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A/N: This chapter is rated mature (M) if this is not your thing please wait for the next chapter. Only other material mixed in is a bit of relationship clarification.
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The sun was setting. No, the sun couldn't be setting. Why was the sun setting? Lauren sat straight up in bed so fast she gave herself a head rush, as she realized that she had been out for twelve or more hours. Almost yelling out for Bo, Lauren caught herself. Last thing she remembered was ripping herself away from Bo's body after a massive succubus attack. Lauren had controlled Bo's aggression by restraining her but if the succubus had freed herself Lauren would have been fighting for her life. After finally getting Bo's succubus nature to take over and feed, Lauren had done her best to push massive amounts of chi into the willing recipient. It had almost done her in. Only when Lauren's own survival instincts had kicked in did she have sense enough to pull away.
Recalling the feeling of falling from Bo's side, Lauren reasoned that it could only have been the succubus that had placed her on the bed again. It was encouraging, but that single act of kindness might not reflect Bo's emotional state, level of control or her feelings about the doctor's actions to intervene on her behalf. Lauren had recognized then blatantly disregarded how terrified Bo had been. Flatly ignoring the succubus's pleas for Lauren to keep herself safe, the doctor had done everything she could think of to get Bo to begin the healing process.
Lauren worried then and now that she had gone too far. How would Bo be feeling about the restraints? How would she feel about Lauren's chi attack of her own? She pushed the chi into Bo's body not taken it, but still it was a very aggressive tactic. Lauren was so different from the being Bo fell in love with, she wasn't even human anymore. There was a twisting deep inside Lauren as she worried that all the changes in her life and her attempts to help Bo might have backfired and driven Bo farther away. Lauren had lived through that before and didn't know if her heart could survive Bo rejecting her like that again.
Telling herself she needed to be ready for anything, Lauren decided to do a system check. Okay if she was honest with herself, Lauren was stalling but she did the check anyway. She stood up and realized how weak she was. Being careful, Lauren pulsed a small amount of her chi into the Earth. There was a more than generous pulse back. The little patch of nature still humming with blissful balance, Lauren gave a pull and was provided with more energy than she expected. "Thanks," she whispered with a smile, feeling her strength fortified. There was a very satisfied sensation to the earth, did soil laugh?
Looking at the door to make sure Bo was not watching, Lauren shifted quickly to her feline form and gave herself a once over. "Check." She thought as she stretched and flexed claws and muscles. Shifting back to human form she looked in the mirror and examined her eyes, that lovely blue was staring back at her. She had been flipping back and forth between her forms so quickly last night. It felt good to know that she had not broken anything. The fact that she still questioned the potency of her fae nature spoke to how new Lauren still was at being fae. Steeling herself for whatever she was going to be facing, Lauren walked slowly to the bedroom door and looked out. If she could get an idea of Bo's chi levels she could plan her next move.
The R&B station on the radio had not changed and was playing softly. Bo was seated on the floor in front of a small coffee table. She had a deck of cards and had the familiar formation of a solitaire game aligned on the small surface. Bo's hair was up, her lovely neck exposed and oh so very kissable. She was wearing a black tank top that showed off those well shaped shoulders and upper arms. Her skin looked flawless and was back to a healthy glow. It would be very soft to the touch or…. Lauren gave herself a bit of a shake. "Focus damn it." she told herself.
The little radio emitted a deep smooth voice, "Let's move into the evening hours with some old school sounds. Prince from 1980…," Lauren had to smile as Bo began to sway to the beat, a short time later the big tough succubus started singing softly with the chorus. "…but all I ever wanted to do…I wanna be your lover, I wanna be the only one that makes you come… running…" she stretched the last word with her best Prince impression. Lauren giggled softly, she couldn't help it. There was just the slightest turn of Bo's head and Lauren knew that she had been discovered. Holding her breath, Lauren waited for Bo's reaction.
