Previously…

"I can't walk away." He whispered softly. I stared at him for a moment in shock then realized a very important fact, one that changes everything. No matter how I fight, no matter how I deny it. I loved him. My hands gripped his hair and pulled his lips to mine, and finally I felt whole.

As I walked through the woods alone later I was lost in thought. I never really was open about my feelings but Jasper certainly made me want to be. I thought about all the things he had shown me, true I knew he was a vampire, but it was a totally different thing seeing one's life through their own eyes. He was so ashamed of the monster he was. He fought hard to remain as human as possible.

I knew he went on a short trip this afternoon so I was a little disturbed when I felt a presence. I have recently become acutely aware of my surroundings. I discovered today that if I wanted to I could see someone's past, I just had to focus. Technically Jasper was correct when he said touch was better. I did get a much more intense picture when I touched someone. It's kind of cool when you think about it.

I then realized what I had felt. Alice was sitting on a huge log with her feet propped up and a grin.

"Hey." She said as she sat up. I nodded and smiled, I didn't know Alice that well and I was not sure what had happened with Jasper. I certainly didn't know if she hated me or what exactly her feelings were.

"I saw you were going to be here and thought we could talk, I know Jasper won't be back until tonight."

I sat beside her a safe distance away. "That sounds ok."

She giggled, "I know you are uncertain of my feelings, I don't hate you. I am actually happy for you as messed up as that sounds."

"I don't understand." I answered confused. I had seen her in Jasper's past but his feelings were always laced with love. It confused me more. She gave me a thoughtful look. "I met Jasper a long time ago. At the time it was right for us to be together, it led us to Carlisle and this life which is where we are supposed to be. I am a big believer in fate."

"What happened?"

"Our time was over. We were never meant to be forever, I know vampires are supposed to mate forever but there are times when it is not the perfect union. We loved each other yes, we always will but we are both meant for others. In reality we helped prepare the other for their soul mates. I helped him turn to this lifestyle and in turn he met you and was able to control his thirst. Although you are special and tend to dull his craving for your blood anyway."

She was being so honest. I had to admire her for that. "What about you?" I asked now wondering what her future held. She smiled happily, "I can see him. He is extremely handsome and I know he is coming soon, but not just yet. He is like Jasper in some ways, but he is more outgoing. He has black hair, very sweet. I can't wait for you to meet him you'll get along well too."

"You see me meeting him?"

"Yes, I see us hunt…" She stopped with a smile. "It doesn't matter now, you will like each other. You and the family will all get along quite well. Rosalie even, it may take a while though. She tends to be a little distant but don't worry she will get over it.

"What about Bella?"

"Yes, you and she will be quite close. She is our newest and she will help you adjust. If she were human you and she would have been good friends." I didn't mention how she had just said she would help me adjust. I think I already knew why.

"Alice, I had a dream last night." I started. I didn't want to talk to Jasper about it because I knew he would avoid it, I couldn't exactly talk to my friends because yeah, hello vampire. Sexy as hell, but still very much the walking undead.

She nodded watching me closely. I continued, "I dreamed I was with Jasper, I don't know the details of my surroundings except he was holding me, he asked me to push him away, to make him stop but I told him not to. He begged me to saying he couldn't hold back any longer it was too strong. I thought maybe he meant…"

I looked down blushing, "Intimately, but I felt him bite my neck. I remember him whispering he loved me in my ear." I can't believe I just told her this. She didn't look surprised actually she looked like she expected it. She bit her lip, "I don't know how much I should tell you."

"Why can't I see it, when I touch Jasper?"

"You will." She said then shifting her position. She smiled, "You're still learning yet. A lot of your sight will come in dreams. This was a glimpse into the future."

"He is going to turn me?" I asked and again I knew the answer before I asked. She smiled, "Isn't it what you want anyway? Deep down you will discover you can't bear to be apart from him, nor can he from you."

I don't know, I mean I am just starting to explore these emotions. I feel like I can talk to you, it's so weird. It's like I've known you for years."

"I'm glad. I like talking to you too. You should visit with Edward see what you remember of him."

"What do you mean?"

"Tillie was with Carlisle after he turned Edward you should touch his arm. Why do you think he likes to tease you so much?"

"I have no idea."

"Well just try it one day. Speaking of which, you should get home. Your mom needs you to do a few things with her."

"Ok." I didn't ask how she knew, she just did and I accepted that fact. I stood, "Thanks Alice."

"Anytime, you know if you want to come by and hang out it's fine, we can get to know each other more."

"Really? Thanks."

