Frozen in Ink
Prologue: My Someday Could Have Been Now- Peyton
"I didn't say no! I said someday, Luke!"-Peyton Sawyer
She walks down the aisle so gracefully, so beautifully, that I actually think she could be better than I could ever be, at her new job, Lucas's wife. While everyone has their full attention on her, I turn quickly to Lucas, just to see his reaction. He looks happy. That's what I want for him, right? Lindsey reaches the area where Luke, Haley, and Nathan are standing. She hands her flowers to Haley, and I finally get a chance to really look at her. Her wedding dress is beautiful. It's that pretty shade of white, and the bottom is full of detail. It's a B. Davis design alright. Those lilies in her hand could be my flowers. The dress on her body could be on me. But instead I sit here on the groom's side, clutching Brooke's hand. My body is stiff, the air around me cold. I'm holding my breath waiting to hear that famous line, "Does anyone here object this union? Speak now or forever hold your peace." But that never happens in real life, and I could never dream of drugging Lindsey like Skills suggested. The preacher instead asks another famous quote from weddings, movies or not. "Do you take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife?" Brooke squeezes my hand tighter, like she's having a labor pain. She's not about to loose the love of her life to some other woman. But yet she feels my pain. "P. Sawyer." She whispers in my ear. But I don't hear it. Instead I hear something I told Luke a long time ago. Two years in fact. "I'm not saying no, I'm saying someday. We're only nineteen." But were not nineteen anymore. We're twenty-two. He found someone else. I had always thought he'd written the book for me to come back to him, but instead he found Lindsey. "I do." I hear him say. My heart is breaking in this moment. He promised her the world; he was giving his heart away to her, when he already promised it to me. I feel like sobbing but instead, hold my head up high. I thought Lucas might look up at me, try to find my eyes but instead he keeps his eyes on her, never glancing away. The preacher turns to Lindsey and asks her the same question. "Do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband?" I clasp my eyes shut. Time has stopped. I mean forget what Einstein said, I think Lucas, Lindsey, the rest of the wedding guests, and I have just defied laws of physics. I want to scream, stand up and tell Lucas that he can't marry her. It's impossible, when he still loves me, when I still love him. I can feel all of our memories build up in a wave inside of me. The kissing, the talking, and the love we made, it all rushes out of me when she smiles and says, "I do." The preacher man smiles and says, "I now pronounce you husband and wife." I open my eyes feeling the tears begin to spill out. Lucas lifts up her veil and envelopes her in a deep but sweet kiss. Mouth, Millie, Skills, and Brooke all touch my shoulder. Lucas and I were supposed to be married and live in the house, they now share. We were supposed to be forever. Mr. and Mrs. Scott run down the aisle holding hands laughing. The wave finally bursts out, in a huge amount of sobs. I can't control the crying. It's really over. It's so impossible to me, I can't believe this. My someday could have been now.
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