"I picked up the photo and compared it to the sketch. My eyes widened."

Ok this is where I left off! Hope you like the second part to the chapter! Enjoy the next chapter!

Chapter 3: A terrible Past

POV: Anakin

The drawing was of, me. It was me looking down and smiling, scratching the back of my head. And there was a love heart around my figure. Did…did she feel something for me too? I thought. I smiled to myself as I realised that she may reciprocate my feelings for her. I wondered where she got the photo from though…I thought for a moment not realising she had come out of the refresher.

"I thought I could trust you not to go looking in it when I put it under my bed. I told you I don't trust people easily because of…." She trailed off.

"Because of what?" I asked quietly.

"It doesn't matter. I thought I could trust you but now I see that I was wrong." she said, sounding hurt. She saw the book open on the page of me and the photo next to it. She gasped and snatched it away from me and ran out of the room. I could feel through the force she was a little embarrassed and hurt. I instantly felt terrible. I thought about going after her, but I realised that right now she was emotionally fragile and I didn't want to make things worse. I got into bed and closed my eyes. Tomorrow I would apologise to her and listen to anything she needed to say to me.

I know that what I'm feeling is wrong. Jedi aren't allowed to form attachments, I have never formed one….before Ahsoka. I don't know if what I'm feeling is a stupid crush, or if it's something real. I feel very…protective...of her. Like she's my responsibility and I'm her guard. Her protection. I decided not to dwell on it for long. I inhaled and exhaled, and then I fell asleep. Sigh. What a great start to her Padawan training Skywalker.

POV: Ahsoka

I knew it. I knew I couldn't trust anyone anymore but still I trusted him. They're all the same. They all think they understand not being able to trust anyone but they don't. So many times I was betrayed. So many times, I was told I could trust someone, and they betrayed me. When I was young, I was lied to about my parents. I was told they died of sickness, on Felucia. But it was all a lie. My parents were killed by pirates. Savage, selfish pirates. Only a couple of years ago, they told me the truth. I can understand why they didn't tell me when I was little, but they only told me when I was 14. Two years ago. And that was because the council told me first. Everyone in my tribe knew, even my closest friends, but no one told me. I would ask the elders, "Why did they leave? What sickness took them? Why wasn't there an antidote?" But every time I asked, they gave me the same answer. "Your parents loved you very much, but one day they came across a new fruit in the jungle. They took one bite, and the poison spread through their bodies, and killed them." I thought it was terrible. If they could make up some sick story about a 'poisoness fruit' that they ate, they could have told me the truth about them.

I never trusted anyone again until just a few months ago. I was on a small retreat on Onderon with Jess and Kelya, and I met a boy. A young handsome boy. His name was Lux. Lux Bonteri. He was so kind to me, and he always called me 'Soka'. I loved the nickname; I thought he was the one. All of a sudden my life turned upside down. I knew I wasn't supposed to form attachments but it was like nothing else mattered anymore. It wasn't just about becoming a great Jedi one day in the future; it was all about Lux Bonteri. I wanted to be with him forever. (Of course the council never found out about this). I trusted him with my life and I thought he loved me, buy I was wrong. It had been a week on Onderon and we were leaving the next day. He asked me to go with him, to run away so we could be together. Of course, as stupid as I was, I believed him. I told Jess and Keyla I was going with him. They were sad to see me go, but they wanted me to be happy. They swore they would never tell anyone. So that afternoon, I packed my bags and said my goodbyes to my best friends. They wished me every happiness with Lux and I thought my life was perfect.

I met him in the garden, outside the hotel I had been staying at with my friends. We left. For hours we travelled, until we reached and old pub. He said we would rest there until dusk, and then we would keep moving. Again, I believed him. I had no reason to doubt his word. He seemed perfect. He was perfect. Until he did what he did. We entered the pub, which was packed with drunken men of all different species. A few came close to me, trying to dance seductively with me. I hid behind Lux until we reached a door. He opened it and let me in first. Inside, it was pitch black. I couldn't see a thing. And….and then….