Bo leaned over her card game as if concentrating hard on her next move. The succubus did not move for what seemed forever then finally said, "It's true you know." Lauren didn't understand. As if sensing the woman's confusion Bo continued, "The words in the song, they are true for me." With a fluid motion the succubus was standing and facing the doctor. She looked strong, healthy and hopeful, "All I ever wanted to do was be your lover, Lauren Lewis." With three fast steps she had the blonde in her arms. "How about it Doc, wanna be my lover too?" Lauren laughed and decided words were not really the way to answer the question.
Reaching up Lauren placed her hands on Bo's face and pulled her close claiming Bo's lips with such intense heat, the succubus's knees gave out. Lauren was just fast enough to take hold of Bo's body so she didn't hit the ground. Lauren pulled back quickly, held the succubus in a firm grip making sure she was steady on her feet. Lauren was in full blown doctor mode now and started to speak quickly, "How's your energy levels? This type of activity will spike you adrenaline levels. You have been through so much and all these changes could have triggered variations in your stress response. That affects your blood chemistry, specifically your levels of adrenalin and cortisol." With practice fingers, Lauren was checking Bo's pulse and moving to check her eyes.
"Lauren," said Bo with a smile on her face.
"Good god your dopamine levels have to be sky rocketing, going from an absence of sensation to me man handling you….
"Lauren," Bo tried to break in again a little more forcefully. Lauren didn't notice the intense look that was in the succubus's eyes as she place a hand on her forehead and with the other hand reached for Bo's wrist.
"Dopamine has this totally addictive quality. Sexual desire activates different areas of the striatum, an area of the forebrain.
"Lauren!" said Bo forcefully. She was now growling softly and her breathing was rapid. Lauren was pressing Bo's fingernail looking to do a fast check for blood flow.
"Dopamine in this area triggers an intense rush of pleasure. Then there is your Serotonin level…
"Dear God Doc if you keep talking about my brain chemistry or go into my serotonin levels I am going to drop you to the floor and take you right here," Bo took hold of the soft hands doing all the examining and pulled Lauren into a fast passionate kiss then pulled back just enough to continue talking. There was a hint a blue in Bo's hungry eyes, "Because watching you in geek speak mode is driving me out of my ever loving mind. I'm fine you just caught me a little off guard." Bo reached down and grabbed Lauren then picked her up. The succubus was kissing Lauren anywhere her lips could make contact.
"Oh, well okay, you're sure you're feeling okay?" ask Lauren sheepishly. Bo growled into the woman's neck as she walked towards the bedroom. The vibration of the sound on her skin caused Lauren to tremble, the doctor added huskily, "because I could tell you all about Oxytocin which is a powerful hormone released by women during orgasm."
"Now that sounds like a good one, please tell me all about it, over and over..." laughed Bo into Lauren's chest as she placed the beautiful blonde on the bed, several quick kisses were placed at the base of Lauren's neck before Bo stood up quickly. Standing just to the side of the bed, Bo pulled off her tank top. After that Lauren couldn't really remember what she had been talking about because Bo grabbed the flannel top the doctor was wearing and gave it a firm tug popping every button. Within seconds Bo's body was pressed firmly against Lauren's and as their skin touched the world outside of that contact ceased to exist.
Pressing her body into Lauren just enough, Bo heard the doctor let out a little gasp as the succubus slid down the bed, the friction of their skin touching allowed the feel of Bo's breasts to create a trail of heat. Bo stopped and Lauren felt the hot tip of the succubus's tongue as it circled her belly button followed by feather light touches as light fingernails began tracing circles all over her skin. The doctor had to move with the sensation, hands shifting from grasping sheets to Bo's hair and back again. The succubus looked up to meet the doctor's eyes just for a second. The look of happiness and lust they shared felt almost as good as the electric touches their bodies were enjoying.