She smiled and before I could blink she was gone. That girl was fast. I went home and helped my mother with a few things then showered and headed to bed. I couldn't sleep. I kept being plagued by dreams of the past, dreams of the future and fear of the unknown. I was thrashing when I felt cool hands on my face and immediately opened my eyes.

His light golden orbs stared into mine. "It's ok Gabby, sleep."

"I can't."

"What are you dreaming about?" He asked watching me intently. I loved the way the shadows played mysteriously across his face. I could get used to the site of him beside me like this.

"I…" I couldn't answer, he was so beautiful. Why did he render me speechless? He turned me to my back slowly resting on top of me, his weight supported by his strong arms. Smiling he leaned close to my face, "You were calling my name love, begging me to take you."

Oh crap, tell me I didn't do that. How embarrassing. I thought he was joking but in his eyes there was no lie and when I thought back I had indeed had a similar dream. It was quite obvious the effect it had on him, no telling how long he had been there just soaking up my emotions. Poor guy was probably coiled like a spring.

"Jasper." I whispered breathily as his lips fell to my neck. They brushed my heated skin with feather light kisses and promises of passion intertwined. I arched into him. I can't explain the emotions running through me my stomach was so tight I felt like I would vomit. I felt like my world was revolving around this one single moment.

He finally met my lips and the stars burst into flame. I gasped gripping him to me like he was a life preserver. As if I needed him to protect me, to stand beside me and love me. I knew the truth was I did. His tongue danced with mine softly until I was reaching a boiling point, if we were going to stop it needed to be soon.

I am sure he realized from the heat of my legs I didn't wear anything but panties and a shirt to bed. I didn't think he would come by after last time when he decided to leave. He pushed my shirt up my ribs caressing the exposed skin, "Gabby please, god please."

I don't know what he was begging for and I am not sure he did either. He was panting now, his eyes were dark and his body was pushing into mine. I didn't know what he wanted me to do. I mean was he begging me to stop him? Did he want me to continue? What? His hands we then around my hips, I cautiously met his eyes, I knew with little effort he could removed any cover I had there. His fingers were already toying with the fabric. I could feel emotions overwhelming me and was not sure what was mine and what was his. They were all intertwining now. He gripped my waist hard, "You have to push me away. I'm not strong enough to let go anymore." He was beyond sexy when he spoke like that, did he really expect me to say go away? Is he totally clueless?

"I can't."

"Do you want this?" He didn't have to say verbally what he meant, his body pressed into mine again and I knew. I was trying to control my air intake and closed my eyes, "We can't…not ready yet." I gasped out.

I was suddenly alone on the warm bed and he was against the wall. I could see he was fighting with himself, his hands curled into fists. Why does what we feel have to be so overwhelming and intense? I would like to be held occasionally without having to worry about ripping his clothes off, that wasn't happening though.

"Jasper?" I sat up, "We can do this. We can control this, it doesn't control us."

"Maybe it doesn't control you, but I can no longer think when I am with you. You have no idea how bad I want you right now. The thing is even if I had you I don't know if it's enough. I need so much from you I don't even know where to begin."

"We can talk about it." I whispered patting the bed beside me. He didn't move for a short time then finally sat. He was stiff and looked uncomfortable. I smiled taking his hand in mine. "Was your dinner good?" I asked trying to think of something to say. He laughed, "Yes, it was fine."

"Good, and did you enjoy yourself?"

He inhaled deeply, pulling our hands from my lap to his. "I was thinking how much I wanted to see you again. How much you affect me, your smell, your touch, your face. You are so addicting to me."

"That's good right?" I asked watching his expression. He smiled meeting my eyes, "I guess. Edward tells me it is similar to what he felt for Bella. I never could understand how he could be involved with a human. I just didn't understand and now I see you and feel all of these things and it makes perfect sense."

"It does?"

"Yes, it no longer becomes blood driven but love. I know we haven't known each other like this long. It just seems to be taking on a life of its own. I'm not some teenage hormonal boy that can't control his emotions and yet here I sit."

"Yes, here you sit all hormonal." I teased him. Who was I to talk? I was in the same exact boat. He chuckled kissing my hand, "You really should get some rest, school tomorrow."

"I don't want to be away from you." I said honestly. His cool hand gripped my chin, "You won't be. I'll be right here." He pressed his lips against mine for a short moment then pulled back crawling up my bed. I followed his lead and curled into him. He was cold but it didn't matter, I just had to be close to him and I didn't want barriers. His gentle soothing voice lulled me to sleep. It was refreshing because I didn't dream.

I opened my eyes blinking at the light streaming through my window as my alarm went off. I sat up stretching and immediately noticed he was gone. I knew he would be. Getting ready for school I dressed in a blue jean mini skirt and a nice fitting concert tee. I grabbed my purse and headed out to my car. I wasn't surprised to find him leaning on it with a smile across his lips.

