Part 6

Wes and Thad were walking along the boat deck, dressed in first class clothes again. It was a bit chilly and steam came from their mouths as they talked. Thad was at the start of the stroll smiling brightly, but that smile soon slid off.

"What will I do now", he asked. Wes looked at him.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"Hunter is going to go with Sebastian now and he won't need me around anymore… and he won't want me around anymore. By getting the two of them together I pushed myself out of their lives…"

"Oh no, no, no", Wes said and pulled Thad into a hug. "They will not push you out. Both of them love you too much to do that."

Thad rested his head on Wes' shoulder. They were now out on the part of the deck that didn't have a roof. Thad shuddered.

"Brr it's getting cold", he said.

"We're at the northern parts of the Atlantic", Wes explained calmly. "But you know… I think you've gotten things a bit backwards my friend."

"What do you mean?" Thad asked curiously.

"About Hunter and Sebastian."

"You mean they won't leave me?" Thad asked with big eyes and Wes laughed.

"Defiantly not", he said. "But that is not what I was talking about."

"What was it then", Thad asked and Wes smiled at him and turned him around. Sebastian was hurrying towards them. He glared at Wes.

"That wasn't funny", he said.

"It wasn't my idea", Wes said and let go of Thad. "Why don't you tell Thad why you are so upset about it? Ah Hunter a minute of your time?" Wes then hurried up to Hunter and dragged him away. Against Hunter's wild protests. Sebastian stared after them in confusion and then turned to Thad who looked even more confused than him. Sebastian smiled and put his arm around Thad's shoulders and started to lead him down the deck. Thad looked up at him curiously.

"It wasn't very nice of you to force me to dance with Hunter Dauber", Sebastian said and Thad blushed at the petname. "Why did you do it?"

"Because you are in love with each other", Thad mumbled. Sebastian stared at him and then started doing gagging noises and almost looked as if he was about to get sick. Thad stared at him in confusion. Sebastian even fake died and plopped down on the deck and closed his eyes. Thad kneeled beside him and poked his face. Sebastian opened an eye.

"Was that response clear to you", he asked.

"Have you been having too much to drink", Thad asked. "Is that what you are saying?"

Sebastian sighed and sat up.

"No", he said.

"Then what is it?"

"Dauber you are so stupid!"

Sebastian felt ashamed at once when he saw the hurt look on Thad's face. He saw tears behind those dark eyes and he noticed how crushed he looked. Thad looked away from him before getting up and running away. Sebastian stared after him.

"Thad wait!" he yelled and ran after him. Thad was small but he was fast and Sebastian had a hard time catching up to him and when he did he had to grab him around the middle to stop him. Thad just turned around in his arms and sobbed into Sebastian's chest.

He wanted to be mad at the taller boy but he couldn't because his head was saying one thing and his heart another. He had loved Sebastian ever since he laid eyes on him but he was sure that Sebastian was in love with Hunter and vice versa. He was sure that someone like him, someone so small that people didn't even see him would never be loved by someone as amazing and out there as Sebastian Smith.

Sebastian and Hunter were both everything that Thad wasn't and people adored and loved them. Thad adored and loved them too but he would never be good enough for them or anyone. Thad was one of those people that only caused trouble and worries for others. A person no one could really love.

He was holding Hunter back, that's why Hunter was to go alone to America and forget about him, Thad that is, completely. He would be so much better off without Thad in his life to pull him down. Sebastian also needed him to disappear so that he could focus on him and Hunter without Thad getting in the way. Thad was only causing trouble for both of them. He had seen the glares they sent each other whenever he spoke to either one of them. They didn't think he saw them but he did, he noticed Hunter tense up angrily whenever Thad dared to talk to Hunter's Sebastian. He pushed himself out of Sebastian's arms and ran to the front of the ship. He didn't stop until he hit the railing.

He just stood there for a bit, watching the water rush by below him. It was so dark and looked so cold. Like he was feeling right now. He felt so cold, because he was finally seeing the truth. There was no warmth left on this ship. The warmth he'd gotten from Hunter… from Sebastian it was all over now because they'd found each other and could share each other's warmth.

Thad had nothing to give either of them. He was dirty and used, he would only cause them pain. Because he was sick and badly so. He had been to see the doctor and they said he had some disease that was slowly killing him. When he asked what Thad did for a living Thad had to tell him the truth… that he had been a prostitute and that caused the doctor to throw him out. There was no help for him… no chance.

He should just end it all. Yes… he really should… before he died of disease. That's another reason he didn't want to go with Hunter. Hunter would go to America and when Thad would write him but keep his disease hidden and then tell him… when he was dying so that there was no way Hunter would have to see him die. Hunter didn't deserve to see him die… no one did and he was already dying… he should end it all… yes he should. He stepped onto the lowest bar. He threw one leg over the bars and looked at the dark waters again, tears trailing slowly down his cheeks.

"NO!" a voice shouted and he felt himself pulled away from there and he landed hard on his back and his savior was on top of him. Thad stared up at Sebastian in confusion.

"Sebastian", he asked. "What-"

"Thad what the hell were you doing?! You could've died!" Sebastian yelled and Thad saw the horror in his eyes and on his face. "Never ever do that again! What were you thinking?! How could you just try to leave Hunter like that?! Leave me like that just after I found you?!"

"What", Thad asked confused.

"I just fucking found you and I don't want to lose you!" Sebastian yelled and pulled Thad onto his lap hugging him tight. "What the hell where you thinking?! How can you want to leave Hunter and me behind? Why the hell did you try to kill yourself Thad? Don't you love me… don't you love Hunter anymore? He loves you! I fucking love you!"

Thad blinked at Sebastian.

"You… you love me", he asked confused.

"Yes! Since the first time I saw you! Why do you think I want to spend time with you all the time?!"

"B… because you love Hunter and want to make him happy by spending time with me, his best friend?" Thad asked confused.

"I don't love Hunter!" Sebastian groaned in frustration and got up.

"You don't? Then who do you-"

Thad got cut off by Sebastian pulling him up and kissing him. His eyes widened in shock and even before he knew what was going on, he was kissing Sebastian back. When he realized that he made a little squeak… but continued to kiss him… and that's when that horrible and haunting sound was heard nearby them:

"Iceberg, right ahead!"

TBC *whistles innocently*

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