Previously…

"I suppose since you are expending so much energy I'll have to eat more now?"

I giggled stretching lazily. I was tired and I just wanted to curl up against him and relax. The seduction from before was forgotten and to be honest I was glad. Although I love being with him, just being in his arms is always more than enough. He is always enough. He pulled the blanket around us and pulled me into his side where I was happy to curl up.

I knew we wouldn't have long before this would be over and I didn't want to waste a moment of it. Snuggling close I closed my eyes and stayed that way until I heard the sounds of footsteps and knew it was time for us to be parted again.

He met my eyes.

"I'll be waiting for you."

I smiled knowingly and watched as he left. Edward sat beside me watching him as well in silence then looked toward me.

"Are you going to be ok?"

I sat up.

"I have little choice. Tille trusted I could do this, and I will do this and then move on."

He smiled.

"That's my girl." He helped me up walking me to the table and strapping me back in. I inhaled deeply watching Carlisle as he hooked me up to the monitors.

"Dad?" I asked then.

"Yes?" He answered but never stopped what he was doing.

"If they find me, and they do what Alice saw. Will I heal?"

He stopped and met my eyes. His face looked horrified then he looked at Edward.

"She wanted to know, I can't stop her from looking." He explained.

Carlisle sighed sitting in his chair and placing his head in his hands. I could tell he was upset. I wanted to comfort him, but I couldn't. He seemed like such a sweet man. I decided it was probably best to just ask again.

"Will I heal?"

He looked back at me.

"It would depend on the amount of damage. You would probably scar depending on the severity and from what I have been told…" He trailed off looking at Edwards face then continued.

"You would scar Arelise, I don't know how bad. I can certainly do my best to heal what I can, but that kind of damage is…hard to repair."

"Kind of like going through a meat grinder." I teased.

He didn't laugh and I smiled at him.

"Hey, it's all right. I'd rather deal with it you know. I can handle it."

Edward smirked.

"You know Carlisle she is right, she can. Tillie knew what she was doing."

"It doesn't make this any easier." He growled going back to the task at hand. Edward leaned his elbows next to me watching Carlisle.

"No, it doesn't. Here is the thing we have all taken our share or bumps and bruises. We have all gotten hurt. I don't want to see it happen either, there is a reason for everything and I don't know what it is or why I feel this way….just something is telling me this is supposed to happen."

Carlisle jerked up angry.

"My daughter is not supposed to be butchered like some animal!"

Edward sat up sternly.

"That is not what I meant. Something will happen there. Something is supposed to happen there. Alice even felt it she couldn't see it, but she knew it was coming."

"What do you think is going to happen?" He asked raising an eyebrow?"

Edward looked down at me and sighed.

"I don't know, but she won't be as vulnerable as we think and I have a feeling the Vulturi are in for a surprise."

Carlisle sighed turning back to grab his list.

"That may be but she still must be prepared. Let's keep going."

I felt like I was in another world. The pain never stopped and if it wasn't one kind it was another, I don't care if it was in my mind or not after a few hours I just wanted it all to stop. I just wanted Jasper. I needed him and I was so tired of not having him by my side. It would make this whole thing so much easier. The thought of being alone in this whole mess was leaving me with little hope and I didn't like the feeling.

We were on day 4 without stopping. I suppose it was a good thing they were vampires because otherwise they would have given up long ago. Edward had asked Carlisle to give me a break a while ago, he said this wasn't going to work if I was exhausted but Carlisle ignored him saying the Vulturi would not be giving me a break.

I had finally had enough, my body was breaking and I wanted to stop. The pain seared through my system and I screamed louder than I ever have in my life. I could hear Edward drop the glass he was holding nearby in shock. I had never made much noise this entire time. I remained quiet and tried to fight internally.

I heard a chair screech across the floor.

"Carlisle turn it off now!" I heard Edward yell and I could feel his cool hand on my forehead. The machine was off and the pain stopped. I inhaled deeply and quickly trying to calm myself. Edward was whispering to me and then I heard the door breaking open and I knew the growl I heard coming towards me.

"Jasper, Jasper wait man relax, she's fine." Emmett pleaded attempting to hold Jasper back with little success.

I turned seeing my angel looking at me with fear in his eyes. I gasped.

"Jasper."

He struggled harder and Emmett groaned.

"Edward, help me here."

Edward approached him calmly and rested his hand on his shoulder. He was met with a low growl.

"Jasper let me get her loose ok. Are you listening to me? Look at me."

I watched as Jasper looked up at Edward, his eyes pitch black. He was furious. Edward focused on him calmly as he spoke.

"We aren't going to hurt her Jasper. I just need to untie her ok? Relax."

