Mended Chapter 13: Daddy's HandsI Miss You, a twilight fanfic

"We are here today to mourn for a loved one who has passed on. Though we are all sad, and tears might fill our eyes, we must keep in mind that he is in Heaven now. He's home. And we must not dwell on the bad things in life that happened with Charlie Swan, but the good times that passed, the times we will all cherish in our hearts for the rest of our lives.

"Charlie was beloved son, father, and, at one time, a husband. He was also a friend to a lot of people, and everyone of those people will miss him dearly. I am one of those people, fore Charlie Swan was one that came to this church, and he was also a very dear friend of mine. I will miss him so very much. Let us pray for the one we have lost.

"Dear God in Heaven, Charlie Swan was a good friend and family member to everyone gathered in your house on this sad day. Please give us a sign, let us know that he is with you. Thank you for giving all of us a life that was so bright to cherish with all of our hearts. We will miss him, but we know in our hearts that he is finally home. May he rest in peace. And Lord, please give all of these fine people peace in their hearts in knowing that Charlie is with you now, and that he is perfectly fine and is watching over us at this moment. Amen."

"Amen." I repeated, lifting my head and resting it on Edward's shoulder.

"Bella, would you like to come up and sing something for your father? Say a few words?" the preacher asked me.

I nodded and stood, Edward and Rosalie going to the two pianos on stage as I went up to sing something for my father. I sang "You Can Let Go", the song I had sang Charlie in the hospital right before he passed away. But I had written another one to sing at the funeral along with that one.

"This song is called 'Daddy's Hands'. It's mainly about how I will never forget my father, and one thing that I will remember most about him was his hands."

"I remember Daddy's hands,
Folded silently in prayer,
And reaching out to hold me when I had a nightmare,
You could read quite a story in the calluses and lines,
Years of work and worry hand left their mark behind.

"I remember Daddy's hands,
How they held my Mama tight,
And patted my back for something done right,
There are things that I've forgotten that I loved about the man,
But I'll always remember the love in Daddy's hands.

"Daddy's hands,
Were soft and kind when I was crying,
Daddy's hands,
Were hard as steel when I'd done wrong,
Daddy's hands weren't always gentle,
But I've come to understand,
There was always love in Daddy's Hands.

"I remember Daddy's hands,
Working till they bled,
Sacrificed unselfishly just to keep us all fed,
If I could do things over,
I'd live my life again,
And never take for granted,
The love in Daddy's hands.

"Daddy's hands,
Were soft and kind when I was crying,
Daddy's hands,
Were hard as steel when I'd wrong.
Daddy's hands weren't always gentle,
But I've come to understand,
There was always love,
In Daddy's hands.

Everyone clapped when I was finished, and I could see tears in almost everyone's eyes, that is except for the Cullens, but that was because we vampires couldn't cry. Renesme was crying though.

"Renesme, why don't you come on up here and sing something for Grandpa?"

She ran up to me and told me what she was going to sing, one of the songs she had written and one that I had written. I told Edward and Rose the ones she would sing. I was standing on the stage with her and I handed her the microphone. She started singing "When You're Broken." It was the song that had started all this, the song that had brought Edward and I back together, the song that Charlie loved so much to hear me sing.

Renesme's voice, despite her young age, sounded exactly like mine when I was human.

"Wake up to a sunny day,
Not a cloud up in the sky,
And then it starts to rain.
My defenses hit the ground and they shatter all around,
So broken and exposed,
But I found strength in the struggle,
Face to face with my troubles.

"When you're broken,
In a million little pieces,
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore,
Every tear falls down for a reason,
Don't you stop believing in yourself,
When you're broken.

"Little girl don't be so blue,
I know what you're going through,
Don't let it beat you up.
Hitting walls and getting scars,
Only makes you who you are,
Only makes you who you are.
No matter how much your heart is aching,
There is beauty in the breaking.
Yeah...

"When you're broken,
In a million little pieces,
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore,
Every tear falls down for a reason,
Don't you stop believing in yourself,
When you're broken.

"Better days are gonna find you once again,
Every piece will find it's place,
When you're broken,
When you're broken,
Mmmm mmmmm,

"When you're broken,
In a million little pieces,
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore,
Every tear falls down for a reason,
Don't you stop believing in yourself,
When you're broken.

"Oh, when you're broken,
When you're broken,
When you're broken."

Everyone clapped as Renesme started singing another song. This one was called "I Miss You." She had written this one by herself.

"Shalalalala
Shalalalala,

"You used to call me your angel,
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven,
You'd hold me close in your arms,
I loved the way felt so strong,
I never wanted you to leave,
I wanted you to stay here holding me.

"I miss you,
I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear every once in a while,
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you,
Shalalalala,
I miss you.

"You used to call me your dreamer,
And now I'm living out my dream,
Oh, how I wish you could see everything that's happening to me,
I'm thinking back on the past,
It's true that time is flying by too fast.

"I know you're in a better place,
Yeah,
But I wish that I could see your face,
Oh,
I know you're where you need to be,
Even though it's not here with me,

"I miss you, Grandpa." Renesme said into the microphone after her song was finished, tears filling her eyes. I took the microphone from her and put it back on the stand. I picked Renesme up and we returned to our seats, as did Rose and Edward. We sat through the rest of the service, and, as it was a normal drizzly day in Forks, all the vampires present were able to go outside to the burial.

"Today, we bury a beloved person, a person that we have all come to love, and others that have loved him their whole lives. We'll miss you Charlie. Rest in peace." The preacher said as they put the casket in the ground. Everyone left soon after that. Edward, Renesme, and I went to Charlie's house, my old home, and just...sat there. There was nothing else I wanted to do, I didn't want to gather my things from my room, I didn't want to search through anything in the house. I didn't even want to move too much around the house, I wanted everythig to stay as it was at this moment. The house looked like it was waiting for Charlie to return from a normal hard day at work as the police cheif of Forks, Washington, and I knew that part of me hoped that would come true; part of me hoped that my father would come through the door any minute now, and greet Edward, Renesme, and I like he always did when we popped in for an unexpected visit. But the other, more realistic part of me, the part that actually knew what was happening, knew that that would never happen, not again.

I didn't linger too much in the house, and I could tell that it was making Renesme edgy and sad to be here, knowing that her grandpa would never be here to welcome her like he did. We left and went to the Cullen house, and that's where we stayed, trying to get back to our lives, trying to figure out what we would do after this. No one seemed able to grasp exactly what had happened. I mean, we all knew that this would happen one day, Charlie was human, he would die like all humans did, but it seemed too soon. But that's how it felt every time someone died, I knew that from experience. My grandmother had died a while ago, and I hadn't been able to grasp that fact either.

But I knew, all of us did, that we would get through this, we would never fully get over it, we would never forget Charlie, but we would eventually get through it.