"You look beautiful." He said kissing me. I inhaled his sweet scent and smiled, "You smell good."

"Yeah, I should vampire remember?"

"No, not that. I mean yes I know that smell, but it's more distinct or something."

"Yes, it would be though I am trying not to put my emotions onto you."

I looked at him oddly as I got into his car, "What does that mean?" He started the car and headed to school slipping his hand to my exposed leg.

"It means I want you, I want you to come to me and my body is sending out a little signal through my smell to let you know hey, come here and I'll bite you that clear enough?"

"That is a normal thing?"

"How do you think vampires lure victims? In this case it's not my focus, but it doesn't matter. I want you and it remains the same, it's calling you in."

"Wish I could do that." I said aloud without thinking. He smirked, "You think you don't? Your heart beats faster when I get close, your scent changes and it attracts me. I can only explain it to you like this. You understand the concept of a vampire feeding and when he starts a kind of frenzy begins."

"Yes." I got what he was implying anyway.

"It's kind of similar, I get around you and it's almost impossible to stop. It's like testing myself every time I get around you. I know you would be better off if I wasn't around but I can't stay away."

"I think I'm flattered." I teased with a wink. He inhaled deeply, "Don't be, I could lose control."

"I don't think you'll bite me, at least if I asked you not to. I think you could stop."

"It's not a theory I would suggest testing but blood is not what I meant. I could hurt you, when I say lose control I don't mean as in biting you. I mean…" He trailed off uncertain.

"Sexually."

"Yes, it's like an untamable fire inside me. I can't even begin to explain. I feel like a complete idiot."

I smiled at him, "I think I know how you feel. I fight with myself every time you touch me to make you stop, I don't want you to stop. I want to be closer, but I know it's so fast and it's way too soon and…"

He placed a finger to my lips. A mischievous smile played across his face as he pulled into the school and a parking place.

"You're singing to the choir baby." My seatbelt was off and I was pulled into his lap before I could blink, his lips pressing hard against mine. I think they're bruised now because wow. I heard a knock on the window and he pulled away with a glare. Edward chuckled, "We are in public you two, get out of the car."

I blushed three shades of red and slipped off his lap as he opened the door. Edward was still smirking. He had no idea how dead he was.

"Yeah right, idle threats." He said without a glance at me. Will I ever get the 'mind reader' thing clear in my head? He chuckled lightly, "I surely hope not. You are much too interesting."

"Stay out of my head." I growled feeling Jasper laugh as he slid his arm around my waist and pull me towards the school. Alice was standing with Emmett, Rosalie, and some new boy toy by the doors as we walked up. She smiled merrily, "Hello, how are you today?" She asked with a wink.

I laughed, sometimes she saw way too much. "I'm good and you?"

"Oh I am wonderful, this is Cooper." Edward rolled his eyes and I felt Jasper snicker beside me. They are not subtle in the least. I knew Edward heard me because he smiled at me and opened the door, "Come on you two."

I was sitting in class later and turned to see Edward. He was toying with his pen as he looked out the window in a daze.

"What's up?" He asked not bothering to look at me. I slid my chair closer, "How's Bella this morning?"

"She's good." He answered meeting my eyes. He had an unanswered question in them, and I smiled touching his arm. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I could see his eyes glaring at me from across the house, Carlisle was holding my hand. "Tillie it is a dangerous situation already."

"I know but I have to."

Edward growled frustrated, "You could get hurt, you aren't invincible you know and I can't stand to see Carlisle go through that. It's hard enough when you leave." Carlisle looked at him raising a hand, "Edward enough."

"No, she is putting all of us at risk here. If something happens to her you will be devastated and that effects me and then it get's ugly. Not to mention that she is my friend and I don't want to see her hurt."

"I'm standing right here." I argued.

"Yes and you aren't listening." He argued back.

I pulled away from Carlisle, "What do you think he will do? I have a husband now, do you really think he will let go? He looked down and moved forward to rest his hand on my swollen stomach. "If you go Tillie he will hurt this child. You must stay. Edward and I will handle it."

He cupped my face in his hands, "I want you to be happy, and you are. I won't let him interfere with that."

Edward sat roughly on the chair, "Tillie you are so irritatingly hardheaded."

"Yes, but you wouldn't have me any other way."

He smiled suddenly, "You're right. I wouldn't."

I felt his hands around me before I hit the floor. When I could focus I saw his face and knew he had seen everything I had. He raised an eyebrow, "You could have just asked silly."

"Couldn't you read my mind my little clairvoyant?"

He groaned sitting me back on my chair, "You weren't thinking about it. Probably trying to throw me off, that is never good." He teased and winked.