Flashback…

"Lux! Where are you?! I can't see a thing!" He had closed the door after I entered. I had no idea where he was. Suddenly, I felt hands. On my body. Rubbing my front, back, and sides. I tried to scream but a gag was shoved into my mouth, muting my words. I screamed for help as they began to viscously rip my clothes off and push me onto what seemed to be a bed. I had no idea how many men were in the room. Two? Three? Maybe four? I still couldn't see a thing. I could only feel them touching me, and I could hear pants. I felt helpless against them. I thought I was going to die right at that moment. And if not then, I would surely be dead by the time they left me alone. After what seemed life hours, I heard one of them undressing…I panicked even more and tried to scream again, pulling my legs to my chest and curling up as tight as I could. I felt someone crawl onto the bed and I moved backwards towards the head of the bed. They kept coming closer...closer…closer…I was terrified. I had never been so afraid in my life. I prayed that my end would be a quick one. No pain. Not a long one. Before anything else happened, the door flew open. A light was turned on and I finally saw the people who had tried to violate me. There were three of them. All human. One had short, spiked hair and a skinny body, and he was tall. Another had a Mohawk and a very muscular body, he was the one crawling closer to me on the bed… And the last one was smaller, he looked like he was being forced to do this.

At the door stood a man all dressed in black, and he wore a balaclava. Only his eyes were visible. He threw me my clothes which were scattered all over the bear stained carpet, and threw himself at the drunk men. He punched them and threw them out of the room. By the time he had 'finished' with the drunks, I had regained my clothing. He picked me up and carried me outside, carefully placing me on a speeder. He still hadn't said a word to me, but I was in no condition to ask questions or thank him. I was shaking in fear and sweating all over. I had nearly been violated. He drove me back to the hotel. I don't know how he knew where I was. He must have been following me. He carried me as he climbed the building until he reached my room. He carefully placed me on the bed and stood back, looking at me. He turned to the window to leave but before he climbed out, I somehow gathered enough strength to ask him.

"Who are you? How did you find me? Why…why did you save me?" I asked, still shaking. From beneath the black mask I could see he was smiling.

"Do not fear me. I'm an old friend. I will always be there for you, whenever you need me." That was all he said before jumping out the window. I was still in shock for a moment before I realised what had just happened. I rushed to the window and scanned the garden beneath, searching for him. I saw a faint shadow running out towards the moonlight. He was too far to call him back now. I walked back over to my bed and fell back on it. I was exhausted. I fell asleep…

Flashback End…

I woke up on the floor of Bariss' dorm covered in sweat all over. I remembered the flashback and broke into tears. Barris was staring at me in shock. She ran out of the room. I don't know where. I cried, and cried, and cried. I knew I could never trust anyone again. The only two people that knew what happened that night were Kelya and Jess. And they were the only people I could ever and would ever trust. It was best if I kept everything to myself. I vaguely saw my master run through the door towards me. Barris must have gone to get him. My vision was blurry because of the tears. He lifted me up and I screamed. I didn't want to be touched like that again and I didn't know if I could trust him. I couldn't trust him. He ran with me in his arms back to our dorm and placed me on my bed.

"Shhhhh Ahsoka it's me, its Anakin. You're ok. Shhh…." He whispered to me, but it didn't help me at all. Right now I was very uncomfortable with him being so close to me. I was uncomfortable with anyone being close to me at the moment. He sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me, trying to calm down. I squealed at struggled out of his grasp. I jumped off the bed and slid down the wall on the other side of the room, still crying. He stood up and took a step closer, trying to help me. But he wasn't helping me at all. I was frightened, scared. He backed off. I looked up suddenly, with an idea. Kelya and Jess. I knew they wouldn't hurt me. I knew they would stand by me. I ran out of the dorm and through the temple bawling my eyes out, towards the Youngling's dorms. I ran past Zennah and her 'followers' and banged on my old dorm, where Keyla and Jess were. Kelya opened the door and her eyes widened when she saw me. She pulled me inside and locked the door behind her. I sat against the wall, my friends either side of me. They rubbed my back at embraced me. They didn't ask questions, they didn't pressure me into telling them anything. They knew that when I was like this, I didn't want to talk about anything. They knew I would tell them everything later, but right now, I just needed the comfort from the only people that really knew me. I sat there crying, and whimpering. Eventually I calmed down and we all fell asleep. The whole time no one said a word to anyone, but it didn't bother any of us. We didn't need words to comfort each other.

I hope you guys like it! I'm so sorry I haven't updated in the last few days, school has been controlling my life! So now we know Ahsoka's terrible past, and she's gone to her best friends for comfort – the only people she can really trust. Will she tell Anakin? And who is the mysterious character that saved Ahsoka four months ago? Please review! Nice comments please! It's my first Fic!

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