Jasper seemed to accept his answer and stopped struggling in Emmett's large arms. I didn't realize Jasper would be such a challenge for Emmett, but obviously he was. Edward slowly released me and stroked my forehead.

"Are you ok?"

"I think so."

He sighed, a sad look in his eyes.

"I am sorry."

I tried to smile, "He's worried. It's ok. I know he is trying to do what he thinks is best."

He helped me up and Jasper was immediately at my side. His arms around me protectively, he kissed my head lifting my face to see my eyes and frowned.

"I don't like it when you get so hungry love."

I shrugged," All part of the process I guess."

He lifted me in his arms and turned to Carlisle.

"I'm taking her to our room to feed and rest." Carlisle nodded to him and we were up the stairs within seconds. I found myself on our large comfortable bed and watched as he removed his shirt tossing it aside.

"I know you are exhausted, but you must eat."

"Can't I eat after I rest a while?" I was hungry and he smelled so good, but I couldn't even lift myself. He seemed to know my thoughts and straddled me lifting my head in his strong hands.

"You're weak because you haven't eaten."

He lifted my head to his neck and held it there where his scent was overwhelming. I inhaled deeply and groaned. God he smelled so good. I could feel my stomach grumbling. He released one side of my head and gripped my waist pulling me fully against him.

"I know you want it Gabby, take it. I'm yours."

His voice always sounded so raw and sexual even when he wasn't trying. I didn't need to be told twice, licking my dry lips I bit quickly. I was surprised when he didn't flinch, but only held me closer moaning my name. I guess he missed me too. It could be that or it could be the fact that I noticed his hand was clinching my waist tightly and his breathing was becoming more labored and I know he was enjoying this little endeavor.

It was almost a week since we had been together so I am sure he was missing me. I was missing him that's for sure. Just him holding me, kissing me and rocking me while we watched the stars sparkle. I reached up gripping his hair and sucking harder as my thoughts got lost in the two of us.

I wanted nothing more than to stay beside him in this bed forever. In his arms and wrapped in his love. It was the perfect place to be. It was then I realized I had turned him and had him pinned to the bed. He didn't fight me, but remained submissive allowing me to continue feeding.

I released his neck leaning up to see his face. He is like my own personal angel, but he is an angel of sin. He smiles and that perfect dimple shows and I want to do anything he says. He reached up grabbing my hair and pulling me closer to him.

"I've missed you." He said thickly, his voice like velvet. I could feel his heavy breathing on my cheek.

"I missed you too." I tried to reposition myself on his waist but there wasn't far I could go. He was holding me where he wanted me. I watched as the golden flecks danced in his dark orbs. He pulled my lips to his coaxing them open with his tongue, then slowly and intimately he began a dance with mine.

I could feel a fire begin to consume me. I knew where we were headed and I had no plans on stopping. His cool fingers made a soft trail down my arms to the bottom of my shirt where he toyed with the hem. Breaking the kiss he reached up with one hand and caressed my cheek.

"I want to love you Gabby."

The sound of his voice, the look in his eyes, there are no words for how sexy this man is. I reached down pulling my shirt over my head and tossing it aside.

"I want you to love me." I said back before his lips met mine.

I don't know how long we were alone together in that room. We took a long relaxing bath, made love several more times and I hunted with him. Well….he hunted and I watched then fed from him. It all works out in the end. It's nice because I don't leave him scarred. I guess because I am not attacking him.

If you don't know I feed from him then you wouldn't guess it. It was nice to get things back into a somewhat normal routine. I knew it wouldn't be for long and so I felt like I should take advantage of it while I could. Jasper was lying on the floor reading a book when I leaned up from his stomach where I had been laying.

"Jasper?"

"Hmm?"

"Would you mind if I went for a walk?" I asked turning to see his face. He met my eyes curious.

"Probably not a good idea right now, I mean with things the way they are."

I shifted positions.

"We'll what if I stay close? I mean I won't go far, you'd hear me if anything was wrong. We're connected that way."

He knew I was right. If anything was wrong he usually knew before anyone. He sighed stroking my cheek.

"Why the sudden urge for a walk love? If you wait a while I can go with you?"

I bit my lip looking back out the window at the way the leaves blew and stood pacing.

"No, I need to go now." I hoped he couldn't tell something was calling me. He was usually in tune to that.

He set the book down and stood.

"All right Arelise."

I grabbed my shoes as he leaned on the bed frame with his arms crossed. As I went to pass he blocked my way.

"I am curious." He lifted my chin. "Why you didn't correct me when I called you by your given name."

I had no answer when he backed me to the door his arms on both sides of my head.