Bo worked her way up Lauren's body slowly. The woman drove the succubus to distraction but Bo would not rush this. To be in control of her actions and desires again was amazing. Pushing her hands up Lauren's silky form, Bo moved over Lauren's breasts quickly making only the lightest contact. The doctor made a sound of surprise and possible disappointment, Bo grinned. Lauren grabbed at Bo's hands in an attempt to redirect them back down her body. A husky laugh left Bo's lips and she moved forward quickly to kiss Lauren's mouth giving her a distraction to focus on.
The succubus's hands reached the loose fabric of Lauren's top that lay open and to the side. She pulled the soft fabric off Lauren's shoulders and down her back until the top of the sleeves sat just above the elbow. Bo rolled the couples position. Lauren took full advantage kissing, licking and nibbling Bo's exposed neck and shoulder. Lauren felt Bo's hands moving around her arms and back fiddling with her flannel top but she was too busy running her lips and tongue down Bo's neck to care.
Lauren went to move her arms up and found they were held tight in place by the soft fabric of her flannel top. Bo had somehow tied the top to secure Lauren's arms to her sides pulling them back slightly. "Two can play the surprise restraint game." whispered Bo who rolled Lauren back over. The position of her arms forced her chest up. "Heaven on a display." said Bo in a thick voice looking at the doctor's sexy body push out and waiting to be touched. Lauren moaned loudly as soft full lips began to ravage her breasts. The succubus's mouth seemed to taste and tease Lauren's breasts in a never ending barrage of sensation.
Held at bay by the soft fabric and focused on Bo's attentions up top, Lauren almost lost it when gently pressing fingernails started to trace down her body for a second time. "Bo, Baby I can't …," said Lauren, her voice laced with all the emotion that was riding her body. The succubus moved up and kissed Lauren hard. The doctor swooned in an ocean of sensation letting her lips part and taking in all the passion of Bo's deep kiss. Pulling back just enough, Lauren drew in some much needed air that she had gladly given up during the embrace. She started to talk, "I couldn't…" Bo cut her off with another torrid kiss. Then returned to Lauren's breasts to build on the sensations she had started. Lauren writhed and cried out as the hot wet mouth of the succubus fell on her body again.
"I want you to feel it all, Lauren. I love you. I need you to know just how much I want you and how much you need me too." Whispered Bo in her ear and then kissed her hard again. Moving down Lauren's body, Bo's lips chased the hands that had led the way. Hot, thick wet kisses drifted between the now tender breasts and Lauren felt her insides go liquid and boil as hands and lips began exploring the top of her PJ bottoms.
The steamy feel of Bo's tongue drifting along the line of fabric made Lauren's hips thrust up. In one fluid motion Bo grabbed the waistband and she pulled. The succubus let out a strangled moan as Lauren now lay naked before her. Trying to control the need building in herself, Bo kissed slowly lower and lower on the doctor's body. The succubus's hands moved around pulling the doctor' body up into her embrace. Bo stroked down Lauren's lower back and ass feeling the trembles of the doctor's body reacting to the intimate caresses. Finally the succubus reached and pushed Lauren's thighs apart. Bo's eyes flashed blue with her need to take the last bit of Lauren's control. To provide the touch to release the full passionate response of the woman she loved.
"Bo I won't last…." cried Lauren voice pouring over with emotion. She had seen how Bo looked at her with want, lust, and love all mix up together and with her arms pulled back she was left only to focus on the pleasure Bo was giving her. Lauren knew her body was over ready for release but she was trying to hold on. "Oh Baby, I need you now." Bo did not delay. The succubus moved her hands and mouth to Lauren's center.