"You were her friend?" I asked knowingly. He nodded. I bit my lip, "So when you pushed Jasper to question me you knew?"

"No, I knew you favored her. Your last name isn't the same and I had no idea about her family tree. We've been gone a while."

"You asked about the necklace and you knew the answer."

"I needed to find out what you knew. I also needed to push Jasper into making his move. It was inevitable but he is hard headed and Alice said we needed to hurry. Demetrius is no newborn and he can be quite the problem for you."

"Is he still around?" I asked curious.

"No, but he will be back."

I focused on Edward's face and could see them fighting, it was not something I ever wanted to see in person. Edward touched my arm, "Stop, don't push it. This is not the place for you to do this. People may start questioning you if you keep passing out."

"I didn't pass out."

"Yeah ok, fall, slip, trip whatever it still happened." He said with a sarcastic voice. I was thinking how irritating he was when he raised an eyebrow at me knowingly.

Grrr he is just…! I want to smack him! I turned my back to him but could still hear him laughing. Walking out of class I felt a hand on my back and turned, "Le, hey."

"Hey my precious, long time no see. I see Jasper is taking up quite a bit of your free time."

"Hey, I called you and left a message." I replied back defending myself.

"Yes, I had a date." He said with an oh so innocent look. I gasped, "Really, who do tell." He laughed, "Ah, his name is Omar and he's in college."

"Omar? Going for the older man huh?" I teased. He grinned widely, "Honey there is something to be said for experience." I totally understand, I mean let's not discuss how much older Jasper is than me. I saw a picture of Le and a handsome brunette flash in my head.

"Hey I thought you liked blondes?" I asked without thought. He frowned, "I do." He then had a very interesting look, "How did you know Omar isn't blonde?"

"I just…I mean Omar really how can he be blonde right?" I hoped that worked. He tilted his head a little but seemed to accept my answer. I saw my handsome vampire talking with Emmett and kissed Le's cheek, "See you later handsome."

"Ok lusciousness."

Jasper turned kissing me just as I walked up. Darn, you know I would never be able to sneak up on him. Rosalie approached glancing at me briefly then taking Emmet's hand in hers. I could tell she didn't get the whole thing. She didn't exactly look disapproving, more like she didn't understand.

Jasper pulled me in front of him as he continued talking to Emmett. I suddenly felt a blinding headache coming on and shook my head trying to clear it. I guess Jazz must have felt it because he kissed my ear, "You ok darlin'?

"I can't…" I didn't finish before I had another vision.

I could see Demetrius holding him up by his neck. "You will never have her Jasper, I will tear you limb from limb." I couldn't see what happened from there as my mind flashed to body parts being thrown carelessly on a fire. I couldn't see who was throwing them or who was there. He grabbed me as my knees went weak. Edward was there in a heartbeat.

"We need to get her home."

Jasper looked at him concerned, "What is it?"

"She saw something, let's go."

He knew Edward probably saw what she did and there was a look of concern on his face. Jasper nodded lifting her and carrying her to the office. Carlisle had already called to check them out. It was nice having a supportive family.

"Jasper."

"Shhh darlin' relax. I'm taking you to my house ok?"

"Why are they so intense? Why can't I control them?" I asked burying my face in his chest. He sighed, "I don't know baby, I just don't know. Maybe Alice can help."

Arriving home he carried me to his room and lay beside me until I slept. Placing a gentle kiss on my cheek he headed down stairs. Edward looked concerned, "Is she ok?"

"Sleeping, Carlisle why are they so frequent?"

"I don't know, Alice do you?"

She shrugged, "She is new at it. Mine were intense at first, it got better with time. She just has to adjust how she reacts to it. It's not normal and people will think she is different if she can't learn to handle it better."

Jasper nodded, "What did she see?" He looked to Edward who still looked worried, "She saw you and Demetrius fighting, it wasn't clear who won or lost but it was enough to scare her.

"Then he is going to make a move." Jasper said sitting down, "We must be ready. I won't let him hurt her."

Carlisle nodded, "Yes, it would seem a few phone calls are in order to check up on our old friend. Edward, could she see the location or time?"

"No, it wasn't clear."

"Alice?" Carlisle asked. She shook her head no, "I have nothing yet."

"Ok, Jasper stay with her, she will need you. The rest of us will get started and see what we can find out."

Esme smiled at him, "I have some soup when she wakes. I figured she might be hungry." He smiled in thanks and went back to his room. Slipping in beside me he tried not to wake me but I felt his presence and turned to lie on his chest. This was quickly becoming a habit and one I did not intend to break.

I know this is a little different than my usual stories, but I have to have fun sometime right? :)