen to anything or anyone but my heart.
I ran out of the garage into the night, screaming his name, "Ethan! Ethan! Come back!"
Surely that super wolf-hearing would come in useful at some point and couldn't that point be now? Of course not…
"Ethan! I've made a mistake! Please, come back, PLEEASE!" Tears came fast. Where was he?
"I was just kidding! I want you! I've always wanted you!" Still nothing.
He had to answer me! Had to!
"Ethan! Please! I will die without you! Please come back to me!" I was screaming, sobbing, falling on my knees.
Then it hit me. What if this was what he wanted? What if I was being selfish again? Maybe he needed me to release him and let him find his imprint. But surely he hadn't fallen out of love with me that quickly? This couldn't be happening…how had I been so stupid to think I was worth it? I was worth all the trouble. I gave him what he needed: the strength to say good-bye to me and leave me with his best friend to take care of.
"Please don't leave me!" My sobs were harder now and I gasped for air to breathe. I felt my stomach churn as the realization that Ethan was gone and I was going to be alone forever sat in. One more breath and I heaved the contents of my stomachs onto the grass.
I took a deep breath and the sobs returned. I had done it now. He was gone. I was alone.
I started crawling, feeling the weight of the mistake in every bone of my body, wanting nothing more than to curl up and die, to slowly fall into the darkness that I could feel surrounding me. If I was lucky, no one would find me and I would just fade away. I was a complete and utter fucking, cold hearted, pain-in-the-ass bitch and I deserved everything I was getting. No one deserved to be stuck with me.
I kept crawling, back into the garage, feeling my stomach churn again. I dry-heaved, nothing left to come out.
"What've I done?!" I was hoping Ethan would hear me.
I climbed onto the cursed van seat, thinking I might drown in my tears.
He'll come back. He has to, he has to know how much I love him. I thought to myself.
All I could do was hope…hope he knew I knew this was a mistake…hope he would return to me and not hate me…hope he knew how very much he meant to me…hope…
*NEXT CHAPTER: "¿Donde Esta Ethan?" ************************************************************************
Another AN: I promise I will have this story updated again by Tuesday.