Previously...
Yeah, I know he likes it now. His hands are caressing my sides and I know where this is headed, especially when I hear him tearing off my nightgown. Hey! I liked that one too. He pulled his neck back from me and meets my eyes. His eyes are pitch black, I've seen them black before but I'm not quite sure if I've ever seen them this dark.
I open my mouth to speak but he doesn't give me time. His lips are on mine and no other words are spoken.
I lay on his chest just marveling at the beauty that is Jasper. I brushed back a long blonde curl to see a beautiful caramel eye. He is so beautiful...I can't imagine my life without him. If I looked back a year ago I would never have imagined my life with him and now look at me. I am laying here in his arms carrying his child.
So much has changed so fast. I don't know what my family at home must think. I can't worry with that right now. Carlisle says he has been taking care of it and I am sure he has worked something out. They are safe and that is all I can ask for. My friends though I miss them are not my main focus as of late. I've been so wrapped up in my current affairs.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked stroking my cheek. I knew he could probably feel my inner turmoil.
"How quickly life has changed for me." I answered watching his reaction. He toyed with a strand of my long hair focusing on it.
"Do you regret it?"
"No." I said in an instant. "I could never regret you."
He met my eyes.
"Yet, you didn't like vampires." He clarified knowing it to be true.
I sighed running my finger in a pattern over his toned chest. I thought of how to what to say and just how to say it.
"No, and you know why. It seems I was misguided and in the end I find myself a vampire. I also find myself in love with one."
He was silent a moment then looked off in the distance.
"I never expected to fall in love with you either. I was just supposed to find out information, but the more I found the more I wanted to know. You called to me. I found I enjoyed teasing you. It was so easy to feel things with you. I couldn't believe I was falling for a human, not me. It was shocking enough when Edward did it."
I reached up running my fingers across his lips.
"Do you regret it?"
He looked at me.
"No. I knew once I looked into your eyes there was no turning back for me."
I smiled as he pulled me closer to kiss me softly.
"I knew you'd be the woman to walk beside me." He whispered feather light against my lips. "I did not expect our child, but it is a gift."
"How will he eat do you think? What will he eat?" I asked in wonder.
He chuckled, "I suppose we'll find out, trial and error. Though I have a hunch probably he can survive on both."
I knew we would be striking out on a new adventure with this baby. I was already a new species and this baby would be another. I buried my face in his neck for a moment inhaling his wonderful scent. God he smelt so good, I missed his smell. I didn't even think about it before I sunk my teeth into him.
He wasn't prepared and jumped gripping the bed as his breathing quickened. I had not meant to startle him. He just smelt so good. He relaxed after a moment and moved his hands to my waist pulling me fully on him and turning his head to allow me better access. He knew I would feed more often with the baby but I think this snuck up on both of us.
I felt his hands run up my back and burry themselves in my hair.
"Gabby." He moaned breathily my only reply was to suck harder. He gasped one hand falling to the bed to grip. I could hear the sheets tearing under his fingers. He was panting but he didn't pull me away.
"Gabby, you must stop." He pleaded.
It took me a minute to realize what he said and as soon as I did I pulled away. His eyes were pitch black, I gripped his face in my hands.
"Jasper, I'm sorry."
I ran my thumbs over the now present dark purple rings under his eyes. A sure sign he needed to feed. His chest was heaving but he didn't move. I felt terrible for doing this to him. I had fed on him how many times? He had not been out once he had to be starving. He brushed my hair over my shoulder.
"Stop love, it's all right. I'll go now."
We both sat up and he wrapped his arms around me. I buried my face in his chest trying to push the guilt away. I knew he could feel it but I just couldn't make it stop. He lifted my chin and looked deeply into my eyes.
"Darlin' you're feeding two. I should have fed but I didn't, it was my fault don't feel guilty."
His lips descended on mine and now I was the one lost and gripping the bed. I didn't want to grab him because it would be too easy to try and make him stay. He just brought out so much passion in me. I forgot one thing my emotion rolling into his emotions only makes his stronger.