As Bo's touch traced the most intimate part of Lauren. The doctor thrust her body up at the sensation, a silent plea for something deeper. Bo obliged and entered her lover quickly. Finding just the right spot, Bo began a rhythm that brought barely constrained sounds of pleasure from Lauren. The emotion filled face and hot whimpers from the doctor almost pushed Bo to her own release. "I love you Lauren Lewis." said Bo and she stroked in and out of Lauren's body with more speed. Bo's head dipped and her mouth sucked and circled, working that most tender of spots until Lauren's body gave in to the pleasure and she came hard crying out Bo's name as she spilled over with passion. Bo felt Lauren tightening and then releasing in the wave of emotion and pleasure. She moved with Lauren's pace to prolong the strong response to her strokes. Bo reached around and undid the knot in the flannel to free Lauren's arms and then placed gentle kisses along her lover's body allowing the doctor's breathing to start to return to normal.
Lauren said in a raspy voice, "Feed Bo," as her body began to settle. The succubus's head snapped up and she focused on the doctor's half closed eyes. "God Bo please I need you to feed." Fear shot through every part of Bo as the Wanderer's dark conditioning reared its ugly head. She just about pushed away. Lauren swallowed and in a thick voice still affected by their lovemaking, "I need this for me Bo. Please Baby, just feed."
Bo moved fast, the plea in Lauren's voice was too much. The request was laced with more than a doctor's concern for her patient. There was a deep down need that fueled this request. It was coming from something Lauren wanted for herself. Bo would never be able to refuse Lauren anything this important to her.
"Can you protect yourself like before?" Bo's voice was just barely audible. Lauren nodded her head that she could. Bo's lips met Lauren's and she kissed her gently then with a nip of the bottom lip she requested Lauren open to her. The doctor was more than willing and the kiss deepened. There was a pull and Lauren felt the energy beginning to leave her body. Bo's pulled Lauren to her and the flow of energy increased. It was a full feed, Bo was not holding back. Lauren just started to feel the edge of concern when Bo snapped her head back with a yell. Flashing bright blue eyes and a brilliant smile, the succubus laughed in triumph. She dropped her head back to Lauren and placed a gentle kiss on her lips but did not attempt to feed again. Control was a beautiful thing. "Thank you." She whispered as she gathered Lauren in her arms.
Lauren broke into tears as she did her best to pull Bo close. With a voice broken by emotion the doctor said quietly, "I love you so much Bo. Finally, I am enough for you." the words and their meaning slammed into Bo's heart. So much had changed but so much was still the same. Pressing soft kisses into Lauren's head, Bo held her lover close for a long while. Her mind caught between her want for more physical contact with Lauren and the need for some type of clearing of the air about their relationship.
After sometime, Lauren tried to change position but Bo did not loosen her grip. The doctor at first thought Bo was playing but when Lauren looked into her eyes she caught the flash of concern that crossed the beautiful face. Lauren froze, there was something wrong. The doctor didn't mean too but a small cry escaped her lips. Hearing the sound of distress, Bo said quickly, "Hush Baby, okay please don't do that. It's okay." The voice was so caring that it almost made Lauren cry. "I love you, but we need to talk about you and me…us." Bo kissed her tenderly. "First, I need to know more about what has happened to you." Bo cleared her throat, as she watched Lauren's eye race and felt the doctor's pulse speed up. "You need to tell me everything Lauren."
Lauren got quiet then replied, "This might require wine." Bo let out a small laugh but her intensity did not wane. Moving from the bed, the women found something to wear. Seeing that Bo was still partially dressed Lauren blushed and placed a hand on the bed, "Things were a little one sided…maybe we should…" Bo raised an eyebrow as she tilted her head. "Can't blame a girl for trying?" said Lauren. She had meant to tease Bo but the idea of going straight back to bed with her lover was all kinds of a good idea. Refocusing Lauren grabbed Bo's arm and then walked to the small kitchen for a long overdue talk.
