So I kind of feel like writing so I'm going to. I don't how good it's going to be but hope you like it.

I do not own Twilight I do own Meagan but not Louis cause he is this guy I knew in high school and the biggest crush on so sadly I don't own him and never did.

BPOV

What the hell is wrong with me? I mean the guy I love doesn't love me he just wants be my friend, and the guy I just want to be friends with wants to be more than that. This is like a soap opera, I'm half expecting to get a call from Edward saying that he is having sex with my long lost twin sister that I never met. This made me laugh I mean that stuff doesn't actually happen in real life. Right as I had this thought my phone started ringing. Edward, oh my god, I just jinxed myself with that last thought now he is calling to tell me that! I took a deep breath before answering.

"Hello"

"Hey Bella whats up?" Edward asked.

"Oh nothing I just left La push" I said.

"Oh" Was all he said.

"So whats up with you?" I asked.

"I just wanted to know if you wanted to come over to Alice's and hangout?"

"Sure I'll be there in like half an hour" I said and then hung up.

I headed over to Alice's. When I got there I just walked in, I've always just walked in her house but nowadays I only do it when she knows I'm coming over. I looked around everyone was there except Louis and Meagan. I know why Meagan isn't here, she hates me and doesn't want to see Edward right now. But I didn't understand why Louis wasn't here, he was always up for movie night, that's weird.

"Hey guys." I said sitting down on the couch next to Emmett.

"Hey Bells." He said pulling me into one of his bear hugs.

"Em....can't...breathe"I managed to get out as I tried to breathe.

He didn't let me go he just loosened his arms around me, something was wrong.

"Umm Em how come your still hugging me?" I sounded as confused as I felt.

"Well I want be your shoulder to cry on." He said matter of factly. Ok I know Emmett isn't the brightest crayon in the box but he can usually tell the difference between someone cry and someone not crying. Maybe he is losing it.

"Em I think your losing it. I'm not crying." I said laughing a little bit.

"No but you will be soon." Alice said looking at me with sad eyes.

I looked around to everyone else and they all had the same sad expression as Alice. I was starting to freak out.

"Ok guys I'm freaking out here will someone tell me what's going on?" I was so not int the mood for this right now.

Edward came over and took me in his arms making Emmett let go. "Bella it's your parents" he said will hugging me tighter.

"Seriously what are talking about. I just saw Charlie like an hour ago and my mom is fine why is eveyone looking at me like someone died. Please tell me what's going on I really can't take this right now." I almost screamed the last part. A part of me knew what they were saying but didn't want to admit that it could be true so my brain was playing dumb.

"Bella Charlie and Renee are dead." He said running his hands through my hair.

"Seriously guys how could both of my parents die in one night and they aren't together what are the odds." I cursed myself as soon as I said this, because I remembered Charlie telling me that he was going to my moms after dinner to fix her sink. Could this be true could they seriously be dead. I started sobbing as realization dawned on me. I looked at there faces and could tell that this wasn't a sick joke that they were trying to play on me. I sobbed into Edward chest as they explained what happened.

Apparently someone was trying to rob us so he broke in and shot my mom. He was still raiding the house as Charlie pulled up so he hid. My dad showed up and got worried when she didn't answer so he foung our spare key and walked in the house. He was shot as soon as he walked in the door. I couldn't understand why someone would do this.

Why was this happening to me. I don't know how long I cried into Edward's chest but I figure it was a good three hours before I started dry sobbing because there were no more tears left. Edward just sat there the whole time holding me while I sobbed. Wispering in my ear that it was going to be ok and he would help me through this. Everyone else was asleep around me. They had all fallen asleep with one hand on me. Under different circumstances it would have been funny to see they way they were all positioned around me. But I had a feeling I wouldn't be laughing for awhile. I fell asleep at about two in the morning still in Edward's arms.

I woke up by myself on the couch. I looked at the clock it was nine in the morning. I could here the others talking in the kitchen and I wasn't ready to get up yet so I just layed there and listened to them.

"I don't know what to do." Alice said.

"We just have to be here for her. I imagine she will us to help with funeral arragements and things like that." I heard Rose say to them.

"We should probably take care of everything for her." Edward sounded like he was had been crying. Of coarse he was really close to my mom.

"We should also stay with her until she is ready to be in the house alone." Emmett said.

I heard a loud sob come from the kitchen then Jasper wispering something to Alice. I knew this was hurting everyone almost as much as it hurt me. My mom was like a second mom to Rose, Alice and Meagan. We all grew up like sisters and treated everyone else's parents like our own.

A sob escaped my lips as I thought of this and Edward ran back in the room. His eyes were red and puffy, I imagin that's exactly what my face looked like. He scooped me up and sat me on his lap as I started to cry again. My phone started ringing and Edward answered it.

"Hello" he said. I could here the person on the other line but couldn't make out what they were saying.

"Jacob I really don't think she wants to talk right now" he said into the phone. Jacob mumbled something else and then Edward hung up.

"He said he is sorry for your parents and to let you know that he is here for you no matter what. Also that he is sorry about last night." Edward looked at me confused. I just shook my head and started crying more.

The rest of the day was spent that way. With Edward holding me while I cried. Emmett was doing the same with Rose and so were Alice and Jasper. Emmett and Jasper didn't really know my mom and they had never met my dad but I could they were just a broken up about this because it was affecting us so much.

The boys started getting things ready for the funerals. We wouldn't be able to get the bodies until after the autopsy and everything was done but it was good that they getting things ready. They contacted all of my relatives and everyone would be down in two weeks. That's when the police said they could release them bodies. My mom had left me her house and everyone was currently staying with me til I was ok. My brother was going to live with my grandparents so Edward , Alice, and Jasper were going to move in with me to help out. I dropped out of college because I wouldn't be able to work full time and go to school. Plus with all the classes I was missing by the time I went back I wouldn't be able to catch up.

I felt so empty inside. I was like a zombie, going through the motions of everyday life, but everyone could tell I wasn't really there. I just wanted to get the funeral over and get things back to normal, well as normal as I could get them. My parents were gone and no one could bring them back. I tried to be alone as much as possible. Edward wouldn't allow that though so he was always with me.

I was currently in my room laying on my bed when he walked in.

"Hey hun how you holding up?" He asked while sitting down on my bed and taking me into his arms.

I shurgged. I wasn't much for talking these days.

"Bells listen to me." He grabbed face and made me look at him. " Bella I love you and I know your hurting right now. But pushing everyone away isn't going to help. It kills me to see you like this."

I didn't say anything. I just looked at him.

"Damnit Bella please talk to me. I can't take this" He looked so hurt. But I couldn't say anything. I looked at him for a moment and started shaking me, not hard though.

"What do you want me to say?" I screamed at him.

"I don't know just say something" He said holding me once more.

After I didn't say anything for awhile he spoke.

"Bella I love you. I always have and I always will, I'm here for you so please don't push me away." He said and then he kissed me.....

So guys what do you think? Sorry for killing off Charlie and Renee, so please don't be mad at me. It wasn't planned it just sorta happened. So review and let me know what you think!

Meagan