I felt him pushing me back and gasped as his lips fell to my neck.
"I can't leave yet." He said against my skin.
"Jasper, you need to feed." I reminded him.
He met my eyes.
"I need to love you it's too intense." He argued kissing me again. I decided then I would have to do something I really didn't want to. I pushed him hard and he went flying to the other side of the bed.
"What the...?" He looked confused.
I stood grabbing my clothes.
"I'm sorry. I know I feel it too but you must feed. I'll try not to send off so much emotion, please feed."
I tried to dress and not look at him. I didn't want to see him until he was dressed. I was too afraid of what would happen if I did. I turned and he was buttoning his shirt he smiled sadly and I walked over stroking his cheek.
"Our lust gets the better of us. You must be strong..." I tilted my head to the window.
He sighed kissing my head.
"I won't be long." He whispered.
"Jasper, take your time. Emmett is waiting on you anyway." I said running my hand down his chest and watching as he opened the window. He smiled when he looked down and saw Emmett. He glanced one last time at me before he disappeared. I sighed heading to where the others were. Carlisle smiled when he saw me.
"You look so much better, how do you feel?"
"I feel strong." He touched my forehead and then my stomach softly.
"I'm glad. I was worried. I made a very bad decision and it could have been so much worse." I felt the pain he held, I saw it in his eyes and smiled taking his hand.
"You did what you thought was necessary to keep us safe. You did what any good father would and I can't thank you enough for trying. So it didn't work out so well, you tried. I love you for that."
He smiled pulling me into his arms. I can't explain how odd it is but I felt so safe and so fulfilled in his arms. He kissed my head.
"Alice has an idea possibly you can use your powers to hide Jasper."
I sat down on the arm on Rose's chair.
"Ok, so how does this work?"
Alice turned.
"Well, you have a protective shield. Bella has one that she can use to shield people, yours is similar the thing is it's genetic. It's in your blood. Your blood is the key and I think if you allow Jasper to drink enough blood from you it could mutate his cells enough to make him be shielded to."
I raised an eyebrow.
"You really think it could be that simple?"
She shrugged, "Edward did the reading. I just had the vision, I think it will work. You have to remember a lot of your ties with Jasper are blood ties. You do have powers and they are strong ones they can be used to protect, but your shield was something genetic Tillie threw in I guess knowing what was to come for you and the baby's protection."
"So I couldn't be traced."
Edward slipped his arms around Bella from behind.
"It was a brilliant idea if you think about it. It's something you can't take away or lose and you never even knew you had it. The child will be born with it."
"How much will he need to take?" I asked curious.
They all looked uncertain.
"I don't know the book wasn't specific, however, we do know we have to leave you and the baby enough to survive. I can't imagine it would be a vast amount but more than he would normal take." Edward said then. Everyone looked at him curious and he shrugged innocently.
"What I mean is if he were to take blood from her then he would take more than normal." He looked down at Bella who was smirking at him and frowned.
"What?" He groaned trying to avoid everyone's eyes.
Rose giggled.
"Someone been reading someone else's thoughts again and seeing things they shouldn't?" She teased.
"Oh give it a rest Rose." He snapped.
They all chuckled as Jasper and Emmett came through the back door. I turned to him, he looked so much better than before when he had left. He embraced me and looked around the room.
"Why does everyone seem to be staring?"
"They seem to think they found the way to make you unable to be detected, I not sure you will like it." I said gently, watching his eyes carefully before proceeding. He shrugged.
"So what is it, it can't be that bad." He responded.
I looked down and Carlisle spoke. He began to panic and I could feel it getting worse.
"It's in her blood, genetic. You would have to drink enough of her blood to hopefully mutate your system. If it works and Alice has seen it will, then they won't be able to detect you either. It gives you all an advantage to live in peace I think that was what Tillie wanted."
Jasper looked at me cautiously.
"What about the baby?"
I smiled, "He'll be fine he is strong."
Carlisle spoke again, "Jasper once you have fed you can't immediately feed her. You must give the blood time to do its job."
