Sorry for the extremely long delay in posting this chapter, hope the length makes up for it a bit.
They arrived back at the loft. Nick kept his hold around Jess' small waist and partly due to tiredness she leaned her weight against him to help herself remain upright, plus she likes feeling close to him. The loft was oddly silent, mostly due to the fact Schmidt had appeared to have gone into hiding and poor Winston had to endure his bitten arm and so he was in his room.
They both stood in the hallway, the place where this whole thing started. The lighting was dim, the only source of light being a yellow glow coming from a floor lamp beside the couch. This made facial features much harder to read.
"Hey" Jess almost whispered. She slowly brought her eyes up to meet Nick's as he pulled her in closer until she was flush against his chest, "Thanks for tonight, it was...nice." A small smile now forming on her face.
"Yeah, I had fun" Nick replied in his hushed sexy voice, causing Jess' cheeks to tint a dark shade of red. Boy was she thankful for the lack of lighting.
"So...your place or mine?" she asked.
"I think yours, my room's a mess" he replied.
"Right this way" she slowly opened her door. "Welcome to ma chambre" she said in her best French accent.
She could feel the nerves beginning to rise and let out a nervous laugh. Why are you so nervous Jess? She knew the answer. Now that they were in her room, things were beginning to become 'real'. When they were out of apartment 4D they could live in their own little bubble, no questions asked, people around them simply assumed they were a normal well-functioning couple and both herself and Nick felt no need to correct them.
"Jess?...Would you just relax" Nick said trying to sound sincere.
She nodded her head and slowly walked over to close the space between them, wrapping her arms around his neck. He lifted her up off the ground causing her to let out a small gasp at the unexpected movement. He slowly carried her over to the bed and placed her gently down. He then climbed on top of her and kissed her softly on the lips.
"I thought" she panted in between her shallow breathing "we were gonna...watch a movie?"
"Nah, I would much rather watch you" he said with a smug look forming on his face.
"Watch me do what?" she said as she slowly began to realize what he was implying.
He began to feather kisses down her neck and to her collar bone, where he nipped and sucked her strawberry scented skin. She sat up long enough for him to pull her shirt over her head. I guess my sexy underwear will have to wait for another time, Jess thought, but she didn't really mind and Nick certainly didn't seem to mind much either. She unclasped her bra and let the straps fall down her arms before Nick impatiently grabbed the item of clothing and threw it across the darkened room. His breathing hitched at the sight of her and Jess lay back onto her elbows.
"You are a beautiful woman Jessica Day" he said with overflowing confidence as if he was just stating a fact.
"Shut up!" a blush forming down her neck again.
"It's true" with that he clasped his calloused hands on the upper part of her boobs "most underrated part of the boob"
Then he moved his hands down to rest on her hip bones to prevent her from bucking her hips upwards. Jess relaxed into his strong hold on her and lay down on her back, staring up at the ceiling, lost in deep thought. Nick caressed her flat stomach with his mouth and eventually made his way to the rim of her panties. He kissed along the elastic rim and then hooked his fingers and went the pull the thin piece fabric off Jess - he just wanted her naked already!
"Stop" she said in a hushed voice, "I can't do this"
She covered her eyes with the palms of her hands and rolled over onto her side "Urhg" she half said to herself.
"Can't do what Jess?...I thought...I...We were having fun" he said sounding broken, sending daggers through her heart to know she made him feel that way.
He moved and sat crouched over at the end of her bed with his elbows on his legs, head in hands. Had he completely misread her?
Jess bunched the covers up around her chest to regain some modesty and looked over at Nick. Why did she not just follow through, this was Nick. She could trust him.
"Nick?..I'm sorry...it's just..." she averted her gaze downwards "I'm just not into that kind of thing" feeling embarrassed she had said it out loud.
"It's fine Jess" he said, still unable to move from his current position. When he heard no reply he got up and headed towards the door.
"Nick wait.." her voice breaking, tears threatening to spill from her gorgeous blue eyes any second.
He turned back to see Jess - his Jess, sitting on the bed looking so vulnerable. "Sorry Jess, but I just don't want to fight about this"
"Please, that was not a Nick/Jess fight by any standard" she said jokingly. Then she patted the empty side of the bed beside her "Get over hear you idiot. First you undress me then you leave me here alone to freeze to death?"
"Here" he unzipped his soft burgundy hoody and handed to her as he pulled off his jeans leaving just his boxers and top on and hopped in beside her. She gladly put on the warm jacket and snuggled in closer to Nick, resting her head on his shoulder.
She let out a sigh "I'm sorry I freaked out, I just never encountered this problem before"
Nick's eye near popped out - no one had ever gone down on her before.
"Are you freaking serious Jessica?"
"What?" Jess still did not want to discuss this with Nick of all people. Cece had tried once before but failed miserably.
"You've never had a guy go down on you before?" Nick sounded more annoyed for her than anything else.
"Well...no, does it matter?" she said, her voice still quiet.
"Yes of course it matters, it's hardly fair. Who are these idiots you have been dating?"
Jess gave him that look, the one which warned him to stop digging himself into a deeper hole. He knew who she dated in the past and most of them probably would never consider the idea, firstly Spencer the complete and utter tool, then Paul who lets face it wasn't the best under the covers; and so the list goes on.
"Not even Sam?" he said quietly to himself but she heard
"NO! Eww" she shrieked.
"It's not that unheard of"
"I don't know Nick" she half sighed, feeling defeated. Her voice was now barely about a whisper "I guess I never really trusted any of them...and...I...I guess I was right, they all left me in the end" she turned her head away from Nick, trying to hide the silent tears now falling. This wasn't about sex, this was about trust and she had never really loved any of those men enough to get so close to her and the one time she did was with Spencer and look how well that turned out.
"Hey Jess" he tightened his grip on her, trying to convince her he was not going anywhere "none of those douchebags deserved you."
She shifted so she was now lying on her side facing Nick, her head propped up on her hand. Nick also moved to mirror her position then he pressed his lips on hers and gave her a soft and sweet kiss. Jess breathed a sigh of relief and snuggled into him once more and he snaked his arm around her to pull her in tight. After a few minutes silence Nick spoke.
"You trust me, right?"
"Are you seriously asking me that right now?...YES of course I trust you Nicholas...why?...what are you planning to do to me?"
"If you let me give you oral sex I guarantee the best orgasm of your life"
"Woah Nicholas that is a bold statement" she smiled, how did he always know how to cheer her up.
"Just try it once and if you don't like it I promise I won't ever bring it up again."
"Ok, deal. But another time, kay?"
"Sure babe" he placed a kiss on top of her head and she snuggled into his arms, her tired and heavy eyes closing, sending her into a deep sleep.
Nick stared at her sleeping figure and absentmindedly twirled the ends of her lose curls in his fingers. He would most definitely change her mind - he was certain of it.
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