The jug of Chokecherry wine was empty by the time the story had finished. Lauren looked at Bo who was at a loss for words. The succubus had just let the doctor talk. At first it had been very fact oriented but as the memories started to flow so did the emotion. The disgust and horror of Taft and his plan, the pain at losing her humanity, Bo and all aspects of the life she had known, the fear she felt running for her life, the peace and fulfillment that came with her connection to the earth, the thrill of the power associated with her feline shifter and succubus powers. Then she expressed her deep connection to Hilde. That had been the only time Bo could not restrain her reaction. Lauren said that she had grown to love the woman and the succubus's eyes flared. Lauren had to clarify quickly how the relationship with the hag developed. "She is in love with Bruce the ogre and she is like a mother to me." Bo settled down and listened to the rest of the story, but she held Lauren's hand for the rest of the conversation.
Looking at Bo, Lauren waited for her to say something. It was so much to take in. With a deep breath Bo finally said, "How the hell did Tamsin and Vex hook up?" after a moment of silence they both broke up laughing. Standing up from the table and stepping to the door Bo held out her hand and motioned for Lauren to join her. They opened the door and stepped into the night air and moved to a bench seat not far from the front door. They sat side by side enjoying the stars and being near one another. Lauren could have pushed for more about Bo's time with the Wanderer but she knew that now wasn't the time. "I wish this was one of those swinging benches." said Bo. Lauren smiled in agreement but before she could tell Bo she had one of those on the farm the succubus started talking with such a serious tone it made Lauren jump.
"I love you, Lauren Lewis. Do you understand that?" said Bo with a bite to her voice. Lauren nodded but it was not good enough for Bo. "There is a power tied to words spoken aloud with conviction. I spoke aloud a vow to find you and make you realize how much I love you. It saved my life Lauren. It provided protection against the Wanderer. It gave me something to hold onto when I had nothing else. I need to hear you say you understand that I love you."
"I understand that you love me Bo." Lauren said firmly staring directly into Bo's eyes.
Bo tightened her grip on Lauren's hands, "Somehow I let you get the idea in your head that you were not enough for me…"
"I wasn't but I am now because…" the words shot out of Lauren's mouth. Bo reached up and grabbing the sides of Lauren's face gently to quiet her. The doctor stopped talking and reached up to take hold of her lovers hands pulling them down and holding them.
There was a growl and the succubus's eyes flashed that bright blue indicating strong emotion, "You have always… ALWAYS… been enough for me. You and others based my needs on feeding alone. I am more than my succubus nature. When you left I had energy to survive but I was empty inside. My soul, my heart, the hidden fragile parts of me needed you Lauren. I needed you but you ran from me." Bo swallowed hard, "I failed to convince you of my love by letting my family, the dawning and just about everything else get in the way. I let you think that you were not the most important thing in my life and I drove you to Taft. God Lauren, you are the most important thing in my life." The succubus's voice broke, "I love you but I am the one responsible for you losing your humanity." Lauren tried to interrupt but Bo shook her head and continued. "I will spend the rest of my life making that up to you."
"Don't you dare pity me." said Lauren with a flash of yellow eyes. It was Bo's turn to jump. Lauren stood and walked around in a tight circle. Finally she turned to look at the succubus, "Bo please don't pity me. You say you love me. I need you to understand that I love you too. Bo, I love you so very much. "
"I understand that you love me." said Bo watching Lauren intently.
"Taft was my mistake. I own that. It took me over a year to get over that fact. With all my reasoning power I was totally taken in by his attention to my work. When I said wasn't enough for you before I meant it. Bo it hurt me so much to be left totally out of sections of your fae life but I understood it. Human are not as physically strong as fae. As much as you dismiss feeding, you were having to go elsewhere for a very intimate part of your life. It hurt. Dyson and Tamsin were providing for your needs where I couldn't. They had and still have feeling for you Bo. I know it and you do too." Lauren turned away then quickly turned back, "I was also a slave. My loyalty to the fae assured through a cruel trick. I was a human pet and it tainted my whole being."
Lauren got quiet, then spoke again, "I went to Taft because I felt alone and unappreciated. I was sacrificing everything I had to the fae and not getting much in return." Lauren took a seat by Bo, "Like you said you were dealing with all these different things and I was doing my best to help you but it was not enough. I had saved the fae as a species two times, and I still felt less than everyone around me. I felt useless not being able to help you and having to watch others step in. " Bo's eyes were full of pain and she opened her mouth to say something but Lauren placed fingers on her lips.