"How long? I'm draining her, she will need substance." He asked looking upset.
Alice looked away a moment and shook her head.
"I can't tell."
Carlisle nodded thinking.
"So we prepare, we store some of your blood for her. It's all we can do." He said suddenly.
The next few hours were a blur of Carlisle getting the things he needed and nervous energy. I didn't know how Jasper would react to this change. I'm sure it would be fine after all he had a little of my blood before and it was no problem. I was alone in a dark corner looking out at the vast wilderness when I felt him approach.
"We don't have to do this." He said as he slid beside me.
I smiled at him.
"We do, it can stop them from finding us. It's important Tillie did it for a reason as she did all things."
He slid his hand on my thigh and rested his head against mine.
"I'm afraid of hurting the baby... of hurting you." His voice was laced with pain. I looked at him stroking his cheek.
"You feel us love, you feel what we feel and you will know when to stop."
"Will you know when it's enough?" He asked me.
"I don't know Jazz." I answered honestly.
I didn't know the answer to that question like so many others. I heard Carlisle announce he was ready and Jasper stood extending his hand. I reluctantly took it and followed him to where Carlisle was set up.
"How are you going to penetrate his skin?" I questioned knowing a needle wouldn't be strong enough. I felt his hand on my shoulder.
"I'm not you are."
I looked at him like he had lost his mind.
"You can't be serious! I can't do that. How can I...I can't...." I felt Jasper take my hand and calm run through me. I turned looking down at where he lay.
"Jasper...." I pleaded.
He nodded offering me a small smile of encouragement. Carlisle handed me the needle.
"You are the only one who can make this work. You must make bend it to your will Arelise, make the needle go in."
I knew I had the power to do certain things but I hadn't tried since we had practiced. I looked into Jasper's beautiful eyes and he nodded to Emmet to brace him. I hoped I didn't hurt him too bad it was my goal to make this as simple and painless as possible. I closed my eyes for a minute to focus. I had never had to do this outside of the basement.
I could hear Esme talking to Carlisle.
"Can she do this?" She questioned.
"She is incredible Esme. She is like nothing you've ever seen. Tillie wanted her to be able to protect herself and remain safe. She can bend things to her will, if she wants his skin to be penetrable it will be."
Emmett raised an eyebrow.
"No wonder they want her, she could do some damage."
Carlisle nodded. "Yes, but they don't know she has that ability and they must not find out."
I was nervous, this was Jasper and although I had done this many times to insignificant objects this was the love of my life. I felt hands slide down my arms and one around my hand. I opened my eyes to meet Edwards. He smiled.
"Let's do this, you have the ability and you won't hurt him."
Edward had not left me alone before and he would not now. I felt reassured and stronger knowing he believed in me and he knew that. He truly was a brother to me. I turned to Jasper and looked down at his beautiful face so trusting and full of love. I had one thought in my head to get this done.
I turned to Edward.
"You place the needle I'll take away the pain."
He raised an eyebrow but didn't question me as I handed him the needle and moved to the other side of Jasper. I stroked his cheek forcing him to look at me and smiled kissing his lips softly.
"I promise baby, no pain." I slid my hands around his face and smiled.
"Stick him Edward." I whispered my eyes never leaving Jaspers. He stayed focused on me even when Edward stuck the large needle in. His skin pliable as a human. Esme gasped.
"Amazing." Rose said moving closer to watch.
Carlisle began draining the blood and I continued to keep him calm. I looked at Emmett.
"You can let him go, he's fine."
He nodded and moved back. I looked back down and he was still starring at me with those big beautiful eyes. I smiled curling up against him.
"Do you hurt?" I asked softly.
"No." He said as he stroked my hair with his free hand.
I looked at his face.
"You're going to get weak, it is necessary when this is done you will feed from me. It will make the blood from me bind easier." I knew he didn't like to hear that but he didn't comment. I didn't think the blood binding to him would be much of a problem. I think it will be easier than Carlisle thinks. I think he already started the process a while ago and we just never completed it because we didn't go overboard.
