I wrote this because I wanted to explore the inner conflictions within Bella when she is deciding between Edward and Jacob. I know you all know the answer already but still its nice to understand in you own way and I want to share that with you all. : -) R&R please! 3
Disclaimer: I'm still working on getting the rights for the Twilight saga but I haven't had luck so far. Yeah so anyway Twilight and all the rest belong to Stephanie Meyer/ the Queen Bee : -)
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Chapter 1
I had always wondered what my life would be like if mystical creatures didn't exist.
I would probably still live in Phoenix. I never would have met Edward. I never would have met Jacob, the pack, or the Cullens.
I wouldn't have met my other half-- my life, my lone reason for living.
Let's face it. My life would freaking SUCK! But now, I was forced to choose between my love and my best friend-- a stupid love triangle. I just wish that Edward hadn't left so Jacob wouldn't have become such an important person in my life.
I know that was a selfish thought but, things would be so much less complicated.
But I wanted them both! I wanted Jacob only as a friend but that apparently wasn't enough for him.
I was in love with Edward. There was no way around it. You cut one of our cords and we both die. They were criss crossed around each other and would always be. I loved Edward with all my heart and then some. He was the one I know I can't live without from experience.
I visibly winced at the thought of the time I burned in hell when Edward had left me. It still made my heart ache to think about it.
I thought back to the time I first met Edward. Even then, though I did not know it, I had fallen hard for him. And he fell with me.
God, I just wish they could get along so I could have them b-- NO! I would NOT be selfish!
If Jake wasn't a stupid werewolf and Edward wasn't a stupid vampire this would be a whole hell of a lot easier! Wasn't it just my luck that they would be NATURAL ENEMIES! I mean what the hell?
Oh, the irony.
I knew there was no way around it.
I was at the point of no return.
I loved Edward and I couldn't live without him.
The tears that had been threatening to overflow my eyes fell making trail marks down my face. I knew I loved Jake but I loved Edward more.
I would spend eternity with him.
I would have to let go of Jake.
I shut him in a drawer in the back of my mind and locked it tight.
I wiped the tears away and thought with confidence.
I would become a vampire.
Little did I know, this decision would endanger us all.
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Sorry team Jacob! I'm Edward all the way. I love him to much : -) anyway please review! They make me happy! Also I would appreciate it if you would also tell me your opinion! : -)
Until next time,
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