CHAPTER 10 EPov
There's just something about her. During English it was all I could do not to take her and kiss her passionately. I had to remind myself she couldn't possibly feel the same way about me yet and that I'd have to work up to that. Alice kept smiling and thinking about shopping trips with her new friend and something called 'Bella Barbie' that sounded particularly horrible. Poor Bella. She's got no clue what's coming! When I offered to tutor her, she seemed oddly hesitant. I mention Emmet to make her feel better. Maybe she was afraid of me? That was the usual reaction our kind recieved from humans. But she said she'd have to ask her parents. She didn't seem to confident that they'd say yes. I thouhgt parents were supposed to encourage their children to seek help in school?
I thouhgt about nothing but her during my music class. It's usually my only escape during school, but today all I wanted was to be near her. My Bella. I was literally ocunting the seconds until the wretched bell would allow me to see my angel during lunch. She was in Trigonometry with Emmet, so I focused on his thoughts, to be there with her vicariously.
I heard Emmet talking "I always feel like a dummy 'cause I'm the only one in the house that needs help with math. Having someone else there would make me feel so much better. And it'll be fun!! Come on..please?!" So he's asking her to come over too. He must like her. I searched his thoughts and found nothing even the slightest bit inappropriate towards her. Good. She's mine! He noticed her hesitating too. Maybe she was afraid of us. But no, she seemed to be laughing with him and having a good time. The others in the class were clearly jealous. No one here seemed to like my Bella. They were all thinking horrible thouhgts. Particularly Mike Newton. He wanted to bed her, and she turned him down. Good for her! But then I heard him think about the rumors he spread. I wanted to rip his head off. I had to grip the corner of my seat to keep myslef from running out of there and killing the boy.
It would do no good. I just wish I could see inside her head, to see how she feels about all of this. I want her to be happy. Maybe I can make her happy...but I'm a monster. She'd never love me...mabe though. When I heard the bell ring I jumped from my seat a bit too quickly. I startled a few of my class mates and had to be careful to rush at a human pace towards the cafeteria. I wanted to meet Nella outside of her class, but I heard Alice tell me to go with Jasper to the table. Reluctantly, I followed her 'order'. She walked in to the cafeteria and I swear I felt my heart start beating again. WHen she saw me I heard hers skip a beat. So I do have some effect on her besides blushing. She smiled and we went to get some food together. I don't know what I put on my plate. It's not like I'd be eating it. I offered to pay for Bella's lunch, but she declined saying she had some sort of lunch card. The cashie punched out todays date and then we sat down at the table. I sat next to Bella. My wonderful Bella.
I saw her put some of her fruit in her bag after we threw away our trash. She said it was because she stayed after school, and I'm not sure why, but I didn't believe her. I noticed her limp was gone and I was immediately happy. She's not in pain anymore! I promised myself to keep her safe from everything. I joked with Alice and Bella hugged her when she was play-pouting. Alice hugged her back and I'm certain I saw my beautiful angels face contort in pain. Ow! Dude, that almost hurt me feeling her hurt. She barely even showed though. Tough girl! I heard Jaspers words, and sadness filled me. If Jasper had a problem with it, it must've been a lot. But she barely flinched. Then she laughed a bit. What was hurt on this poor girl? And how could I help her? Jazz asked me if I was okay. I must be giving himhell today with my emotions..but I couldn't help it! I assured him I was good, and was off to Biology with Bella. Just the two of us. On the way I caught her before she could fall to the ground after tripping on air, it seemed. I laughed at her, and she laughed back. Her laughter was so wonderful. I made a mental note to make sure she laughed more often...