I think it accounts for our stronger bond. I heard him moan and looked up he was starting to get tired. I looked at Carlisle and nodded and he stopped pulling the needle from his arm. The wound healed instantly. I stood and Edward quickly helped him up and to our room. I was glad for some privacy.
Edward laid him on our bed and stopped at my side.
"If you should need us."
I smiled.
"I know."
I wouldn't need them. Jasper would be able to control himself. I climbed onto the bed and lay back closing my eyes for a moment to gather my courage. I didn't have time to breathe before he was on me, so much for being weak. He ran his nose across my jaw.
"I love you Gabby so much."
"I love you too." I whispered caught off guard when he tossed my leg over his hip.
He inhaled deeply. I forgot just how sensual he can be. It just flows out of him naturally. He kissed down my jaw line to my ear then nipped at it tenderly. I couldn't help but arch and as soon as I did his hands were pinning my hips to the bed hissing.
God he is sexy.
"Gabby, I need to...." He ran his lips gently over my throat followed by his tongue.
I braced myself gripping his back for what I knew was coming. I felt him reach back taking my hands and pinning them beside my head on the bed. He likes the control thing. I tried to lift them but it did no good, he pushed into me and then I felt his teeth graze my skin lightly and knew it was time.
"Please." I begged.
It was all it took and he sank them all the way in. I cried out remembering the feeling of pleasure intermingled with pain. He held me down as I pushed up into him. No wonder he pinned me he knew all too well what my reaction would be. His emotions are pounding into me like a ton of bricks and that isn't helping.
He released me but only to rip my shirt and toss it aside. I closed my eyes wrapping my arms around his back. There are so many emotions that come along with this. It isn't unpleasant well... it isn't with Jasper but he is also an empath and he is throwing off his feelings left and right and I absorb them like a sponge.
His fingers were now gently massaging my ribs. I felt him suddenly still and his hand flutter across my skin to rest upon my abdomen. My breathing although unnecessary was labored beneath him. He was still sucking, but gently more calmly now at a relaxed pace. It was as if he were waiting for something. He released my neck kissing it softly.
"What's wrong?" I questioned.
He rose up on his elbow to look down at me.
"Nothing, it was time. I was making sure he was safe."
He rested his head on my chest and listened to my heartbeat. I smiled slipping my hand in his hair.
"It's so calming to me just listening to your heartbeats. Do you need me to get food?" He asked watching my face. I shook my head no and pulled him close to me.
"Do you feel weak?" He asked me then. I shook my head again smiling.
"I'm fine." I commented pushing him up and rolling on my side to face him.
He ran his finger midline down my chest and abdomen.
"I took a lot of blood darlin'" He moved closer lifting my jaw to look at my eyes.
"You look ok for now." He said almost unsure.
I pushed his hand away tired of being analyzed.
"Tell me Jazz how did that blood make you feel?" I asked knowing what emotions he was putting out before. His face changed and he looked down.
"It's a nice feeling, warm."
I shook my head.
"Nothing else, no emotion, no......say heat or anything..." I question tapping my finger on his chest.
He met my eyes at this.
"Are you asking if it turned me on?"
I shrugged, "I could be."
He grinned running his thumb over my bottom lip.
"You tell me, you felt what I did." He teased.
I grabbed his shirt pulling his face to me.
"I felt heat, fire, passion, lots of desire, lust, raw emotion."
He purred and sounded almost like a big tiger.
"Yes, to all of the above, but you left out sensual, longing, tenderness and undying love."
"I guess I did." I agreed.
He kissed me gently covering us with the covers.
"Rest love."
I curled into his arms and laid my head on his shoulder. I loved being close to him and in the safety of his arms, the thing was with the baby, I wasn't quite so in control of my more animalistic nature. I jerked away from him and was suddenly across the room.
He sat up.
"Are you ok?" He was testing the environment and he nodded.
"Ah, I'll get Carlisle. You get dressed."
He disappeared and I grabbed a shirt from the closet. I opened the window to grab some fresh air the room smelled too much like him. Carlisle walked in and I turned.