"What are you hiding Gabby?" He asked with a knowing look. I looked away only to have him turn my face back to see his.

"I asked you a question." He repeated.

"I don't know." I answered honestly.

He raised an eyebrow.

I nodded.

"I am serious, it is calling to me. I don't know why. I have to go. I need to go." I felt like such a fool but it was something that I knew I was supposed to do.

He looked deep into my eyes and leaned closer.

"Do I call to you?"

I moaned closing my eyes. If he was trying to distract me it was working.

"Not a fair question, you call to me every time I think of you. When you are near, and when you are not. Your eyes, your smile, your dimple, the way you touch me, the way you speak. Your voice…I trailed off as I felt him lean closer even though my eyes remained closed.

"What else?" He asked.

I swallowed hard.

"The way you look at me, the love I see in your eyes. The way you love me….your……" I groaned shaking my head but he simple moved closer.

"My what love? I didn't catch the last part?"

"Your smell." I said reluctantly.

He chuckled.

"You say it as if it is a bad thing, I am glad you are attracted to my smell."

I opened my eyes looking at the floor.

"Easy for you to say, all of your family eats animals. I am a freak that tries to eat you and can't eat anything else."

He lifted my chin looking deeply into my eyes as his nose pressed against mine.

"My beautiful Gabby, you are not a freak. It is the most intimate of acts to feed from another. I am honored that you chose me. You should not be ashamed of that. I love you and I like being close to you. It makes me feel that much closer to you."

I looked at him then.

"Really?"

He smiled.

"You have no idea the intense feelings that flow through my body when you are feeding from me."

"What's it feel like?" I asked curious.

He stroked my face.

"It's like you are taking my life into you, it feels so intimate. I can't explain."

I bit my lip as he ran his hand through my hair lovingly. I was suddenly ignoring the call and thinking of him which I think was his goal all along.

"Jasper?"

He met my eyes.

"Yes love?"

"Would you…." I bit my lip then looked down trying to think of how to say it. I wanted to feel what he felt. I wanted to know how he felt when I bit him. What were the emotions that overcame him and why were they so strong. Was it really that overwhelming?

I felt his nose at my jaw gently as it made a trail to my neck. He moaned kissing it softly.

"Do you want me to show you?" He asked.

I was frightened, but I knew he would never hurt me. I felt him hold my arms and I gripped his biceps.

"Yes."

His lips kissed bellow my ear.

"I love you so much, we should move locations."

I didn't know why but if he said so then who am I to argue? I allowed him to lead me to the bed. He didn't set me down but he did press my knees against it. I still gripped his biceps nervously. He grinned and his cute little dimple showed.

"Relax love, you're already a vampire. Now let me show you passion."

What the heck was that suppose to mean? Have we not had passion before? I didn't have time to finish the thought before his teeth were sinking into my flesh. I cried out gripping his biceps harder. I had to admit, that stung. I see now why he always flinched. Ouch!

It was only a moment and the pain was gone, I felt a faint sensation of pulling as he sucked the blood into his mouth and then an odd warmth filled me. Some sort of euphoria type of feeling began to emerge and I gasped gripping his shoulders as I lost my breath.

I see now why he moved me to the bed. He gripped my waist easing me back gently. I know now what he meant, the feeling is indescribable. It's warm and tempting, and erotic all rolled into one. I moaned arching my back into him. I couldn't help it, all I could think was I wanted more.

He groaned releasing my neck and meeting my eyes.

"Gabby." He gasped trying to control himself. I had him in a difficult situation feeding and temptation for Jasper are not a good thing. Well, in my case they could be a very good thing. It depends on how you look at it.

I ripped his shirt from his body without thought. He growled grabbing my hands and pinning them down as he looked at me with a disapproving look.

"Jasper, please." I begged.

"You see what I mean now?" He asked his face changing to a smirk. I arched again watching his face as he closed his eyes trying to control his breathing among other things.

"Jasper, don't make me beg." I tried again looking at him with pleading eyes.

He opened his eyes to meet mine. There was no mistaking that they were now black as coal. I smiled. Yes, my Jasper was ready to play. I felt him flip me onto my stomach roughly, and pull me back against him so his lips were to my ear. His body hard against mine.

"You sure you want to unleash me right now little girl?" He growled deeply.

I felt chill bumps just from the sound of his voice.

"I think I can handle you." I taunted back, though I might regret that statement later.

He laughed and slapped my rear causing me to jerk forward. I bet that left a red mark.

"You asked for it love. I just hope you are ready for it."

I turned to smile wickedly at him. I am ready for anything he throws at me. He is so sexy, my little naughty vampire.

Had a little fun with this chapter before things got all tense and stuff :)