"You love me Bo. I know that." She moved the succubus's hand and placed it on her heart. "I feel it in my heart. When I was with Taft I knew the magnitude of the mistake I made leaving you almost immediately. It was too late, I was trapped and couldn't get back to you. You showed up and I had to protect you so I was cruel. Something in me broke when I had to be so cold to you in the compound. " Lauren touched Bo's face, "I love you and I hope you feel that in your heart too. I ran to Taft because my pride was hurt and I didn't want to feel like I was less around you too. If I had stayed and been close to you, the Wanderer's attack on you would never have gone unanswered. In my own way, I allowed you to be held captive for two years by that monster." Lauren eyes flashed yellow, "I will spend the rest of my life making that up to you."
After several moments, Bo said, "Is that why you wanted me to feed off you. To show you and me that you are able to fulfill that need." Lauren nodded in response. Bo asked, "Did it make you feel better?"
"I think it did. It was such a perceived failing I held about myself but now…" Lauren reached out and stroked a finger down Bo's face. "My new fae life has allowed me to put aside that insecurity. I have accepted that I am more now and have come to terms with my actions and the results. Do I miss the old Lauren? Yes I do, but I am learning to accept the new me. I hope you can too." The two looked at each other for a while longer. "Bo there is so much that has changed for both of us. This talk is something we should have done so long ago. There is more to say and I need to know about your time with the Wanderer." Lauren kissed Bo lightly.
"We will have time for that later." replied Bo. "Thank you for coming to my rescue and breaking down the first of many issues the Wanderer has set in my path. I have been changed too I just don't know how much yet." said Bo. "I hope you can stick with me as I try to work through all that has happened. With any luck things won't get too weird."
Lauren growled shifted to feline form and then scooped up Bo in her arms and stood. Bo burst out laughing. Moving quickly into the house and then to the bedroom. Lauren placed Bo on the bed and shifted back to human. "Ya I think I can stick with you as you sort out your issues if you can handle some of my new quirks." Bo laughed again. The doctor smiled flopping onto the bed beside Bo, Lauren flashed green then blue then yellow eyes at her lover. Bo reached out and touched Lauren's face. It was a tender moment but there was no pity in the shared looks. The women were moving on together. "Your new eyes are beautiful Dr. Lewis." said Bo.
Sounds from the little radio drifted into the bedroom from the living room with the same deep smooth voice, "Here's one for all the lovers in need out there, Marvin Gaye has your back." The familiar music sounded and Bo and Lauren laughed, they waiting a few lines then both women started singing to each other…. And baby, I can't hold it much longer….It's getting stronger and stronger…And when I get that feeling…I want Sexual Healing. They laughed and then Lauren rolling onto Bo ending the singing when she placed a hot wet kiss on the succubus's full lips.
"We are going to be okay right?" asked Lauren. It was a question that covered the women as a couple, the women as individuals, and their future. Shifting around the doctor sat back and began pulling off the T-shirt that she had put on after her PJ top had been ruined.
"Baby we are going to be just fine." Bo's answer fit no matter which way the question was twisted. The succubus licked her lips at the display in front of her.
"Good," said Lauren she grabbed Bo's tank top and pulled it over her head then pushed her down and pulled the succubus's hands above her head. Bo thrust up and Lauren met the motion with a scorching kiss, their bare skin sizzling as they pressed into each other. After the kiss, Bo fell back on the bed and Lauren hovered just above her. "I believe you've met my little friends." Lauren's eyes flashed green. Bo heard a snapping crunching sound and felt the vines circle her wrists. Raising an eyebrow, Bo went to say something but the words never crossed her lips. The feel of Lauren slowly pulling down her PJ bottoms blasted every thought out of her mind.