Cuxie: So it's been awhile for this story. Sorry peeps!

Kazune: Why'd you have to go and make me the bad guy?!

Cuxie: I-I wasn't...I just...I just wanted to write a story with Himeka as the main character!

Himeka: You couldn't have done something less...violent?

Cuxie: NO!! So shut-up and get used to it! Hmph!

Squeaky-Squishy: I know, I know.

Himeka: Thank you for caring!

Kazune:...It's not my fault.

Caramel Crazy: Wha?!

Kazune:(blush)Wh-What would she be doing in there?!

Cuxie:(blush)Really! And I don't know WHY he's a jerk. I'll figure it out somewhere along the line hopefully.

yolapeoples: Oh.

Kazune: Well at least SOMEONE knows me well enough to know that!

Cuxie:...You're still mean.

Himeka: Thanks for the concern. I think I'll be fine.

Cuxie: Yeah...you just keep telling yourself that.

Karin: How come I don't get to comment?

Cuxie:...

Kazune: Idiot.

Karin: What?

Cuxie: You just commented...twice.

Karin: Oh...Eheh.:3

Cuxie: That reminds me! Just so you guys know Karin's the dumb one in this story! Ok? Chappy roll! Roll with the wind!X3

I'm going to smile like

nothing's wrong, talk

like everything's perfect,

act like it's just a dream

and pretend that he's

not hurting me.

Ugh. Stupid sun. I squinted my eyes open and was almost immediately blinded by the glare from my window. I turned over to face the door so that my back was to the light. My digital clock glowed red on my nightstand. 7:49. I was gonna be late!

I lifted my head groggily and moaned. I rubbed at my face which felt unusually dry, and at the same time...sticky? "What in the...Oh." Memories of last night's events flooded back to my mind and I felt my eyes water again. I shook my head violently. There's no time for crying! I need to get ready for school. If Karin-chan suspects anything is wrong Kazune-san will...I need to get ready.

I shakily got out of bed, remaking it out of pure instinct. I've gotten so used to this. God, I felt disgusting. Part of me dreaded looking in the mirror, then again, part of me also knew I couldn't leave the house without looking. That was just a disaster waiting to happen. So I went to my vanity and prepared myself for the worst.

My face looked just as terrible as I'd suspected. My hair was a matted, tangly mess from tossing and turned all night. My eyes were red and puffy anf my face was tearstained. Worst of all was the bruise. It had formed quite nicely overnight and was now a dark, purple-ish color. Hopefully it was nothing a little make-up couldn't solve.

Taking on this new dissaster project I attacked my head with a brush, grunting as I pulled out the large tangles. There wasn't time to worry about the rest. I went into the bathroom and grabbed my washcloth. I wet it with cold water and dabbed at each of my eyes to reduce the red and puffiness. Running back into my room I pulled on my uniform and checked the clock again. 7:58. I'm gonna be SO late!

I looked at my bruise. Using my best foundation I was able to comepletely cover up the color. But my cheek still looked slightly swollen. All I could do was pray that no one would notice.

"HIMEKA-CHAN!!" Karin-chan's voice called from downstairs. I quickly grabbed by bag and raced out. I saw Karin-chan smile as I came down. Kazune-san stood by the door behind here looking very impatient. He had clearly wanted to leave without me, but Karin-chan stopped him. "I told you she'd be down."

"About time." He muttered he looked at me with that emotionless look in his eyes. I hated it when I couldn't read him.

"Do you want any breakfast Himeka-chan?" Karin-chan asked cheerily as always. "I cooked since it looked like you weren't coming down." she gestured towards the kitchen, but I shook my head. We both knew breakfast was completely out of the question for me or there'd be no point in even going to school. Kazune-san came up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist, he let his head fall on her shoulder.

"We're gonna be late." he mumbled quietly. As I watched Karin-chan blush I couldn't help but feel a wave of sadness come over me. They were in love. They were happy. I had nothing. I was just a third wheel. I looked down at my feet, feeling pathetic. Karin-chan must have noticed.

"Are you okay? You don't look so good." her voice quickly changed to worry. At that Kazune-san turned to to me, both waiting for an answer. His eyes were no longer emotionless, but threatening. That's right. I'm not supposed to worry his precious Karin. So I did the only thing I could do...

"I'm fine! I just couldn't sleep very well last night. No need to worry."...I lied.

"Oh, alright then. Let's get going!" she smiled and I forced one too. We all left for school in a rush. Me being the slowest, I was left behind. I watched them from behind. Kazune-san held Karin-chan's hand, pulling her along after him. He was smiling at her and I watched her giggle at something he'd said. In his other hand he held both of their school bags. I subconciously glanced at mine swinging in my right hand as I ran after them. Kazune-chan would carry my bag too usually. Why not...now? He hates me. He loves her and he hates me. He'll carry her's but he won't carry mine. It makes sense.

Somehow I didn't notice what had happened, but we were now entering the classroom. I heard the bell ring telling me we had made it just in time. I took my seat warily and class began. Not much to say though. It was boring as usual and I didn't understand a word Sensei was saying.

I looked over at Karin. As far as school work goes we were usually in the same boat. But she didn't look anywhere near as bored as I was. Then again, maybe that's because she had something other than class to focus on. Like passing notes with Kazune-san. It must be nice to a distraction like that. I couldn't help but think, envious of her. I really disgust myself lately. She's my best friend! If she's happy then I should be happy for her, but...

"You selfish little bitch! You really don't think of anyone but yourself!" Kazune-san's words resounded in my head and I sighed, ashamed. He's right. I'm selfish. Worthle--

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Miyon trying to get my attention.

"Are. You. Okay." she mouthed once I turned to her. I put on my best fake smile and nodded. No need to worry her to. Miyon and I have been friends since childhood and closer than ever since Yuuki-chan left. They confessed to each other the day before he left for music school. They see each other whenever possible, but I know she gets lonely without someone to pass notes to like Karin.

Hunh. But I don't pass notes with anyone either and I'm not...Yes. Yes I am. I'm so lonely. What use was there in lying to myself?

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Lonely. That's exactly what I was then...and exactly what I am now.

Cuxie: Done. The ending parts are also Himeka's thoughts from that little preface at the beginning of the story.

Himeka: That's just sad.

Karin: What kind of notes were me and Kazune-kun passing?
Cuxie:...Love notes...? Is that all you care about?

Karin: Heehee! You made us all lovey-dovey!

Cuxie: Ugh. R&R plz! I'd appreciate it! I'll deal with Karin later...