"I brought you some dinner."
I guess you could put it that way. At least it was from Jasper in a way. He sat on the nearby chair and smiled at me offering me the glass.
"I told Jasper to stay downstairs for a while." He said as I walked towards him.
He was right in doing so. I wanted him too badly and it was hard right now to control myself. If baby wanted it, baby got it. I drank the liquid quickly and handed the glass back to him. He raised an eyebrow.
"Would you like more?"
I shook my head no.
He stood sighing and pulled me close.
"You aren't weak to need him right now. The baby wants certain things and so do you. Desires and needs intertwine it's ok to have that." He tried to reason with me.
"It makes me feel weak." I said looking down.
He chuckled lifting my chin.
"Then I must be weak because I needed Tillie an awful lot."
I smiled at him. He stroked my cheek and kissed my forehead.
"You are so much like her. It's hard sometimes to look at you, painful because of memories you bring. It's also wonderful because of the same."
My father was so honest. I bit my lip and nodded in understanding, I was a double edged sword so to speak. He was so handsome. I can see why my granny fell for him, Intelligent and articulate he was certainly able to match her in the field of medicine not that hers was ever legal by any means or considered normal.
Still, she was a good woman with a good heart. I sat on the window seat and he knelt beside me.
"Gabby, we must talk. If this works you and Jasper will be safe but this will not keep them from being able to track us."
"What are you saying?" I asked knowing but not wanting to admit it.
He smiled sadly.
"We will have to separate for a while."
"No." I stood facing away from him.
"How can you ask that of me? You are my family and I just found you."
I felt his hands on my shoulders.
"It is safer for you that way. We will keep in touch and in time be together again but for a while we must separate."
I turned.
"You can't do this. Please!" I begged.
He cupped my face in his hands.
"Arelise you are my daughter. I love you and I want you safe this is only temporary and it will not be forever. They are too close and you need to be away from us for now. I wish things were different but they aren't. It has to be this way for now."
The door opened and Alice and Edward were standing there. Edward spoke first.
"Alice saw then Vulturi here in a few hours, we had left but it doesn't give us much time. We must split up it's not us they are after so they will follow us until they realize she isn't with us. Alice said that will give us a few weeks, possibly months."
I looked at Carlisle worried. He looked down at me and tossed me a bag.
"Get your things you and Jasper are heading out."
I packed quickly because Jasper had not yet unpacked. I met them downstairs. Edward tossed Jasper a set of keys.
"Be safe, we'll keep in contact. I don't want to know where you are in case Aro catches up with us. I need you to block us, even Alice, Gabby unless you need us ok?"
"I don't like to..." He grabbed my face.
"He can read what I see Gabby, block us do you understand me. As long as we can't see you two, we know you are safe."
It broke my heart to do this but I did as he asked. It was fairly easy for me to block someone it took a little more concentration to keep Jasper blocked. With time I would do it without thinking about it. Alice looked at me a minute and smiled.
"Good."
I hated to leave them all and hugged everyone especially my father reluctantly letting go. He stroked my cheek.
"We'll be together soon, I promise." He turned to Jasper. "Keep her safe."
Jasper nodded and took my hand. I followed him out as everyone loaded into their cars. We approached some sort of silver sports car, it looked fast and I assumed it was. It had the tinted windows that all of the Cullen's vehicles had. I got in the passengers side and he followed starting the car and quickly hitting the road. I was silent for a long time.
"Jazz where are we going?"
He sighed, "I don't know love, wherever you want to."
He reached over and took my hand. I met his eyes and smiled.
"Would you think I was crazy if I said I've always wanted to visit India?"
He chuckled.
"Not at all, actually in theory it's similar to some of what Tillie practiced and believed. They don't use traditional medications. They believe a little differently I think it would be a nice place to visit. I've studied about it many times but never been I think it's time."
I smiled at him. Who would have thought he would have been interested in India? I thought about the sun and frowned.
"Jazz the sun."
"Yes, it can be worked around. They wear a lot of clothes in India." He winked and I giggled.
I guess we are going to India.